Lei Yue Longmen

Cen Zhu was speechless, feeling very sad, but the fact had already happened, and she had no ability to change the past.

If it wasn't for Lan Miangao's sudden arrival and asking her for the ten-year agreement, she might keep this matter in her heart forever and keep her from knowing.

But the unpredictability of Lan Miangao's actions forced her to set up defenses in advance - she would rather tell this matter from her own mouth than Li Jingzhe knew from others, which would only increase unnecessary suspicion and sadness.

But she made all kinds of considerations, but she just ignored, what kind of blow would it be to Li Jingchen to have an old rival in love for no reason.

Especially knowing that all of this could have been avoided.

Recalling the intersection of the two when they were young, where is there any ingenious arrangement of fate?But they were accidentally pushed together by the turbulent tide of fate, and they were separated by accident.There has always been someone else who really met her by chance and had a deep relationship with her.It seems that she was deprived of the right to be the protagonist before the opera ended.Standing in a daze in the field, watching them be born and arise and die.I became an outsider myself.

What's even more ironic is that her camp is the executioner who creates everything invisibly.

If there hadn't been the disaster that led to the destruction of Cen Zhuo's family 19 years ago, Cen Zhuo would not have had to leave his hometown and go to another country.Also, she would not meet the so-called Princess Lan Que by chance.Perhaps, she could have met her earlier, and if she hadn't had the chance to know others, their fate might have been completely different?

"Did you go to her again later?" came a low and hoarse voice.

Cen Zhu's heart was hanging on the fragile spider silk, and he said cautiously: "I told you, can you not be sad?"

This sentence is like 300 taels of silver here.Of course there was no response.Cen Zhu hesitated and said: "I looked for it once. But as a friend, after all, she is still my savior, so I can't be ungrateful, right? But she didn't see me, and she actually didn't care about this relationship long ago. I brought her little sister back. She returned the beads to me and said she found them again in some corner.”

"What about the Buddhist beads?" Li Jingchen asked again.

Cen Zhu's eyes dodged for a moment, "Who still remembers this, I've already suppressed it. It's been so many years."

"Bring it to me to see!"

"This...isn't necessary!"

"Since there is no contact, let me see it? Could it be that you have something? You are hiding it from me, are you still disconnected from her?" As he spoke, his voice became hoarse.Cen Zhu was at a loss, and surrendered: "Okay, okay, I'll get it. Don't be sad! I'll give you whatever you want to see."

After speaking, he got up from the bed, "Wait a while, you are not in this room!"

The hand was grabbed suddenly, Cen Zhu turned around and saw that she also sat up on her knees, wiped her face with her sleeves, "I'll go with you."

Cen Zhu was speechless, let's go together, is it to monitor?Suddenly feel the pressure mountain.As if going to the execution ground, he led her out the door, turned left and right along the inner passage, and went to the study on the second floor.Light the five-candle lamp on the desk.

Cen Zhu: "You wait here for a while." He took off a candle, went to the bookcase in the northwest corner, and counted to the third compartment, the second-to-last floor.He took out a red box with a length of one foot and a width of seven or eight inches, blew the dust on it, carried it to the desk, and said, "It's all inside."

Then he went to the bookshelf behind the desk and found a wide-mouthed and long-necked vase, reached in and took out the key, and unlocked the box.

The moment the lid of the box was lifted, a string of fish-eye-sized Buddha beads bracelets lay quietly on the yellowed old paper.The beads are made of coral, so red that it looks like it's about to bleed.

"Is this the so-called pressing the bottom of the box?"

Cen Zhu's forehead was sweating, and he hurriedly pushed the box in front of her, letting the king take what he wanted.

Li Jingchen picked up the loose beads, frowned and said, "Why are these beads so loose?"

"Because three were missing, when I returned it, it was said that it fell on the ground and was accidentally crushed by the person who moved the table."

Li Jingchen expressed doubts.Thinking that these cold beads had been rubbed again and again by someone, and had been contaminated by the woman's temperature, she felt extremely uncomfortable.But I don’t know why, knowing that it will be more uncomfortable, I still want to continue to explore.

Looking into the box again, I saw the stack of yellowed envelopes, each cover was written in beautiful small characters: Ying Rouyun sent to Kangyang Qin Jun personally.

"I originally wanted to burn these letters, but I thought they were a memory after all, so I kept them."

"Is it convenient to see?"

How could Cen Zhu dare to say that it was inconvenient, and said: "If you are not afraid of discomfort, you can watch it. But there is one thing, this is all in the past? You are not allowed to confront me again."

Li Jingchen opened the first envelope.The letters are arranged chronologically, with the first being the oldest.It was the first time they met each other in seven years, and she wrote to herself on the first day they separated. Although Cen Zhuo didn't receive it until a month later, the sense of longing that spontaneously arose as soon as they separated was full of them. stationery.

