12 years zero soul

Qiu Ren came to the toilet, held the clear water from the faucet with both hands and poured it on his face a few times, not caring if his suit got wet.

Staring at the haggard face in the mirror, the unsuitable hairstyle and clothing, and the smell that makes people feel strange.He has had enough of all of this!

Arriving almost at a quick pace, Qiu Ren froze in place.

"I'm going to resign!"

After leaving such a sentence and glaring hard at the other party, Qiu Ren turned his head coldly and turned to leave.

Qiu Ren suddenly felt a pain in his left hand, and turned around to find that Bai Niaohui was grabbing his wrist and holding him.The cup in front of Qiu Ren was turned upside down on the table, and the glass-colored liquid spilled all over the floor, dripping down the edge as if reluctantly.

The ambiguous lights in Rromeo illuminated the spacious and cloudy hall and suddenly fell silent. The waiters standing outside the hall looked at each other. Pull Qiu Ren closer to him.

Bai Niaohui shook his head and leaned closer to Qiu Ren's ear and said, "At this point, what kind of sacrifices do we 'people' have in exchange for all this, and how much do you know?" Bai Niaohui's face There was still a smile on his face, quietly looking at Qiu Ren who was full of clues.

Qiu Ren didn't speak, but slowly lowered his head to look at the other man's hand that suddenly grabbed his wrist.

Bai Niaohui's serious tone seemed to make Qiu Ren a little embarrassed.But it wasn't an accusation against Bai Niaohui, he seemed to think that the other party meant something, or did he care too much?

He actually already understood.He doesn't need to be reminded, he knows it well.Although someone poked into his mind unintentionally, Qiu Ren actually hoped to hear this sentence from someone else.Isn't that true of everyone?It is not enough to just know yourself, someone or some people must be needed.Therefore, people cannot live alone, and hopelessly need "someone" other than themselves.

"You know where most of the so-called 'deals' are usually done?"

Bai Niaohui shook off the entanglement of the two women beside him, stood up directly and leaned forward, whispering in Qiu Ren's ear in a voice that no one else could hear: "On the bed..."

Qiu Ren widened his eyes.

Bai Niaohui smiled, then moved closer to Qiu Ren's other ear and continued, "I really want to taste what a man is like..."

Then let go, Shiratori Hui's eyes seem to say: You can't refuse me——

Before there was a huge commotion, Qiu Ren left Bai Niaohui's circle and stayed away from the place of right and wrong.

……

"What just happened over there"

As soon as Qiu Ren came back and sat down, Fei Long was eager to ask Qiu Ren a question.

Qiu Ren replied in a low voice with a dazed expression: It's nothing...

Unexpectedly, I came back obediently again.At this moment, Qiu Ren felt a little self-loathing.

Feilong suddenly leaned back and leaned forward in front of Qiu Ren.

"Give yourself to me."

Feilong couldn't accept Qiu Ren like this, he gritted his teeth and said something that even he didn't expect.

"..."

Qiu Ren slightly parted his lips, but still didn't speak.

Another voice in Feilong's body retorted: He didn't expect anything, he just heard the other party's heavy voice and came here to help.

That's right, he is the only person Qiu Ren can rely on.

If "that person" dies, then—

No, now you can't say "if", but "unless"...

Feilong pretended not to see Qiu Ren's hesitant appearance, and continued: "Don't you still not see the situation clearly? Have you considered your situation?!"

Qiu Ren began to get used to Feilong's gaze, and Qiu Ren already knew what this gaze meant.

After a long silence, he shook his head as if giving up.

"I... am a photojournalist..."

Qiu Ren muttered to himself and took a deep breath.

As if hearing some strange words, Feilong showed a surprised expression.At this moment, Qiu Ren finally raised his face, and met Feilong's gaze.

After a long time, Feilong sighed, feeling uneasy.

"you--"

"It's so hard to tell."

A brisk tone interrupted what Feilong was about to say.

"Sorry, Hall Master Liu, private time is up."

After finishing speaking, Bai Niaohui grabbed Qiu Ren who hadn't reacted yet, and went straight out.

"...Slow down!"

Feilong regained consciousness instantly.

