Looking to the Thirteen Rivers

Meng Jing sat on the threshold, facing the wind and snow.

In the middle of winter, Sangyu Mountain looks like a lonely place far away from the world. When you look up, your eyes are full of white, and there is extremely thick snow everywhere. There are no people or birds.

The medicine in his hand was still very hot just now, when a few snowflakes fell in, it quickly cooled down.Meng Jing was holding the bowl, drinking in small sips, and heard Meng's mother say from behind: "Good boy, my mother has suffered from low back pain for the past two days, you can go and deliver food to your father later, remember to come back early. Don't hang out with him in the woods, it's not good to get sick in such a cold day."

Meng Jing nodded, raised her head and gulped down the soup in one go.Meng's mother added clothes to her and wrapped her in a small animal skin jacket, while Meng Jing put on a patched felt hat and asked, "Mother, there is something I don't understand."

Mother Meng said, "What's the matter?"

Meng Jing sniffed, a little unhappy, and said, "Didn't my father and I go to sell goods in the city yesterday morning? We passed by a school and heard many people in it reciting books. You can go to school at any time, he didn't say, let me ask you."

Mother Meng looked distressed, and put a few freshly steamed steamed buns and pickles into a bamboo basket and covered it with a cotton cloth.She turned her back to Meng Jing and said: "Wait a little longer, you have to take medicine every day, the money at home is not enough, and it is cold winter, your father can't even kill a rabbit in a few days, and he is almost out of food." After eating, how can I send you to school."

Meng Jing squatted outside the school yesterday and listened for a long time. At noon, many young masters and ladies from rich families were taken home by their carriages for dinner. A beautiful little girl who looked like a doll in New Year pictures threw a few copper coins in front of her. .As if he had found a treasure, Meng Jing grabbed it and stuffed it into his sleeve. He didn't tell his parents all the time, so he took out the copper coin and asked, "How much does it cost to go to school, is it enough for me?"

When Mother Meng heard the origin of her few copper coins, she couldn't speak for a long time, and finally sighed: "This is not enough, those rich and noble families always invite teachers to their homes, and those who are not so rich I just went to a private school to study, but it is more than a star and a half better than our family. You see, our family is so poor that it would be nice to let you have a mouthful of medicine, but don’t worry, when parents earn money in the future, they will sent you to school."

Holding the copper plate, Meng Jing suddenly lost her temper, pushed the medicine bowl on the table to the ground, and cried, "You guys are so useless! Since you are so poor, you can't even pay for school, so why should I be born? You don’t need to take this medicine if you make me jealous of others in vain, just let me die of illness, it will save you two bucks!”

When Mother Meng heard this, her heart felt as if it had been run over by some heavy object, and she wished that even her bones would be broken.It just so happened that Father Meng rushed back at this time, and just in time to hear Meng Jing's words verbatim, Father Meng dropped the pannier on his shoulder, grabbed Meng Jing by the collar, lifted her up and beat her. , Cursed: "You bastard! I don't think you are a sick bastard who came to collect debts, but you think we are poor. Even the beasts in the mountains know that their nests are the best, and you are not even as good as a beast! See if I don't beat you to death today, you disrespectful!"

Father Meng originally harvested a lot today, not only took out a pheasant nest, killed two pheasants, but also netted a few small fish in the ice pond, thinking of coming back to make soup for Meng Jing to make her happy.Unexpectedly, before entering the door, I heard Meng Jing yelling at her mother. Meng's father was furious and hit hard, beating Meng Jing to cry, and Meng's mother couldn't stop her.The whole family made a fuss, and Meng's father calmed down a little, but he also threw Meng Jing out of the door, closed the door and said: "I don't know what's good or bad, this family is so poor. I can't afford to support you, Miss Jiao, if you have the ability, go to the city and find someone else to be your father and mother!"

Mother Meng wiped her tears and said, "Bah, bah, bah! What Miss Jiao! The doctor said that this child's life is not good, and he can only live a few more years if he is raised as a boy. Didn't you throw him out and tell him to die? It’s icy and snowy, and you have to spend money to find a doctor to treat him when you’re frozen, you’re going to kill your own queen!”

The couple were arguing endlessly in the house. Meng Jing was planted in the snow like a carrot, and she couldn't get up even with great effort.She was very sad, but still angry, howled twice, then rolled her eyes and turned away. When the couple finally finished their quarrel and opened the door, Meng Jing had already frozen into a lump of ice outside, and she couldn't wake up no matter how much she shouted.

