Self-indulgent love

22 May [-].

Zhou Yue is already a junior, almost a senior.Xiao Xiao, who is bored, has already started studying for a thesis.And it's almost over.There are still a few points that are unclear.Therefore, Xiao Xiao planned to go to the school library to find information.

Ever since, Xiao Xiao said hello to Wu Xinyu who was still playing games, and went to the library with a notebook and a pen.

When Xiao Xiao went to the library, he took a seat first, put away his things, and then went to find the books he needed.five related books

Of the five books, Xiao Xiao only read three in one afternoon.However, the contents of the three books are basically what Xiao Xiao needs.

Xiao Xiao looked at the sky and then at his watch.It was six o'clock.Well, it's time to go back.

Xiao Xiao tidied up the messy table she made for you.Put the book back in its original place.Gather your notes.

Before going back to the dormitory, I went to the cafeteria to buy two meals.

When returning to the dormitory, Wu Xinyu was working hard to kill the monsters.

Xiao Xiao's dormitory is a six-person dormitory, and the other four usually don't go back to the dormitory very often.So this dormitory is basically the world of Wu Xinyu and Xiao Xiao.The beds in other dormitories were ruthlessly used to store things.Of course, they also greeted them, and the others said, just let it go!Two people are at ease.

"Fox! Put down your earphones!" Xiao Xiao shouted to Wu Xinyu dissatisfied.Why do you keep playing games recently?Didn't you say you want to be a top student?

"...Kill! Idiot! You can't kill me! Are you a pig?" Xiao Xiao was answered by Wu Xinyu's angry scolding.

"..." Xiao Xiao instantly blacked out.Is this woman crazy?

"Oh? Why is the computer screen black? Shit! Power outage! What's going on! I almost won! Did I make a mistake!" Wu Xinyu's computer suddenly went black.Let her just want to curse.Of course, I also scolded it.

Get out of bed cursingly.I saw Xiao Xiao standing beside her bed with a displeased face.

"Have you played enough?" Xiao Xiao asked with a dark face.

"Hey, Xiaoxiao, you're back? Let me tell you, I almost won just now! But the school had a power outage! I'm so mad!" Wu Xinyu scolded dissatisfied.

"I pulled it out." Xiao Xiao said coldly.

"What! Xiaoxiao! How could you unplug me! Do you know that I almost won!" Wu Xinyu said frantically!Ah ah ah ah ah ah ah!Her equipment!

"Let's eat." Xiao Xiao didn't care about Wu Xinyu's reaction.Passed the meal over.I also ate it myself.

"Ah? That's right! I haven't eaten all day. Xiaoxiao is earning money after eating enough equipment. It's better for Xiaoxiao to treat me well."

After 15 minutes, both were full.The work of tidying up fell on Wu Xinyu as a matter of course.

"Xiaoxiao, let's go out for a stroll later." Wu Xinyu said suddenly.

"Go shopping? Where should I go? My thesis is about to be finished. Next time." Xiao Xiao said with a lack of interest.

"You've just finished writing in your third year? What will we scumbags do? Stop writing. Go out with me quickly. I heard that there will be a performance in the city center tonight." Wu Xinyu said excitedly.

"Oh."

"Get excited, Xiaoxiao! Let's go. I'm writing the thesis when I get back. There's no rush." ​​Wu Xinyu arrived.

"Well, I got it. Let's talk about it after taking a shower." Xiao Xiao said lightly.

……

An hour later, Wu Xinyu pulled Xiao Xiao out as he wished.

When they came, there were already many people.The two squeezed back and forth and finally came to the front row.But unfortunately it got lost.

Xiao Xiao called Wu Xinyu, who was very anxious.Xiao Xiao said she was fine, so Wu Xinyu didn't have to worry.Now she can't find anyone, so she can watch the show with peace of mind.After the performance, the two were looking for a place to meet up.There are really a lot of people to meet.Wu Xinyu had no choice but to agree.

After watching the performance for a while, Xiao Xiao still felt that he lacked interest, so he squeezed out from the crowd.Finally squeezed out but bumped into someone.Xiao Xiao quickly apologized.Ready to leave after speaking.But the person he hit didn't move.Xiao Xiao raised his head in doubt.But the moment he saw the man's face, he froze.The same cold and desolate face as hers.

