only do not say love

The neon lights beside the street are gorgeous and bright, but they still can't illuminate the darkness.

Unknowingly, Bai Molin had already walked near the school. The episode just now calmed down a lot.

Standing in front of the school gate, Bai Molin did not go in for a long time. His dignity told him that he could not go back, but where else could he go besides here?Is the only residence going to disappear?

Bai Molin turned around, but saw a familiar figure standing at the door of "Zhanlan" not far away.Seeing himself looking over, Mingxuan responded with a gentle smile habitually.It seems that every time I meet him, I feel irritable.

Bai Molin walked over and asked softly, "What are you doing standing here?"

Mingxuan smiled and answered honestly, "Look at you."

"Oh? Then I have to charge you a viewing fee." Bai Molin said half-jokingly, and glanced at the gate with a rest sign, "Is it closed? Then, do you have wine in your store?"

Mingxuan didn't answer, just turned around and took out the key to open the door.Turning around, the gentleman made a "please" gesture.

Bai Molin went straight in, followed by Mingxuan, and pressed the switch by the wall, and the room lit up.The dim purple light creates a faint and ambiguous atmosphere.

Mingxuan pointed to a gorgeous wooden cabinet behind the front desk, "It's all there, just watch and take it for yourself."

"En." With a soft reply, Bai Molin walked over unceremoniously, and opened the cabinet door.He grabbed two bottles in one hand and placed them heavily on the counter.Without looking at what kind of wine it was, he picked up the corkscrew and uncorked the wine, and poured it into his mouth.

The spicy wine ran down his throat, unable to bear the sudden stimulation, Bai Molin choked and coughed.

"Hey, are you playing with your life?" Mingxuan hurried over, patted his back lightly, and frowned worriedly.

After a lot of relief, Bai Molin raised his hand to stop Mingxuan's movement, "You don't need to worry about this." He raised his head and continued to pour strong wine into his stomach.

Mingxuan couldn't stand it anymore, so he grabbed the wine in his hand and threw it on the ground.

The glass hit the ground, making a crisp sound, and shattered into pieces.

"What are you doing?!" Bai Molin angrily grabbed his collar and said angrily.

Mingxuan didn't answer, nor did he struggle, but just watched him quietly.

Bai Molin narrowed his eyes, he always had nothing to do with silent people, he let go of his hand and pushed Mingxuan away, leaning weakly on the wine cabinet beside him.He took out a cigarette from his pocket, pressed the lighter a few times, but there was no response, and fell to the ground angrily, "Damn, everyone has this virtue."

Maybe, he's going crazy; maybe, he's gone crazy.No matter what.

With his head raised slightly, Bai Molin sighed softly, and he no longer had the frantic look he had just now.

Mingxuan walked in front of Bai Molin, who was slightly taller than him, and the gap between the front desk itself was very narrow, so the two were very close to each other.Bai Molin didn't care, and still looked at the crystal lamp hanging above the center without focus, as if he was thinking about something.

Mingxuan put his left hand on Bai Molin's side, lowered his body slightly, and brought the distance between them closer, and gently supported his face with his right hand.The temperature on his face made Bai Molin look away, and looked into his eyes blankly.

very gentle.Bai Molin stared at him blankly, forgetting the reaction he should have.Mo Han's tenderness always brings alienation, but he is just the opposite, with warmth that makes people unconsciously want to get closer.

"Molin, do you want to be with me?" The sincere and gentle voice made Bai Molin's heart tremble. When he came back to his senses, he raised his hand and knocked off the hand on his face, "You...what are you talking about! Don't open Such a silly joke."

Mingxuan smiled wryly, "Whether it's a joke or not, you should know very well."

Bai Molin opened his mouth, but didn't know what to say.She turned her head and didn't look at him.Soft, shiny black hair stuck to his cheek, blocking his flustered eyes.

Mingxuan stood up straight, opened the distance between them, and still had a gentle smile on his face, "Aren't you going to give me an answer?"

"Well, I'm a man." Bai Molin was a little at a loss, and his thinking became even more chaotic.

