Little madman

He Yuze's hands holding his documents were trembling. For some reason, he was suddenly afraid of knowing the truth of the matter.But he was even more afraid of Zhang Yuhe's revenge on him.

"Think about it carefully." Chen Yong pushed the thermos cup to him: "Drink something hot to warm up your body."

He Yuze didn't think long before answering: "I am willing."

Anyway, this is the end of the matter, no matter how frightened he is, he has to face reality, face Zhang Yuhe.Chen Yong pushed over a non-disclosure contract, which stated that if the sequelae occurred, his compensation and his future life problems would be borne by them.

He Yuze signed the name, with a sore nose, and said, "Brother Yong, you can chat with me again."

He Yuze's eyes were red, and Chen Yong was uncomfortable seeing it, so he patted him on the shoulder and said heavily, "Tell me, Brother Yong is here."

"The name He Yuze was given to me by my elder brother. At that time, I just entered the Su family, and I was bullied in the Su family. I didn't dare to tell my brother. I just hid any wounds, because I knew he was very protective. If he looks at me, he will definitely do something to kill someone for me."

"You mean...that dead..."

"That's right. I killed him." When He Yuze said this, tears rolled down one by one: "At that time, he was crying and begging me to save him, but I was afraid, I ran away, and I could only I just watched him die under Zhang Yuhe's knife."

"It's not your fault. Human instinct is to live. His Su family has done too many sins, and his death is the most deserved. You have to remember that everyone has to say for what they have done. I am responsible for what I have done. There is a saying... Karma. I am a policeman, I should not believe this, but I believe this sentence because I have seen too many cases. Those people got away with it, Extremely arrogant, and finally died by someone else's sword."

"Well..." He Yuze wiped away his tears: "I should also be responsible for my actions. I will not hide it from you, Brother Yong. There is nothing to hide when things have reached this point."

"I was in the hospital and the three children who were sent to the hospital with me were related to the Su family. The Su family lied to us and said that we were sick and needed to go to the hospital and cooperate with the doctor's examination."

"We all knew we were not sick, but we were sent to the hospital forcibly. At that time, our ward was very close to Su Li's, so we also got to know Su Li and became best friends during that time.

Su Li has a very good impression of me, better than the previous few children, he would most like to play with me, not with them.He likes to be obedient and sensible, and doesn't like them being too noisy... So I was with Su Li for a long time, until the day before he was going to have an operation.

I still remember that it was a rainy day, because the heavy rain made me unable to sleep, so I got up early to find something to eat.

Our ward is not far from the chief surgeon's office. I saw many people go into their chief surgeon's office that day.Out of curiosity, I followed, lying on the window to eavesdrop.

They started talking about Su Li's illness, which sounded very pessimistic. Su Li would die soon... Later, when they talked about the four of us, it was a frightening question about the ownership of organs. Whose kidneys are better? Who has a stronger heart...

It was then that I suddenly realized that they had been making us train every day not to let us exercise, but to record who among us had organs that matched Su Li more.

When I heard the news, I was very scared, and the group of people also heard my footsteps and chased them out.Because I ran faster, they couldn't catch up with me, so they could only go to the dormitory where we lived to control the other three people.

And I chose to go to Su Lian.Su Li was very weak at the time, with an oxygen tube inserted, and his face was pale.He was happy to see me coming, held my hand, and told me not to go.

I know that the only one who can save us now is Su Kui, as long as he is willing to give up, we will be able to survive.So I knelt down in front of him, and I cried and begged him to let us go.In my impression, Su Li is a very talkative person, he will give us his toys, snacks and new clothes as long as we want.But this time he refused, and he refused angrily.

He said he wanted to live.He said that if he didn't know me, he would have no hope of surviving. After he knew me, he wanted to live, to see the world with my heart, and to travel all over the world.

But the price of his survival was to kill four people.I cried and kowtowed, I begged him, I begged him to let us go.Su Gu got up and slapped me, scolding me for being ungrateful.I cried sadly, and he looked sad too, but after a while he let go, telling me that only one of the four of us can survive, and let me choose.

I knelt there and cried for a long time, until I was dragged away and tied to the operating table with them.They didn't give us anesthesia, just cut our skin with a knife and treated us like we were livestock.

Su Li just stood there looking at me coldly.I was afraid of pain... So I cried and asked Su Li for help. In the end, only I survived, because I chose to live by myself.But I was tied there, listening to my three playmates screaming in agony for an entire hour.

