fall in love with ex-husband

Maybe I should have noticed something was wrong.During my hospital stay, everyone in my family visited me, except one.

Because I am the only grandson of my grandma, she was also the one who doted on me the most and loved me the most when I was young. Every time my parents educated me, it was my grandma who stood in front of me, fearing that her precious grandson would lose a piece of meat.

I still clearly remember that at the New Year's Eve dinner table every year, one of the questions that adults always ask is who is my favorite among the people present.

Because grandma's red envelope is always the biggest, so I don't even have to think about it, just say it is grandma, the person I like the most is grandma.

At that time, my grandfather was still there, and my grandmother hadn't begun to forget things.

My mother teased me, saying that since my favorite person is my grandma, should I be filial to my grandma when I grow up?

I said of course, not only to buy a big house and a big truck for grandma, but also to take grandma to travel around the world.

However, none of the promises I made have been fulfilled, and my grandma left me forever.

Which link is wrong?

I clearly swore to be the person who loves my grandma the most in the whole world, so how could I be the first to forget her?

In fact, grandma has always been greedy, like a child who can't eat enough, but as long as she knows that I am going back, she is always reluctant to eat and wants to leave me with the best things, even if I don't like them.However, I, who have already possessed the ability to fulfill the promise of the year, am not even willing to go for a walk in the park with my grandma after dinner. I feel tired, bored, and not as fun as mobile games. complain.When I was young, my grandma took the trouble to teach me what a tree is and what a flower is.But when she gets older, her memory gets worse, and she needs to ask several times to barely remember, I will feel impatient, and I will mutter in my heart, depressed why my grandma is so stupid, and can't remember such little things Let’s face it, other people’s grandmas are still strong and can become Internet celebrities.

Thinking about it this way, my grandma's love for me and my love for my grandma are really unequal. When my grandma could still remember things, she would call me whenever she was free and ask me when I would go to her house to play.But I only think of myself, and there are very few calls to my grandma on my own initiative.

I am not filial at all.When my grandma was healthy, I always thought about work and love, and only when I was frustrated at work and in a bad mood would I think of her, the meals she cooked, and the comfortable fragrance of the old man on her body.But this rare miss is always delayed because of the things at hand, keep procrastinating, go home when you are free, and call her when you are free.

But if it is empty, the family relationship becomes blank.

Even when my grandma was seriously ill, I was only worried for the first few days. When I saw my grandma's condition improved and my uncle was by my side to take care of her, I actually let her go again.This time, I thought of it occasionally and asked my grandma how she was doing.

But now that I think about it, what's the point of asking those words?When my grandma learned that I had a high fever, she would stay up all night and stay by my bedside, and replace the towels with new ones as soon as they got cold.what about me?What did I do when my grandma was old and sick?

......No.

My most selfish behavior is not forgetting to be filial to my grandma.It's because grandma didn't know how to cherish when she was alive, and always felt that there was still time, and only when the old man had passed away did she start to lose her temper and regret, and then shirk all the responsibilities to innocent parents and Zhang Kaiji in exchange for a little Psychological comfort, as if only in this way, I am not that unfilial sinner.

Ever since I knew that my grandma died of a sudden cerebral infarction during my operation, I locked myself in the ward and refused to listen to them no matter what they said.

I understand their difficulties.I have just had the operation and I haven’t recovered yet. Knowing that my grandma passed away, I will definitely not be able to accept it for a while, and it is very likely that my condition will worsen.But knowing it is one thing, and getting out is another.

Maybe this is what the old man said "karma always happens", just like I chose to hide from Zhang Kaiji at the beginning, thinking I was telling a white lie, and now I have finally eaten the evil result, and I didn't even see the old man for the last time.

I was lying on the hospital bed, regretting from morning to night, tears were all shed.

When I woke up, the drip was changed to a bottle, and there was an extra digital video camera next to the bed.

I recognize this camera. It is an old man in the family. It is about the same age as me. It was bought by my grandfather for several months with his retirement money. Because my grandmother has a bad memory, I asked her to record everything she couldn’t remember. down.

When booting, it shows that the memory is full, whether to delete it.

I looked through the videos one by one, and found that the things my grandma recorded were very trivial, but most of the videos included me.The first time I showered, the first time I talked, the first time I stood and walked...

Turning back the video, she was getting farther and farther away from me. Most of the time, I could only shoot the clips in a hurry, and then comforted myself with a smile. The child has grown up and grown up.

The more I recall the bits and pieces of the past, the more I regret it.I haven't done anything for her yet, and I've been disqualified forever.

With trembling hands, I clicked on the last video my grandma took of me.

The video was shot the day before my surgery.In the video, the grandma's face is radiant, she can speak clearly, and she can't see any physical discomfort at all.

She combed her hair beautifully, and put on the floral skirt that grandpa bought her.

At the beginning of the video, grandma smiled and called my parents, uncle, Zhang Kaiji, me and my cousin's names, then paused and said, "I might be leaving soon."

"I dreamed that brother Wen came to pick me up last night. He was standing alone on the bridge, alone. He's still waiting for me. I have to go find him."

"I don't want you too, you are all my good children. But I am old, and I can no longer fulfill your wishes like before. If I live any longer, I will only become your burden. So I left, and you also Don't be too sad, just like I taught you, life, old age, sickness and death should be taken lightly."

"I'll say a few more words, don't think I'm long-winded. Wen Yuan, you have to be impatient and strong. Don't keep your worries in your stomach. Discuss with Jian Min more, nothing is too difficult for you to overcome. It sounds like the same thing, now that I'm a grown-up, and I'm bringing my granddaughter with me, taking care of my family, no matter how much money I earn, family is the most important thing."

"Hey. You guys, the one I'm most worried about is Xixi. Xixi is obviously a kind child, always thinking about others, but deliberately pretending not to care, causing everyone to misunderstand. Fortunately, Kaiji is by your side now, we I'm not afraid of walking unsteadily on the road anymore. It's harder for the two of you to be together than anyone else, you must cherish each other, you know? Xixi should be less self-willed, and Kai Ji shouldn't always spoil him. Small troubles will not affect the relationship. What's more, you both like to hide things in your heart too much. You are still young and feel that you can handle everything. After two years, you will understand the responsibilities of marriage, No matter how big or small, two people have to face it together.”

"Xixi must be crying again now. I told your grandpa when I was a child, don't look at Xixi who has a boy's body, but her mind is more delicate than a girl's. Don't cry, grandma can't help anymore You wiped your tears, if you cry, grandma will feel bad."

"Oops, almost out of memory."

"Don't cry. This is a happy thing. I have lived longer than Brother Wen. When I go down, tell him about you. He must miss you very much. We are companions, you don't have to Worried. Did you hear that?"

"Say goodbye."

"Bye-Bye."

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Every time you cry, I actually cry harder than you.

My grandma can't remember anyone now, and she doesn't even know the way home.

I have never felt that time flies so fast before. When I saw my grandma walking tremblingly, I really couldn't hold back my tears.

This time, it can be regarded as a confession to grandma through Xixi's mouth.

I'm sorry, grandma, it's too late for me to be sensible.