The third year after the death of the emperor

He also said these words when Xie Wen was drunk.But at that time, Xie Wen didn't really hear it in his heart until now.

He should feel relieved, he should feel that the night is long and the candles are burning to the end, Xiao Xuanqian finally understands how to express his heart, even if his illness still needs to be adjusted, but as long as he learns this, Xie Wen will be able to patiently and gently Guide him and correct him.

But at this moment, Xie Wen's throat was slightly astringent, and she said slowly: "Actually..."

He doesn't have enough time.

Xiao Xuanqian raised his head, aware of the change in the other party's mood: "What's wrong?"

Xie Wen looked at him and turned to ask: "Do you still have two voices in your head?"

"Occasionally." Xiao Xuanqian said, "But it's just another way of thinking. I haven't changed, it's just that my mind gets confused from time to time."

Mentally ill people say they are not sick, and drunks also say they are not drunk.

Tong Tong, who followed Xie Wen, has been taken down by Cui Dajian to settle down. There are only the two of them in the hall, and the serving internal officials are all guarding outside.It was late at night, Xiao Xuanqian took him to bed together - His Majesty the Emperor had thought about it for a long time.

The spacious and luxurious dragon bed was re-covered with several layers of soft bedding, and the incense in the room was rich and gentle.The incense burner has already been replaced with another one, which is not as sleepy as before.However, no matter how much the emperor hinted, Xie Wen sat on the side of the couch motionless, put a few unfinished memorials on his knees, and talked to the little emperor about state affairs for a long time.

From the turmoil in the northwest border and the bleeding scars that cannot be cured, it has been talking about the domestic gentry style, the retainers and private soldiers who should have been abolished long ago, as well as land cuts, household registration, taxation... and the difficulty of local supervisory agencies in fulfilling their responsibilities and many other matters.Although Xie Wen hasn't really gone to court these days, she is very clear about current state affairs.

With his attitude, Xiao Xuanqian had no choice but to press his mind and concentrate on talking about government affairs with him.The disagreement between the two lasted for more than a day or two. Even after tossing and turning, life and death tossed back and forth, some quarrels were still unavoidable... This has nothing to do with feelings, it is completely the difference between two factions and two ways of thinking .

Xiao Xuanqian couldn't argue with him. On the one hand, the opponent's rare movement turned into soft fingers, and on the other hand, he was suppressed by the authority and breathed a sigh of relief when there was a conflict of opinions.When Xie Wen finally finished speaking and reached out to unbutton his coat and was about to go to sleep, the little bastard who was grumbling and grinding his teeth took off his boots and went to bed together, pressing Xie Wen heavily under his body.

Xie Wen stretched out her hand, put it on his shoulder, and said coaxing a child: "I didn't scold you, didn't I still come to see you?"

Xiao Xuanqian looked at his face, his anger had disappeared long ago, but he still opened his eyes and said nonsense, expressionlessly said: "You are here to help the world, not to find me."

Xie Wen said: "Isn't this your world?"

Seeing that he took it for granted, Xiao Xuanqian thought that the other party really came to "check homework" in the middle of the night, not because he missed him.The little emperor was so aggrieved that he stared at him with dark eyes, and it took a lot of effort to keep his calm face: "Teacher is really a universal being, and you have the common people in your heart. You really should be the reincarnation of a god in the sky."

He does not mean that.Xie Wen's heart skipped a beat, as if the already soft wheel had encountered a hurdle, not only did it not hit it, but it also sank and settled in the mud, which was very heartwarming.

He was silent for a while, and said in a gentle tone: "You are such a big man, why do you always find fault with my words, want me to coax you, want me to pet you, if you don't say a word to your heart, you can't live with it, you think I don't love you .”

Xie Wen pushed him, and the other party reluctantly moved away a little bit, and he naturally stepped back a certain distance and sat up, creating a normal conversation situation.

"The first time I saw you, you were so tenacious and silent. Later, when I inspected you, I also felt that His Highness the Ninth Prince was firm, forbearing and low-key. Unlike other princes, why did he change as soon as he came to me?" I kowtow outside the door, and I said that I want to be on the Ninth Five-Year Plan, and I want to be a ruler of the world, and now I ask a few words, you think I am concerned about the government affairs of the court, and I am not distracted by you."

