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Not long ago, Zhuang Yan changed his WeChat name, deliberately imitating Chu Chen's nickname, and changed it to the pinyin acronym of the name. He canceled the note set for Chu Chen. In this way, whether it is him or Chu Chen, just click Open the chat box between the two, and their nicknames of the same style will be displayed on the top of the page.

At this moment, Solemn's eyes fell on the chat interface between the two. To be honest, his first reaction after seeing the content of the message was a little flattered.Although he was very hopeless, his heart did indeed stop suddenly for two seconds.

Chu Chen seldom sent him messages for no reason. Generally, in such abnormal situations, he was either looking for something to do with him, or he still had something to do.

And the word 'where' obviously has an element of concern, after all, to ask this question, the first thing is to find that this person is missing, and subconsciously want to know the whereabouts of this person.

On the other hand, he was a little discouraged. It was almost at the end of the evening self-study that he realized that there was no one else. Should it be said that Chu Chen was too lenient or didn't take him seriously at all?

Holding the phone solemnly, he popped out the keyboard to type after deliberation.

[ZY]: You're home, what's the matter?

The other person replied very quickly, as if he had been waiting for his response while guarding the phone.

[CC]: It's all right.

Zhuang Yan stared at the word "nothing", looking forward to the next sentence, but after waiting for almost 3 minutes, his eyes stared at the screen sorely, and the dialog box still had no words.

Majestic glanced at the network in bewilderment, made sure it was not disconnected, and the network speed was okay, then exited the chat box, clicked into a group that I didn’t know when to join, and swiped the screen until it flew up, indicating that there was no such thing as not being able to receive the other side The situation of the message.

What does Chu Chen mean by that?To tease him?

The phone keyboard pops up and closes, repeating this several times, Zhuang Yan typed a few question marks in the dialog box, and felt inappropriate before sending it, so he deleted it, thought about it and changed it to an emoticon pack with something to say. Taisao, who was wearing sunglasses, gave up again. When he finally made up his mind to ask questions directly, Chu Chen sent three question marks over.

[CC]:? ? ?

【ZY】:? ? ?

[ZY]: What do you want me to do?

[CC]: It's okay, I found you're not here, so I'll ask.

[ZY]: I left in the afternoon and was away all night, you just found out now?

【ZY】: [Oh, man.jpg]

[CC]: Why?

Why, say a few more words and die?Two neat teeth marks were bitten out on Zhuang Yan's lower lip, and he thought about replying.

[ZY]: I don't feel well, I'm on leave.

[CC]: Where?

grass.The solemn anger came up at once.I said in my heart that I would be happy to be used to you and me in other places, but I can't get used to this bad habit of talking and playing riddles.

【ZY】: What and where?Speak clearly.

[CC]: Isn't it sick?Where does it hurt.

oh.Zhuang Yan snuffed out his anger before it took shape, and replied that he had a headache.

There was no response from the other side at all, and Zhuang Yan waited for several minutes before closing his screen.After chatting for a few minutes without thinking, the water in the vegetable basin became cold, and Zhuang Yan shivered when he put his hands in it, so he had to refill the basin with warm water to wash the vegetables.

There was a sudden commotion in the yard, and the cheerful laughter of children came into the kitchen.Solemn subconsciously followed the sound and looked out, but unfortunately, the view was completely blocked by the Christmas tree.

Lin Ruoping came back with a pot of vegetable oil, brought a gust of cold wind, let out a solemn breath, packed the washed vegetables, raised her head and asked her, "Aunt Lin, what's going on outside?"

Lin Ruoping smiled and said: "The cake has arrived, and the children are having fun. I helped carry it into the house. I heard that the delivery boy said that there are three floors. You are too expensive. I should pay the money anyway." .”

"What's the matter?" Zhuang Yan bent his eyes, and the warm light shone into his eyes, and the pale eyes sparkled, "Chu Chen and I are good friends."

"Yes." Lin Ruoping nodded warmly. She has a very approachable appearance. Even if she is no longer young, she can still see a little bit of beauty from her kind smile when you look closely.

"I used to be very worried." She sighed, "Xiao Shen's temper is too cold, and he doesn't like to talk. He hasn't made many friends since he was a child, and he is always alone. I feel distressed. I don't understand your current situation. How do young people get along, but Xiaozhuang, you are the first friend to celebrate his birthday."

"Huh?" The solemn smile froze, "The first one?"

Lin Ruoping smiled, "That's right, it's like having some great event, food and supplies are delivered here, and a special plan was made, which made me nervous."

Listening to what she said solemnly, his thoughts diverged to another place, and suddenly he remembered something stuck in his heart that he couldn't let go of.

He shook off the water from his hands and rubbed his face, "Aunt Lin, I heard that Chu Chen was adopted before, right?"

Lin Ruoping's expression froze for a moment when she heard this, and although she returned to normal in the next second, Zhuang Yan still noticed it keenly. His heart sank for no reason, and he felt that this past event would not be good.

Lin Ruoping stopped what she was doing, and met the solemn questioning eyes. The two faced each other silently. The sound of children laughing and playing outside the window suddenly poured in from the window, and the room was quiet for about a minute. Looking away, the tense shoulders suddenly relaxed.

"Little Shen had a miserable life when he was a child." Her opening remark was like this, as if talking about the past requires an extremely strong determination to support it, and then, she began to talk about a certain part of Chu Chen's past in a very flat tone.