It turned out to be Zhou Yue's boyfriend.That one was only seen twice, or three times this time.But it was deeply imprinted in her heart.her pain.

"You?" The boy spoke first.

"Why are you here?" Xiao Xiao frowned and said.

"Heh, I'm here for whatever reason you come. I really feel bad every time I see you." The boy sneered.

"To each other. If that's the case, let's make room." Xiao Xiao said coldly.As he spoke, he wanted to bypass him.

"Wait. Do you like Xiaoyue?" The boy stopped Xiao Xiao.asked coldly.

Xiao Xiao was taken aback when he heard the boy's words.Fortunately, everyone is watching the show, and no one is in the mood to care about them.Xiao Xiao breathed a sigh of relief.

"What should I do? Are you afraid that others will know? You bloody gay." The boy mocked.When he said the last three words, he pronounced them one by one, with an emphasis on his tone.

"I like her, so what?" Xiao Xiao said with a sullen face.

"I didn't expect you to be gay, it's disgusting." The boy said in disgust.At first glance, he is a standard straight man, and he cannot accept homosexuality at all.

"Thank you for your reminder. Get out if you have nothing to do." Xiao Xiao said coldly.

"I'm telling you! Stay away from Xiaoyue! You disgusting homosexual! Otherwise, I'll be rude to you!" the boy warned.

"Is it enough? Can you get out?" Xiao Xiao said coldly.She is very irritable now.Has lost patience.

This man is sick.

"What are you two doing?" The boy wanted to say something else.But was interrupted by a voice.

They all knew that it was Zhou Yue.

"Zhe, why are you here? I keep looking for you." Zhou Yue complained to the boy.Then he turned to Xiao Xiao and smiled, "Xiaoxiao, you are here too."

She was already annoyed enough hearing that boy say that.The appearance of Zhou Yue and the intimate interaction between the two stimulated her nerves even more.

"Xiaoyue, bring your man! Get out of my sight!" Xiao Xiao said coldly with a sullen face.

"This is... what's wrong? Xiaoxiao, why are you so loud?" Zhou Yue asked cautiously.It was also the first time for Xiao Xiao to have such an expression.Some inexplicable.

"Oh, some women also feel disgusted." The boy snorted.

"Zhe! How do you say such a thing." Zhou Yue frowned and said angrily.

"Xiaoyue! How can you help her talk!" the boy said dissatisfied.

"Why did I talk! You made Xiaoxiao angry! How could you do this? What did you say to Xiaoxiao?" Zhou Yue quarreled with the boy inexplicably.

"You! Xiaoyue!" The boy couldn't understand that his girlfriend scolded him!

"Shut up! Have you said enough! If you want to quarrel, go to another place!" Xiao Xiao said coldly.

"Xiaoxiao, I...don't be angry. If Zhe said anything too much, I will apologize for him." Zhou Yue said aggrievedly.

"No need! It's the best apology if you take him out of my sight!" After finishing speaking, he turned around and left.

Zhou Yue originally wanted to say something, but she saw Xiao Xiao turned around again, and said to her word by word, "Also, please take a detour if you see me in the future. I don't want to see you at all! "

After finishing speaking, he ignored Zhou Yue and turned around to leave.

Hearing Xiao Xiao's words, Zhou Yue was completely stunned.Don't want to...see her...

Xiao Xiao, who left the performance scene, called Wu Xinyu and went back to the dormitory directly.

It was clearly a colorful spring, but her heart was cold, aching and hard.

The author has something to say: Three more!There is one more chapter.There is another story.This article is completely over.

☆, 34

25 November [-].

Xiao Xiao looked up at the five-star hotel in front of him.Clenching his fists, he endured the pain and walked in.

Today is Zhou Yue's wedding day.She received the invitation on January [-]st, and the invitation was sent to her home. She and Zhou Yue haven't seen each other for at least four years, let alone contacted each other.She didn't know why Zhou Yue knew her home address.After graduating from university, Xiao Xiao stayed in school to study for graduate school. After finishing the graduate school, he stayed in this city directly, and several others returned to their own cities.Occasionally, I would go to see her, but several of them were busy with work.Can't see each other often.But the relationship is still good.

Those few people seemed to be the only ones who knew about her situation.But several people will definitely not tell Xiao Xiao.What the hell was that telling her?

