[Full-time master] Chunhe Jingming

What was she afraid of?

Isn't love a feeling that can make two people happy?That being the case, why shrink back and be afraid?

Are you worried that you can't be a good lover, or are you worried that two people can't create a good life?

"You should believe in yourself, and you should also believe in him." Xue Jingming clearly heard such a voice in his heart.

Xue Jingming has always been a person who is very compatible with rationality and sensibility. She can distinguish between pros and cons, and can handle the relationship with everyone around her well, until she met Huang Shaotian who loved him.

It was only then that she realized that among those reasons, those rational analysis, and those obeying her heart, none of them worked, her mind was a mess, and she didn't know what she was thinking.

Completely led away by Senior Shaotian.

She suddenly remembered what she had said to Zhou Zekai back then. "But I don't like you as a lover", "It's unfair to you"... The girl suddenly understood what she was afraid of.

She was afraid that she didn't like Huang Shaotian enough, that she had confused "love" and "moving", and that all of this would be unfair to Huang Shaotian.Xue Jingming was able to see clearly his feelings for Zhou Zekai, and could distinguish the boundaries between himself and everyone around him, but he couldn't see clearly her feelings for Huang Shaotian.

In fact, I understood it from the beginning...

Maybe Xue Jingming still doesn't know, the reason why she "can't see clearly", the reason why she hesitates, is precisely because she cherishes Huang Shaotian to the extreme.

I am afraid that he will be hurt, that he will be unhappy, and that it will be unfair to him.I hope he can be happy, happier than anyone else or even her, I hope he can become the happiest person in the world.

What is this feeling?

Is it love?

"Little girl, your mind is very distracted today. Didn't sleep well last night?" Zhang Jiale stretched out his hand and shook it in front of Xue Jingming, "Yesterday Lao Wang was given some wine, maybe it's because his wine is so exciting that you didn't sleep well Right? How about I make you a cup of coffee?"

Xue Jingming shook his head: "I'll do it myself... Jessica went back to take a shower last night and fell asleep, no trouble."

"Something on your mind?" Zhang Jiale saw through it at a glance.

"...That's right. I had insomnia last night."

Zhang Jiale continued to water the flowers on the table: "Tell me about it."

Xue Jingming didn't hesitate, but just considered his words: "Lele, tell me, what does it feel like to like someone?"

On the topic of love, people who have left the singles have the most say.When Zhang Jiale and Sun Zheping were together, no one was really surprised, but the dog food damage that followed was quite ferocious and lasted for a long time, making everyone shouted that they couldn't stand it.Xue Jingming knew that she and Zhang Jiale were actually somewhat similar, but Zhang Jiale was still crazier than her after all, and she was a little more arrogant than Zhang Jiale—in this respect, she was like Wang Jiexi—so some of Zhang Jiale's views on love might be able to enlighten us. Currently indecisive myself.

Zhang Jiale stared at the pot of gardenias in his hand, then handed it to Xue Jingming: "It's probably the relationship between you and Huang Shaotian."

He talked nonsense, but he was extremely serious. Xue Jingming didn't know if he said "the relationship between her and Huang Shaotian is love", or "the gardenia represents the relationship between her and Huang Shaotian", or maybe "the relationship between her and Huang Shaotian" A love like a gardenia."

But she and Zhang Jiale both love flowers, so Xue Jingming knows the flower language of gardenia——

Eternal Love.A lifetime of waiting.our love.

If Senior Shaotian comes over today, give him this pot of gardenias.The girl took the budding gardenia from the young man's hand, sniffed the faint fragrance, and thought with a smile.

Zhang Jiale rubbed the top of Xue Jingming's hair.

Little sister, believe me, you will be happy, your eternal love is enough to wait for each other for a lifetime.

When Wang Jiexi told Wang Jiexi that he didn't come to pick her up, the little uncle on the other end of the phone was silent for a few seconds, said "OK" lightly, after thinking about it, he added "Come back early", and then stopped Xue Jingming's conversation. He said "Be careful", trying to cover up the fact that he "knows something" with repeated exhortations.

Xue Jingming was a little embarrassed: "Am I so obvious..."

"You were wrong last night," Wang Jiexi chuckled, and said clearly, "I also wobbled when I went out this morning, probably due to insomnia."

"Emmmm..." Didn't you say something... Xue Jingming felt inexplicably uncomfortable. Wang Jiexi usually supervised her a lot, but the sudden noncommittal made her at a loss what to do.

Wang Jiexi sighed: "Sooner or later, this day will come." However, I never said that if you are in love, it will not be my business.

