The third year after the death of the emperor

Xie Wen still looked at him with moist eyes, neither promised nor refused.Xiao Xuanqian's heart felt like a beating drum, that desire/longing, that deep and uncontrollable possessive emotion rushed to his chest violently.He wants to completely own the other party, wants Xie Huaiyu to belong to him completely... wants to surpass the current relationship, surpass all the kindness and righteousness in the world.

He and the teacher are inseparable, the relationship between the two of them is the closest in the world, and no one is allowed to hinder or beak.

It is no longer just kindness, no longer just care and love, he wants too much, and he must hold it tightly in his hands.

Xiao Xuanqian's fingertips moved away slightly, and his eyes rested on the other's extraordinarily red lips. His mood was fluctuating, and he asked in a low voice: "Why didn't you answer me, teacher."

"I... um."

Even though the young Ninth Highness asked such a question, he was afraid of hearing the words of refusal from his mouth, Xie Wen just said a word, and he kissed him on his own initiative.The light breath lingered with a mellow scent of sweet-scented osmanthus wine, a piece of softness and defenselessness, this kind of defenselessness made Xiao Xuanqian extremely satisfied, he couldn't let go of each other at all, although this was their first kiss, but because of He is not willing to let go, and he is particularly lingering and affectionate in the exploration and entanglement.

Xie Wen didn't seem to feel disgusted, even though he was out of breath, and when he adjusted his breath, he dragged out a faint ending sound, but there was no obvious intention to refuse. He was slowly pressed on the couch by Xiao Xuanqian, and the bead curtain in front of the couch kept shaking. The ground swayed, reflecting a dazzling shadow under the light.

Xie Wen's mind was blank, he was dizzy and unable to raise his mind, he hardly knew what he was doing, but this kiss was so comfortable, he passively let the other party gently kiss the corners of his lips and hold his cheeks, The luster of the bead curtain flooded, except for Xiao Xuanqian's breath, it was this blurred light.

"Xie Huaiyu..."

Xiao Xuanqian had the courage to call him that.

Xie Wen is like a pool of warm spring water, she closes her eyes and lets him kiss, occasionally when she can't hold her breath, she hums in a muffled voice, and Xiao Jiu then releases it with a tacit understanding, and looks at him almost greedily.

... so attractive.

Master Xie Wenxie, who is as cold as a knife on snow, has always been estranged and cold even with a smile, and cannot be approached or touched easily. He has never shown this appearance in front of others.His clothes were loose, revealing his slender neck and collarbone, and his hair was disheveled after all the nonsense just now.

Xiao Xuanqian raised his hand to untie a thin chain of jade beads on his forehead. The thin chain gently passed through the hair and hooked on the jade hairpin, and the long hairpin carved with pines and cypresses also fell off along with it.He stared at Xie Wen's face and murmured, "Will you blame me?"

The answer is known without telling, Xie Wen treats him like a family member, if he takes advantage of others' danger like this, he will be furious.Xiao Xuanqian was already obsessed with desire, he took a deep breath, he didn't want to lose the other party for a moment of lust, stealing a kiss tonight is already an extra gift.

He put the jade hairpin away, closed his eyes and collected himself, ready to go out and let the cold wind blow to relieve the heat.The young man made up his mind to curb the unceasing desire in his heart, just when he lifted up, he found that his belt was hooked.

Xie Wen's fingers hung on his belt, creating a gap half finger wide.Xiao Xuanqian's breathing was stagnant, Xie Wen pulled him back unhurriedly, and raised his hand around the opponent's shoulder, obviously without strength, but it seemed to be carrying a weight of tens of thousands of catties on his shoulder.

Xiao Xuanqian lowered his head so that Xie Wen could lean against his shoulder and neck, the other party's voice was close to his ear, the heat almost scalded his earlobe.He asked softly as if he hadn't woken up from a dream: "...why didn't you kiss me?"

Xiao Xuanqian stared at him blankly, and the string in his mind snapped. Even if he had hundreds of reasons to be scruples, and he had enough reason to wake him up, it couldn't compare to the other party's gentle question. All poured up from the bottom of the feet.

He said hoarsely, "Do you know who I am?"

Who else could it be?Who else... Xie Wen was dull for a while, and murmured warmly: "Xiao Jiu..."

It was snowing heavily outside the window.