This is the sin that I will never be able to redeem in my heart. When I dream at night, I still dream of them standing by the bed, crying and asking me why I didn’t save them.I'm sad, I don't know how to answer... I just want to live, I'm afraid of pain, I don't want to be cut open by a knife. "

This was Chen Yong's third sigh. He touched He Yuze's head, just like an older brother touching his younger brother's head, warmly: "Yuze...why don't you think about it? If they had this The right to choose, will they choose to let you live?"

He Yuze suddenly opened his eyes wide.

Chen Yong continued: "In the face of the choice of death, no one is so generous, not a saint. Human nature is always the most difficult to guess. Yuze...you did nothing wrong, you just chose to live."

"Brother Yong..." He Yuze hugged Chen Yong and burst into tears, "I'm sorry... I'm sorry for them... Woooo... I'm really sorry for them..."

Chen Yong sighed for the fourth time and slowly tightened his arms.

Everyone is right and everyone is wrong.

To live is to be wrong.

It is also wrong to die.

He Yuze injected the medicine that could only restore his previous memory. Within an hour after the injection, he felt very sleepy, so he fell asleep.

In the dream, he returned to his 12-year-old appearance, running happily in the field with a group of children, flying a kite happily, and a very small child was chasing his footsteps, constantly shouting: "Brother, wait for me!" Wait for me... I can't catch up with you..."

In the dream, He Yuze loved to tease him: "Then you run faster, run so slowly, be careful that your brother will be dragged into the sky by the kite, and you will never see him again."

That sentence made the child sprint like crazy, and he threw himself into his arms. He Yuze lost his balance and fell on the green grass, laughing loudly.

But the child in front of him was crying, crying very uncomfortable: "Hehe almost... almost let my brother be taken away by the kite..."

He Yuze hugged him helplessly in his arms to comfort him: "I'm teasing you, you idiot, you really take it seriously."

The little boy couldn't stop crying: "I don't want my brother to leave me... Woooo... Brother don't leave me..."

He Yuze's heart softened: "Okay... my brother will never leave you."

When the screen turned, it was in a smoky room.He Yuze was abused in the room. A group of people were playing mahjong. There were many people smoking, but there were no ashtrays.

Because He Yuze was an ashtray, they lit the hot cigarette butts on his arms and thighs, and extinguished them.Even though he was so painful that tears came out, he didn't dare to cry out in pain, because as long as he shouted, it would lead to another violent beating.

After disposing of the soot, he has to clean the floor and wipe the guests' shoes.All this was seen by Zhang Yuhe who was standing at the window, his little soft face was covered with cloud.

Not long after, the card room built in the adoption home caught fire.Several lives were lost.But exactly why the fire started, He Yuze couldn't remember.

When he woke up, his first thought was nothing else, but to go to the adoption home, to retrieve his important memories that he had lost for many years.

When Chen Yong arrived, he had already disappeared.

He Yuze drove to the adoption home established in the countryside.Different from the disgust he felt when he went there for the first time, this time he went back with an inexplicable nostalgia in his heart. He missed this place and the people waiting for him here.

In a trance, my own childhood voice sounded in my head, it sounded so urgent and so painful: "Wait, brother will definitely come to pick you up, definitely."

Why did he say that?

To whom?

He Yuze accelerated the speed of the car, and after a sleepless night, he finally arrived at the old street.It was six o'clock in the morning, and many shops in the old street had just opened. He Yuze was hungry, so he got off the car and went to the bun shop to buy two buns.

At this time, he saw a child hiding under the steamer. The child was disheveled, with scars all over his body, and even his clothes were tattered.That was his childhood self, and it seemed he was hallucinating again.

He hid there, secretly took two buns while the boss was busy, and ran straight into an alley after he got them.

He Yuze didn't want the steamed stuffed bun either, and followed him into an alley.There he saw two children, one was himself, and the other was Zhang Yuhe when he was young, a small one, very adorable.

"Eat it brother, eat it while it's hot, it won't taste good when it's cold." He Yang shared a warm steamed bun with Zhang Yuhe when he was a child, only then did He Yuze discover that He Yang's body was covered with scars, obviously from being beaten Traces of kicking.

He Yuze could still faintly hear scolding voices coming from far away: "Little bastard steals my buns every day! I must beat you to death!!"