illegitimate child

I'm just a drop in the ocean among those who like Niangniang. Niangniang cultivated three acres of land in Cuiwei Garden, all of which are used to grow medicinal materials.When the medicinal materials in the first season are mature, Cuiwei Medical Center will officially open.Most of the people in the Lenggong were tortured by illnesses. At the beginning, there were few people in the Cuiwei Medical Center.But soon there was the one who couldn't bear to eat the peaches first. It was really a crow meeting a black pig. Coincidentally, it was my old enemy——Chen Guiren.

Now it's time to call the sinner, Mrs. Chen, her whole family was exiled to death, but she was the only one who was punished by gouging out her eyes and cutting her nose, and stayed in the cold palace to suffer the crime of living.

Enemies are extremely jealous when they meet each other, but it's a pity that the Chen family doesn't have a pair of tricks, even if I roll my eyes to the sky, she can't see it.

I have a sharp mind, and I am used to bullying others. Even if my enemy is blind, he is still an enemy.Now that she is asking for help from her mother, I naturally have to vent my anger. Mrs. Chen is leaning on crutches, with a white cloth covering her eyes. I folded my arms and blocked her at the door, looking up and down. Her hair is messy, and there is a huge blood hole under the white cloth. Scabs, half red and half black, so hideous.

"Chen Guiren, do you still remember your slaves?" I leaned against the door and sneered.

Asking this sentence is just for the next respondent, don't you have to ask for a brick to attract jade?Yuan didn't expect her to really remember, after all nobles always forget things too much, not to mention she is still blind now, Chen Guiren at the time regarded me as an ant, so why talk about it now.

"I remember, you are the maid in charge of sweeping the courtyard, Suoqiu." Chen Guiren changed his crutch to another hand, and he really remembered me.

I couldn't tell what it was like for a moment, the words of the run-on person choked in my chest and couldn't spit out, causing the turbid air to rush upwards, and I couldn't stop coughing.

"Tap, tap," Chen Guiren was already leaning on the crutch to enter the door, I closed the door and followed behind her, watching her staggering back, my resentment has been reduced by two points.

It turns out that I am so magnanimous, a word of memorization can relieve my grudges.

"I beg for a dead drug."

When Chen Guiren was sitting still, she kept talking without surprising her, and I panicked and thought she was here to spoil the situation. There are so many crazy women in the cold palace who don't live well and can't see other people's good.The empress' eyes signaled me to be calm and calm, she took off her handgown and put it aside, as if she was having an ordinary heart-to-heart conversation, "Ma'am, if you ask for medicine from me, you must abide by my rules."

Chen Guiren nodded slightly, caressing a cracked jade bracelet from his wrist, and said in a calm tone, "I only have this."

The empress shook her head and said with a smile: "Ma'am, I want to hear a story. If you can tell a good story, I can give you both dead medicine and crude medicine."

"Then let's start with my eyes..." Chen Guiren caressed the white cloth with his fingertips, speaking slowly and softly, stopping to recall from time to time, as if there was a past and present life between the past and the present.

"I was born in a family of officials and officials since I was a child. In my generation, the whole family has only one daughter like me. Whatever I want, whatever they can give me, the elders have never been stingy. This has also cultivated my arrogance. , My heart has grown up. Gradually, I am no longer satisfied with my cousin who made a marriage contract since childhood, and married with my fingertips."

"I think he is cowardly and has no talent. I always feel that only the queen is worthy of me, so I entered the harem regardless of my parents' opposition."

"Your Majesty, Your Majesty..."

When Chen said this, he paused for a long time, and turned to the empress with his eyes covered with white cloth, as if he was looking at the empress: "Your Majesty, he has never had any half-hearted affection for me, but he has paid a little attention to you. "

My heart skipped a beat, and I looked around Cuiwei Garden subconsciously. Indeed, only the empress is different in this big cold palace.

Empresses are different.

"I'm only worth a little bit," Niangniang said nonchalantly.

