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Jiang Xun didn't expect that he would be able to sit down and talk with Jiang Juan calmly. They were each standing on both sides of the window while lighting a cigarette, looking at each other speechlessly.

Jiang Juan seemed calm, but when he asked "Why are you with him, don't you love me so much?", Jiang Xun knew it, and he panicked.

"You're scared." Jiang Xun put out the cigarette butt on the window sill, and then wanted to light another one, but the empty cigarette case made him even more anxious.

Jiang Juan handed over the one he smoked, and Jiang Xun also gave him face, and then licked it out after accepting it, which meant that no one should feel good about it.

Jiang Juan smiled, knowing that he just didn't want to accept his ridicule, so he simply handed over the cigarette case, and now the man not only accepted it, but also smoked it, which made him laugh at himself: "How much do you dislike me?"

"Don't dare to snatch things from the dead, for fear of losing your life." Jiang Xun took a deep breath, the cigarette flame lit up, and burned half of it quickly. When it was almost a quarter gone, he suddenly pulled Jiang Juan's left hand, and in the He pressed the inside of his wrist against the edge of the artery and burned the cigarette end on it.

There was a burnt smell in the air.

Jiang Juan didn't hide.

When the sparks were extinguished on the flesh, Jiang Xun flicked away the cigarette butt, rolled up his sleeves and exposed his right wrist, which was in the exact same position with a similar burn scar.

"Jiang Zhu was already dying when he was carried into the ambulance. He was only half breathing. His throat was cut and his lungs were pierced by bullets. He couldn't say a word. He couldn't tell me who he was. I can’t tell who killed him. At that time, I could only hear the sound of his blood dripping on the ground, and I only regarded him as my lover. Today, after nine years, I finally mustered up the courage to recall the memory of that time. It was only after the details that I understood the look in his eyes before he died—it wasn't nostalgia, admiration, reluctance...it was compassion."

The scald did not ooze blood, and the wound surface was coagulated by the high temperature, leaving only dark red scars.

It hurts and it doesn't hurt.

Jiang Xun recalled: "He wrote in the palm of my hand, but he had no strength, and his mind was not so clear-headed. Sometimes he would write a single stroke several times. I was so afraid of death at that time. How could I understand what he wrote? Later, when he figured it out, he asked me for a cigarette, pinching his two fingers back and forth to imply that he wanted it, but I didn’t give it to him. It was because others persuaded me that I was about to die, so I could satisfy him with whatever I wanted. Gave him one."

He unrolled the crumpled cigarette case and crumpled it again.

"At that time, he was out of breath and out of breath, so he just kept holding the cigarette in his mouth. I kept crying and talking to him, begging him not to die, and he looked at me with such pitiful eyes, and then held the cigarette with the last bit of strength. , burned a scar on my wrist."

Jiang Juan's voice was a little hoarse: "I remember, I still blamed him a little bit, why did I leave such an ugly wound on my person."

"You don't understand until now. He is actually questioning me. He can't even recognize his lover. What right do you have to cry? I only figured out recently that such a strict elder brother actually forgave me at the last moment. Maybe it's because I feel that compared with his younger brother, I'm not so wicked."

Jiang Xun was indifferent, but he couldn't feel relieved.

"Why did you do that?" he asked.

Jiang Juan's answer was also very simple: "To live."

"If I had realized early on that you were a bastard who could kill even my own brother, I'd definitely strangle you to death before anyone else did."

The man smiled, "I remember that kid once told you that suffocation is a long-term method of killing, which is actually a bit romantic. If one day you really decide to do so, remember to pinch it head-on. I won't resist. I just want to hold you tight for the last moment."

"Don't be disgusting, you will never have a chance. From the moment you decided to push Jiang Zhu to the gallows, we can only become representatives of good and evil, good and evil respectively. The situation is the same as fire and water, and we will never be in conflict. I'm here to see you today You just want to put an end to the past, and you have nothing to worry about if you talk about it. If you fall into my hands in the future, I will send you to a gun without hesitation. Just kill me like a man, less humiliation and more dignity."

After speaking, he stuffed the cigarette case into the front pocket of Jiang Juan's shirt and said his last goodbye.

"gone."

He expected that he would not be able to withdraw too quickly, and would have to drag his feet and leave a few stains on his glorious history. Fortunately, he was already black enough, and he was not short of adding a few more.

But when Jiang Juan hugged him, he still hesitated.

God didn't rescue him from the sea of ​​suffering when he was most panic and helpless, but stirred up waves when his heart was like still water. There is no so-called fairness in the way of heaven.

"Let it go, do it better, at least I will respect you as an opponent, don't let me look down on you."

"I don't need you to think highly of me. I just want you to stay by my side. As long as you promise me, I will do anything for you."

Jiang Xun had never seen Jiang Juan with such a humble posture.

"You must be very curious, why I have endured for nine years, but fell short at this time. I tell you, it is actually because I am afraid. If you and I can spend the rest of our lives peacefully like before, maybe I will never Tell you the truth."

"Let you continue to deceive me, seeing that I am heartbroken for you and guarding my body like a jade for you, do you still want to set up a chastity archway for me!"

"Little Punisher, don't be like this. I admit that I'm afraid that the person who broke in suddenly will take my place in your heart. I really don't dare to bet. I can't force you to wait for a dead person to wait forever. Facts have also proved my The sense of crisis is correct, if it wasn’t for him, I would have stayed with you for the rest of my life, and would always accompany you in my own way.”

His hand was very strong, Jiang Xun failed to break free, but was tightened by him, almost suffocating.