At the beginning, they hadn't confirmed their relationship, but they were good friends who communicated with each other, talking about new things that happened around them, and their recent changes.

As time went on, the feelings gradually changed.The contents of the letter gradually became ambiguous and passionate.

Cen Zhu originally hoped that Li Jingzhu would stop after reading one or two letters, but she didn't expect that she would read one after another.Her heart was like frying in a frying pan.You can only tell where she saw it based on the position of the envelope.

Because there were too many letters, Li Jingchen had to pick and choose.Picking the middle one, unfolding it, his face changed instantly.

"Don't look at it, there's nothing to see." Cen Zhu begged for mercy.

Ignore it.After reading, I picked the bottom one.This time, I didn't read it all, I just scanned a few lines and threw it away.He hurried out and ran out.Cen Zhu didn't have time to tidy up the messy box, so he ran after him in a hurry.

"Fei Li, Fei Li, listen to me, those things are really in the past. You said you didn't care about me, why do you take it seriously?"

"Don't touch me! I did, but what about you! Are you telling the truth? The last letter was dated five years ago! Five years ago!"

Li Jingchen's tears flowed down, "You can't wait to break up with me, so you probably went to find her? I finally understand now. You have been lying to me from the beginning!"

"Five years ago? Are you talking about the transfer of the company name?" Cen Zhu walked around in front of her and said anxiously, "You haven't read that letter. The thing is like this, when I was pretending to be Qin Zhuo, There is also business in Lanque. Isn't Qin Zhuo 'dead'? All the business has been handed over to Bao's firm. Because there are too many procedures to be handed over in China, Bao Siniang has been delayed until two years later before she is free to go through it Handover in Lan Que's country. Then, when she heard the news of my 'death', she wrote a letter to inquire, and the letter was sent to Siniang. Siniang handed the letter to me, and I wrote back a letter to explain the whole story. She replied to that letter again to express her peace of mind. It was the first and last correspondence between us after four years, and I did not reply to her letter after that. Bao Siniang knows this matter best, if you don’t believe me You can ask her.

And that incident should have been mentioned at the end of the letter? You lost it before reading it.Let's go, let's go up and read the letter.Let's talk about this matter.Unjustly killed me! "

Cen Zhuo dragged her back upstairs when Li Jingzhu suddenly hugged her, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry..." He buried his head in her neck and cried very sadly.

Cen Zhu felt a twinge of pain in his heart, and his own eyes were wet, "I know that I have made you sad, but I have always been single-minded towards you, and I have never lied about this. Please believe me."

The clapper for the fourth watch had already sounded, and Cen Zhu set up a brazier in the room, poured all the envelopes in the box into it, lit it around with the torch, and watched them burn slowly.She has made up her mind to make a clean break with the past, so she must start by burning these letters and prayer beads.

At the same time, he secretly said to Lan Yingrou in his heart: "Don't blame me, I should have burned these to you long ago. I stayed here because I was reluctant. Now for her, I have to give up if I am not willing. You rest in peace below. Bar!"

Li Jingchen was resting on the bed, his nose was red, as if it was blocked.Hearing her ping-pong-pong at the door for a while, I don't know what's going on.After a while, I smelled smoke.

"What are you doing?"

Cen Zhu squatted on the ground, tilted his head a little, and flattered him: "Burn the letters, I'll burn them all. To save you from being sad and sad. Just wait for a while, and it will be burnt in no time."

"Who told you to burn it?" Upon hearing this, Li Jingxuan hurriedly got off the bed, pulled on his shoes and went to the outside room, kicking the brazier away!

"Hey, be careful, it's hot! Fei Li, it's hot!" Cen Zhu hurried over to pull her.Li Jingchen picked up a towel next to him, wrapped it around his hands, pinched the edge of the iron basin and turned the basin upside down violently.The fire was extinguished and the ashes scattered all over the place.

Cen Zhu looked at the mess in the room with a dazed expression, "What are you doing, let me see if you got burned?"

Li Jingchen ignored her, squatted down, first found the red Buddhist beads from the ashes, it was a little hot, and he squeezed it two or three times before picking it up.Fortunately, the fire started from the surroundings, and Cen Zhu put it in the middle.

I blew on the ashes on the beads, and went to pick up the letter paper on the ground. Most of them were burnt out with black holes and were incomplete.She picked up the ones that could still be seen, and said angrily while picking them up: "Are you ruining other people's minds like this?!"

Cen Zhu felt a little wronged, "No, I didn't want you to be happy!"

"If it was something else, it would be burned if it was burned. But this is a letter. It was written down every word by someone else as a friendship to you. You just burned it like this? Why not give it to a dog in the first place! "

Cen Zhu choked for a moment and stopped talking.I thought to myself, I didn't know who it was just now, and I cried when I read the letter.

"I'm not an unreasonable person. Just lock it and put it where I can't see it. Why burn it? Burning these superficial things can also burn the things in your memory? No. It will only sink deeper." Li Jingxuan smashed all the collected envelopes into her hands, and Cen Zhuo passively took them and held them in his arms.

