farewell to sunset

Tang Nuo tidied up his clothes and mood, and walked out of the cemetery when the rain tended to intensify.

It's okay, but the eyes are a little red.

Shen Youning stood waiting for him at the gate of the cemetery, holding a black umbrella like a tall and straight pine tree.

"It's raining so hard, why did it come out?" Tang Nuo put away his umbrella, got under Shen Youning's protection, took out a tissue from his backpack, and helped him wipe off the rain stains on his cuffs.

"Pick you up." Shen Youning only said two words, and when Tang Nuo lowered his head, he stared at Tang Nuo with pity and cherish.

"Let's go, it won't be easy to take a taxi for a while." Tang Nuo raised his face, Shen Youning hid his emotions and returned to normal.

They ate two bowls of hot rice noodles at the small restaurant next to the hotel. Tang Nuo was sweating profusely after eating them, and he felt tired.After returning to the hotel, he lay paralyzed on the bed, held Shen Youning's hand, and fell asleep after a while.

He didn't sleep well, and he could hear the sound of rain in his dream. The only thing he was lucky about was that he saw his mother in his dream. She smiled softly and blamed Tang Nuo for not bringing her any fruit.

Tang Nuo knew he was dreaming, but he couldn't open his eyes no matter what. The heavy rain blocked his vision, and the night and day alternated repeatedly.

The days are getting shorter and shorter, the nights are getting longer and longer, everything gradually calms down, and the darkness fills up with light.

Tang Nuo rubbed his eyes. It was dark in front of his eyes, and the room was dark. There was an inch-wide gap in the curtains. Looking outside, it was also dark.

But his bed is hot, his heart is hot, and the body tightly embraced by Shen Youning is also hot.

Tang Nuo pressed Shen Youning's side face in the dark, then reached out and stroked Shen Youning's hair gently.

It smells like shampoo, but it's very damp. It hasn't dried for so long, so he must not have blown his hair.

Tang Nuo stood up cautiously. His movements were light at first, but after deliberately slowing down, he couldn't even disturb the air.

The rain has not stopped, but the most intense period has passed, and it should have fallen during their lunch break. The puddles left scars of different shades on the seemingly flat road.

While Shen Youning was still asleep, Tang Nuo wrote a note and left quietly.

He is going to buy fruit for his mother.

Tang Nuo didn't think about it, because this year, he had never seen his mother in a dream. Finally, his mother made the dream come true, and the only thing she mentioned was that she wanted to eat fruit.

He bought strawberries, mulberries, and pineapples for the boss to cut into pieces, and peeled the bananas himself. He rushed to see his mother again before the cemetery closed.

It's not actually night yet, but it's already dark because of the rain.There were few people in the cemetery, so Tang Nuo walked quickly to the end and came to his mother's grave.

It was so cool that he couldn't feel any fear, but he thought of Shen Youning.He should have let the other party come with him, anyway, it was getting dark, knowing that he came here alone, he must be very worried.

Tang Nuo wanted to make a quick decision, and try to get back before Shen Youning got up. He said yes to his mother, and explained the reason for his haste. Just when he was about to put the fruit, he accidentally discovered that there seemed to be something else on the altar. thing.

A bouquet of white carnations.

The flowers were lying next to the cakes he gave, and it had just rained heavily, but neither the flowers nor the cakes were hurt at all.A black umbrella protects the tombstone from the wind and rain, and several stones are placed around the umbrella handle, which strengthens the black umbrella's cover.

Tang Nuo recognized that this umbrella belonged to Shen Youning.

Only during my lunch break, only when the weather is at its worst.

He hadn't been told the location of the cemetery, and he didn't know his mother's name. He probably walked all over the cemetery before he found a pastry he knew on a certain altar at the end of the road.

With trembling fingers, Tang Nuo lightly touched each flower.

So he came back from the rain, with damp hair, not because he hadn't blown it, but because he had been out for too long and it didn't grow long when he lay down.

Tang Nuo held back the tears in his eyes and silently recited "Don't cry, don't cry" several times. He bowed deeply to the tombstone, feeling as if he had let go of something and taken something with him.

Tang Nuo walked downstairs to the hotel, when Shen Youning called.

"Baby, where are you?"

Tang Nuo suffocated all the way in the taxi and shed a few tears secretly. When Shen Youning's voice came from the receiver, he didn't want to be strong anymore.

"In the lobby." Tang Nuo sniffed, "Brother, come downstairs to pick me up."

Shen Youning came running in pajamas, while Tang Nuo was sitting on a chair with his back to the front desk crying.

He cried silently, but wept quietly. Shen Youning reached out and stroked it, and the damp shattered all over the ground.

Shen Youning didn't ask the reason for the tears, and he guessed that it was almost inseparable. He actually hoped that Tang Nuo could cry happily in front of him, and that the emotions that the other party dared not touch could be transferred to him as a digester.

It was because Tang Nuo would not dare to cry that Shen Youning pretended that everything was normal, but when someone really shed tears in his arms, his heart felt like a knife was twisted.

Shen Youning was in a daze. How many times did Tang Nuo cry like this in a place he couldn't see?

In the few days when he insisted on leaving, the few nights when he was in the dessert shop, and even at every sunset before he met him, would he still shed silent tears as he is now?

Shen Youning hugged Tang Nuo horizontally, and even though his heart was broken, he still coaxed him back to the room.

There is a familiar smell in the room, there is a warm bed, and when the warm light is turned on, it is easy to isolate from the outside.

Tang Nuo cried out a pack of toilet paper, Shen Youning wiped his face with a hot towel, after wiping it clean, he hugged him tightly, and kissed him tightly when he was not sobbing.

Shen Youning didn't say any words of comfort, but intentionally let Tang Nuo vent his anger. When he couldn't cry anymore, he fed some hot water and lay back on the bed.

"I'm fine..." Tang Nuo said with a hoarse voice, "I wanted to cry a long time ago, but I couldn't hold back just now..."

Shen Youning followed his back and hummed lightly.

"You too, you're not afraid of catching a cold..." Tang Nuo rested his head on Shen Youning's arm, and after finishing complaining, he leaned forward and kissed him again.

"It's okay, I took a hot bath when I came back." Shen Youning kissed him back, biting his lips, and said indistinctly: "You also soaked in the rain for me."

Tang Nuo thumped his chest softly, "It's not like that."

"It's better than anything, I can't compare it to being considerate or gentle, and I love a little more than you, can't it?"

Tang Nuo has lost his temper. He thought that you would not take advantage of being considerate and gentle. If you can talk and do things, you will be distracted. How can I compare with you...

Seeing that Tang Nuo was silent, Shen Youning patted his waist back and forth, changed his playful tone, and asked softly, "Do you feel better?"

"Yeah." Tang Nuo hugged him and nodded, "I don't seem to be that scared anymore."

Don't be afraid to return here, don't be afraid to step on the land of the past, the memories that you didn't dare to think about before, can now be stripped of the beautiful ones, turned into stars, and hung in the sky.

Being in your arms, maybe, only let go.

The author says:

The gastritis has lasted for a long time, and I feel really uncomfortable. I applied for a week off with the big treasures (T_T), and I will prepare things for everyone when I come back (????)??