"The cigarette butt you took away was left on purpose by me, and you must have suspected me from that time on. You have no basis, you just think that it is my habit to like to bite in the middle of the filter tip, my brother will not do that Yes. I have changed this habit for nine years. In the past nine years, I have never forgotten to disguise myself, but I still disclosed this detail to you. I thought that as long as you recognized me, you would not..."

"It's not going to be like that, move on, don't fall in love, and run away with someone else?" Jiang Xun couldn't help laughing, turned around and pushed Jiang Juan, the ridicule was fleeting, and quickly turned into a saying Unclear sorrow, "From the moment I found out that you are not you, I am here with you and it is over."

He pointed to his heart and tapped harder.

"I said, I'd rather be a widow for you for the rest of my life, and I don't want you to become a criminal that I can't stop. From now on, let's be different from each other, be right strangers, and let each other go."

He still has nostalgia for Jiang Juan. It seems that he has cut off all his affection, but the roots buried deep in his flesh and blood cannot be pulled out one by one.

Only time can heal.

He believed that one day, Jiang Juan would be able to come out.

He sighed, stroked the fresh wound on the man's wrist with his fingertips, and said softly: "Take some medicine, I know, it hurts." After speaking, he turned and left.

"I can't feel bad."

Jiang Xun escaped eagerly, and didn't look back to see where Jiang Juan was chasing, but when he opened the door, he realized that the shadow hanging over his head was coming too fast, and when he turned around suddenly, he felt a strong electric current pouring into his body from his neck, hitting him hard. He was instantly exhausted, slid down against the door, and fell to the ground.

"you……"

The current did not stop for a long time, and he had a stress reaction. After the numbness dissipated, there was still a throbbing pain in his body. The suffocating pain was like being stuffed into his chest. Broken glass, densely packed small wounds hurt at the same time, oppressing one's spirit like ant bites, under the double pressure of body and mind, he couldn't tell where the pain was more severe.

At this time, Jiang Xun could hardly even swear, his vision was a bit blurred, so that he couldn't see Jiang Juan's face clearly, but he thought, even if he could see clearly, so what, no matter how familiar the face was, it was a strange face he had never seen before. The expression, maybe not looking at it can make my heart feel better.

Jiang Juan picked him up, let him lean into his arms, unbuttoned his collar, and kissed the electric shock wound on his neck.

"Go away..."

"I don't want to hurt you, give me another chance, okay?"

Jiang Xun only felt his breath stagnate in his chest, and the throbbing of his heart frightened him more than the pain. He had been close to the edge of death countless times, but only this time frightened him the most.

If he was given a knife now, he would stab Jiang Juan in the heart without hesitation.

"I don't want to die..."

He doesn't want to die now.

"Don't be afraid, I won't let you die. Don't worry, palpitations can be relieved, pain can be injected, and shock can be given cardiopulmonary resuscitation. As long as you stay, I promise you will be fine."

Jiang Xun's eyes were blurred, and he felt the pain was becoming more and more unbearable. He pushed away Jiang Juan who was pestering him, and forced himself to say: "Get lost..."

"I'm not leaving, little punishment, don't do this."

Jiang Juan tugged on his shirt, and undid a bunch of buttons. The red marks of love and desire were all over the loosely closed neckline, which was more conspicuous and glaring than the electric shock.

Suddenly, like a beast with red eyes, he punched Jiang Xun's face hard and slammed on the door panel, which showed that he was really in a hurry.

"Where did he touch you, tell me where he touched you!!"

Seeing that he was furious, Jiang Xun laughed, spat bloody saliva, and said with a sneer, "Is there any need to ask? I've been asleep, and I haven't touched anything. Don't you always say that you like clean people?" ? Now that I am not clean, you should stop stalking, let go as soon as possible, and you can still think about each other..."

"You weren't like this before!"

"You weren't like this before. If you've changed, don't laugh at fifty steps." Jiang Xun endured the pain and giggled. The cold sweat on his forehead slipped into his eyes, and he lowered his eyelids, staring at The scar on his left wrist, "Jiang Juan, I have already stepped out, so don't stay where you are anymore..."

He didn't dare to look at Jiang Juan's red eyes, it was too strange, too scary, maybe even now he still had that pitiful thought, hoping that after this relationship came to an end, they would still be young in each other's hearts best look.

When the gun pressed against the artery, Jiang Xun thought, Jiang Juan, who pulled the trigger at that moment, might have murderous intentions. It is natural to want to get rid of defectors, but why should he be his executioner? ?

Electricity crashes wantonly in the body, the tactile sensation of pain and numbness is enough to drive people crazy, Jiang Xun can feel his body trembling uncontrollably, his consciousness is on the verge of being completely withdrawn, he grabs it with his last breath He grabbed Jiang Juan's wrist.

He heard a painful roar, and through the conductivity of the current, he gave up on himself with the attitude of dying together, even if he died, he would have to be dragged on his back.

But Jiang Juan not only did not stop, but increased the voltage, as if he wanted to fight him endlessly, he was stimulated again and finally reached the limit, and fell to the ground on his side, unable to fight back.

The raging electric current finally stopped, and the burning marks on the neck were far less than the pain of the heart being torn apart.

"Does it hurt?" He wanted to ask, "The pain that tortured you to death is just normal for me. You tolerated me a ten thousandth and still screamed for pain, but I promised you ten thousand times but never demanded it."

It's hypocritical to say too much, but he still didn't question it, he just wiped the moisture from the corners of his eyes with his trembling hands, and knelt up while supporting himself against the wall.

Whether he fled in despair or ended up in a mess, he just wanted to get out of here, the sooner the better.

His heavy body gradually failed to keep up with the control of consciousness, and he grabbed the doorknob with his last rationality, but was dragged back into the abyss again...

He never thought that Jiang Juan would become his abyss one day.