Chen nodded in agreement, and sighed: "Your Majesty, he has always been like this."

I panicked, they don't know what is hidden in Cuiwei Garden, but I know it clearly, and private talk about His Majesty behind the scenes, if it spreads, I'm afraid it's... , I was relieved.

"Every step I take recklessly in the palace will plant the seeds of disaster for my relatives, until the relatives are worthless, and the whole Chen family will be in disaster." Chen took off the blindfolded white cloth: "I gouged out this eye myself. First, I hate knowing people, and second, I am ashamed to see my parents again.”

She didn't know the direction, and when she spoke, her dark eyes stared straight at me, and my back felt chills, and I forgot all the beams and etiquette, and said in a broken voice, "Didn't you have an affair with the guard?"

Mrs. Chen smiled bitterly: "If you want to commit a crime, there is no reason to worry about it."

I was stunned, thinking to myself, I stabbed the wrong villain.

"Are you still satisfied with my story? I have no other desire for the rest of my life, but death."

This request is extremely absurd, I quickly realized that Chen wanted to die, bit her tongue, threw herself into a well, hanged herself, cut her wrists, there are countless ways to die, why did she ask her mother to give her a death sentence?

I rubbed my chin, my eyes lit up, yes, Mrs. Chen dare not die, His Majesty won't let her die.Seeing that there was something wrong with the empress, she begged the empress to come.But if the empress goes against His Majesty's wishes, what will the empress do?This is the palace, and His Majesty is the Son of Heaven.

So what if I understand, I'm just a mere slave, no matter how kind my empress treats me, I have no way of asking her to make a decision.I can only pray in my heart, be cruel, and don't agree.

"it is good."

The word is fixed.

Sure enough, I thought.

Not long after Mrs. Chen left, she died of a sudden illness. I have survived for many days, but I have not seen someone from His Majesty come to make trouble. Gradually, I also forgot about this matter, this person.I just thought of it by chance, and said with emotion, another miserable person.

During the Mid-Autumn Festival, I made some moon cakes for my mother. I can only cook some farm meals, but the cakes I made were not good in appearance and tasted very ordinary.But the empress seemed to have found a treasure, she moved out the soft couch and the scorpion and placed them in the courtyard, beckoned me to sit down, and started to eat one bite after another with both hands.

I looked at the bright moon in the sky, and I could see the end of the day with my mother's company, but it also gave birth to color.

"Suoqiu, what are you putting in these pancakes? I've never eaten them before." Her cheeks were bulging, and her speech was vague.

"Back to the mother, the lard and sesame seeds." I was surprised, the mother always gave me a sense of contradiction, she had the innocence that can only be raised by a rich and noble family, but she knew nothing about etiquette. Common things, in her view, are extremely novel.

"There are many things I can't tell you, but today I want to try to tell you your name. It is the etiquette of the Central Plains people. If you want to ask your name, you should give your real name first. My name is Nalan and my name is weak." God also took pity on her, and allocated fifteen months to her alone.

She is Moon.

try?I noticed what she said, and with a thought, I asked tentatively: "Your Majesty knows?"

She turned her head to look at me with clear eyes and sighed softly, "I know." Then she said firmly: "I know."

So I know, I thought for joy in the bitterness, it is better to be sober when I live soberly and muddleheadedly, fearing that my mother will accumulate food, I snatched the pancakes she was holding on to, and moved them together to my side, protecting them with my hands. He said seriously: "My surname is Jiang, and my name is Suoqiu."

Oops, I forgot etiquette too.

The empress didn't care about my rudeness, she stared at the pancakes without blinking, bit her lower lip lightly with her white teeth, and said aggrievedly: "It's not that I want to eat, it's that the baby in my belly is hungry."

A thunder on the ground knocked me into a daze, and I asked stupidly, "What?"

The empress pulled me to listen to the lower abdomen, "Listen quickly, he is talking about wanting to eat moon cakes."

