I'm jealous, but I don't say

Shen Qin noticed Huo Huijiao's expression of hesitation and astonishment for a moment, followed her gaze, and suddenly realized that because he was too impatient, he even forgot to put away the medicine.

After a brief pause, Shen Qin blocked her sight as if nothing had happened, and said calmly, "I'll help you there."

Huo Huijiao took a deep look at Shen Qin, said nothing, and was supported by him, and sat down on the sofa again.

Shen Qin fetched a chair and supported Huo Huijiao's injured ankle, taking advantage of the opportunity to help her take off her shoes and socks.

Huo Huijiao was inevitably a little embarrassed, and whispered, "I'll do it myself."

"Don't move, if you get injured again, it will be bad." Shen Qin has always been a gentle and courteous gentleman, but at this moment he looked a little stern.

Hearing this, Huo Huijiao was obedient and didn't move any more, letting Shen Qin gently help her take off her shoes and socks, disinfect and spray her medicine carefully.

Huo Huijiao looked down at his serious and cautious appearance, all kinds of feelings surged in her heart, she gritted her teeth, and asked tentatively, "You, are you okay?"

Shen Qin seemed to have expected what she would say a long time ago, so he didn't react too much to it. He continued to do what he was doing, and replied indifferently: "As you can see, there is nothing wrong with me."

Huo Huijiao choked, and couldn't help holding her breath, but her tone was unexpectedly firm, "But, I don't think you're good."

After finishing speaking, Huo Huijiao hurriedly added, fearing that she had crossed the line: "We have known each other for so many years, and we can be regarded as good friends. If you feel unhappy and want to find someone to talk to, I am willing to be your listener."

Shen Qin didn't answer, he helped her treat the wound in silence, stood up, "I'll get an ice pack."

Seeing his calm expression, Huo Huijiao suddenly felt a pain in his heart.

After so many years, he is still so caring, considers everything for others, and takes good care of everyone's emotions, but he only forgets himself, always in no one's place, alone bearing the deepest feelings pain.

Huo Huijiao felt wronged and distressed for him. The thought of wanting to make him more comfortable and happy quickly occupied her mind. Almost instinctively, she grabbed Shen Qin's wrist.

Shen Qin paused and turned to look at her.

Facing Shen Qin's deep gaze, Huo Huijiao felt a tightness in her heart. She subconsciously clenched her fists and mustered up the courage to speak out what was in her heart, "Shen Qin, you are not alone. No matter what happens, as long as you want to , I will always be by your side. Maybe I am not smart enough, not capable enough..."

Hearing that she began to belittle herself, Shen Qin's heart moved, and he interrupted her subconsciously, "No matter in every respect, you are excellent, the only shortcoming is that you lack self-confidence."

Huo Huijiao was taken aback. She didn't expect that she hadn't comforted him, but was encouraged by him instead.

Also, she can persevere until now, and his encouragement to her has played a big role.

"But," Huo Huijiao still had no confidence, "I don't know what to do to help you, and I don't seem to have the ability to help you."

Shen Qin could not fail to feel her sincerity.On the contrary, because he always knew that Huo Huijiao liked him, he felt more and more sad.

"I'm very touched by your kindness." Shen Qin suppressed the emotions in his heart and said rationally: "But you don't actually understand me. In my opinion, all the dedication and sacrifice you have made are blind. Not worth it at all."

It is unfortunate to be born in a family like Shen's.

Shen Qin realized this very early on. He didn't want another person in this world to be as unfortunate as him, so he has always restrained his feelings.

The more he faced the person he liked, the more he wanted to spare no effort to push her away.

"You also know that I am very popular, and you are just one of them." Shen Qin endured the heartache and continued: "In the past, we only contacted occasionally. Recently, the reason why I have been making excuses to contact you is just to There is no other meaning in creating opportunities for myself to deal with Shen Song. I'm really sorry that I almost got you involved, but you don't have to and it's not worth sacrificing your future for someone like me. "

Huo Huijiao has a thin skin. If it was before, she would really be hurt by what Shen Qin said, but after today's incident, when she thinks of the medicines for depression on his table, she will see it at a glance. It was Shen Qin's insincere words.

"You said that I don't know you, so can you tell me what you really look like?" Huo Huijiao's eyes were firm, "It's my reward for defending you in front of Dr. Norton. No matter what, we are all grown-ups." People, you want me to leave, I can promise you, but I just don't want to leave in such a muddle."

Shen Qin was silent, he still underestimated her determination.

Originally, he still wanted to selfishly preserve a good image in front of her, but now it seems that if he doesn't show his embarrassing, weak and gentle self in front of her, she will not give up.

"Since you insist on finding out, I can tell you." Shen Qin sat down next to her again, and said decisively: "But I have a request. After I finish those words, we will no longer be friends. friend."

Hearing this, Huo Huijiao felt a sudden pain in her heart, but she didn't hesitate, she nodded quickly, as if she wanted to give up.

"When should we start talking about it? Let me think about it." Shen Qin paused, and then pretended to be relaxed and said: "After careful calculation, this incident probably dates back to when I was just born."

"My father's qualifications are mediocre. As the eldest son, he has never been valued in the Shen family. Therefore, since I was born, he has placed high hopes on me."

"According to his plan, skip a grade, do public welfare, learn company management, and gradually become a saint who satisfies everyone."