"You kill a thousand knives, what are you doing with so much force!" Meng Mu hugged Meng Jing and started running down the mountain, turning her head, "How can he get up when no one pulls on such thick snow? Jing If something happens to my son, I will go back to my mother's house, and you can live alone!"

The wind that day was icy cold, and it hurt like a knife on the face.In fact, Meng Jing was still conscious, but she couldn't open her eyes. She heard her mother calling her over and over again. For some reason, a deep sorrow and sadness suddenly surged in her heart.

It felt like a strong wind, like a flood, and she was completely immersed in it.Meng Jing struggled for a long time, finally managed to breathe a sigh of relief, she tried her best to hug her mother back, and said to her with tears: "I'm sorry, I was wrong, I know I was wrong..."

"Mom, I was wrong..."

"I will never do this again, I really know I was wrong..."

She kept admitting her mistake and apologized to her mother, but Meng's mother's voice never rang in her ears again.The cold wind seemed to be receding gradually, the piercing cold was gradually replaced by warm heat, the gloomy sky slowly faded, and suddenly there was a bright light in front of her eyes, Meng Jing opened her eyes with difficulty, and what she saw was not Sangyu Mountain in winter is the student room of Wenxin Peak.

Her eyes, pierced by the light, turned white, staring at Venus, all the scenes in the dream disappeared at this moment, but the reassuring embrace did not disappear.At the same time, there was a gentle voice comforting her——

"It's okay, it's okay... it's going to be okay, everything's going to be okay."

Meng Jing's expression was dull, looking at the decorations in the room for a long time, but she couldn't get back to her senses.After a long time, she turned her head stiffly and met Yin Qiu's worried eyes.

The two looked at each other silently for a while, and Yin Qiu seemed to realize that Meng Jing had woken up, and said pleasantly, "Are you awake? How is it? Is there any pain? Is there any discomfort?"

Meng Jing looked at her, her dry and bloodless lips fluttered twice, but she couldn't utter a word, her face was covered with tears, and Yin Qiu's shoulder was also wet.

Yin Qiu wiped away her tears and cold sweat with a handkerchief, gestured to let go of Meng Jing, and said, "Lie back first, and I'll call Elder Xu over to show you."

Seeing that Yin Qiu was about to leave, Meng Jing didn't know where the strength came from, and hugged her tightly.

"Don't go..."

Yin Qiu paused, had no choice but to pat Meng Jing's thin back, and asked, "Did you have a nightmare?"

Meng Jing choked up and remained silent, with tears streaming down her eyes, Yin Qiu heard her calling her father and mother in her dream, so she knew that she must have dreamed about something sad.Yin Qiu was silent for a while, sighed softly, and said to Meng Jing: "Just wake up, no matter what you dreamed, it's all over." At this time, she didn't have time to think about how to comfort Meng Jing, she could only think of What to say, picking up the words, "I also dreamed about my mother, isn't it amazing? I have never seen her, and I can dream about it. Although I didn't see her face in the dream, she just He stood behind me and held an umbrella for me, but I always remember it, and I haven't forgotten it until now."

Meng Jing whimpered twice, and said hoarsely, "In your dream...is it raining?"

"Well, there's a lot of rain," Yin Qiu said softly, "and there's a lot of fire."

Meng Jing was silent for a moment, then asked again: "How can there be fire in the rain?"

Yin Qiu smiled, recalling how she was taken care of by Man Jiangxue when she was ill, so she imitated her and shook Meng Jing gently, saying: "I'm also surprised, such a heavy rain, but the rain is so heavy. I just can't put out the fire. I walk around, I don't know who I'm looking for, but I feel like I should look for someone, but everyone avoids me, and I can't seem to get close to them Later, I was tired from running, and my mother held up an umbrella for me at that time, covering me from the rain, and I talked to her for a while."

Meng Jing leaned in her arms, and the tears that fell wet Yin Qiu's skirt again.She closed her sore and swollen eyes, and said in a daze, "What did you say?"

Yin Qiu recalled it for a while, then shook his head: "I don't remember this one, I just remember that her voice was very nice, just as I imagined."

Meng Jing's eyes were empty, and she didn't know where her eyes fell. She smelled the faint fragrance of Yin Qiu's body, and continued to ask: "Then where is your father?"

Yin Qiu said: "I never dreamed of my father. When I first arrived in the palace that year, my uncle used to pretend to be my mother. I still vaguely remember it. But I have no way of knowing what my father looks like. I just listened to him." People say my eyes are almost exactly like his, but everything else looks like my mother."

