[Zhongyingmei] My backstage is so big!

Antalina has done a long time of psychological construction for herself, or maybe she didn't do a good job of psychological construction at all. On the first night of Xavier Gifted Youth School, she opened the letter written with the most gentle taste.

- "To my best friend"

This was Dumbledore's beginning, and Antalina recalled almost instantly the way he looked at her with a smile and called "my friend" in his tone.This made her eye sockets moist, but at the same time she curled her lips into a smile.

The letter was surprisingly short, down to just one sentence: "Death is actually like going to bed after a long day. And to the very sane, death is just another great event. adventure.[1] And one day, you too can embark on this great, wondrous adventure.”

There is an address attached to this sentence, Godric's Hollow.

Antarina knew this place, because she had been to this place not long ago to celebrate the birthday of this old friend.

She focused her eyes on this sentence again, and suddenly became even more sad.

This kind of sadness is different from the grief she felt when she first learned of Dumbledore's death, and also different from the pain she felt when she refused Peter's confession. Antalina couldn't even classify this sudden grief that came to her heart into one category.

"Hello." At this moment, a voice came in suddenly.

Antalina raised her eyes all of a sudden, then turned her eyes away after meeting the sight of the person who came, and gently wiped away the tears that were about to fall from her eye sockets with her fingers: "Hi." She responded, smiling at him slightly at the same time. Confused, "Is something wrong?"

Although she only met once in the morning, she thinks that the other party should not be the type who would take the initiative to make new friends.

Logan didn't know what was going on with him, but he just happened to glance inside and saw that the new girl who had known Professor X for a long time seemed to be crying, so he pushed the door open with his body first.

It's probably rare to see a person similar to himself, Logan thought so, and for some reason, he always felt that he should have seen this woman somewhere: "Are you okay?"

"It's okay." Antarina nodded and smiled, "Thank you."

The current atmosphere really cannot be simply described by the word embarrassment. Antalina felt that Logan asked her feelings out of kindness, but the amazing thing was that she didn't actually feel Logan's kindness.Maybe it has something to do with his raised eyebrows, overly resolute eyes, and the beard that shaped his face. If it wasn't for the conversation they had just had, Antarina had reason to believe that the other party was here to trouble her.

Logan frowned, and suddenly tilted his head to look at her: "We've never seen each other before, have we?"

"...I don't think there should be?" Antalina herself is not sure. In fact, if she follows her usual method of quickly closing the distance between strangers, she will smile and say: "I don't know that it is still popular now." strike up a conversation."

But she didn't say that, firstly, she was not in the mood; secondly, Logan didn't look like someone willing to be made fun of.

But I don't know if she did something to reawaken his memory, Logan narrowed his eyes, and tentatively asked according to a vague figure in his mind: "Have you dyed your hair red?"

"Yes." Antarina realized that the other party might have seen her.

"In the 40s?" Logan asked again.

Antalina recalled it for a while, and then stared: "Yes, the 40s." More precisely, before returning to England in 1946, because she knew that if Sherlock Holmes knew that she had dyed her red hair, she would definitely be read to death , so dye your hair back to black before going back.

That's right.

Logan looked at Antalina with a surprised expression in front of him, and matched her with the little girl in his memory who passed by him, but accidentally bumped into him, then turned around and said sorry with an innocent expression .

The little girl in my memory looked even smaller, looking up at her eyes full of stars.

She was the first child not to be frightened by his fierce appearance, but he knew now that the other party was not a child at all strictly speaking, so of course she would not be frightened by him.

Originally, he wanted to turn his head and leave, but when he saw that the other party was looking at him, although he had more stories, but still seemed to be full of starlight, Logan stopped leaving, and then he said: "Take a good rest." After finishing speaking, he turned around He walked away and closed the door thoughtfully.

Antalina looked at the closed door for a while, then suddenly blinked and came back to her senses.

To be honest, being disturbed by his sudden action, all her emotions were gone, and when she read Dumbledore's letter again, there was only a trace of blessing in her heart.

Antalina closed the letter again, and what flashed in her mind was the resolute look in Logan's eyes when she looked at her just now.

How strong does a person have to be to have such eyes?It was as if anything in the world was completely different when it came to him.But it is undeniable that Antalina was affected.

Many people's perseverance is hidden in the body, and sometimes soft outside but strong inside is also suitable to describe this state.

But what she needs now is not this kind of softness on the outside but strength on the inside.

If you want to master your abilities, you must first know what your abilities are.

Although Antalina has awakened her ability for decades, she has used it very rarely.In addition, since the incident with the last family that adopted her, she has lived alone in the past few years. Relying on the interpersonal skills accumulated over a long period of time and the attitude of staying out of the way, the probability of using her ability is almost close to zero.

