What if the beta cannot be marked?bite him!

All the movement around seemed to be slowed down, frame by frame, and each scene was clearly palpitating.

Every drop of tear that fell from Lu Zhi's eyes was wrapped with a Chi Jinxian.

Without exception.

Chi Jinxian subconsciously stretched out his hand to catch the crystal clear liquid, and the moment the moistness stained his palm, a colorless flower fainted out, as if he was about to be scalded, and he only felt that his heart was burning uncomfortably.

"I didn't," he said, his voice choked slightly, "brother, I didn't give up on you."

But Lu Zhi obviously didn't believe it, the obvious darkness was still pulling him persistently, he couldn't tell the truth from the fake, or whether he should believe it or not.

So right now, I can only do my best to do whatever I can.

Lu Zhi firmly grabbed Chi Jinxian's wrist, pulled him completely to his side, and then took his hand little by little.

After interlocking his fingers as he wished, he choked up and said: "Don't lie...I can't find you, and I can't find you when I go back to the dormitory-they said you left with someone...Go to the hotel, I will find you I can't find you," Lu Zhi lowered his eyes, his eyelashes were extremely moist, and his tone was full of grievances, "I couldn't find you."

After the words fell, Chi Jinxian seemed to understand.Lu Zhi was in the susceptible period today, after returning home to the dormitory, he didn't see Chi Jinxian there, and then he heard from Ye Liao and the others that he went out with Jing Liqiu, and the place was still in the hotel...

For a moment, the discomfort just now turned into a feeling of helplessness, and Chi Jinxian didn't know whether to laugh or what to do.

At this time, Jing Liqiu, who had already been stunned by the situation in front of him and retreated, finally couldn't bear to be mentioned from time to time, and asked angrily, "How many injections of blocker did you give yourself?"

Lu Zhiquan pretended not to hear, and lowered his head slightly to carefully feel the interlocking hands of himself and Chi Jinxian.

Chi Jinxian had no choice but to go out in person: "How many injections of blocker were given?"

"..." Lu Zhi was silent for a moment, and the tears in the corners of his eyes continued to flow down, as if he never wanted to stop crying, "Three injections."

Jing Liqiu: "..."

"I'm convinced," forgive Jing Liqiu for being educated by Qi Suiyi about Lu Zhi's illness early in the morning, but at this moment he couldn't help but say in admiration, "No wonder you're insane."

After the evaluation, he said "tsk": "It's scary to cry like a dog."

During the alpha susceptible period, they would stay at home. At that time, their pheromones were particularly unstable, otherwise it would be easy to cause accidents if the pheromones leaked out.

For example, being stimulated into estrus, or stimulating others into estrus.

And the Alpha at this time is always irrational.

They are extremely vulnerable and extremely insecure.

Lu Zhi was supposed to stay at home for a week, but he couldn't find Chi Jinxian, so he had no choice but to prick his own glands with needles and ran over in a hurry.

But there were too many blockers, which directly disrupted his pheromone balance, and everything was pressed into his body at once.

No matter what it is, once people are much suppressed, there will always be an uncontrollable explosion when the time comes.

Lu Zhi raised his eyes and stared at Jing Liqiu, the gloomy eyes seemed to overwhelm people, but before he finished staring, he lowered his eyelashes as if he had never done anything bad, and offered Chi Jinxian Say, "I'm not scary."

I was afraid that the other party would believe Jing Liqiu's "scaring to death".

Jing Liqiu: "..."

"Xiaochi," Lu Zhi said, "don't go."

The person in front of him had nothing to do with the mighty Alpha. Lu Zhi completely exposed his most vulnerable self, crumbling in the cool night breeze.

Chi Jinxian exhaled lightly, raised his hand to lightly touch the end of Lu Zhi's eyes, and wiped away those disturbing tears.He raised his head slightly to look at people, and explained in a comforting manner: "Brother, my dad and the others came here to work, and my dad missed me so I came here together. I just went to eat."

After the words fell, it seemed that they really had some soothing effect, and Lu Zhiben's unstoppable tears stopped for a moment.

He stared at Chi Jinxian without blinking, and asked in a hoarse voice as if seeking the truth: "Really?"

Chi Jinxian: "Really."

"Then you don't want me?" Lu Zhi stared at him expectantly, the moisture in his eyes seemed to turn into the essence of praying for a promise.

Let people have nowhere to escape.

Chi Jinxian couldn't help but soften his heart when he saw it, he felt that he had to treat Lu Zhi lightly at this time.

So he thought carefully about how to answer so that Lu Zhi, who was in the susceptible period, could feel better, but before he could speak, the phone rang.

