[Comprehensive] Misfortune

Chen Qingyang said that people live in this world to endure torture until they die.If you understand this, everything can be handled with equanimity.

——Wang Xiaobo "Golden Age"

When she was young, Sakurai Yuko regarded herself as too precious and refused to give freely. It was not until she lost everything that she realized that nothing is absolutely precious. What is extremely precious in the eyes of others may be in her case. Just worthless.

If you want to reconcile this cognitive difference, you must first lower yourself.

When you don't feel precious about yourself, you discover what is truly precious.

But... For her, what is precious?

It's too bad Sakurai Tamako doesn't know what the answer is.Not so bad, she knows what is not precious to her.

When she thought she could get everything, she basically didn't have to think about what she wanted, she just had to reject what she didn't want.

She has always been loved by others. From thinking that she is the most precious to knowing that others are good, Yuko Sakurai has spent an extremely long period of time, and many people have sacrificed their lives for this.

The former Sakurai Yuko didn't know what she wanted. She thought that what she got and what she was given was what she wanted.

Yoshida Shoyo's many years of teaching plus his life, and finally the fate of his classmates, the despair of unrelated people... It was finally Yuko Sakurai who finally realized this.

Sakurai Yuko lowered herself.

She is finally willing to admit that she is a human being, and she is also one of the human beings she despises, and she is no nobler than them.

She finally admitted this, and then gave up the identity of "human" without hesitation.

Wraiths, from a human point of view, are lower-level existences than humans, perhaps even lower than stray cats on the side of the road.

But that's from a human point of view.

For Sakurai Yuko, as long as she is not human, even a stone spirit can satisfy her.

But even though it was her first time to be a ghost, Sakurai Yuko felt that her state was not quite right.

Are Wraiths such a powerful existence?As long as it exists, can it continue to grow stronger?

Is it really possible?

Although she occasionally wondered about it, Sakurai Yuko didn't care much about it.To be honest, she even cares more about Orochimaru and even Uchiha Obito than her own state.

Arriving at Urenin Village, the Red Sand Scorpion came forward, and Uchiha Obito acquiesced, the three of Sakurai Yuko and the Akatsuki organization rooted in Urenin Village reached an alliance with no interest.

It's not right to say it's an alliance, Yuko Sakurai just wants to use Urenin Village as her stronghold.

Since she wanted this place, she didn't care how much trouble it caused Akatsuki.

Sound easy?

Well……

Anyway, when the Scarlet Sand Scorpion came back and said it, he acted very relaxed.

Although the red sand scorpion thought that Sakurai Yuko had a preference for Orochimaru, but that was when he misread the reference object.In fact, Sakurai Yuko is much more tolerant to him, she has always been very tolerant to him, almost to the level of Gaara back then.

Ever since she knew that the Red Sand Scorpion had turned herself into a puppet, Sakurai Yuko was very tolerant towards him.Perhaps neither party is aware of this, but it is absolutely true.

Think about the oboro who was dragged into hell by Sakurai Yuko with a chuckle and left behind at will.

After seeing Obito Uchiha, even a dull person like Sakurai Yuko couldn't help noticing that there were often painful and desperate humans around her.

Even a chess piece chosen at random is a mad scientist who paranoidly embarks on the road of pursuing immortality because of the unacceptable past...

Sakurai Yuko felt like a magnet, attracting iron filings wherever she went.

Pain should obviously be an existence that makes people vulnerable and insane, but it presents a metallic texture in Yuko Sakurai.

Is it because she is the most miserable person?

Sakurai Yuko has no intention of exaggerating or minimizing her pain, but if the tragedy that befalls her is beyond her perception, can this tragedy be called tragic?

Probably yes.

after all……

With a tragic beginning, there will basically be a tragic ending. Yuko Sakurai knows this well and takes it calmly.

She doesn't have much curiosity, which is deeply ingrained and difficult to change. Now, even she doesn't care too much.

Because she is a bad person, there will be a bad ending.

This world does not give people the opportunity to make up for their mistakes, and the "human" here does not just refer to "human beings".

She used to be self-righteous, but now she will all be punished.

Really...

Couldn't be more perfect.

Speaking of...

Back then, she was still a fool who could confidently tell people that she would make the world regret it.

Sakurai Yuko recalled the past. In the past, there was a group of extremely noisy people. She had never joined them, but their laughter was indeed passed on to her.

Orochimaru was attracted by Sakurai Yuko's gradual smile.

It was dusk at this time, and the sun was shining golden. Yuko Sakurai sat on the stone, with a golden light behind her.

