Jealousy and I love you

If it was a few months ago, the half-day vacation would have been a bit boring to me, and the head-covered sleep would have passed, but now, the head-covered sleep has its more important meaning.The fever has subsided, and the burning feeling in the throat is no longer there. Although the head is still dizzy, after getting up and taking a bath, the whole person feels much refreshed.

Zhang Xiaoge came in quietly at some point and prepared my change of clothes, and even put breakfast on the table.With a sandwich in my mouth, I edited a text message and asked Zhang Xiaoge to get two ice packs to apply to my swollen eyes.

Liu Xun sent me an audio file, which is a piece he hums with piano accompaniment.

"How about it? Use this song for Rong Youyan. You can show me the lyrics after you have written them, and we can get in touch again."

It was sent in the early hours of yesterday, and he didn't mention my gaffe last night, but just seriously discussed the matter of writing a song for Rong Youyan.

I settled a sandwich in three bites, sucked up a can of milk in two bites, took out the tablet from my bag, nestled back on the bed, and started playing the tune Liu Xun sent me in a loop.

Well, Rong Youyan didn't stipulate what theme should be written, he just invited Liu Xun and me to sing songs purely and jokingly.I didn't take it seriously at all at the time, I didn't expect Liu Xun to actually compose a piece of music.

Many female artists in the circle have sent out invitations to Liu Xun, but Liu Xun did not refuse all comers... So, it seems that he is writing songs for someone, and soon there will be an affair with that person.

How proud?Tsk, it's interesting, I guess Liu Xun can't handle her.

Oops, why did I think about it again, the lyrics!

... Sigh, I haven't used my brain for too long, and all the brain cells are dead.Holding the pen and paper I picked up at hand, I scribbled a few lines, feeling dissatisfied, and scribbled and corrected to make it look bad.

"Like honey wrapped in night,

"Like the dawn after the mist clears..."

"The ice pack is here!" Zhang Xiaoge successfully interrupted my train of thought.

Curling his lips, he had no choice but to put this matter aside and continue working.

The filming of the TV series went fairly smoothly. There were a few explosions where doubles were used. Watching them roll in the mud with disgrace, I hid in the awning, which felt a little uncomfortable.

During this period, I received two advertisements, one for print and one for online endorsement, both of which are very good brands, and I have several more apps in my mobile phone.

Every night I would spend half an hour thinking about the lyrics of that song. I would write two sentences today and erase one sentence the next day.

Because Hongcheng Satellite TV wanted to broadcast the return ceremony of cultural relics in prime time, our filming was delayed for a week, so that it was half a month before we met Liu Xun.

Spring is hung on the branches, whose brows does the warmth fall into?

It happened that no one had any other activities that day. We finished recording the program in a picturesque town and got together for a drink.With this program, Chen Xi and Jin Lun have already squeezed into the positions of first-line male stars, and Jiang Chenxiao's rock tour is also being planned intensively.As for other people, there is no need to mention it.

With a cigarette in his mouth, Jin Lun was full of rage: "Brother Killer is so righteous, he actually agreed to guest star in my TV series, the director will kneel down and lick me after he finds out!"

Jiang Chen smiled "hehe" all over his face: "Why don't you talk about me, my role in the scene is no less than his."

Jin Lun gave his brother a sideways look: "This is the first time he has acted in a TV series. You are my brother in and out of the show. It's nothing new. The audience will be bored with watching it!"

Chen Xi smiled and opened two more bottles of wine: "I always have to try it. It's rare that the Dharma King is willing to invite me."

Jin Lun frowned: "Hey! You also called me Dharma King, and said, who did you learn from, don't be led astray by them!"

Rong Youyan watched a group of elders talking about the mountains, and without interrupting, he covered his mouth and smiled.

Wang Yu didn't drink well, and he was already a little over the top, pointing at Rong Youyan with his tongue out: "You, you, you! Pretending to be a lady, I tell you, you have to drink when you come here!" He poured her a full glass.

Chen Yuzhong watched helplessly as his old friend went berserk, and blinked for Rong Youyan to think of a way to solve it.

Rong Youyan swallowed a glass domineeringly, his tone was calm and his expression was normal: "Recently, I plan to enter the music scene, seniors should take care of me, especially Xiaozi, my boy... and hydrochloric acid."

I was silently looking for a sense of existence in the corner, and suddenly I was "ding" the name of the goddess. I was shocked, and the wine in my hand spilled on the tiger's mouth.Seeing everyone look over, my face is a little hot:

"Uh...Actually, the song I promised to write to you before already has a first draft."

"Really!" Rong Youyan's beautiful eyes widened, "Hurry up! Show me."

Once the words have been spoken, I can’t go back on my words. I took out my mobile phone from my trouser pocket: "In the mobile phone, the lyrics and music are separated. I wrote the lyrics, and Liu Xun composed the music..."

"Listen to it, it doesn't matter if you don't like it." After thinking about it, I still added this sentence.

"I like it! I will definitely like it!" Rong Youyan took my mobile phone with an unexpected look, glared at the man present, and gave a pass, "Quiet! I want to listen to me New song!"

It was still early in the morning, and there was no one around, but when the queen spoke, even Mr. Dog, who was talking nonsense, shut up, and it became even more quiet.

Rong Youyan looked at the interface, then handed over the phone again: "Huh? Is there no sample?"

I was embarrassed: "I wrote it while humming, so I didn't record it."

Liu Xun sat diagonally across from me, shook his wine glass, and nodded at me: "Then you sing now, I just haven't heard the lyrics you wrote."

I was even more embarrassed: "This..."

Under the leadership of Rong Youyan, everyone began to applaud and whistle. I am a big man who is not easy to push back and forth, so I have to sing my masterpiece with the cheek. Sing your own composition in front of other people.