Meng Jing looked up at her and said, "Your eyes are beautiful."

"Really?" Yin Qiu smiled calmly, "Many people have said so, even you think so? Then my father should be not bad, he may be a graceful and handsome man."

Meng Jing's eyes moved to Yin Qiu's face and never moved away. Yin Qiu put her arms around her and held her in his arms. In the years since he came to Yunhua Palace, no one has ever hugged her like this, even It was also the first time Yin Qiu was so close to her.

Meng Jing is so greedy for the warmth and smell of her body, as well as her soft embrace, because of Yin Qiu's existence, she quickly forgets about the people and things in her dreams.Meng Jing secretly thought: It would be great if this person belonged to her.

But she already belonged to someone else.

There is an indescribable and unspeakable sadness in my heart, the mistakes I made, now it is useless to regret, and the person I like now is so unloved.Meng Jing's heart ached again, but she held back silently, without revealing anything, just said: "Why did you come?"

Yin Qiu stretched out his hand, pointed to the desk under the window, and said, "I went to the city yesterday and brought you a pack of pine nut candies."

Meng Jing followed her hand to look, then looked away, looked at Yin Qiu and said, "Your eyes are so red and your hair is messy, did you not sleep all night?"

"I'm asleep," Yin Qiu said, "I slept on the low couch outside, I only came in when I heard you talking in my sleep."

Meng Jing knew she was lying.She knew Yin Qiu too well, even if she was not the one who fell ill yesterday, Yin Qiu would watch over him all night, and would never leave any patient alone in the room to sleep peacefully.

Meng Jing didn't know what she had talked in her sleep, and she didn't know whether she had bothered Yin Qiu that night, but when she found out that the first person she saw after waking up was Yin Qiu, she was very happy.

But besides the joy, there is more melancholy.

"You shouldn't be here," Meng Jing stopped crying, but she still spoke in a sobbing tone, "You are the last person I want to see after I get sick."

Yin Qiu said, "Why?"

Meng Jing didn't say anything.

"Then you didn't let me go just now," Yin Qiu said with a smile, "When will you change your awkward temper? We are good friends, and I should take care of you. You can research and develop for me day and night. Antidote, what's the point if I guard you all night?"

Meng Jing closed her eyes, but still didn't speak.

Seeing that her mood had stabilized, Yin Qiu straightened up and said, "Okay, now that you've woken up, you have to let Elder Xu see if you're still alive, and I'll call him, you wait first .”

Meng Jing hurriedly opened her eyes again, grabbed Yin Qiu and said, "Don't, Master is old, he must have not slept well last night, I am also a medical student, I know I'm fine, don't wake him up .”

Yin Qiu looked her in the eyes: "Really? But you look like this... I don't feel at ease."

"I'm fine." Meng Jing took a deep breath, sat up with Yin Qiu's shoulders, "you help me to a place."

Yin Qiu said unexpectedly: "Now? You just woke up and your body is still weak. What are you going to do?"

Meng Jing put on her shoes, staggered upright, reached for the clothes on the hanger, and said, "You'll know when you go."

Yin Qiu hesitated and said: "But you are still sick, it's time to recuperate, how can you walk around randomly? You tell me where you are going first, otherwise I won't agree."

Meng Jing put on her clothes by herself, walked to the side in a vain manner, and washed her face with cold water.She was dizzy and breathless, but she managed to remain calm and said, "Don't stop me. I have something I really want to do right now. If you don't want to go with me, then I'll go by myself."

How could Yin Qiu not stop him?The two argued in the room, and the commotion didn't wake up Elder Xu who was next door.It was still early, and the disciples at Wenxin Peak hadn't woken up yet, Meng Jing insisted on going out while leaning on the table and chairs, Yin Qiu saw that she couldn't stop her, and was worried that he would make Meng Jing fall ill again, so she nodded.

The two supported each other, pushed the door down the steps and left the courtyard, leaving Wenxin Peak.Yin Qiu asked Meng Jing what he wanted to do all the way, but Meng Jing remained calm and did not speak.It wasn't until a familiar building appeared at the end of the road that Yin Qiu realized it and asked, "You came to the punishment hall early in the morning, could it be..."

"I'm here to kill." Meng Jing said this in a flat tone, then staggered along the path and turned into the gate of the execution hall.

"Wait a minute—" Yin Qiu hurriedly caught up with her, and said a little anxiously, "You are so weak, why are you killing anyone? Come back with me!"

