old man feeding rules

Jiang Juan knew that Jiang Xun and Song Yuzhi would come because they wanted to be with him on this family reunion day. In the past, when his identity had not been exposed, he would still use Jiang Zhu's identity to marry Jiang Xun. Accompanying each other to pass through the tough years, the past ten years have been like this, Leng Buding has a life that does not require his company, but he seems to be abandoned, it is difficult to get used to.

Conversely, there was also a kind of tense, unknown emotion that was relieved unconsciously, which should be a good thing for him.

On New Year's Eve, Jiang Xun and Song Yu woke up very early, and they had to go up the mountain to sweep the tomb before dawn. Jiang Juan deliberately avoided it, so he excused himself by excuses because he was unwell. Everyone cared about his eccentric temperament after his injury. , nor forced.

After hearing the sound of the door closing, he got up and left the room, took the pills in his mouth, poured half a cup of cold overnight tea, and was about to drink it down, when he was snatched away after taking half a sip past.

"How many times have I told you not to drink overnight tea, and not to drink cold water in winter, your resistance is so weak now, and you feel uncomfortable when you get sick, it should make me feel bad again."

Jiang Juan looked at Xiao Shi, who was nagging endlessly, in amazement, "...Didn't you go to visit the grave?"

"If you really go, you don't know how long you will be tossing about tonight with this glass of cold water. You really... you can't learn to be kinder to yourself after so many years. It was nothing before. Why are you still so good now? Love yourself."

Jiang Juan was expressionless, and wrote lightly: "Life is rough, it has always been like this, you didn't know it before, it's just because you are not by my side."

Xiao Shi was not very happy when he said this, "I don't believe it, it must not be like this when you and Jiang Xun are together."

Jiang Juan stared at him in disbelief, as if he couldn't accept his sudden words, Xiao Shi knew he had made a mistake, and was about to take back his words, but the man snatched the cup again and poured all the cold tea in it on his face .

"How much do you think you know about me? Don't forget what you did in the past. If I can give you a good face now, you should be content and don't push yourself too far." After finishing speaking, Jiang Juan turned his head and locked himself in the bathroom.

Xiao Shi didn't even have time to wipe off the water on his face before chasing after him. When he was isolated outside, his heart sank, his attitude slowed down and his tone became lighter, "Tired, it was my fault, I shouldn't have said that, you Don't be as knowledgeable as me, don't make yourself angry. I didn't get distracted just now, I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable, don't be angry with me, don't take a cold shower, you will get sick. "

"Go away..." Jiang Juan, who was deeply tired, said weakly as he looked at the familiar face in the mirror but made him fearful to look directly at it.

Xiao Shi outside the door was silent for a while, "I see, you calm down alone, don't do stupid things, I'll come back later."

Hearing the sound of footsteps fading away, Jiang Juan let out a long breath, caressing that face that was so similar to his brother's when he was alive, feeling unspeakably sad in his heart.

He knew very clearly that the one Xiao Shi loved was never himself, that's why he couldn't accept the love the other party gave him. Even if he got something that didn't belong to him, it was just a charity. to the point of begging.

In the final analysis, what he couldn't accept was not Xiao Shi, but the self who was too similar to his brother, but always imitated and flattered himself.

He was sticking to the mirror, his fingers covered with his mirror image were slightly bent, and the fingertips and phalanxes were showing an unnatural bluish white color, which was also one of the important reasons why Xiao Shi couldn't let him go....

"But I will never be him. This lie was completely over a year ago."

It is also impossible for him to use his limited patience to please Xiao Shi, such a life is so absurd that people dare not think about it.

After a while, Xiao Shi was worried about his condition and knocked on the door again. This time, there was no response for a long time. Xiao Shi couldn't help being flustered, so he raised his voice and shouted inside: "Tired? Tired! Are you still inside? Call me back if you hear it!"

The door to the bathroom was locked, as one can imagine in this old house that cannot be locked.

Xiao Shi was worried about his condition, so he knocked open the bathroom door in a hurry, and saw that there was no one in the small bathroom. When Jiang was tired, the blood all over his body was cold.

"tired!"