The month is still shallow, how can you talk!I pressed my face against the warm lower abdomen, and for a moment I didn't know how to react.

Only one thought rings true.

Emperor Chang Tong is really crazy, now the harem has few heirs, only the noble concubine has a son under her knees, and the other concubines have nothing to do.He actually sent the empress who was pregnant with the child to the cold palace?Afraid that you have too many sons?

Wait, what if Emperor Changtong was sent to the cold palace because he was afraid that his mother would be murdered by a woman in the palace?I thought of the guards who were secretly monitoring Cuiwei Garden, and thought of the delicacies delivered in different ways, it was really possible.

The empress noticed that I was in a trance, and patted the back of my head, "Suoqiu, please give the child a name. I haven't read many books in the Central Plains, so I'm afraid that I will give him a bad name and make him laugh."

I was so frightened that I fell to the ground and named the son of the dragon and the grandson of the phoenix. Did I eat the heart of a bear and the gall of a leopard?Emperor Changtong can't kill me alive.

The empress saw my concerns, and said softly, "I'm just shouting in private, it's fine."

It's not okay to shout in private!Originally, I was resolute and would never touch the tiger's beard, but I couldn't resist the sweet words of the empress, so I couldn't turn my mind and agreed for a while.

Name it, the moonlight is very good today, why not choose the moon?I shook my head, it wouldn't be right if it was a boy.

Suddenly one word entered my heart.

Ling.

I said to the empress in a strange way: "Ling, my name is Ling."

The word Ling has many images, Lingshuang is proud of the snow, it will be Ling Jueding, and you can see all the small mountains at a glance.

But at the time I was thinking of Ling Yun.

May this child give birth to wings and feathers one day, soar above the clouds, fly out of the green tiles and red walls, embrace the moon in the nine heavens, go to the Milky Way to pick up the stars, and all the scenery and beautiful things in the world will be in his arms.

"Song Ling, Song Ling, he is Song Ling." The empress caressed her lower abdomen, her eyes were full of blessings and expectations, "Then let me choose a word for him, how about Duyu?"

What kind of strange word is this, I despise it very much, and said perfunctorily: "Yeah, it's very good."

The empress took it seriously, she stood up to protect her lower abdomen and spun around, "Ling'er, you are my unique beauty."

The clothes are flying, almost wanting to flap their wings.

The future cannot be chased, and the past and yesterday are not dared to remember. The Mid-Autumn Festival that year was actually the last fragment of a dream, and the days to come will be devastated.

As the months grew longer, the Empress's Cuiwei Medical Clinic stopped, and she was locked in the inner room with silver chains tied to her feet and hands.

Even I can't see my mother, there are always rows of black iron forests standing in Cuiwei Garden, I can only look at Cuiwei Garden from a distance and let my heart burn, powerless.

I often deceive myself and others, Your Majesty has a mother in my heart, and my mother is still pregnant, so she will be safe and sound.

Unexpectedly, the last side was a farewell.

After a few months, I saw my mother again. The floor and mattress in the room were completely soaked in blood. My mother was lying on the couch like gold paper and was dying. A crumpled and ugly child slept next to her. She didn’t cry, just like a dead baby.

When the lady heard the footsteps, she opened her eyelids with great effort, only a crack was exposed. She still wanted to talk to me with a smile like before, but the corners of her lips were only drawn halfway, and then she lost her strength.

I heard her weak voice: "Suoqiu, come and take a look, this is Ling'er."

For the first time, I knew that when people are in extreme grief, they can’t make a sound. All five senses are deprived, and the grief that can’t be vented is squeezed in the heart.

I also lost strength and slipped and knelt in a pool of blood. The pungent smell of blood always reminded me that this was not a dream.Why did the lady with excellent medical skills give birth prematurely and collapse? Who harmed her?Who is it?Only by turning my grief into hatred and distributing some to my delusional enemies can I not be crushed by the huge wave.