Although his tone was slow, he spoke every word without any falsehood. "It looks like a business stock, how can it grow into a love brain." Xie Wen criticized in a low voice, and continued to speak regardless of whether the other party understood or not. "I used to think that you were eager for power, longing for one-sidedness, and self-importance. It was only recently that I gradually realized that this is not the case. It is you... Forget it, let's not talk about it."

The more he said, the more he felt that these words could not pave the way for a farewell, but only made him hesitate more and more.Xie Wen stopped talking, and the little bastard who was being scolded on the opposite side posted up again, and came to him to unbutton his clothes and remove the jade hairpin.

Xie Wen's back was facing him, on a wide bed, he only leaned on one side, with the quilt covering his shoulders, occupying such a small space, he didn't feel sleepy when he closed his eyes, he was overwhelmed thinking about why he came here, came here Why can't you tell the truth? ...Since I want to leave, since I want to return to my own world and my hometown, why do I have these conflicts and reluctance for no reason?

Xie Huaiyu checked his stall by himself, and suddenly stretched out an arm behind him, wrapping around his waist from one side, just like a perverted cat sucker struggling to drag the cat lying on the bed into his arms—gently But persistently hooked him into the center of the bed, and fell into Xiao Xuanqian's arms.

If Xie Wen was really a cat, it would be a cat with its claws clipped, leaving only a slight dragging mark on the bedding.He was pulled over by the little emperor, turned to face him, breathing straight into the ears and neck.

Xiao Xuanqian lowered his head and buried him on his shoulder, took a deep breath, then turned around and hugged him tightly into his arms, with a soft voice: "You are beside me but not in my arms, I can't stand it."

Xie Wen closed her eyes and said, "My Majesty the Emperor, what Ban Jun is like Ban Hu said is true, you are really troublesome."

Xiao Xuanqian didn't care about this kind of evaluation. He was burned by the description of "mine", and he selectively filtered out the words "accompanying you like a tiger", and couldn't help but leaned over to kiss him, licking him passionately. Biting his lips, he was so noisy: "I am so troublesome, but you are still so kind to me, why?"

Xie Wen said: "I am your teacher..."

"What else?" Xiao Xuanqian asked, "I don't believe it's just that. You always hide yourself, I can't see you clearly."

Perhaps it was the pressure brought by returning to the modern age, or maybe the other party's true feelings were too hot, Xie Wen couldn't be reserved and introverted, and he seemed to be dragged by a hand and pulled into the eagerly boiling water In the vortex, the lips moved a few times, and said very slightly: "I am different to you."

He didn't look at the other party, so he didn't see Xiao Xuanqian's dazzling eyes.The little emperor's whole body was filled with the stability and contentment of his soul. He could not wait to merge with this person, let him fit and linger with him for a long time, and become his bones and blood.

He was greatly soothed, and those manias and depressions surrendered to the feeling of being "loved".

Xiao Xuanqian said: "Say it again, okay? I want to hear you say it again."

Xie Wen didn't say anything more, but he raised his head, groped for a while, and blocked the other's lips very strangely, but soon parted, and suddenly asked: "Jingzhi, if there is a place that makes me feel very happy, It will relax me, will you let me go?"

This question was too abrupt, Xiao Xuanqian failed to appreciate the deeper and more secluded connotation in it for a while, but asked: "Do you have a place you want to go?"

Xie Wen nodded.

"As long as that place is in Qi's country, I can accompany you there. If it's a place beyond the Great Wall, whether it's a snow-capped mountain, a desert, or an island facing south, give me some time to get it, and there's no place I can't go."

"It's a place you can't go." Xie Wen said.

Xiao Xuanqian was taken aback.

He realized that what the other party said was "you", a place he could not reach.Others may not take these words to heart, but he is different. Like Xiao Tianrou, he has a deep feeling for Huaiyu's alienation and indifference, and he is so familiar that he almost fears it.

The other party's detachment is not the detachment of celebrities. It seems that they have already seen the scenery and culture of another world, so even if they like the things in front of them, they can't feel a sense of belonging.And this lack of sense of belonging once made Xiao Xuanqian fearful and suffocated, worrying about gains and losses. Those vague feelings of "the other party will leave at any time" have occupied his reason and penetrated into his bone marrow several times.

