You, teach me how to do things?

Xia Yuanling couldn't understand Shu Yan's love for that non-existent lover, but he was still thinking of ways to bring himself closer to Shu Yan's state.In the next few days, not only did his living habits change, but his appearance also began to look more like Shu Yan.

Shu Yan only left one photo. In the photo, he has long hair and a gentle and distant expression on his face.

Xia Yuanling's hair also grew to the earlobe, in order not to look so strange, he always tied it behind his head with a rubber band.

As time passed, his hair grew longer and longer.

It was almost the time agreed with Mr. Zhang. Mr. Zhang brought his old friend, who is also the director and producer of Shu Yan's "Drawing Demon", to see Xia Yuanling's performance.

Picked a few simple clips to watch Xia Yuanling's performance.

Xia Yuanling prepared well, and after performing a few episodes, he himself felt that it was good, and there were no mistakes.

The producer took the initiative to say: "That's right, Lao Zhang, the person you found is reliable."

Teacher Zhang was also very satisfied with Xia Yuanling's performance: "That's right, after all, I watched Xiao Xia grow up."

The undisguised praise of the two respected seniors made Xia Yuanling secretly happy. After all, these two are powerful talents in the entertainment industry, and it is not easy to get their recognition.

Teacher Zhang and the producer praised each other, but the director on the other side kept silent.

Teacher Zhang also realized that something was wrong, so he asked the director for his opinion.

The director cleared his throat and picked up the script on the table: "Xiao Xia, right? I remember you, you are the kid in "Bitter Summer". To be honest, I think your performance is very good. It is already relatively rare in it, and the image is closer to Shu Yan, but how should I put it—I always feel that there is a little less feeling.”

Feeling less?

This was the evaluation that Xia Yuanling was most afraid of in the past. He felt that this was the most illusory thing, and there was no uniform standard.

"But it's already pretty good, but how should I put it, maybe you're still too young," the director said, "But it's okay, you are still the first candidate for the role of Shu Yan. If nothing unexpected happens, this role It's yours."

As soon as he said this, Xia Yuanling's mood, which was still secretly happy just now, suddenly fell to the bottom.

It is true that the candidate is the first, which shows that Xia Yuanling is very sure about this role.

But what if?

What's more, today is to decide whether I will be the leading actor of Shu Yan, so why come to the candidate system?

He didn't understand what was wrong.

Xia Yuanling came out of the audition place, feeling depressed all the time.

An Qian waited for him downstairs, saw that his expression was not right, and was worried that something went wrong in the audition.

"No, it actually went well. They said I was the number one candidate."

"then you--"

Hearing what Xia Yuanling said, An Qian couldn't figure out what he was thinking.

After all, if something good happened before, Xia Yuanling was the kind of person who would know all over the street blowing his nose and beating gongs and drums. Why did he look so bad today?

"Let's get in the car, I'll think about it myself."

Xia Yuanling sat in the back seat of the car, thinking about the performance just now.

He thought he had played well, but he didn't know why he received such comments from the director.

His mind is in a mess now, he has put in so much effort to get close to Shu Yan, how could he still receive such evaluation?

He couldn't figure it out anyway.

Xia Yuanling arrived home worried, and Shang Chuan was still at work, sitting on the sofa alone.

He still couldn't figure it out, so he opened the script and looked at it briefly, but the director's evaluation of himself was still in his mind.

He couldn't stand it anymore, took the phone, and there happened to be a few new messages on it.

It was sent by Teacher Zhang.

Nothing special, just to persuade Xiao Xia not to take Mi Dao's words to heart, he will definitely find a way to let Xia Yuanling play the role of Shu Yan.

"Director Mi is just a bit picky. Don't take his words to heart. He will guide you during filming. The effect will definitely be better."

"I sent you the contact information of Director Mi and the producer. You should take the initiative to contact them. We will work together when the time comes. Remember to handle the relationship well."

Teacher Zhang is indeed a good teacher, and he never forgot to tell Xia Yuanling these details.

"I know, thank you teacher."

Xia Yuanling looked at Dao Mi's phone on the phone screen.

After being silent for a while, he mustered up his courage and dialed Mi Dao's cell phone number.

In the end, he succeeded in asking Mi Dao out.

The location was a teahouse, and Xia Yuanling opened a private room alone, which is far away from the city center, and the environment and location are good.

He took the initiative to pour tea for Director Mi, and asked about his performance that day.

"Actually, you really don't have to worry. The role of Shu Yan is definitely yours. I have been friends with Lao Zhang for many years, so I still have to give this face."

Hearing these words, Xia Yuanling felt a little uncomfortable, as if he had to go through the back door of Mr. Zhang to play Shu Yan.