"Do you think I can't see it?" Mingxuan was dumbfounded by his words, and his tone became more serious, "I like you."

Bai Molin looked into his eyes, almost fell into his tenderness, his heart became more and more confused, but he knew clearly that he couldn't accept it.

"Sorry." Bai Molin lowered his head apologetically.

Knowing his answer, Mingxuan's expression was abnormally relieved, but there was still an indistinct sadness hidden in his eyes.Reaching out and rubbing Bai Molin's hair, "You have nothing to apologize for."

Seeing that he didn't reply, Mingxuan asked with a smile, "Do you have someone you like?" Although it was a question, the tone was very certain.

Bai Molin thought of that person again, the scene with the bar, and murmured to himself, "Ah, that's right."

"Then you, do you love him?"

Here it is again.do you love him?he does not know.He didn't know what that feeling was.Maybe it's just a dependency.Yes, it is dependent, right?right?

Mingxuan just asked tentatively, but seeing the blank and painful eyes of the other party, he couldn't bear it, and hurriedly interrupted, "Mo Lin, forget it, don't think about this question."

"Yeah." He replied softly, but his eyes were still loose.

Mingxuan regretted asking this question, but he also had an unknown feeling of happiness in his heart.Is it because he hasn't fallen in love with someone else yet?

The hands of the tall pendulum clock placed in the corner stopped at the ten o'clock position, and the bell sounded crisp, not dull, and very pleasant to the ear.

Both of them were silent for a long time, Bai Molin still maintained the posture of leaning against the wine cabinet, not knowing what to think.Mingxuan stood beside him, without taking his eyes off him, and accompanied him quietly.

"Thank you." Bai Molin's voice was soft and hoarse.

Without saying anything superfluous, Mingxuan asked with a light smile, "Are you planning to go back to school?"

"No." Bai Molin shook his head, "I don't plan to go back there for now."

Mingxuan is very smart, and he can guess what's going on in just a few words.Suddenly feeling a little happy, he said: "In this case, why not stay with me first, there are just a few vacant rooms upstairs."

"this…"

Seeing his hesitation, Mingxuan jokingly said, "Are you afraid that I will have unruly plans for you?"

"No." Bai Molin hurriedly waved his hand to deny, then nodded with a smile, "Then, all right."

"Zhanlan" is a single two-story building. The first floor is a restaurant, and the entire second floor is a resting place. Mingxuan sometimes lives here, so it is not open to the public.

Leading Bai Molin up to the second floor, there is a white wooden door above the stairs, separating the two floors.

Open the door with a key, and the layout of the room is no different from that of ordinary houses.The wall is just pure white, without extra variegation.The light and cool tones in the whole room are in stark contrast to Mingxuan who always wears a gentle smile.

Mingxuan pushed open the door of a room, and said to the slightly tired person sitting on the sofa in the living room: "I see you are very tired, let's rest first."

"En." Bai Molin stood up and walked over.

The furnishings in the room are very simple, there is nothing outside a bed, a set of tables and chairs.

Just as Mingxuan was about to close the door and leave, he was stopped by Bai Molin.

As if knowing what he was going to say, Mingxuan interrupted, "If it's impossible, don't give me the slightest chance." Otherwise, it will be even harder for me to let go.Mingxuan added silently in his heart.

In the end, Bai Molin didn't say what he said, and watched as the door was gradually closed.

Too many things happened today, and as soon as I relaxed a bit, the exhaustion came up wave after wave.It made him feel heavy and difficult even to breathe.

Went into the bathroom, turned on the shower, no thermostat, cold water pouring down.Bai Molin is actually very afraid of the cold, the coldness seems to have penetrated into the bone marrow, making his heart constrict and tremble.

After a brief rinse, he picked up the bath towel hanging on the wall and wrapped himself tightly. His body was still trembling uncontrollably, but his mind calmed down a lot.

Back in the bedroom, Ang lay relaxed on the bed.Close your eyes and meditate, all kinds of memories flashed through your mind like a movie, with a deep memory.

About, three years ago.Those, inexplicable, fate-like beginnings.