"Daddy." Chi Jinxian bowed his head first to answer the phone.

Yuan Si Bai just yelled "An'an" over there, but before he could say anything else, he was forced to stop talking.

He heard a voice that was obviously crying, very aggrieved and flustered, suddenly said: "You don't even answer me."

Jing Liqiu just watched Lu Zhi, who was obviously getting better just now, turned into a drowning dog who cried even more fiercely in the blink of an eye, and was so shocked that he couldn't be more shocked.

He said "Huh" without a word, this time he was really scared away and ran across the street.

I didn't even look back.

"I, you..." Chi Jinxian's voice suddenly became flustered, as if he didn't know what to do, he just said hastily, "Oh, it's not that I don't answer you, I'm answering my dad's call. Don't cry."

Listening to the movements on the other side, Yuan Si Bai on the other side of the phone finally recovered from his daze, and said, "...An'an, what's wrong with you?"

At this time, Qi Sui also asked in an unbelievable tone: "Who is crying? Lu Zhi?"

Yuan Si Bai: "Huh?"

Chi Sui: "Are you sure?"

Qi Sui also said loudly: "It's shocking because you're not sure!"

Chi Sui: "Ancestor, who is crying over there?"

"..."

They were so excited that they wished they could fly over from the opposite side to have a quick look.

Chi Jinxian was a little dizzy.

"Oh dad," he said hastily, "I have something to do here, I'll wait..."

"Uncle Yuan." The fragile Alpha Lu Zhi yelled in a weeping voice, directly interrupting all the thoughts of both parties on the phone.

Yuan Si Bai responded unconsciously: "Hey, Xiao, Xiaozhi."

"Uncle Yuan," Lu Zhi cried, so pitiful that no one could refuse, "I want to borrow Xiaochi for a few days, can I?"

"Ah?" Yuan Si Bai was bewildered, and subconsciously repeated, "A few days."

Lu Zhi was silent, and discussed in a low voice: "That day, is it okay?"

"..." Time passed by, and Yuan Si Bai finally recovered from his surprise.He didn't ask about the current specific situation, but only said gently: "Okay, then you can borrow it."

After agreeing, Yuan Si Bai paused for a moment, then said again: "Treat him well."

—

Chi Jinxian took Lu Zhi back home—the home that Yan Yue left for Lu Zhi.

When Lu Zhi moved into the dormitory half a month ago, Chi Jinxian had already come here and was familiar with it.

Therefore, he is quite familiar with opening the door and turning on the light.

"Brother, are you uncomfortable?" Chi Jinxian took Lu Zhi's hand and walked into the living room together.

When he got to the sofa, he asked people to sit down, and he planned to boil some water, but Lu Zhi held his hand firmly and did not let go.

Lu Zhi dragged them down together, bowed his head, nodded and said, "It's hard."

Chi Jinxian frowned slightly, sighed softly, and asked, "Does it hurt?"

Lu Zhi nodded again: "It hurts." He said in a hoarse voice, "The glands hurt, and the body seems to explode...Xiaochi, it hurts."

When Chi Jinxian mentioned this, he became angry, not to mention distressed, and he reprimanded angrily: "Who asked you to inject so many blockers? Do you always do things without considering the consequences?"

"What a coincidence, do you still have to go to the hospital?"

"Well, I'm sorry," Lu Zhi lowered his eyes, "I was wrong."

He was quiet for a while and said, "Don't go, I'm really scared."

The glass wall facing the street is full of colorful neon lights. The pedestrians and cars outside are coming and going, whether they walk or stop, fast or slow, and all the sights are a touch of rare color.

When Chi Jinxian came last time, Lu Zhi told him that the glass texture is quite special, even at night, with the lights on in the living room, the outside world can't spy on them.

Chi Jinxian raised his hand to touch Lu Zhi's forehead, and the brows that had been relaxed before were frowned again: "It's a little hot."

Lu Zhi shook his head and said, "It's always like this in the susceptible period, and the glands are also hot."

Chi Jinxian: "Can I help you? Or what can I do?"

After the words fell, Lu Zhi raised his eyes.He almost stared straight at the person in front of him without blinking, and the emotion in his eyes couldn't be clearly described in a sentence or two.

Chi Jinxian's heart tightened slightly, and became inexplicably tense, and his heartbeat became uncontrollably faster, as if it was about to burst through his chest in the next moment.

"Brother..." He moved his Adam's apple lightly, as if a certain passionate self was about to possess him, Chi Jinxian blinked, and asked in a reserved and forbearable whisper, "Why are you looking at me like that?"