But Xiao Xuanqian didn't hear Xie Wen say "a place beyond the world", he fell silent for a moment, his breathing was as heavy as a thick rock, his arms tightened more and more, as if he was breathless in a muddy deep pool, and he spoke for a long time : "...Did I make the teacher uncomfortable?"

Xie Wen just mentioned it slightly, and rubbed against him unacceptably: "Tell me, I will change it, don't say such things, okay? Huaiyu, it's because I insist on personally recruiting, you are angry Is it?"

Xie Wen was speechless, he had spent a lot of mental preparation just to ask so tentatively.The little emperor delayed so sadly, how dare he open it up and tell the other party "I'm going back to the place you can't find", isn't this really going to kill people?

"It's not because of that," Xie Wen said, "I'm just asking, don't think too much about it."

Xiao Xuanqian raised his hand and pressed his forehead, took a long breath and breathed evenly, his voice was low and hoarse: "I will be very scared."

He would have a headache whenever he was stimulated, but because Xie Wen was by his side, he could restrain the pain no matter how severe it was, and it was the same this time.Xiao Xuanqian hugged him again, and explained as if he was hurt: "I am not self-willed, teacher, I know you are worried about me, but I really can't wait...I can't hear a word of those who are about to accept the concubine. Go on. I want to pacify the northwest and eradicate this trouble. I can't wait for the birth of a famous general. I want to wipe out the evils and corrupt officials, and then pave the way for Xie Tong... How many years will it take? Three years, five years, or ten years? If you are not in a hurry now, when will you be in a hurry?"

Xie Wen listened silently.

"Can you not say such things to me?" He asked, "Maybe the teacher is angry with me for what I did wrong before, so he said this to punish me... That's fine, don't be unhappy, don't be angry My anger, I have always let you down."

He held Xie Wen's hand and kept kneading the other's knuckles, as if he wanted to find some comfort in this repeated movement.

Such a high-ranking, ruthless person will also feel happy and sad because of the slightest change in attitude, worrying about gains and losses.The most powerful power lies not in the position of power, but in controlling the weakness.Although Xie Wen didn't want to grasp this point, he never relied on what he got to do wanton harm.

Xie Wen even unknowingly felt a little distressed, coaxed a few words gently, and was asked for a promise like a begging by the other party.He whispered helplessly: "I really don't mean to abandon you, just let go of what you want to do, won't I always be by your side?"

He raised his head and kissed the other party, his eyes were moist and affectionate, when he was stared at by these eyes, he seemed to have a romantic illusion of capturing the whole world: "I really can't help you, go to sleep."

Xiao Xuanqian stared into his eyes, and didn't respond for a long time, but couldn't help but lowered his head and chased after him, deepening the light kiss.

Xie Wen was held by his wrist, this oppressive posture failed to arouse his post-traumatic stress disorder for being intimate with each other.His heart was as calm as water, as if sinking into a slowly spreading ripple, he suddenly realized deeply——at this moment, no, before long ago, despite the person who has been persecuting, demanding, and pushing him forward It was Xiao Xuanqian, but in the relationship between the two of them, he was the one who was always on top, kept calm, and refused to give love.

He is the leader of the relationship, the weight that controls the balance, the trap to catch wild beasts, and the cage to subdue monsters.

He is the decider who controls the direction, the one who creates and controls the opponent's weakness.After shaping Xiao Xuanqian like this with his own hands, he broke him into the present appearance bit by bit. Those injuries and past events that brought pain and lingering, unbearable, are actually after he gave Xiao Xuanqian another kind of life, the other party passed it on. feedback from .

Until now—the little emperor is strong and outstanding, and he can be a famous emperor through the ages with his talents, and he can only play the role of correcting the prime minister.But at the same time, this person is also fragile, as long as he wants, he can destroy the other party at any time.

will i destroy himXie Wen asked herself, can I make a decision and disappear into his world?

The author has something to say: bone in bone, blood in blood:

The original sentence is "Bible", "You are the bone of my bones, and the flesh of my flesh", which is adapted here.