"Like honey wrapped in night

"Like the dawn after the mist has cleared

"I want to be with you

"But can't climb over the fence

"Your delicate face

"Your expensive suit

"Your light

"It was the awn that stabbed me

"worship you like an idol

"treat you like a friend

"This awkward feeling

"It's not love..."

The ending was a bit tense, and the sound was not very good, but it still won a lot of applause.

"It's very well sung. Well, maybe I'll change some parts of the piece to match your words."

My ears only heard Liu Xun say that.As for what other people said, there is no need to care.

Everyone's face was full of happiness like a horseshoe, and it was inevitable that they would lose their sense of propriety when they pushed the cup and changed the cup. Everyone blushed and followed their assistants back to the room to rest, and I became shy after realizing it.

I didn't drink much, and I was refreshed after taking a shower. I couldn't fall asleep in bed, so I ran to knock on Liu Xun's door with my flip flops.

"Hey, shall we discuss this song again?"

Liu Xun raised his eyebrows, noncommittal, let me in the room.

There were balls of paper everywhere on the ground. I picked up a sheet and unfolded it. It was a score that had been painted over.

"Why change it? I think it's quite appropriate."

"No," Liu Xun raked his hair irritably, "It's generally okay to listen to you sing today, but there are still a lot of details to be dealt with, and Rong Youyan is a girl, so the song should match her feeling."

"Oh." I was a little disappointed, it turned out that Liu Xun praised me only perfunctorily, and there are so many changes to be made.

"Then do you need to change my words to suit you?"

"No need!" Liu Xun denied it outright, seeing that I was a little disappointed, and his tone softened, "Your writing is great, that's what I want."

"Really?" I was dubious.

Liu Xun didn't answer me, and lay back on the bed with a pen in his mouth: "How about a song title?"

"Hmm..." I looked at the tip of Liu Xun's nose which was illuminated by the light, "How about "Jealousy"?"

""Jealousy"?" Liu Xun polished it, and suddenly his eyes lit up, "That's right! This word doesn't appear in the whole song, I'm still surprised, what kind of feeling do you want to express, it turns out to be jealousy! I I know how to change the tune!"

...It seems that he didn't hear what I said.

Liu Xun spat out his pen under the bed, rolled on the bed alone for two and a half weeks, and suddenly sat up and looked at me with a bright face and bright eyes: "Want to celebrate?"

I looked puzzled: "Ah? What are you celebrating? How do you celebrate?"

Two minutes later, I pressed on him, and the clothes on my body and the paper balls on the ground were randomly thrown together.

"Have you really changed your gender?" I asked in disbelief while kissing him.

He snorted heavily instead of answering, and I don't know if he and other women just work in muffled voices when doing this.

Forget it, don't care, if you have wine today, you will be drunk today, and the beauty will rest.

"By the way... I didn't even prepare a birthday present for you."

"Well... Isn't it like this before, before?"

"It's 30 years old, it's time to live a good life, and now I will compensate you..."

"Um……"

Afterwards, I asked him: "Are you afraid that others will hear you? You are so aggrieved. Next time we do it at home, you can shout as loud as you want."

Liu Xun felt comfortable all over, and he captured new inspiration in the unity of soul and body. He wrote vigorously without raising his head: "I don't like to make noises if I want to show off by myself."

"Don't hold back?"

Liu Xun looked up at me with a complicated expression: "When you were number 1... did you shout more ecstasy than number 0 every time?"

Me: "...Okay, it's good that you feel good."

Sitting next to Liu Xun for a while, seeing him completely immersed in the world of music, he didn't dare to disturb him, so he could only get up and leave.Just after buttoning the button, Liu Xun suddenly put down the pen: "I thought there would be no next time."

"Ok?"

"Last time you were sick, we talked so much, I thought there would be no next time between us."

"Oh." I smiled awkwardly, "It's you who rejected me, okay, shouldn't I say that?"

"Yan Su'an, do you know what I thought at the time? I was very surprised. I thought that after you fell in love with me, you would get tired of it soon, or run away, or hide, or simply pretend that nothing happened, and continue to be with me in a dignified manner. Be a brother. I didn’t expect you to say it first before I expressed that meaning.”

I hang my hand three buttons away from the collar, and I can't believe that the person in front of me is Liu Xun. His sharp words summed up all the ideological struggles I was doing at that time, and I was so ashamed that I couldn't say a word .

"Hehe," he suddenly smiled miserably, "I can't promise you, so even if I think I might like you, or be willing to continue having sex with you, I just can't promise you."

"What exactly is the promise you mentioned?" I murmured my lips, trying to squeeze out these few words.

"I can't come out, and I don't want you to take the initiative to reveal your sexual orientation. Even if I don't date girls with big breasts again, I don't want to tell others that I'm in love with you."

"That's right." I smiled miserably, feeling humiliated for some reason, "I think so, it's too cheap to be with me."

"That's not what I mean!" He interrupted me, walked up to me with bare feet and looked at me, "Ten years ago, I had nothing and had no scruples; 30 years, no, 20 years later, I may have nothing again, and I may You can feel free to…”

"So not now." I finished the sentence for him, "So, fame and fortune are more important?"

"Although I'm sorry, I have to admit this, yes, for your future, for my future..."

"We can't be together." I understood.

The author has something to say: If there is a girl who thinks she can have sex...

Let me explain, both of them feel that the underground relationship is unreliable. After all, as long as the relationship will be exposed sooner or later, maybe the two people's love is not strong enough to burn out their reason and be together regardless of everything.

I've been very busy recently, I'm sorry I can't update normally, I guess it will be this ghost rhythm in the future, try to update once every two days (?)