The two looked at each other without giving in for a moment, and Lu Zhi took the lead to look away, covering all the darkness in his eyes.

After a while, he moved his mouth lightly, revealing his delusions very lightly: "Can I hug you?"

Chi Jinxian: "..."

I don't know why, Chi Jinxian suddenly wanted to put the title of "promising" that he had followed him for three years on Lu Zhi's head!

"...Hold on." Chi Jinxian said with open arms.

The moment the words fell, Chi Jinxian felt his whole body tense and his body felt heavy. He was directly hugged and pressed on the sofa by Lu Zhi, so heavy that he couldn't break free at all.

Lu Zhi buried his face on the side of his neck, breathing steadily and quietly.

Chi Jinxian wrapped his arms around his back and let others hold him.

For a while, no one spoke.

The night outside was getting darker, Lu Zhixing might be feeling very uncomfortable, holding him in this position for an hour, Chi Jinxian was almost sleepy, and he didn't see him wanting to sleep.

In order to prevent himself from falling asleep, if Lu Zhi felt uncomfortable at that time, there would really be no one to comfort him. Chi Jinxian thought about it and called out, "Brother."

Lu Zhi immediately responded, "Yes."

"Let's talk."

"Okay." Lu Zhi moved his head and rubbed Chi Jinxian's cheek, his voice still hoarse, "What do you want to know."

"There is a problem between us."

"I know."

"I said that if you are not honest, I will not look back. I am not joking."

"……I know."

Chi Jinxian pushed Lu Zhi away with his hands, and held his face with both hands so that he could look at him face to face.

"Today is the last chance."

Lu Zhi blinked his eyes lightly, and after a while he replied in a low voice, "Okay."

"Did you take the initiative to add me when I was a deer?" Chi Jinxian sat up, assuming a serious chat posture.

Lu Zhi had no choice but to sit up straight and nodded, "Yes."

"When did you add it?"

"Before high school starts."

If you tell me how to add the scene, you will definitely have some impressions, but Chi Jinxian has never been a person who reminisces about the past, even if he is one of the parties involved.

Otherwise, he wouldn't be overly concerned about so many things.

So he only asked what he wanted to ask, and continued: "We knew each other clearly when we were two children. Since you found me, why didn't you tell me? You still have to hide it."

Hearing this, Lu Zhi remained silent, but the corners of his eyes had returned to normal, and for some reason suddenly turned a little red.

"You are not allowed to lie." Chi Jinxian spoke forcefully, as if he was going to force someone.

Lu Zhi then said, "You don't remember me at all."

Chi Jinxian was slightly taken aback, but at the same time, a layer of depression was unavoidable in his heart.

He suddenly had an intuition - Lu Zhi must be responsible for becoming what he is today.

And this is the problem between them. On weekdays, Lu Zhi is like a clam that clenches its teeth and can't pry it open. Some things will never disappear if they don't make it clear for a day.

After a long time, they will still go the old way.

But Chi Jinxian wanted to have a good time with Lu Zhi.

"Brother," Chi Jinxian said, asking a certain question for the third time, "Do you hate me?"

Lu Zhi lowered his eyelashes, and subconsciously played with Chi Jinxian's knuckles lightly. It seemed that he still wanted to interlock his fingers, but he didn't know why he didn't dare to take the next step.

He was silent, very quiet, but his eyes that should have been like thick ink became more and more red, until after some time, Lu Zhi finally took a deep breath, and slowly pressed his forehead against Chi Jinxian's shoulder .

He spoke the most ruthless words with the most charming posture: "Hate."

"...Chi Jinxian," Lu Zhi said word by word, "I hate you, I hate you to death."

Chi Jinxian opened his eyes, listening to this answer that he had expected long ago, he only felt a sense of ease spreading into his limbs.

But other than that, he was still uncomfortable, because Lu Zhi was crying, his shoulders were trembling slightly at this moment, and Chi Jinxian could clearly feel that the clothes on his shoulders were wet.

Lu Zhi tremblingly said: "I was obviously just waiting for my dad to pick me up at the school gate, and I never thought about getting to know you, but you rushed straight in front of me regardless, and even gave me roses."

"I said I don't want it, you insist on pestering me..."

"You said you would never leave me, I believe you, but you," Lu Zhifa pinched Chi Jinxian's shoulders fiercely, never lifting his head, his tears fell drop by drop between the two of them , "But you left me! You clearly said you liked me, and you treated everyone equally well."

"Chi Jinxian," he said, "I really hate you to death."

