Your lunch is mine

Undoubtedly, these are sharp words, simple but direct to the heart, like the invisible but sharp knife hanging above the head, showing its original appearance at this moment, and it is crumbling.

Sanyuan Aoi's heart, Dazai Osamu's... heart.

Sanyuankui did not expect to hear such words at all, or she never thought about any possibility related to "abandoning the mission" from the beginning to the end.

Even if it is to establish a soul connection, even if there is reluctance, even if they have been together for more than ten years, even if there are accidents that the system does not want to happen in this world, she has never thought about such a thing.

Not once.

Just because this is the only way she can go home, her efforts determine when she will be able to go home, and everything she does is to get home.

But now, she heard such words.

"So what if you know? Can it make you give up your 'thing'?"

know... give up... go home...

Dazai...go home...

It seems to be a choice, or a choice, but this choice is beyond the scope of Sanyuankui's thinking. Her first reaction is just... to go home.

"look."

Osamu Dazai raised his hand, and the palm of an adult easily encircled Sangen Aoi's wrist beside his cheek. A warm feeling that did not belong to him radiated from the palm of his hand. He subconsciously moved his palm back slightly, and stopped touching it that did not belong to him. own temperature.

Then, he took the opponent's hand and let it go away completely.

"There are always things you can't let go of no matter what."

As Osamu Dazai said, his face returned to calm, as if the "abnormality" that had just flashed in the pan did not exist, he has always been like this, with a calm voice, as if teaching.

"It's always bad to be too thorough, Aoi. In many cases, as long as the goal can be achieved, the process doesn't need to be too concerned."

"But……"

Sanyuankui wanted to say something, but Osamu Dazai directly interrupted her.

"Don't you want to finish your 'thing'?"

In the depths of the kite-colored eyes, there is complete calmness and reason, clearly planning what to say in his mind, and even calculating the information he may get.

Yes, that's it. Calmness and rationality, even ruthlessness, are synonymous with him as Osamu Dazai.

"You must be doing this for a very important reason, right?"

Sanyuankui nodded silently, and did not deny such a statement.

Dazai laughed.

For a certain goal, and has been working hard for it, he is too clear.

As long as the goal is firm enough, then no one and nothing can stop it.And someone like Aoi is even more determined. He doesn't think that as a mere goal, he can cause any obstacles to her goal.

He needs to plan a world, and the other party's "thing" will definitely not be just the second time, so for him, this is the most natural barrier that can be used.

"As long as you can complete your 'things', you don't need to think too much about the extra, if you take too much into consideration..."

He stood up, rubbed the top of Sanyuankui's head with his hands, and left a last meaningful sentence,

"It's easy to fail."

Osamu Dazai returned to the desk, and Aoi Sangen sat alone on the sofa, falling into silence.

Caring too much is easy to fail, as long as she can complete her task...

What Dazai said sounded right, she had always...probably thought this way, but she didn't do it that way.

She does take care of a lot, how to deal with the relationship with the mission goal, what to do if she is sad after leaving... If she just completes the goal, she probably won't have so much concern for other people who don't care at all.

But these are always inevitable for her, because this is the only way to go home, so even if it makes people sad, she will carry out the task without hesitation.

But this time, it's different.

Sanyuan Aoi turned to look at Osamu Dazai, who was calling Nakahara Chuya to come in through the phone, and he looked the same as before Nakahara Chuya left.

are different.

Sanyuankui has never felt so clearly.

Everything in the past, she can respond to what the system says, as a help, and the person who is helped will have a new life.

But only this time it wasn't.

Osamu Dazai is different from others.

The nature of a person is difficult to truly change. In the first world, Dazai would say suicide and act from time to time, but in this world he never said it once.

Even so, this Dazai's state is even worse in perception.Plus the questions she asked, the questions she didn't answer...

Sanyuankui vaguely had an idea in his heart.

Perhaps her help was not needed.

When Nakahara Chuya re-entered from the door, the office seemed to have returned to calm.

Osamu Dazai was processing the documents at the original location, and Aoi Sangen, who pointed out that he didn't know anything, was still sitting on the sofa, thinking hard.

Come on, needless to say, that guy Dazai must have persuaded her with words.Fortunately, he was still thinking about seeing Dazai's fun in case.

The day had been uneventful, but Zhongyuan Zhong also looked at the two people who didn't say a word, and always felt that something was holding back some energy, which was not right.

He thought about it, and decisively exchanged information with Ozaki Koyo, the newly promoted person who watched Dazai Osamu's fun.