After receiving the invitation, Xiao Xiao was in a very bad mood.Drank unconscious every night.It was even worse yesterday, so drunk that I almost fell asleep on the road.She bet that if she woke up today, she would come to Zhou Yue's wedding.This morning, she woke up unexpectedly.So she came anyway.

That's right, she's getting married, Xiaoyue is getting married, and the person she loves the most in this life is getting married.How could she not come?Xiaoyue doesn't love her, she can't be with Xiaoyue.Then, seeing her happy is probably the only wish in this life.She also wanted to see who that lucky man was.At least... just take a look... before you give up.Although, a few years ago, she was disheartened.

When Xiao Xiao took his seat, not many people came.Only then did she realize that her circle of friends was so different and far from Zhou Yue's.I don't know any of the people here.And they all seem to be quite rich.

Everyone is seated, and the wedding has almost begun.This is a typical Chinese wedding.The bride and groom are all in red, which is very auspicious.

Zhou Yue is very beautiful today, wearing a typical Chinese wedding hair accessory, and wearing some hair accessories on her head.She is wearing a long red dress, which is a typical dress for Chinese brides.The only special thing is that she only put on light makeup today, unlike other brides who wear heavy makeup, but she doesn't feel peaceful.

I haven't seen her in four or five years, and Zhou Yue has completely grown up.Xiao Xiao used to think that Zhou Yue was pretty, but she was still young and tender.The current Zhou Yue has been tempered for many years, she is much more mature and generous, and her charm is even more unabated.In addition, today is a day of great joy. People say that women wearing wedding dresses are the most beautiful, but Xiao Xiao thinks that no one is more beautiful than wearing Zhou Yue, which she likes. Maybe this is the legendary beauty in the eyes of beholders.

Xiao Xiao looked at the bridegroom officer, and it turned out to be the boyfriend Zhou Yue made in high school.The man was dressed in a Chinese dress, with a tall and straight figure, and a happy and dazzling smile.At this time, she was holding the bride's hand, taking care of her carefully.On the other side, Zhou Yue had a shy and happy expression on her face.

What a happy couple, Xu Shi was dazzled by the happy expressions of the two, Xiao Xiao actually felt less heartbroken.Instead, he blesses Zhou Yue from his heart.I also felt a little bit of relief. She is so happy, so I don't have to worry about it all the time.I don't even have the qualifications...

At the beginning of the wedding, the groom took the microphone and said various vows as usual, expressing that he would take good care of Zhouyue, so that relatives and friends could rest assured that Zhouyue would be handed over to her.After that, the table took turns to toast.Everyone at every table makes it difficult for the bride and groom, and the groom always protects the bride carefully.Watching this scene, Xiao Xiao's heart finally began to calm down.As long as the groom can take good care of the bride... that's fine.

Before Zhou Yue came to her table to toast, Xiao Xiao left.Xiao Xiao can give them blessings, but she can't watch two happy people come over to toast her, it's too cruel, she doesn't have self-torture mentality.

At the banquet, apart from paying attention to the new couple, Xiao Xiao was immersed in drinking. Xiao Xiao, who was drinking well, was already drunk at this time. When he went to the bathroom, he splashed his face with his hands violently. To ease the mood.

At this time, a woman walked in, also drunk.At this time, I was crying like a child, and seeing someone was like seeing a life-saving straw.Grab Xiao Xiao and start crying.

"Wuuuu...you know? I've liked him for five years. I treat him well. I buy him all kinds of snacks every day, and buy him what he likes to eat. But he gave it to that woman when he saw it. That woman actually had a good time eating. I heard that they have been together since high school. Damn, haven’t you gotten tired of being together for so long? The seven-year itch, the eight-year pain. Why did they pass it? Married. What's so good about that woman..."

Listening to this woman's cry, Xiao Xiao also began to ask himself, what's so good about that woman, it made you think about it for almost 15 years, and in the end it wasn't yours, but someone else's woman.does it worth?

worth it.

Xiao Xiao didn't comfort the woman, and he didn't think it was necessary to comfort her.Putting the woman aside, he walked out on his own.As soon as he walked outside the hotel, he saw the flamboyant red sports car. Gong Ming was leaning on the car, waving to her with a smile on his face.

He knew he would come, and since he was busy with work, he would also turn down work and come here today.Those few people probably also wanted to be blocked by Gong Ming.