After the maid finished ordering the servants, she was preparing the hangover soup and was about to bring it in.She had just arrived in the outer room, and just as she saw the screen separating the inside and outside, she suddenly heard a blushing and heartbeating sound.She was taken aback for a moment, almost hitting the porcelain bowl in her hand, her mind numb as she listened to an intertwined voice.

Is it... Mr. Xie and His Highness the Ninth Prince?The sound and breath that got into her ears were extremely fragrant/glamorous. She never knew Mr. Xie's voice could be so haunting. His Highness Ninth Prince was always docile and well-behaved, but this noise was clearly the result of Mr. Xie being completely bullied.The maid put down the hangover soup in the outer room, and belatedly, a thought popped up in her mind: Mr. Xie has been helping the lonely Ninth Prince, could it be that they are already in love with each other?

As soon as she thought of this, she didn't dare to disturb her, but quietly withdrew.It was also the first time for her to encounter this kind of thing, and it was inevitable that she would be in a mess. Finally, after thinking about it for almost half a night, the talented man got up at night and sent someone, and secretly asked someone to find a way to buy a lot of ointment for intercourse, and sent it to the inner room. Thinking—there are only some sweet-scented osmanthus oil and rose water in the room, which are not used seriously, so how can Mr. Xie bear it?

The next morning.

After the banquet at the end of the year, the ministers have a few days to rest and take a bath, so they don't have to go to court.After Xie Wen was hangover, he had a splitting headache. He raised his hand and pressed his forehead. As soon as he opened his eyes, he realized that his whole body was sore and limp.His muscles and bones seemed to have been pulled out, and he was tortured repeatedly in hot water, and his whole body was uncomfortable.

Although he was drunk, there were no fragments. The scenes from last night flashed back one after another, and they were stuffed into his mind intermittently. The clearest scene was when he hooked Xiao Xuanqian's shoulders and said to him, "You Why don't you kiss me..."

...Is this what he should say?

Xie Wen's face was hot, ashamed, angry, and guilty, but Xiao Xuanqian hadn't left yet. He was just reading carefully what the bottles and jars brought in by the maid were for. Seeing that Xie Wen woke up, he Immediately got up, and without saying a word, he lifted his robe and knelt down beside the couch.

He was kneeling in front of him, he was obviously of royal blood, but he was so docile and loyal.

The two were relatively silent, and the room was silent.Xie Wen couldn't bear such a scene, he raised his hands and kneaded the center of his brows, unable to express what was in his heart for a moment, he asked in a hoarse voice: "I lost my morals after drinking, are you also drunk?"

Xiao Xuanqian replied with his head down: "Students dare not go against the teacher's will."

Xiao Jiu's words are not personal, Xie Wen wished to whip this little bastard to death, did I personally order you to do this?Although he wasn't sure what he would look like after drinking, he clearly remembered how this little bastard would not give up after tasting it, otherwise he wouldn't be sore all over.

When Xie Wen was about to settle accounts with him, Xiao Xuanqian suddenly got up and sat on the bed, hugging him.The young man's strong bones and muscles surged together with his warm breath, his chin rested on Xie Wen's shoulder, and his tone was low with guilt and lost his mind: "You hit me."

Xie Wen stopped for a while, and heard the other party continue: "The teacher must not want me anymore."

Faint tears fell on the material of the shoulders, separated by a layer of thin shirt, Xie Wen was almost scalded by the tears, he let others hold him helplessly.

"It's all my fault." Xiao Xuanqian said in a low voice, "I was too reckless, I thought teacher... thought teacher liked me, but in fact I like you too much, it's all my fault...you hit me, but please don't abandon me. "

Obviously Xie Wen was fooled all night, but why did this little idiot cry instead.He regretted the extra glasses of wine he drank, because he had never been drunk before, so he didn't know where the bottom line was. Although he tried it now, it turned into a mistake.

Xie Wen was silent for a moment, but the other party cried more and more fiercely, and poured out his heartfelt feelings, almost creating some kind of illusion for Xie Wen that he was loved, but he quickly abandoned these elusive emotions and sighed: "That's not the case. You are a prince. In the future, there will be concubines and concubines. When you occupy that position in the future, you will have a harem..."

"I don't want others." Xiao Xuanqian looked at him intently and said, "As long as you don't want me, I will serve the teacher all my life."