He hurried forward to carry the man out, hurriedly wiped off the water on his face, opened his airway, wrapped his hands with a towel, and pressed on the man's chest to perform cardiopulmonary resuscitation for him.

Jiang Juan's mouth and nose flowed back the stagnant water in the intake pipe, but his face turned slightly blue, and he was almost suffocated. Xiao Shifu took a few more breaths for him.

When he regained consciousness, Jiang Juan felt that his breathing was out of his control, and the long-lost, soft feeling on his lips made him panic from the bottom of his heart, and instinctively pushed Xiao Shi away.

"...I'm awake, no need."

Xiao Shi stared at him calmly, that gaze made Jiang Juan afraid to look at him, and when he was thinking of some way to cover up his embarrassment, the man suddenly hugged him tightly, and pressed his lips that hadn't been separated for a moment.

Jiang Juan knew very well that it was just a first aid to save his life in desperation, but at this moment, it was a real kiss.

He should have pushed him away again, scolded him, and reprimanded him for being unreasonable, but the temperature of the lips and tongue made him hesitate, the soft and delicate touch made him unable to refuse.

He is too cold...Jiang Juan knows that he is really too cold, the cold water drops are still hanging on his body, taking away the remaining warmth of the body, but the loneliness in the depths of the soul is far beyond the reach of the body of.

He didn't refuse Xiao Shi's kiss, or rather, he drowned in it.

"What are you guys doing? It's Chinese New Year, and you're showing it to us?" Jiang Xun, who came back from sweeping the tomb, saw the scene so exciting, he couldn't help it on the spot, "□□? I can't tell, Ah Juan, you look Sisiwenwen is really playing so wildly by himself?"

"Stop talking nonsense and close the door!"

Song Yuzhi lowered his head and glanced at the door that had been kicked down on the ground. When he helped him up, he still felt pain in his back and said: "Looking at the current atmosphere, we are a bit redundant, and we just plan to go back to sweep Brother Qian's grave first, so why don't we come later?" come back."

Jiang Juan felt that he was extremely weird at the moment, and if he was alone with Xiao Shi, something unpredictable would definitely happen, so he immediately wanted to grab their life-saving straw: "Wait! You want to go back to Yanxi, how inconvenient it is to toss back and forth ,next time……"

"But today is Brother Qian's death day."

"Then I'll be with you..."

"Come on, what are you doing with us?" Jiang Xun turned to scold Xiao Shi, "Look at him shivering from the cold, let him return to the bed to warm up, what a waste... what do you want to eat?"

Uncharacteristically, Xiao Shi didn't lose his temper and didn't reply. He looked back at them and said, "Let's go first, come back early."

His words also made it difficult for Jiang Xun to say anything. The steam in the bathroom was still floating, and the atmosphere was indescribably tender. Song Yu only understood the romance between the two, and pulled Jiang Xun out, " Let's go, brother, go early and come back early."

"No, what's going on with the two of them, I haven't figured it out yet."

"You don't need to understand, you straight man..."

"You are a straight man. If I were a straight man, could I marry you?"

"Then you are a mallet, you can't ask if you don't understand, understand..."

The two went out the door, Xiao Shi took off Jiang Juan's wet clothes, wrapped his wet body with a bath towel, and hugged him for a while.

"Is your breathing smooth now? Do you feel any fluid in your lungs?"

Jiang Juan nodded, then shook his head again.

"Is there any discomfort, is it cold?"

Jiang Juan shook his head again, and then unexpectedly said, "I didn't want to commit suicide..."

"I know, you will feel dizzy and weak after taking the medicine. I didn't notice it. It's my fault to leave you alone. If I hadn't left just now, you wouldn't... You're going to scare me to death. I'll make trouble in the future." Be careful with your temper, you can beat me and scold me as much as you want, just don't close yourself up like this, I'm really afraid that something will happen to you."

Jiang Juan's body was cold and shivering slightly, Xiao Shi went out first and lit the stove, spread a quick-heating electric blanket on the sofa, and hurriedly hugged Jiang Juan inside, wrapped it tightly with three layers of blanket So, he just showed his head outside and continued to wipe his wet hair with a towel.