Pulling back his thoughts, Xiao Xiao didn't look at Gong Ming's sports car, but just wanted to help his forehead.

Why does this man have such a hobby? Doesn't his wife feel disgusted?

Gong Ming got married two years ago to Ji Jingrou, the bridesmaid was her, and the best man was Ji Jingrou's brother Ji Nanxiao.When Gong Ming and Jing Rou dated back then, the Xiao Gong and Xiao Gong families had a lot of resentment.They all hope that Gong Ming and Xiao Xiao will be together.But a few kids liked it, so they accepted it.

I heard that Ji Nanxiao is very tired of his girlfriend now, and he is about to get married soon.I feel... I'm going to be a bridesmaid again... Because Ji Nanxiao's girlfriend is Wu Xinyu... Why are these guys eating grass on the edge of their nests!

It's okay to eat, but also eat some grass that has mutated.It is understandable for Gong Ming to have a crush on Ji Jingrou and Xiao Xiao, but what is it that Ji Nanxiao has a crush on Wu Xinyu.

Putting away his thoughts, he directly got into Gong Ming's car.

"How is it? Doesn't it feel good?" Gong Ming said gloatingly.

"Don't tell me...it's really good. Seeing her marrying someone else feels quite at ease. After all, someone is taking care of her." Xiao Xiao said jokingly.Suddenly there is infinite emotion in my heart.

"Well... not bad. You can still joke. It means you're in a good mood. It means you're okay, and you think about it a lot. I don't have to worry about it. You silly girl. Go back and clean up the wine in your refrigerator for me! " Gong Ming said seriously.He knew how Xiao Xiao lived these days.We can't let her go on like this.My own sister hurts herself.

"Okay, you! Drive your car well." Xiao Xiao said helplessly.She has worried them all these years.I'm sorry.

After Xiao Xiao returned home, he never came out again.

In the evening, Xiao Xiao sat alone on the balcony, which was full of wine bottles.Xiao Xiao was so drunk that he passed out.When she came back, Gong Ming reminded her of a cruel fact.

Hehe, I've been drinking too much these past few days, and I got married last month, so I'm in a bad mood.How can you remember this day?

It's ridiculous that they got married on this day?Are you mocking her?Or is it just a coincidence?Have you really forgotten all about it?It's cruel.

The short hand of the watch in his hand pointed to eleven, and the long hand also pointed to eleven.There are still 5 minutes until twelve o'clock, and 5 minutes until the next day.

Xiao Xiao stood on the balcony, looking at the brightly lit city outside the room.Xiao Xiao smiled lightly, but tears flowed from his eyes.Talk to yourself as if talking to yourself.

"Happy birthday, Xiao Xiao."

Just like seeing Zhou Yue's profile picture turned into a couple's profile picture on her birthday.It hurts so much.But this time it seemed to be a little different, more indifferent.

This time... I can really let go.She is married.There is no more chance.No, she never had a chance.

Heartache, uncontrollable.At some point, Xiao Xiao fell asleep on the balcony.

The next day, Xiao Xiao got up early.Asked for leave from the company.Cleaned up my house once.Sort out everything about Zhou Yue.Then put it neatly in the box.After that, pack.

There are not many things, only one box.

Change your clothes and go out.After an hour's taxi ride, I came to the outskirts far from downtown.Take a deep look.He lit the lighter without hesitation.

After a while, the paper box caught fire.Xiao Xiao saw that the fire was getting bigger and bigger. After about 10 minutes, the contents of the box were almost burned.

Seeing that things are almost burnt out.Xiao Xiao got up, turned and left.Didn't look back at the things that had turned to ashes.The surroundings are very empty, and she doesn't have to worry about causing a fire.

This time, we really have to start over.

A foot of crimson beats Quchen, and the old is not as good as the new.

Albizia peach kernels are finally hateful, and there is no one in Xu Yuanlai.

Light up the lights at the bottom of the well to make a deep candle, and go together for a long time.

Linglong dice puts red beans on the bones and knows nothing.

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☆、The sad fanwaijun

15 years, 470 five days, 13 hours, 780 seconds.So far away yet so fleeting.How many 15 years can a person have.

Xiao Xiao spent 15 years loving someone.Love forgets the original intention.