Meng Jing waved Yin Qiu's hand away and climbed up the steps. When she was about to enter the door, she turned sideways and said, "I'll borrow your dagger." past.

Yin Qiu was about to persuade him, but Meng Jing turned around and said, "You'd better not come in, I'm not responsible for having nightmares."

After saying that, he entered the entrance of the innermost cell, and closed the door behind him.

Soon, several disciples who were guarding the cell were also driven out by Meng Jing. Yin Qiu looked at them a few times, but the disciples looked very calm, as if they were not surprised by Meng Jing's behavior when he came here so early in the morning Strange, after bowing to Yin Qiu and saluting, they all went to the side hall to rest and wait.

Yin Qiu wanted to go in several times to check the situation, but he never heard any movement from inside, so he sat on the stone steps and waited while thinking.Fortunately, footsteps sounded behind him not long after, and Yin Qiu looked back, Meng Jing was holding Zhu Bing, and was standing at the door trying to calm her disordered breathing.

There was blood all over her face, and a lot of blood was splashed on the front of her clothes and skirt. Only her hands were dripping with water, and the ice chaser turned out to be clean.

"You..." Yin Qiu looked at her with complicated eyes.

"I washed it with water," Meng Jing walked to Yin Qiu and sat down, and returned Zhubing to her, "It's not dirty."

Yin Qiu frowned, and reached out to take Zhubing, the thin blade that was not stained with blood reflected her dignified face, and Meng Jing sat side by side with her on the ground without saying a word.The golden light from the distant sky broke through the clouds and projected down, coating the red, willow and green plants in the yard with a light golden light.

Neither of them spoke.

"I asked my uncle, and she said that this person is no longer useful, and life or death is up to me." After a while of silence, Meng Jing rested her head on Yin Qiu's shoulder, and said softly, "I gave him a good time." , A sword pierced his heart."

Yin Qiu bears the weight she gave himself, and has nothing to say for a while.

"I took revenge," Meng Jing laughed as if relieved, "I finally took revenge."

She laughed, but shed tears again.

Yin Qiu sighed, "Meng Jing..."

"Have you ever killed someone?" Meng Jing looked at Yin Qiu and asked, "This is the first time I have killed someone."

Yin Qiu had mixed feelings, and said slowly, "Go back."

Meng Jing slid down her shoulder, pillowed on Yin Qiu's lap, and said, "Can you tell me about you and your uncle?"

Yin Qiu said, "What are you talking about?"

Meng Jing said: "Anything is fine. I have never liked anyone, nor have I been really liked by anyone. I want to hear it."

Yin Qiu lowered his eyes to look at her profile, and said, "Then I'll talk about something, I'm afraid I won't be able to finish it in three days and three nights."

Meng Jing laughed and said, "Then talk about three days and three nights, I'll just listen."

Yin Qiu raised his head, and the more intense golden light enveloped the two of them, bringing the warmth of spring.She thought for a moment, then sat here and told Meng Jing all the history of her acquaintance with Man Jiangxue. From the beginning to the present, she told Meng Jing everything she could remember, without reservation.

At first, Meng Jing would echo or ask some questions, but as she talked, she didn't respond, she didn't move or make a sound.Yin Qiu leaned over to look at her, Meng Jing's eyes were closed tightly, her face was as white as her skirt.

Yin Qiu's heart jumped wildly in an instant, she stared at Meng Jing for a while, and softly called: "Meng Jing?"

Meng Jing didn't answer.

Yin Qiu fell into an ice cave for a moment, and called Meng Jing a few more words, but Meng Jing didn't see Meng Jing open her eyes, and she didn't listen to her answer.Yin Qiu's beating heart sank suddenly, and a few tears rolled down on Meng Jing's face. She stretched out her hand tremblingly, and touched the side of Meng Jing's neck.

Happily, the place beats with a less vigorous pulse,

The disciples who had been waiting in the side hall for a while came out again. Seeing Yin Qiu and Meng Jing sitting on the steps, they went into the cell to check the situation.Not long after, several people ran out in horror, looking straight at Yin Qiu.

"Don't tell me," Yin Qiu hugged Meng Jing, pinching her fabric with his fingers, "I don't want to hear it."

Several disciples looked at each other and asked, "Then this..."

Yin Qiu's lips trembled, forcing back tears, and hugged Meng Jing after a while.

She went down the steps, took two steps and said indistinctly: "Bury it."