The two men immediately blocked Bai Hui's path.Shiratori Hui tilted his head and smiled contemptuously. Several men dressed as cowherds stood around expressionlessly.And Romeo didn't know when the field was cleared, and it seemed that only "his own people" were left.

"Let him go!"

Feilong ordered with a downcast face.

"Hehe, no problem." Shiratori Hui still had a bright smile on his face, let go of his hands, and deliberately raised his hands, like surrendered prisoners of war. "Of course I will accept Liu's order, but I also want to listen to Qiu's opinion, right?"

In the middle of Bai Niaohui's speech, he turned his eyes to Qiu Ren who was downcast, with a sneer on his confident face.

Perhaps Qiu Ren didn't react immediately, Shiratori Hui's face began to darken.For a person who is used to being "waited", the waiting time seems to be magnified dozens of times.

"I want to...do this."

Qiu Ren muttered in a low voice.

"what?"

Shiratori lowered his body slightly.

In the next second, Qiu Ren held Bai Niaohui's face and pulled it towards him, his lips pressed onto it so forcefully, and his eyes stared straight at Bai Niaohui at close range.The clear eyes seem to be able to see through the deepest soul in the body.

Bai Niaohui opened his eyes wide, and his body showed no unnecessary resistance at all.

Under everyone's astonished eyes, Qiu Ren immediately ended the tangled kiss, and stood beside Feilong and the others.Qiu Ren showed a face of "you deserve it!" However, it was more of a kind of contempt.

"Didn't you say you want to taste a man?"

Bai Niaohui stared at Qiu Ren with wide eyes, unable to recover for a long time.

Feilong also showed a surprised expression. He couldn't believe that Qiu Ren refused him, but offered a kiss to a cowherd? !

He was wrong, he thought that Qiu Ren was still the child who drifted with the tide and was at the mercy of others.It turns out that Qiu Ren has changed unconsciously, becoming calmer, more melancholy, and seems a little haggard.These changes, however, only made him seem more striking, more endearing, an intensity you couldn't take your eyes off of.

Perhaps, the only constant is his eyes, clear and bright, reminiscent of the blue sky after the rain, clean and pure.

His hair was soft and shiny, and every movement of his hands and feet seemed to carry some kind of provocative meaning.

However, he is no longer the kind of object that others will not hesitate to tease after seeing him, because no matter who sees him, they can't help but return the chasing gaze.

Feilong watched Qiuren quietly from the side, but the other party didn't seem to notice his sight.

Qiu Ren's heart was very confused at this time. He knew very well that as long as Feilong took him with him, they would not be able to escape in Kabukicho.

"Get out of the way and send the guests away in person, that's the etiquette that a cowherd should have!"

Qiu Ren walked to the front and deliberately lowered his voice.The rest of the cowherds looked at Bai Niaohui, then at Qiuren, as if their bodies were out of their control, they naturally made way for them.

When they came to the place where Feilong and his car were parked, Feilong motioned for the others to get in the car first.Then, he and Qiu Ren came to a place not far from the car, Feilong stared at Qiu Ren, his thin lips parted, and he was about to say something, but Qiu Ren preempted him.

"Feilong, I don't know what bad things happened to you. But... please don't be like this again..."

Under the flickering lights, Qiu Ren's face became somewhat blurred, and his voice became clearer.

When Feilong heard it, his heart seemed to be pinched suddenly, and he couldn't help but stop his steps to get closer to Qiu.

"What am I like...?"

Feilong's voice sounded a little trembling.

Standing in this position, Qiu Ren could clearly see that the muscles on Feilong's face were tense, and he was speechless for a moment.

"In short... don't treat me as a place to escape..."

After finishing speaking, Qiu Ren met Feilong's sight, but the other party quickly avoided, and a shadow was cast over his face.

"Well, thank you anyway. But..." Qiu Ren seemed to be thinking of something, but swallowed back the words, a little bit astringent. "I hope that when we see you next time, we will still be friends... (Goodbye, Feilong.)"

In the last sentence, Qiuren bid farewell to Feilong in simple Chinese.

Feilong has been watching Qiu Ren's leaving back, it becomes so clear under the setting sun, so dazzling.

The wind just blew by.The blue hair brushed over the delicate facial features, carrying a little sadness and loneliness.The neon lights are constantly changing, and the colors covering his face are correspondingly hot and cold, but they can't reflect what he really thinks in his heart.