He seemed to see it very openly in an instant. No matter what, Xue Jingming was still his favorite, favorite, and the closest Xiaojing to him. No one could change this.Maybe, it's time to let go, the bird that used to sing only for him has already felt the sky is high and the sea is wide, has experienced the wind and rain, now she may fly into the arms of others, but the imprint he imprinted on her heart will always be It will not disappear, there is still his shadow in every line of her singing.

She felt her eyes a little sore: "Jessica, bless me."

"Bless you all." Tonight will be a clear night, there will be thousands of stars, the path you walk will be bright, and the dreams you will have will be very sweet.

Just as Wang Jiexi imagined, the night of November [-]th was cloudless.

"Lele, senior Sun Zheping, goodbye," Xue Jingming tilted his head and smiled, "Be careful on the road."

Zhang Jiale glanced at a certain corner of the store for the last time, winked at Xue Jingming, and then said, "Then let's go, little girl, you can go home later."

It's close to closing time, and customers who are a little familiar with this store are aware of the Buddhist operation of the two store owners, and there are no customers at this point.The warm yellow lights were on, and there were traffic and crowds outside the glass door, but there were only Xue Jingming and Huang Shaotian inside the door.

Huang Shaotian finished the live broadcast this afternoon, and didn't really feel like having dinner, so he just stayed here and ordered a cheesecake and a cup of mocha, reading books and playing mobile games until now.Seeing that Wang Jiexi didn't come to pick up Xue Jingming today, he thought he had something to do today, so he raised his head and asked, "Isn't Lao Wang coming to pick you up today? Then I'll take you back later, you're not safe as a girl at night, Your house is not close to here. Is there anything else to clean up? I can help."

"No... nothing to clean up, it's all done." Xue Jingming clenched her palms, she was a little nervous.

"Oh... let's go then. Anything to take?"

She picked up the pot of gardenias from the counter, shook her head and rejected Huang Shaotian who wanted to help her.

City B in November was already a bit cold, the moment Xue Jingming pushed open the glass door, his neck shrank from the cold wind.

Huang Shaotian asked concerned: "Little Sun, where's your scarf? If you don't cover it tightly in such a cold day, you will catch a cold. Really... Your health is not very good and you can't take care of yourself..."

"I... I hung it in the storage room and forgot to take it out..." She planned to go back to get it after she said that, but the lights in the store were all turned off, and she couldn't see anything clearly.

"Forget it, forget it, don't go in, it's so dark, what if you hit somewhere? Use mine first, I'm wearing thick clothes today, and I'm not cold at all." Huang Shaotian didn't understand what happened to Xue Jingming today. , absent-minded, couldn't help feeling a little worried, untied his scarf and handed it to the still confused girl in front of him.

Then he suddenly realized that Xue Jingming was holding a flowerpot in his hand and couldn't put it on by himself, so he just took two steps over, carefully wrapped the scarf around the girl's slender neck, and finally carefully smoothed the long hair that was suppressed by the scarf. He pulled it out and straightened it out, and said softly with a smile, "Okay, let's go."

Xue Jingming's face blushed quietly, and she tried to bury her face in the scarf to conceal the unignorable blush, but found that her breath was full of Huang Shaotian's smell.

Can't help but feel more at a loss.

Huang Shaotian took everything into his eyes, smiled, but didn't say anything, he was in a good mood.

The two got on the subway. Around nine o'clock in the evening, there were not many people on the subway, and there were quite a few empty seats.Xue Jingming was still holding the pot of gardenias - this season was not the time for gardenias to bloom, but because of Zhang Jiale's careful cultivation and the temperature of the shop like spring all year round, it still grew luxuriantly.

"Little Sun, look at your hands are red from the cold, why don't you find a bag to carry this potted flower? You have to stretch out your hands to hold it..." Huang Shaotian looked at Xue Jingming's red hands from the cold with distressed eyes. Even the large and shocking scar left a few months ago can be faintly seen.

Xue Jingming smiled nonchalantly: "I'm afraid that the leaves will be crushed." The eyes that looked at the potted plants were full of tenderness.

Huang Shaotian was speechless for a moment, and Xue Jingming's eyes had too much value, which made him have this kind of intuition—she was looking at someone through this potted flower.

But I'm watching you, silly girl.

He reached out and attached Xue Jingming's hands holding the flower pot. The touch was cold but delicate, like the cold water in March.Sensing the stiffness that the girl immediately reacted to, Huang Shaotian said softly, "It's too cold, help you warm up."

Time seemed to stand still, and the two of them didn't know whether the subway was going or stopped. They vaguely seemed to hear the sound of announcing the station, and someone walked in front of them, which made Xue Jingming tremble.The outer sides of the knees of the two touched lightly, but they separated again as if they were electrocuted.

Only the hands have never been separated.