Of course that doesn't mean she hasn't felt it.

"In fact, although many of us are born with superpowers, it depends on the efforts of each of us to become familiar with it and control it." Charles walked on the stone path in a wheelchair, and Antalina Walking beside him and listening quietly, "But sometimes the harvest is not directly proportional to the hard work, because from another perspective, superpowers are gifts from God. But sometimes the gifts are too heavy and there is not enough experience , luck and pressure, you just can't lift it."

Charles stopped suddenly and looked at Qin who was teaching students not far away: "Your ability is too."

Antarina followed his gaze and looked at Qin.

They watched quietly for a while, and then turned away after Qin noticed their gaze and paid attention, and walked in another direction: "Really." Antalina said without emotion.

"I know I'm a bit condescending now." Charles didn't mind Antalina's attitude, he just said more gently and with a smile, "But if you compare Caroline and Johnson to angels, Then your ability is a gift from the angels. But this gift has weight, and they cannot let you take it away so easily."

Antalina was a little surprised: "It's been a long time since I've heard you comfort someone so much, thank you, Charles." As she spoke, she raised her eyebrows at him, "Actually, I understand the truth, but I can't make sense of that scene. To be associated with an angel—that is the work of the devil, my dear Professor X. My abilities are not the gift of the angel, but the punishment of the devil."

She said, paused: "And if the devils know that I use their punishment to do good things, they will be so angry that they will jump."

Charles smiled: "Then we can move on to the next stage."

The learning process is dull and tedious, and filled with a lot of repetitive actions.And although according to what Charles said, he had roughly grasped the nature of Antalina's abilities from her memory, but for further certainty, he needed her to follow his instructions completely.Hank also came to help during the period, and his reaction can almost be described as "surprised".

"You are a very powerful telekinetic." Hank said after watching Antalina's superpower demonstration.

"No, I think you need to reserve your opinion on this point." Charles withdrew his fingers from his temples, "Compared with telekinesis, I am more inclined that she is simply implementing the orders I gave her."

Antalina didn't want to admit that she didn't understand this, but she had to admit: "Can you speak English?"

Both Charles and Hank laughed, and Hank also looked at Charles.

"It means," Charles crossed his hands on his stomach, "I'm pretty sure that your ability is to change the atomic arrangement, but I'm not sure if you're a telekinesis."

Antarina was silent for a while, then said, "...please speak English."

Hank smiled and shook his head beside him: "You should speak more clearly, Professor X, Anna has only been in class for a few days."

Antarina glared at him, and then looked at Charles sincerely: "Yes, professor, I have only been here for a few days, and I don't understand your technical terms very well. So please speak English."

"Then I won't give you any hints now, just try to use your ability once." Charles said.

Antalina stared at him for a few seconds, then looked back at the cup in front of her.She stared at the cup for a few seconds, then frowned: "I think I understand what you mean."

"Actually, recalling the times when you used super powers in the past, even if you go back to the first time you used your powers, you should be able to clearly realize that whenever you use super powers, there is a very strong motivation behind it Look at it." Charles reached out and pressed his temple lightly, and the cup that had been motionless under Antalina's sight just now slowly floated up, "For the first time, you have a very strong sense of revenge, so those people blew themselves up. And then in the vampire incident you were trying to save yourself, so people around you got bounced off; and then you were trying to save Peter, so you caught that bullet."

"Every time, you have a strong enough motivation to prompt you to use superpowers." Charles said, "Except for the phenomenon of losing control of your abilities due to the huge pressure on your mind, you almost never use superpowers for yourself."

"But you said just now that I simply carried out your orders." Antarina was still a little overwhelmed, "They were all very successful, weren't they? Or was it because I wanted to succeed and was driven by this motivation? Is it successful?"

After she finished speaking, she found that both Charles and Hank were looking at her.

"...Are you serious?" Antarina felt that she was not well.

The author has something to say: Anna: I thought I was a bug-like existence.

Charles: I'm here to tell you that you are, and you're not.

Anna: Go away :)

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In the last chapter, I talked about a lot of things, and now I go back and look at it, and I really feel an inexplicable sense of shame, but fortunately, everyone didn’t dislike me hahaha.Regarding the question of Anna's ability, in fact, a girl named Bai Caiji asked me whether the heroine's ability is gravity control or telekinetic power. At that time, I replied that it didn't count, because my consideration at the time was that the heroine never used superpowers once. Because of her, but now that she thinks about it, it seems that it can be counted in the category of telekinetic power, so she is confused, what?Still doesn't count?Well, don't bother so much, let's forget it 2333

But I will continue to write down what was originally decided, author, come on! (???)

ps: [1] From the mouth of Dumbledore.