"It's me," Your Majesty seemed to see through my inner demons, she raised her eyelids with effort, and said word by word, "Suoqiu, don't blame others. Everything is decided by me, the only way, the only way..."

The voice came to an abrupt end, the empress curled her fingertips up and back and forth several times before gathering enough strength to get up, she staggered towards me with the baby in her arms, "I'll leave Ling'er to you, and you will be her biological mother from now on, Suoqiu, I ..."

Niangniang fell to the ground like the fallen leaves that I swept countless times, and she was smashed to pieces. She was more scattered than autumn leaves. Can't send it out.

Only intermittent howling.

Emperor Changtong actually showed kindness, granted his mother's last wish, and sent a green leather car to take me and Song Ling, who was only breathing, out of the palace, and walked to Lihua Lane.

Song Ling lost his mother, and he used his slender fingers to hold me all the way, I should love him, I stared at Song Ling's transparent fingers expressionlessly, peeled off his fingers without hesitation, and put them elsewhere.

Song Ling, I should love you, but I really hate you.

You are the son of Emperor Changtong, you are the son of the murderer, and at the same time you are the son of the empress.

After arriving in Lihua Lane, I found a piece of jade pendant in Song Ling's mattress, recalling the strange stones in southern Xinjiang that my wife had told me, and with the idea of ​​giving it a try, I soaked the wall stones in water at night, avoiding people's eyes and ears,

Fifteen days later, with the slowly emerging fluorescence, I learned everything.

Nanjiang, the valley of the genius doctor, Nalan, warding off evil, destroying the door.And the unfinished words of the lady, "Only in this way..."

"Only in this way can Ling'er have a chance to survive."

If you are born full-term, you must inherit and ward off evil, and you will be dissected immediately, and you cannot escape death.Only premature birth, no inheritance and evil.When Emperor Changtong saw that the child was not of blood, he must have been suspicious, but the empress had asked the genius doctor Gu survivors to make a fake book.

Only when the baby boy reaches the crown can he inherit evil.

In this way, Ling'er has a chance of survival.

Song Ling grew up day by day, he didn't have the shadow of Emperor Chang Tong in his eyebrows, but his disposition was exactly the same as Emperor Chang Tong, he was born with a cold heart.

He stood under the pear tree and talked to his shadow, and I stood in the house and counted the pear blossoms through the window.

In fact, in these years, in the long and boundless loneliness, love and hatred have already faded.Seeing a kitten-like child grow up under my knees, able to run and jump, I am used to chasing his back in the shadows.

Empress, you told me, forgive me for not obeying.

Love will only make Ling weak, and only hatred can be engraved in his heart.His future is muddy at every step, surrounded by ferocious beasts on the outside, and an unkind biological father inside, any hesitation and soft-heartedness can cost him his life.

Ma'am, I can't raise Ling'er like you, forgiving and kind, I want him to be like his biological father, who regards everything as a straw dog.

I want him to live.

I engraved the initial hatred on his spine, Ling'er, when you can't go on in the future, when you can't stand up, when you fall into the abyss, just think of me, think of my curse, think of the hatred for me, shoot Clean the clothes and soil, and straighten the spine that will never break.

Go on, live on, even if it is covered with blood, even if the crime is unforgivable.

There are two mothers in the Hall of Yama to atone for your sins.

"No, you are more disgusting than an illegitimate child, you are a monster, Song Ling, you remember, no matter what happens to you in the future, you must remember to me, you are a monster not worthy of living, and there will never be anyone Love you."

"You were never an illegitimate child, you were a treasure given to my mother and me by God. You were never a monster, you are our son. Song Ling, you remember, no matter what happens in the future, you must remember, live, We love you forever."

The bullock cart has long since disappeared, and I can no longer follow your back like I used to, and stick to the wall to listen to your footsteps coming home.I wish you the nine days of Lingyun, and be happy with the wind.

Looking around at the candlelight, the lights are flickering, and the person I want to see can no longer be seen.

Ma'am, I'm here to die for you.