At the age of 11, Xiao Xiao said that this girl must be sick, and he must stay away from her.That year, they became close friends. At the age of 12, Xiao Xiao said, Xiaoyue, please forgive me, I was wrong, I apologize, I'm sorry.That year, Xiao Xiao bowed his head to others for the first time. At the age of 13, Xiao Xiao said, we are best friends and we will be together for the rest of our lives.You won't leave me, will you.The answer Zhou Yue gave was yes, that year, there was a crack in their friendship. At the age of 14, Xiao Xiao said to Zhou Yue on the phone, Xiaoyue, wait for me after school, I want to give you a surprise.Zhou Yue's reaction was not as excited as she thought. That year, Xiao Xiao gave someone a gift for the first time. At the age of 15, Xiao Xiao said, leave me alone, I will be like this all my life.Without Satsuki, I don't want anything.That year, Xiao Xiao began to indulge himself, and finally only passed an ordinary high school in the senior high school entrance examination. At the age of 16, Xiao Xiao said that her rejection didn't give me any reason to cheer up, it just made me lose my mind.It hurts so much that I can't help myself.That year, Zhou Yue rejected her confession, and Xiao Xiao gave up on himself.I also have a boyfriend. At the age of 17, Xiao Xiao said, I can't give you the love you want, but I will try my best to treat you well. When I say I want to be with you, I am not just talking.In that year, Xiao Xiao had his first boyfriend in his life, and maybe his last.It took only five months from being together to breaking up.She learned to pull herself together. , Xiao Xiao said, I will definitely go to X University, and letting go of her may be my best choice. That year, Xiao Xiao was admitted to X University.I got my original self back. At the age of 19, Xiao Xiao said, you don't have to look at me like that, and you don't have to persuade me anymore.What kind of feeling do I have, I don't know yet?That year, Xiao Xiao, who was bothered by persuasion, finally broke out. At the age of 20, Xiao Xiao said, you are finally together, treat each other well, be human, and be dedicated.That year, when Gong Ming and Ji Jingrou were together, Xiao Xiao felt relieved for the first time, this was the happiest thing for her in the past few years. At the age of 21, Xiao Xiao said take your man and get out of my sight, I don't want to see you at all.That year, Xiao Xiao spoke harsh words to Zhou Yue for the first time, and she knew she had hurt Zhou Yue.It hurt more than Zhou Yue, and her heart became cold again. At the age of 22, Xiao Xiao said, I don't plan to go out to work after graduation, and my application for studying abroad has been approved.I think, stay in this school.That year, Xiao Xiao graduated from university and stayed in school to study as a graduate student. At the same time, he let go of his attachments. At the age of 23, Xiao Xiao said, I am very happy that you can let go of the past. That year, Xiao Xiao went home to visit his parents and met Shao Ziling by chance. He already had a girlfriend, and she finally didn't have to feel guilty anymore. At the age of 24, Xiao Xiao said, the two of you are together, I don’t have to worry about the fox’s marriage anymore, you should be together well, that year, Ji Nanxiao and Wu Xinyu were together, and there was nothing more to do Tripped her. At the age of 25, Xiao Xiao said that life may be like this, and she will not be shaken by anything. Her heart seems to be dead. That year, Xiao Xiao didn't know that she would attend Zhou Yue's wedding the next year .Xiao Xiao said that at the age of 26, Xiao Xiao said that she was getting married, how could she not go?That's the one she loves the most.That year, Xiao Xiao attended Zhou Yue's wedding, feeling pain and happiness.

Fifteen years ago, Xiao Xiao said, in fact, there are not so many things to care about, and love may not be established at all with me. After 15 years, Xiao Xiao said goodbye, first love.Goodbye, favorite.

Xiao Xiao 15 years ago did not understand love, and Xiao Xiao 15 years later still does not understand love.Even if she really doesn't understand.That's why Shao Ziling was hurt so deeply.

If there is anyone who she is most sorry for in her life, it must be Shao Ziling.But not loving is not loving.Reluctantly will only hurt deeper.He has a girlfriend now.Ye Hao, Ye Hao.

Xiao Xiao doesn't know if she will fall in love with anyone in the future, but Zhou Yue must give her the feeling that no one can give her.So strong, so impulsive.

The girl who used to have a bright face is now slim and handsome, and married as a wife.Those beautiful memories began to slowly dissipate.

Those expectations, those loves, those reluctances, those good things, stop here.

Those moments in memory seem to be enough to recall in a lifetime.

【THAN】

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