The light that shines out in the dark night, he is not qualified to pray to it for real salvation.

……

Suddenly felt someone put a hand on his shoulder, whispered: "Do you know that you just violated the rules of being a cowherd?" Then before he could make a sound, he covered his mouth and held the He hugged by force.

At first, Qiu Ren was too scared to move, but when he was about to act, the tip of his nose suddenly smelled the fragrance of roses.

"So what?! Let go!" Qiu Ren shook off Bai Niaohui's restraint, he couldn't forget Bai Niaohui's insult to him just now, and he is still angry to this day. "I'm not a cowherd."

"Do you believe in love at first sight?"

"what?"

A word for no reason, Bai Niaohui's voice seemed to float into his ears, Qiu Ren frowned, and suddenly met a serious expression, his heart "thumped" several times in an instant.The man's serious face is indeed particularly easy to fascinate people, Qiu Ren's brain began to be confused, and he didn't understand why Bai Niaohui talked to him about such things for no reason.

"From the first sight, that kind of throbbing is what I have been looking for."

Qiu Ren was stunned for a while before revealing a surprised expression.Listening to Shiratori Hui's tone, it seems that the two of them have known each other before...

Bai Niaohui smiled, his affection softened a lot, the cold light in his eyes that seemed to be aimed at you everywhere was gone.He seemed to have expected Qiu Ren to say that, he lowered his head and rubbed his left eye with his fingers.

"you……"

Qiu Ren didn't move, it seemed that he froze. .

"Five years ago, you still haven't eaten that barbecue."

Shiratori Hui's hearty smile is paired with a mouthful of white teeth, and the pupil of his left eye is... dark brown!

Qiu Ren suddenly came to his senses.I thought Shiratori Hui's facial features were a bit exotic, but after all, her hair and pupils were still black, they had been dyed, and she also wore black colored pupils.

He, Teru Shiratori, was probably the man he met in Rio de Janeiro five years ago.But why?Will appear in Romeo?Not only became the night emperor of Kabukicho, but also...

Thinking of this, Qiu Ren felt physically and mentally exhausted.

"Well then, what are you doing here?"

Realizing that his question seemed a little indifferent, Qiu Ren turned his face away in embarrassment.

But Bai Niaohui didn't care, he stretched out his hand to touch Qiu Ren's face as if possessed, and pressed his palm against the other's face, he could feel the stiffness coming from his hand.

"To see how you are doing."

Bai Niaohui's words exploded like a bomb, Qiu Ren was stunned.

"Uh, um..." Qiu Ren felt uncomfortable all over, and he clearly felt that Bai Niaohui's eyes were chasing his own. "Thank you..." Qiu Ren said, smiling like a cramp on the right side of his face, trying to avoid the hot palm of the other party without any trace.

Just when Qiu Ren started to relax his vigilance, he vaguely heard this sentence:

"You still remember that you asked for something from me, Qiu... Ren?"

Raising his head abruptly, and meeting Bai Niaohui's dim and cloudy eyes, Qiu Ren seems to feel that his world is gradually sinking...

……

When he just returned to the apartment, when he passed the open door of the room, his footsteps subconsciously stopped, but he still lowered his head.After about 5 minutes of silence, he stepped up and walked into the room on the other side.Although there is only a bed, a table, a chair and a computer inside, it looks a bit shabby, but it is the only place where he can rest quietly.

Qiu Ren slowly sat down on the edge of the bed, and suddenly, with a "boom", his upper body lay down straight.My whole body was as heavy as lead, and I couldn't even sigh.He felt that it was necessary for him to go to Ma Jian's room to have a look.

However, when he stood at the door of the room, he felt a very uncomfortable feeling in his heart, and he couldn't take another step forward.

He couldn't stay in that room even for a moment.The surroundings and even every corner of the room are filled with the smell of asami.It felt like being held in Mami's arms...

... My heart hurts.

Closing her eyes, Qiu Ren felt the tears slide down her cheeks and wet the sheets...

[I am sorry for you, I am sorry for loving you, but you are always the one who gave up on me.I have to leave because I miss this forbidden place too much, all because of you. 】

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