"You also said that this is a memory, as long as it is not a bad experience, there is no need to destroy it. It is also a part of you. Are you going to destroy yourself too?"

Cen Zhu was stunned for a while, and then said "oh", and said tentatively, "Then I'll seal them up again? Keep them safe! I won't let you see them." There was no objection, she turned around and walked out silently.

When he came back, Li Jingchen was already lying on the bed.Cen Zhu got into the bed and snuggled up to her, "Fei Li, do you think I'm naive sometimes?"

"No. I know what you're thinking, and I'm glad you've come to this realization. But I don't really need you to do this! I want the real you, good and bad, mine and not mine, It's all about you. I don't need you to divide the past for me, I just want the complete you now."

Cen Zhu had mixed feelings in his heart, and hugged her tightly: "Fei Li, you are so kind. I was so scared before, but I never dared to mention it to you. I was afraid that you would be unhappy, and that you would be narrow-minded. In fact, I was narrow-minded. Your heart is really big."

Immediately received a slap on the back, "You still say!"

"Hey, stop talking!"

After a while, "You haven't told me why you broke up with her?"

"Do you really want to hear it?"

"Ah."

"Actually, I've already said that her mother, Queen Lan Que, is quite powerful and broke us up."

"With your personality, how could you submit to the queen's despotic power? There must be a deeper reason."

"Is there any deeper reason? I was only 16 years old. Maybe I just didn't like it."

"Don't escape, talk about him from left to right."

"Okay. If you have to say something, she is gentle, kind, and beautiful, like a flower in a greenhouse. She has been carefully cut to look what the queen expects. But she also has her own shortcomings, that is, she is not tough enough. Their family is actually It's strange, the queen is obviously shrewd and domineering, like a tigress, and a bit narcissistic. But she has raised her heirs to be gentle and obedient lambs. In comparison, Lan Miangao has grown up Has her mother's shadow."

"Don't you like gentle, kind, beautiful girls?"

"It's not that I don't like it. In comparison, I prefer girls who are tough, brave, and indomitable. She has a beautiful appearance like a flower, but she also has a heart as strong as a tiger. For example, the one in front of me."

Li Jingchen pursed his lips and knocked on her, "Poor mouth." After a while, the lamps and candles were all extinguished, leaving only two eyes in the room.

"Are the windows open?"

"It's been on all the time! Does it smell like smoke? Just let it go."

"You are really good at burning things in the house. You are not afraid that the house will be set on fire?" Li Jingchen said, grabbing her nose.

"I don't know either. At that time, there was a heat in my chest, and I wanted to prove it to you. Maybe my head was caught by the door!"

Li Jingchen laughed with a "chi" and said, "Go and close the window, it's already tasteless."

"Okay." Cen Zhu got out of bed and closed the window, and came back, "Are you not angry anymore?"

Li Jingxuan said "hmm", and slowly climbed onto Cen Zhuo's body, sniffing at her neck, "Did you secretly take a bath?"

"Cough, how come..." Cen Zhu rubbed his nose embarrassedly, and turned his face away.

"No? I've heard the sound of water, why not? He's sneaky, like a thief in his own house." Li Jingchen raised his chin and lightly knocked her face, and finally kissed her on her lips. He took a sip, nose to nose, "I tell you, I also secretly washed my hands."

Cen Zhu didn't react, and lifted his neck to the side, "Of course you have to wash your hands after touching ashes. I'm not laughing at you, why do you need to wash in secret?"

"Are you taking a bath because you are afraid that I will laugh at you?"

"No way, no way!" Cen Zhu refused to admit it, but Li Jingchen said, "I wash my hands not for this."

"Why is that?"

Li Jingyan slowly put his hand into her underwear, Cen Zhuo was frozen for a moment, and instantly sobered up, stammering: "Today... tonight?"

"Ah."

Cen Zhuangyuan blushed and begged, "Can I stay a little late?"

"why?"

"When I decorate the room in bright red, lay a soft silk carpet, and add a springy silk mattress on the bed. The room is filled with fragrant and pleasant silk tree flowers. Next to it, I will put a double wooden barrel and sprinkle it with It is full of rose petals. I will drive everyone out to the hotel for another night to avoid disturbing us. I will go to the household department to ask for three days off. One day off is too little... By the way, I have to buy a monthly letter in advance Cup, I think I'll try it on the first day."

Li Jingchen lowered his eyes silently, rolled down from her body, and covered the quilt, "Go ahead and think about it, I'm going to sleep first! I'm so sleepy!"

"Hey, don't sleep, I haven't finished yet!"

"Forget it, if you think it's troublesome, or else, let's make do with it, just tonight?"

"Hey! Hey! Did you hear that? Don't sleep! If you have something to say, talk about it, why don't you sleep!"