Xie Wen's hand that was being held by him was faintly numb, and he felt an unprecedented expectation. Although this expectation was extinguished like a spark candle flame, at this moment, there was indeed a trace of him. Trust, thinking that Xiao Jiu is pure and sincere, and there is not a single lie in what he said.

Xie Wen looked at him for a moment, raised her hand to wipe off the tears on the other's cheek, and said in a low voice, "Okay, pour me a cup of tea."

Xiao Xuanqian grasped his hand with nostalgia, rubbed his fingertips on his wrist a few times, then obediently went to pour tea, those bottles and jars were put into the cabinet that Xie Wen couldn't see, Some of them were taken away by Xiao Jiu. If it hadn't been for accidental use twice later, I am afraid that Xie Wen would never know that there are these things hidden in his room in this life.

Candlelight flickered in front of my eyes.Chess players have always had a good memory, and these old events can be accurately reflected in their minds. It seems that they have only been traced back for a moment, and it seems that they have exhausted his ten years in exchange for such a little bit that makes people ponder over and over again. good.

Xiao Xuanqian put his arm on his shoulder, he no longer expressed his heart and cried to ask for Xie Wen's love and affection.Xie Wen couldn't feel the admiration and sincerity in his eyes, but felt the phantom pain rooted in his heart spreading between his limbs and bones. He was in a trance for a moment, and when he came back to his senses, he felt that the worry was too intense up.

Xiao Xuanqian held his wrist. In this situation, Xie Wen's tense nerves were touched, and only the idea of ​​running away remained in his mind. He struggled to shrink back, and tried his best to hide from the opponent's arms. On the inside of the bed, he raised a hand to cover his face, and then slowly calmed down the violent breathing.

Xiao Xuanqian's arms were empty, he was at a loss for a moment, looked at Xie Min's heaving chest, and seemed to want to say something, but everything he said was full of frustration.He stared blankly at Xie Wen, wanting to step forward, but he didn't dare, his Adam's apple rolled a few times, and then pleaded: "...don't be so afraid of me."

Fresh air poured into his lungs, Xie Wen curled up into a ball, he buried his head on his knees, the scars on his wrists were blocked by the hanging sleeves, he cooled down for a few breaths, and then restrained his body's subconscious reaction, lifted Look at each other.

The little emperor's fingers were clenched tightly, his phalanges turned white from the force.Even though he was already so old, he looked very depressed, like a puppy that was shut out of the door and exposed to the rain.

Xie Wen changed her tone, and hooked the corner of her lower lip in a self-deprecating manner, but she couldn't maintain a decent smile, so she could only say in a low voice: "...I don't want to be afraid of you either."

How could he be afraid of his students?What is this, it's so inappropriate... Xie Wen was thinking chaotically in his mind, he asked himself repeatedly, whether he had ever been tempted, did he really think that the lonely Ninth Prince could be with him Depend on each other?But he couldn't give an answer, he maintained the reserve he should have, but he couldn't restrain his soul soaked in bitterness.

Xie Wen thought, is she not reconciled?I also want to ask Xiao Xuanqian why we are in this situation today.The kindness and generosity of these ten years, my love and care for you, are they all insignificant? Since you don't care about it, why do you beg me to be with you?

Across a candlestick with fluttering flames, the light shone on Xiao Xuanqian's red-gold noble imperial clothes. Xie Wen was dazzled by the bright luster. She turned her eyes away from him, facing the silent wall, and suddenly said: One sentence: "Go back to sleep."

"Huaiyu..."

"I'm still too confused." Xie Wen stared at the shadow reflected by the candlelight, "When you went to the Luming Banquet, Mr. Zhongcheng Xiao, the censor who had not passed away, was the teacher of the champion that year. Daughter, one was betrothed to the number one scholar, and the other said in front of all the guests, I left it for you to marry."

Xiao Xuanqian was stunned for a moment, looked at him and quickly argued: "At that time, I was hypocritical..."

"I know," Xie Wen smiled, "I'm just enlightened, and I finally understand that princes, and those who will be emperors in the future, can't have no heirs after all. Since I want you to be a wise and wise king, why... Such absurdity."

Xie Wen paused for a while, his eyebrows flickered under the candlelight: "Let me stay alone for one night, okay?"

Xiao Xuanqian had no choice but to refuse.