Huang Shaotian's hands were much bigger than hers, the palms were dry and warm, but slowly becoming damp, revealing the same nervousness in his heart as Xue Jingming.The temperature was like spring and Jingming grass blowing the wind and warming, directly reflected in her heart.

The two of them didn't say a word until they reached the downstairs of Xue Jingming's house, Xue Jingming bit her lip and stood in front of Huang Shaotian, she felt her body trembling.

If he spoke, his voice would tremble.

say something...

At the critical moment, I realized that I couldn't speak at all.

What should I say?Say "I like you"?But obviously I was accepting Senior Shaotian's confession, as if I was confessing to him...

So what should I say? "I like you too"? "let's be together"?

so...so shy...

You talk a lot, Senior Shaotian, don’t you talk a lot?

Finally, the girl with a flushed face stomped her feet, stuffed the gardenia in her hand into Huang Shaotian's arms, closed her eyes and almost shouted: "I... I'll go up first!"

Didn't even say "goodbye".Fleeing.

Rushing home in a hurry, ignoring Wang Jiexi's hesitant expression, he dug out a change of nightgown from the closet and ran into the bathroom.

The hot water in the bathtub was full, and the hot and humid mist filled the entire small space.Xue Jingming buried himself in the water, wishing to turn himself into a fish that spits bubbles.

If only I had only seven seconds of memory, it was really embarrassing just now...

I mustered up the courage to tell him, but I didn't say the last word...

How can I be so stupid!

Xue Jingming didn't stop spurning and condemning himself until he got a little dizzy from soaking in the hot water.

"Don't faint in it, right?" Wang Jiexi knocked on the frosted glass from the outside, "It's been more than an hour, and I'm going to suffocate if I keep soaking in it, so come out quickly."

"Oh……"

After Xue Jingming dried his hair and climbed onto the bed, he turned on his phone and checked... more than [-] missed calls.

All from one person, Huang Shaotian.

After Xue Jingming went upstairs, Huang Shaotian stood numbly in the wind for a long time before he came back to his senses. He lowered his head to look at the gardenias that had suddenly arrived in his arms. The person Hua is looking at is him.

It is he who is cherished and loved by her.

He started to call Xue Jingming repeatedly, but he was never connected.Huang Shaotian just stood under the apartment where Wang Jiexi and Xue Jingming lived, dialed over and over again, heard the cold mechanical female voice, then hung up, and connected again.

The heart is not cold, nor does it become cold, it is as hot as a fire, like the sun.

Finally, the girl's thin voice came from over there: "...Senior Shaotian?"

"Little Sun! I like you!" He rushed ahead of her.

"I know the flower language of gardenias. I know the flower language of flowers that can be used to express love. I'm afraid that I will miss the day you send me flowers."

"I am willing to wait for you for the rest of my life, just like today, covering your hands and sending you home—no, I want to take you home, we will have our own home. I will always love you so much."

"I have liked you since before, the way you smile, and the way you play glory, and now I still like the way you make desserts, and the way you blush is so cute, it makes me want to hug you, look Zhi I also like Zihua's expression...so, you like me too, right?"

On a late autumn night in City B, Huang Shaotian stood under the starry sky very close to the girl in his heart, and talked a lot, and then he heard the most beautiful voice in the world, and uttered the most beautiful words in the world.

"Yes... yes! I like you too...!" The girl's soft voice was ups and downs, and she could hear the courage several times and weakened several times, and finally said what she wanted firmly. Confession.

Wang Jiexi was right, the dream tonight was sweet.

But some people were too excited to sleep.

The author has something to say:

I married my daughter!

Gardenias are one of my two favorite flowers.The other is bellflower, but its flower language is too decisive, like a sharp knife, it may be the most beautiful light, or it may be the most painful scar.Gardenias are really beautiful. The white petals look like a bride’s wedding dress when you look closely. The fragrance is long and charming, and the flower language is the most romantic in the world. It is also the most simple and beautiful love-eternal love, a lifetime of waiting .

Shaotian and Little Sun, for so many years, the previous progress has been very, very slow, it can be said that it is outrageously slow.But there is a kind of love like wine, which is very weak at first, and has been sealed until one day after a long, long time, when you open it, the fragrance is enough to make you fall quickly, and you never want to leave it again.

I think their love is enough to be called "eternal"

Love at first sight is fate, but long-lasting love is forever.

I think they will be happy.

I don't know if you have felt Lao Wang's subtle heart.

Detail [-]: Some psychological descriptions of the part where Little Sun refused to let him pick it up have appeared before.

Detail 30: Why did Shaotian make more than [-] phone calls, even if Xiaoyang's phone was in vibration mode, he should have heard it, but he didn't remind her.

The old father is in a very complicated mood.

In fact, I also miss my daughter...

The next update should be next door "Still Shadow Shenbi"