Chi Jinxian's bright smile and his sworn promise when he was a child have long been forgotten by Chi Jinxian who was sick, and now he is reminded that he can't remember much.

But he didn't know that he left these memories deeply and clearly to another person stroke by stroke.

—a man groping for his way in the dark.

Lu Zhi stumbled and stumbled in the dull copper and iron walls and couldn't see the light, so he could only rely on the mutual trust between the children to believe that Chi Jinxian would come back.

After all, "Brother, I like you, no one will forget you if I forget you" was said by him himself.

But later on, Chi Jinxian didn't forget the people around him, except Lu Zhi!

He left him in the endless swamp -- for days and nights beyond count, for years.

"I know you're sick, so I can't blame you," Lu Zhi's voice was choked up, "You said it! You provoked me!"

"...I can't find you... Not long after, I can't find my father either, and he doesn't want me anymore."

In just two months, he lost the two people he cared about most, and he has never felt warmth since then.

He doesn't know where he should go, or how he should grow up.

People who don't know what to grow into are the ones who are expected.

"I decided to give up on you, but you suddenly appeared again, and in the same way," Lu Zhi said angrily, his voice almost hoarse, "I said I don't like you, and you still don't reject people like you did when you were a child." Opportunities, as happy as you want, do whatever you want."

"You really... Come whenever you want, leave whenever you want. I have nothing to do with you, and I have to worry every day that you will suddenly disappear again the next day. "

Chi Jinxian unconsciously hugged Lu Zhi tightly, his eyes flushed.

He yelled over and over again: "Brother."

"I want to care about you, but everything I have tells me, no," the glass wall fell silent, and Lu Zhi's voice was shockingly clear, "I don't know what my dad wants me to be." I don't know what kind of person you like—it shouldn't be Lu Zhi like this anyway. I don't dare to do anything, I just want what you like to be a clean me."

"But..." Lu Zhi's voice lowered, as if confiding, more like whispering, "Human's inferior genes will always be inherited, and I have become more and more despicable...just like Lu Zisheng."

The traffic lights are still changing regularly when no one is there, just like people's moods, it is impossible to always go straight with a green light.

But the red light gives people time to think, and an opportunity to explain, so that they can go through this path.

"Brother, do you have a misunderstanding about me?" Chi Jinxian said with tears in his eyes, pretending to be choked up with a smile, "You think I'm like the sun, that's just what you think, but I'm not nothing at all. Understand the 'truth, goodness and beauty' that you don't understand."

He said sincerely: "Lu Zhi, maybe I fell in love with you at first sight because of the straightforward appearance, but after a long time, what I like is not just superficial, I have always liked Lu Hold on to this person—not on his cleanliness."

Lu Zhi's forehead was still pressed against Chi Jinxian, he was slightly startled when he heard the words, but when he realized it after a while, the tears fell even more violently.

"I know now," he said.

As he said that, Lu Zhi stretched out his hand to hug Chi Jinxian gently but not to refuse, and said more and more clearly in people's ears: "But when you tell me that you didn't forget me or leave me on purpose... I won't let you go." I hate you, I want you, I want to have you."

"But later... I hated myself again, hated that I couldn't keep you, hated that I couldn't be everything to you."

Therefore, he is often pulled extremely, and he can't achieve balance no matter what.

Even several times have stepped into a dead end.

Fortunately, he relied on the eight years Yan Yue taught him and the year Chi Jinxian accompanied him, worked hard, worked hard, and finally he didn't grow up like Lu Zisheng, who had the potential to be a good person in his heart.

But he was always hovering on the edge of madness, he could only walk like walking on thin ice all the time, lest if his feet became heavy, he would become so crazy that he didn't even recognize himself.

Lu Zhi stayed in the dark for many years. During those years, no one rescued him. He could only rely on the little light in his heart to keep himself alert.

Alive.

To find the sun.

Finally, thousands of roses growing against the sun surrounded him with colors in the afternoon.

Lu Zhi shouted over and over again: "Xiaochi, Xiaochi."

He said, "If you go again..."

What can we do if we leave again? Lu Zhi was silent, and begged softly, "Don't leave me anymore...I'm in so much pain."

Obviously being hated and being said harsh words, Chi Jinxian's face was full of tears, but Chi Jinxian didn't feel bad at all—even if he felt bad, it was because he loved his brother.

Instead he smiled happily.

Immediately without saying a word, Chi Jinxian backed away a little, and before he could react, he grabbed Lu Zhi's shoulders with both hands and sent himself up.

Immediately, the soft lips and the familiar breath perfectly blended together.

——At the end of the dim lights, they are kissing passionately.