"I'll light up the electric blanket in your room later. You just came out of the bathroom, and you still have moisture on your body. It's not good for you to go directly into the bed. I'll help you dry your hair first."

The man curled up without saying a word, letting him blow his hair, like a wounded cat or dog. Xiao Shi was worried when he saw it, so he could only avoid looking at him as much as possible.

Just blowing their hair, the two of them seemed to have been tortured, Jiang Juan because of physical discomfort, and Xiao Shi because of uneasy conscience.

He is very familiar with Jiang Juan's actions and demeanor at this time. Ten years ago, he woke up in his own bed with red marks all over his body like this, and then said the words that made him furious at the time, but now he regrets for the rest of his life...

——Xiao Shi, don't treat me as his substitute, even if you treat me like this, he won't come back.

This is obviously the truth that the man blurted out when he was in pain, but what did he respond to him?

He's almost self-hypnotized to forget the details in order to avoid the shitty things he's done all these years.

Don't think about it, don't think about it... Once you think about it, you won't be able to face him.

After a long silence, the noise of the hair dryer stopped abruptly, and the sound of firecrackers was loud in the distance, but the atmosphere in the room was eerily quiet.

"In the past year, I have seen too many resurrections from the dead. Why would God let those people who hurt the sky come back, but refuse to return my brother to me?" After choking on the water, Jiang Juan's voice became hoarse. His eyes were blank, his eyes fell on a point of nothingness, and he murmured to himself: "Did my brother do something wrong, or am I guilty..."

"You are all right, it is the world that treats you unfairly." Xiao Shi mustered up his courage and touched the man's thin face, "I treated you...not fair."

"I'm tired."

"I'll carry you back."

Xiao Shi hugged Jiang Juan together with the blanket, changed him into a dry pajamas, carefully tucked him into the bed, and tried to reach in to check the temperature, "It's okay, it's quite warm, it should be No……"

"cold."

"Still cold? The temperature can't be higher, it will burn you. If you feel cold, you may have just been frozen. I'll turn the heater..."

"Come in."

Xiao Shi was taken aback, thinking that he had heard it wrong, "...what did you say?"

Jiang Juan closed his eyes exhaustedly, "I'm so cold, come in and hug me."

Xiao Shi's first reaction was that he must be sick and confused to say this. The enmity between them in the past ten years can hardly be resolved to the point where they can sleep on the same bed in just a few seconds. It's a play for others to watch, but now it's just the two of them...

He didn't respond for a while, and Jiang Juan, who rarely asked for an invitation, felt his face was burning, so he simply took it as burning nonsense, and didn't want to say any more, turned his back to Xiao Shi, and said in a muffled voice : "Forget it, you go out first, it's not that cold..."

After finishing speaking, he heard the rustling sound of cloth rubbing, and suddenly had a bad feeling. Turning his head, he saw that Xiao Shi had already taken off his clothes and got into bed.

"It's too late for you to not be cold now, hiss...the temperature is still too high, it will burn out if it's so hot, I'll lower the temperature and hug you, okay?"

"You... Get out, I let you in, I didn't let you come in, let me go!"

"Hush... save yourself some effort, your voice is hoarse, so don't shout so loudly. Don't worry, if you don't want to, I will never force you again. I haven't paid off what I owed you in the past, so I can't do it any more. You have added a new debt to yourself."

Jiang Juan lowered his eyes and sighed, "Why bother, even if you make it up to me, he won't come back."

Xiao Shi raised his hand to cover his eyelids, and said softly: "Don't mention him, go to sleep, when you wake up, they should come back, when the time comes, let's have a good New Year together."

Jiang Juan wanted to refute that his drowsiness was precious, but after the medicine was over, he was stimulated by cold water, and he would be damned if he could still fall asleep, but it didn't take long for the drowsiness to return.

When his consciousness drifted away, he seemed to hear Xiao Shi's long sigh. He felt that it was extremely absurd and ridiculous that he, who had been deeply hurt by this man, could get the long-lost sense of security from him.

Perhaps it was never Xiao Shi who could give him a sense of security, but the memories Xiao Shi could give him.

The author has something to say: Thank you for reading the text, the little cute duck~