This situation, coupled with that seemingly infinitely gentle smile.

All living beings are trapped, with immeasurable suffering all over the body.

Guanyin's wonderful intelligence can save the suffering in the world.

this situation...

Orochimaru never told Sakurai Yuko, and he would never reveal any clues.

When he saw Sakurai Yuko for the first time... At that time, he had hallucinations in front of his eyes, and he felt in a trance that the woman in front of him was a huge poisonous snake, a terrifying beast that was about to strangle all living things.

Why is it a snake?

Among so many images, why in his subconscious mind, the image of Sakurai Yuko is a snake?

This may be related to his psychic beast, the snake is the animal he is most familiar with, but it is not only because of this, more importantly...

Snakes are obscene in nature.

For Orochimaru, this is not an ethical topic, but a physiological phenomenon.He has seen thousands of snakes twisted in a huge pothole, that is their carnival day, it is a sacred act of continuing life and race, without any vulgar elements.

But when she saw Sakurai Yuko, there was a bit of slyness in this woman's eyebrows and eyes, and any expression made by her had a soft and seductive meaning. She took off the bamboo hat, and the long hair that was originally entangled poured down , like countless snakes twisting their bodies in mid-air, looking for the same kind that can cling to and entangle.

At that time, Orochimaru felt that the giant snake lingering in the tropical rainforest twisted its body, it was huge and amazingly beautiful, the air was like oil, and the atmosphere was vigorous and ambiguous, as if in a time longer than ancient times, that The etiquette of the time has not yet been determined, and all creatures are on the ground, without shame, let alone wild | lust | desires, everything seems so magnanimous.

At this moment, the cassock is covered with golden light, and the wreath is blood-like red, symbolizing the extinction and continuation of life. Even the stone under the seat has become a lotus flower that makes the Buddha smile.

Orochimaru would never tell others that he actually saw holiness from a resentful spirit.

Orochimaru was moved by the scene in front of him, he realized that what he was looking at was the beauty that others could hardly discover in his life, this beauty contained everything, and everything in the world was contained in it.

When you look at Sakurai Yuko, you see the whole world.

"What is Miss Yuzi thinking?"

Orochimaru made no secret of the greed in his eyes, his eyes were almost condensed into substance, tightly wrapped around this woman.

Anything is good, whether it is tempting her to eat the fruit of wisdom or biting her heel, as long as it can take the woman whom God loves out of the Garden of Eden, the insidious poisonous snake is willing to pay any price.

If this woman is destined to be polluted, then the only person who drags her into the world of mortals can only be me.

Though thinking like this... Orochimaru looked away without leaving any trace when Sakurai Yuko turned her head.

Job replied to the LORD: "...I had heard of you before, but now I have seen you with my own eyes. Therefore I loathe myself and repent in dust and ashes."

"I'm thinking about my old friend, but it's not wrong to say that I'm thinking about the past."

"An old friend?" Orochimaru asked knowingly.

Sakurai Yuko also knows that Orochimaru is asking knowingly, she likes people who say meaningless words, so she likes Orochimaru.

Such a person is Sakurai Yuko's favorite to pass the time.

"Yes, the human beings I met during my lifetime, now that I am dead, I miss them very much."

Orochimaru looked at Sakurai Yuko lightly, he narrowed his eyes slightly, his gilt eyes in the dimness unconsciously formed a line, the light was too dim, Sakurai Yuko couldn't see clearly what was in Orochimaru's eyes look.

"Full of reluctance to give up the world, but give up your identity as a human without hesitation?"

This is a difficult question to answer. If she wanted to clearly answer this question, Sakurai Yuko would even start from the other world, but she didn't feel that she needed to answer it seriously.

"The concept of the human world is too broad. I just miss a part of it, and it's still an insignificant part."

"Are they still alive?"

"Do you want to know when I died?"

"That's right, when you meet such a wonderful existence as Miss Yuzi, it's not a big deal to have some curiosity, right?"

"It doesn't make sense, even if I answer you, you can't get the answer."

"Oh?"

"I am no longer a human being. It is meaningless to pursue my past."

Sakurai Yuko turned her head to look at the sunset, her voice was inaudible, like a young snake spitting out a snake letter.

"When I was a human... when I was called a monster, I didn't think in a normal way, so study what I have done, or even do now... Pointless. Do you ever wonder why a flower withers?"

There was a glint in Dashemaru's eyes.

"Yes." Orochimaru said warmly.

Sakurai Yuko opened her eyes slightly, and she looked back again, with her head tilted slightly.

for a long time.

Sakurai Yuko showed a faint smile.

"is it?"

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