But obviously Mr. Zhang and the producer are satisfied with his performance——

However, even if he had thousands of reluctances in his heart, he couldn't express it clearly. He still smiled and asked what Director Mi said that day.

"I know that I am still immature in many places, and my brain is relatively stupid. If you have any suggestions for me, the director, you can just say it directly."

Xia Yuanling just hoped that he could open up and say anything, don't engage in these twists and turns, his brain is not good, and he can't understand at all.

"It's not crazy enough. You have to know that the world in Shu Yan's eyes is different from ours. He thinks he's right. To the end of his life, he thinks that ordinary people can't see those things, and he is right," Director Mi talked about his own understanding, "You acted very well, but your performance is only superficial. You didn't recognize Shu Yan's life, and you didn't even fully enter his world."

"Let me tell you about the partner I worked with before, actress Zhu Ke, you know, in order to play a good role as a rural woman, she concealed her identity and lived in a nearby village for more than a month. When we went to pick her up, she was completely I couldn’t recognize her anymore, and then she won the best actress with that movie. You just changed your image and learned to paint, so you’re like Shu Yan? Impossible. You think acting is too simple, You also think of Shu Yan too simply."

"If you want to play Shu Yan well, you must completely give up on yourself and recognize Shu Yan's personality. If you still feel that he is incomprehensible and neurotic, then you will not be able to play Shu Yan well."

After bidding farewell to Director Mi, Xia Yuanling sat alone in the car for a long time.

He really wanted to play Shu Yan.

wrong.

It is he who needs Shu Yan, and he needs "Drawing Demon".

Su Shenyan brought him great popularity, but this was not what Xia Yuanling wanted, he wanted more.

And these, only Shu Yan can bring him.

He has to play the role well.

Xia Yuanling chewed over and over what Director Mi said just now.

Shu Yan saw things that ordinary people couldn't see, so he had to recognize Shu Yan's values ​​and world.

Xia Yuanling couldn't understand these words, Shu Yan himself was schizophrenic, so he couldn't become a schizophrenic like him.

Wait, schizophrenia—

Xia Yuanling suddenly thought of something.

He remembered the words he once said to An Qian: If you are not crazy, you will not survive.

Madness--

Then go crazy, as long as you can play Shu Yan well.

As long as you can take another step towards your goal, even if it is only a small step, it is worth your best effort.

He wants to win awards, he wants to use his success to slap those who have bullied and ridiculed him, he wants to prove that he can return to the top.

But Xia Yuanling forgot that the more he desires these things, the easier it is for him to be dragged into the abyss by desire.

In the next few days, he began to pack his luggage at home.

"Well, I'm going to film next week, which is "The Painted Demon". It will take about a month, part of it will be filmed, and then I will film in another location. However, the crew is very strict, and they don't use their mobile phones for fear of leaking stills," Xia Yuanling said. While stuffing things into the suitcase, he talked to Shang Chuan. He knew that he could not lie in front of Shang Chuan because of his clumsy lies, so he avoided Shang Chuan’s eyes by packing up his things, “But don’t worry, I will send you a message secretly. news."

Shang Chuan was a little helpless, this time he thought Xia Yuanling would be on vacation for a long time, but he didn't expect to go out to film again after a while.

He was dissatisfied, but he refused to say it clearly.

He just paid Xia Yuanling silently, and then told him what to eat and drink, so don't lose yourself.Then he hugged Xia Yuanling, telling him to tell himself any difficulties he had.

"Take good care of yourself when you are away from home. If you feel unhappy about something, you have to tell An Qian."

"An Qian won't come with me this time, he will stay in the studio to deal with An Youyou's affairs."

"Well," Shang Chuan heard that something was wrong, but he didn't say anything. After all, Xia Yuanling is an adult, and it's the crew where Mr. Zhang is, so there shouldn't be any major problems. "Okay, then take care of yourself."

A few days later, Xia Yuanling dragged the box and left.

He didn't go to the so-called film crew, he didn't even get the official script, so he talked about joining the film crew.

An Qian's lie was that he went on a trip with Mr. Shang, and they wanted to live a stable life for the two of them without being disturbed by others, so An Qian made arrangements for work.

An Qian didn't doubt it either, after all, An Qian could see how hard it was to film Su Shenyan. After that, he ran two movie promotions in a row.He also hopes that Xiao Xia can find a chance to relax and stop filming all the time, the people who are filming are tired.

In Xia Yuanling's eyes, Shang Chuan never took the initiative to contact An Qian or send him a message because of An Qian's ptsd towards him.In this way, the two people formed a vacuum zone, and when the two sides found out their lies, their plans were probably over.

With such a mentality, he rented a dilapidated rental house by himself.