It was as if someone had squeezed the tip of his heart tightly, and a piece of flesh was pulled out from the most cherished and cherished place. Xiao Xuanqian was afraid that he would be sad, so he forced himself to agree to the other party: "Okay...then I will..."

Xu said these words were too difficult, Xie Wen leaned forward a little, raised her hand to stroke his hair, under the emperor's crown, the other's hair was still black and soft, he seemed to coax a small animal As if, he said comfortingly, "See you tomorrow."

Xiao Xuanqian shook his head, and murmured: "See you tomorrow."

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In the long autumn night, the chill on the verge of winter rolls over the window screens one after another.

Cui Sheng waited on the emperor to move the palace late at night, since Mr. Xie kept Ziwei Palace, Xiao Xuanqian has not slept alone for some time.He gave orders to the palace servants one by one, and finally went in to check the smoker and incense burner himself.

Cui Sheng knew better than anyone that the emperor would not be able to sleep peacefully without Mr. Xie around.

The movement inside the bed tent was extremely low, almost silent.But Cui Sheng knew that His Majesty was not asleep, he was feeling the temperature of the prepared tea outside, when he heard the sound of dressing in the bedroom.

Cui Sheng hurriedly leaned over to wait on him.At some point, the young emperor got out of bed and sat at the table. There were some memorials and official documents that were deliberately dealt with coldly or that did not need to be approved too quickly. He was playing with the golden knife that he carried with him.

It was a gift from Mr. Xie.Cui Sheng knew the origin of almost all His Majesty's items, even if he didn't know, all the things that Xiao Xuanqian cherished and loved had nothing to do with Lord Xie, so he didn't even need to guess.

The dagger inlaid with gold and inlaid with jade turned over in Xiao Xuanqian's palm, Cui Sheng leaned forward, respectfully and comforted him: "It's late at night, Your Majesty carefully damages the dragon's body."

Xiao Xuanqian gave a "hmm".

Just when Cui Sheng saw that he had no intention of going to sleep and was about to step forward to put a piece of clothing on His Majesty, the dagger that was fluttering like a dexterous butterfly between his fingers suddenly stopped, and the sharp tip pointed straight at Xiao Xuanqian stared at him without blinking, seeing the blood gushing out and the pain onset dullly.

The next moment, Cui Sheng rushed over and grabbed Xiao Xuanqian's wrist, knelt on the ground and shouted: "Your Majesty!"

The blood ran along his arm, dripping down his wrist, the back of his hand, his fingertips, dripping to the ground.With his rolled up sleeves, Cui Sheng saw wounds drawn on the emperor's body one after another, some were deep and some were shallow, and some were obsolete and faded into white marks... Your Majesty is cautious and suspicious, changing his personal clothes by himself, even his Never been close.

He opened his eyes wide in surprise and shock, but Xiao Xuanqian's brows were gloomy, and half of his face was sunk in shadows that couldn't be seen.He closed his eyes and said slowly and tiredly, "Guo Jin wouldn't be yelling like you."

Cui Sheng knelt on the ground trembling all over: "Your Majesty... old slave, old slave, go and call the imperial doctor..."

"No need." Xiao Xuanqian couldn't see what kind of expression he had on his face, "Let it hurt for a while."

Cui Sheng's mind became more and more blank. He wanted to ask you why you hurt your body like this, but in the end he said: "This is a gift from the Emperor Master. You use it to hurt yourself like this. Even if Master Xie knows about it—"

"He won't know." Xiao Xuanqian put the golden wrong knife back on the case, "You step back."

Cui Sheng had no choice but to obey the holy will even so, so he bowed his head and withdrew, closing the door behind him.In the huge bedroom, only Xiao Xuanqian stared at the blood-stained dagger. He found that the pain in his body seemed to be gradually subsiding, but the pain in his heart became more and more sensitive, and the pain was so painful that he was about to tear it when he touched it. split.

He thought calmly:

Apart from Huaiyu, nothing can save him.

The author has something to say: When I wrote this chapter, I found that their directions were completely opposite. Teacher Xiao Xie was becoming more and more numb to the feeling of sadness and disappointment. Emotional soothes from pain and the feeling of "punishment" are also failing.

In reality, this kind of behavior is never advocated to relieve pain, let alone fall in love to the point of hurting yourself. We are normal people, and we are serious about knocking on the blackboard.