Hearing this, Huo Huijiao could feel the suffocating pressure and desire to control from his calm tone, and felt more and more distressed for him.

But she didn't interrupt him, but tried to restrain her emotions and be a qualified listener.

Shen Qin smiled bitterly, "But you know what? My character is far from what he expected. The more he wants me to be, the more I am not that kind of person."

"He wanted me to be super talented in my school days and get everyone's attention. But I don't like skipping grades, and I hate being someone else's kid who attracts attention. So, the one you see who excels in studies A calm, confident genius isn't really me."

"He wants me to be a social expert and take the opportunity to establish a good image in front of the public. But I also don't like being a volunteer and doing charity everywhere, because I hate dealing with people. If I can, I just want a I just sit around and don't talk all day. So, that nice, gentle, thoughtful, nice guy you see isn't really me either."

"There is no company management. He expects me to gain the support of the old lady and inherit all the property of the Shen family, but I have no interest in this. To be honest, if the school orders me to quit school, I will be very happy in my heart. Because I don’t want to study anymore, let alone pursue a doctorate.”

"So, the Shen Qin you know is completely different from me. The real me is actually a person who is not self-motivated, not positive or optimistic about life, doesn't like to talk, and doesn't want others to pay attention to me. Ordinary people. Soldering circuit boards and typing codes every day is the life I want to live.”

Shen Qin finished all his heartfelt thoughts in one breath. This was the first time he expressed his true feelings to another person. He felt apprehensive and fearful. After all, anyone who heard these words would definitely be disappointed in him.

What's more, the person in front of him is still the one he likes.

But when he really mustered up the courage to speak out what was buried in his heart, he felt inexplicably happy, and his whole person seemed to become much more relaxed.

However, seeing Huo Huijiao's shocked expression, Shen Qin couldn't help but smiled wryly in his heart: Sure enough, no one can accept such an unbearable self.After all, even he himself would despise such a self.

Shen Qin suddenly felt a little regretful, he shouldn't have said that in the first place, because even if he didn't say it, after hearing these words, Huo Huijiao would never be friends with him again.

Just as he was thinking this way, Huo Huijiao recovered from the huge trance, and without any explanation, opened his arms and hugged him.

Shen Qin froze for a moment, his whole body froze, his back stretched straight.

Huo Huijiao expected that Shen Qin had been under tremendous psychological pressure, but still underestimated the suffering he had suffered. His heart was full of mixed emotions, his nose was sore, tears welled up uncontrollably, and big ones fell down.

She hugged him very distressed and said: "Shen Qin, you must not blame yourself. You are not to blame for these things, you are also a victim. We have known each other for so long, but I never knew that you are actually suffering every day If I can be more sensitive and wise, I can help you share the pain..."

Caught off guard, crystal clear teardrops hit the back of Shen Qin's hand. It was obviously cold, but it seemed to burn his heart all of a sudden.

He said this to make her feel disappointed in him, even disgusted, and then stay away from him.

But she didn't expect that she was so stubborn and tenacious. Not only did she not blame him for deceiving everyone, but she felt sorry for him from the bottom of her heart.

Maybe it's because she has closed her heart for too long, Huo Huijiao's hot heart is like a ray of morning light, through the narrow door, illuminating the dark room in Shen Qin's heart bit by bit.

Shen Qin was used to being calm, but at this moment he seemed a little at a loss, his numb heart began to recover bit by bit under the watering of tears, accompanied by bitter pain.

Sometimes people are like this, the more they face difficulties and setbacks, the more indestructible the fragile heart will become.

But if someone feels sorry for that unknown grievance, no matter how strong the heart is, it will be broken in an instant.

"Perhaps most people think that the you you used to be would be more popular with everyone. But in my opinion, the real you you said, an ordinary person with emotions and desires, may have all kinds of troubles, but you can The most important thing is to let yourself live a relaxed and happy life according to your own will." Huo Huijiao wiped away tears and encouraged him to say: "I know that it is not so easy to be yourself at any time, but no matter what you do Whatever you decide, I will support you."

Shen Qin has almost never experienced this feeling of being understood and tolerated by others. In the past so many years, he always thought that he had already lost the ability to love someone and the qualification to be loved by others.

But now, he feels like a lone traveler in the desert. At the moment of dying, he finally found his own spring water. He greedily wants to absorb more. His extreme rationality can no longer suppress his inner desire. Subconsciously Reaching out to hug her back.

However, Huo Huijiao let him go suddenly at this moment, she lowered her eyes, with tears on her face, her expression was indescribably lonely, "Although, we will no longer be friends in the future, but if you need my help, You can always..."

Before she finished speaking, Shen Qin brought her back into his arms, with a bit of grievance hidden in his low voice, "I need your help very much right now."

Huo Huijiao was stunned, and her brain went blank for a moment. Before she could understand what was going on, Shen Qin said apologetically, "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said that. I'm just worried that you understand the truth. I will hate me in the future, so in order not to embarrass myself too much, I will say that."

When he shed that strong and hard shell, the real him is fragile and soft, making people want to get closer.

After hearing his explanation, Huo Huijiao felt warm in his heart, and said softly, "Whether you are a dazzling star or an ordinary person, I believe in my own judgment, you are the one I know."

Her persistence can't help but make people feel silly and cute. Shen Qin couldn't help but raised the corners of his mouth. After a moment of silence, he plucked up his courage and said, "If possible, can you stay with me tonight?"