"Xiao Shen and I's parents are college classmates. His mother suffers from thalassemia, which may be quite serious. I didn't have much contact with his parents back then. I don't know the details. I only know that she died two years after giving birth. Passed away from the disease. I don’t know whether the disease is inherited or not, but Xiao Shen has congenital allergies, and I only found out about it later.”

Hearing this, Zhuang Yan's thoughts quickly disappeared, and he thought to himself, don't Chu Chen's parents have any relatives or friends?Anyway, it's better than living in an orphanage, right?He wanted to ask this question, but he opened his lips and chose to remain silent first.

"He was just two years old when he came here. At that time, he was not tall, and he didn't look big." Lin Ruoping gestured with both hands, "He was white, and he looked a little shrunken. When I first saw him I think this child is beautiful, but his life is hard."

"At that time in the courtyard, I didn't think that the children grew up together. Although he didn't get close to anyone, he was never bullied until he started elementary school. I don't know when he came back every day. Dirty, the face and neck look like someone has whipped them, the marks are one by one."

"However, this kid is very stubborn. I asked him what he did and refused to tell me. I could see it. One day I went to pick him up and saw him and a few boys who were about his age blocking the school gate and fighting. I beat him, and several people surrounded him, pointing at him, saying that he was a monster and a freak. It was also that time that I found out that he was born with allergies, and the onset began when he was five years old, and his face was tanned by the sun."

The child's concept of right and wrong in the world is not strong, and his emotions cannot be controlled freely. He expresses his love for something with pleasure, and similarly, he will naturally show rejection and disgust for things he hates.

Boys are aggressive and aggressive, and are not restricted by age. Most people are like this since they were young. Chu Chen was not a popular personality, not to mention he got sick later, his skin became red and peeling, his whole face seemed to have been scalded by boiling water, and the marks were even worse. It was shocking, which directly led to him becoming the target of these people.

There were a few people who belittled him, even beat and scolded him as a treat between classes, while yelling fiercely, while threatening him not to sue the teacher, so as to gain the attention of other people in the class.Usually at such times, there is always a group of enthusiastic people who like to watch the excitement, applaud the arrogant few people, and spit at him along the way.

Once Chu Chen started to resist, these people would intensify and make jokes about him being a monster. Later, the story of a freak in a class in the first grade spread throughout the school, and people came to their class every class break. Pointing at the door.

Chu Chen was deeply disturbed by it. He didn't know about his situation at school until Lin Ruoping picked him up from school one day. At that time, he had been subjected to such unilateral bullying for more than two weeks.

Some people say that harm to children is not harm, but this is a fallacy in itself.Others always feel that children don't remember things, and some things are naturally forgotten over time.

Chu Chen hadn't forgotten that Lin Ruoping hadn't asked about this matter, but since then, Chu Chen has become more and more silent, sometimes not even saying a word for two or three days.

When Chu Chen was adopted for the first time, he was just in the third grade. When Lin Ruoping told him about it when he came home from school, he didn't respond either. He was neither happy nor unwilling.

……

"The one who adopted him was a single man in his thirties. He said...he said he didn't like women, and he couldn't get married in this life, so he wanted to adopt a child. Xiao Shen was good-looking, and he was picked right away." Lin Ruoping Said, "I remember a couple who came to pick him up that day, they looked harmonious and they were the man's elder brother and sister-in-law. When they picked him up, they promised me that they would take good care of Xiao Shen."

A man who doesn't like women?That means, this man may like men?

Due to standing there for too long, the water in the vegetable basin became cold again, and the solemn hand rested on the bottom of the basin, but he could no longer feel the cold. He silently stared at a vegetable leaf in a daze, without blinking his eyes.

At a certain moment, an emotion similar to heartache spread again from the bottom of his heart. This emotion came quickly and was unforgettable, like a cold-blooded sledgehammer, hitting his heart like an ice cave again and again. .

"That family is very rich." Lin Ruoping paused for a moment, as if caught in a new round of memories, and continued after a while: "I thought Xiao Shen could live a good life at that time, he is a good boy, although he There is not much to say, but I know it, and I am happy for him."

It's a pity that the good times didn't last long, Chu Chen moved out of the orphanage for only half a year, and moved back in a snowy afternoon.Lin Ruoping went to ask, only to hear that the man had a boyfriend, and the two planned to fly abroad to settle down. Although they had never taken care of their children, Chu Chen became a legal burden for the two, and the man had nothing to do with him. They had been together before, but their relationship was not deep, so Chu Chen was retired soon after.

"At first, I was worried that Xiao Shen would be in a bad mood when he came back. You can try to imagine that such a small child was taken away for half a year and then returned to the original point. The new life and new environment that I expected in my heart all disappeared. I'm worried for a while, I'm afraid he won't be able to think about it." Lin Ruoping's face changed a lot when she said this, "Fortunately, he is still the same as before, I observed it for a while before I felt relieved."

"Chu Chen gives me the feeling... quite strong." Although I feel that using the word "strong" to describe Chu Chen is a bit of a second-guess, but from the first time we met until now, Zhuang Yan has always felt this way.

Even though all kinds of rumors about him are flying around, even if he is blinded at school, even if he is not liked by others, he can maintain a firm and brave heart, so as to resist any malice from the outside world and find a soft place Land, in which lived a simple, their own life.

This is probably one of the reasons why he was tempted in the first place - the lover in the heart of a lover, kind, firm, and spotless.