"do not worry."

Ozaki Momiji, who secretly contributed to the flames, smiled meaningfully.

"It won't take long for that kid's mobility."

After all, that child is an existence that cannot be underestimated. If he is a little careless, no one knows what will happen to him.

In fact, Osamu Dazai really didn't feel that after such a conversation, he and Aoi had nothing more to say about this matter.

Everything that can be said has been said, and a certain point that belongs to the core must have been spread out.

But he never thought that Sanyuankui's actions would be so fast.

Just one day later, Osamu Dazai had just given Atsushi Nakajima the task of delivering a certain file bag to the Armed Detective Agency.

The plan has passed the second stage, and Akutagawa has been gradually recognized by the Armed Detective Agency, so the third stage can already be started.

Aoi Sangen, who had already made up her mind, came out of the room and walked in front of Osamu Dazai.

The silence in the room was perfect, Nakahara Nakaya was outside the door, Nakajima Atsushi had just left, Ginya was made to do something else by him, only Dazai and Aoi were left in the room.

The calm and solemn expression that was different from the past gave Osamu Dazai a bad feeling.

Pretty bad feeling.

"I have, one last question."

Aoi Sangen said, her blue eyes fixed on Osamu Dazai's face without blinking.

"Dazai is smart, so he already knows my goal."

Dazai Osamu: "..."

Feeling the mood of the other party, she had an affirmative answer to this sentence.

It seems so.

So--

Without hesitation, she asked the root cause of her thoughts during the day.

"Dazai's goal, and my goal, are in conflict, right?"

"There's no value in that question."

Osamu Dazai lowered his eyes and spoke almost with a sigh.

"Aoi, you are very smart, you should know that it is best that this matter has passed."

Sanyuankui was not induced by changing the subject to the other party, but just repeated her own question again.

"It's conflicting, isn't it?"

Otherwise, she couldn't really say the word "help".

Because that's not helping at all.

Under the light, it seems to carry all the firelight in the room, so people can't look at each other, they just want to divert their eyes and not face that gaze directly.

What was contained in the blue eyes was something Osamu Dazai could not understand.

Was it incomprehensible, or did he refuse to understand?

All he knew was that this room that belonged to him was invaded by some invisible existence, and strange feelings were trying to surround him, trying to block all his escape routes.

But this is obviously his room, why is there an invader?

Invisible invaders.

Visible aggressors.

It was the aggressor that he was able to do well at the beginning and unintentionally let go.

It was the person standing in front of him at this very moment.

——It’s Sanyuan Kwai.

What answer would he give?

Neither "yes" nor "no" is right in this question, because it has a trap in it.

To answer "yes" is to admit, and the consequences of admitting... probably it will happen that he is not what he sees.

And "no"... eventually turns into "yes" too.

In the office, only the candles were burning, and all the wind was shielded from the walls, so that the candlelight did not tremble in the slightest.

Silence engulfed the space, with a deathly stillness that seemed to freeze everything.

The candlelight didn't flicker, maybe the candlelight did, because Osamu Dazai clearly saw that there was light flickering in those blue eyes.

Uneasiness grew.

Aoi Sangen picked up a blue marble and put it in front of her eyes, looking at Osamu Dazai through it.

The feeling of being "watched" permeates the whole body, Osamu Dazai is very clear, it is a medium for using abilities.

He subconsciously wanted to reach out to stop it, but in just a split second, the marble was taken down by its owner.In the next second, he heard the other party's calm voice as always.

"I see."

Got it... what?

Sanyuankui really made a decision.

Even if she wanted to go home, she didn't want to do it in a way that would cause trouble to others. If her mission only brought trouble, then even if she followed this path back to Barbara, back to everyone's side , and it will not be her original self.

And her motives are extremely simple.

Dazai doesn't need her help, so there is only one thing left for her to do.

Just something as simple as that.

Because the feeling is not deceiving, the heart is not deceiving.

The most important thing is... what she saw under that moment of "watching".

Wanted, unwanted; pure, complicated; possessed, rejected; suspicious, thankful... and... escaped as such.

Why is there such a complicated and easy-to-understand person like Osamu Dazai?

Sanyuankui thought about it, and spoke solemnly.

"Dazai is good, I like Dazai a lot, not because of 'things'."

In Osamu Dazai's wide eyes, she made a firm promise.

"Wait a minute, I'll prove it."

Sanyuankui closed her eyes, and for the first time consciously activated the emergency contact with the system.