old man feeding rules

Jiang Xun never thought that he would get to know Song Yuzhi deeply at such a critical time. To be precise, he was not ready yet.

Before that, he had been refusing Song Yuzhi for various reasons, such as unresolved cases, physical discomfort, lack of energy, lack of relationship, etc., even though the other party was the first real lover he had ever had in his life.

Sometimes he would think that maybe it would be better to describe his relationship with Song Yuzhi with words like "friend in a relationship" and "bed partner" which sound infatuated. Simple - he was afraid.

There are many factors of fear, such as the fear of involving that person for his own reasons, making him suffer like Jiang Juan, Qin Shu and other people he cared about, or that his special profession may face unknown dangers at any time, crushing everything. These reasons are nothing but excuses. In the final analysis, he is just afraid that he will be trapped in this relationship, afraid that he will become dependent on that person, and afraid that the cherished things in his hands will be lost in an instant. no longer exists.

Perhaps it was because he was young and ignorant, so he had no fear of the future without knowing anything. He had never felt such a strong sense of uneasiness when he was with Jiang Juan before, or maybe it was because of the helplessness of life and death that he had to leave. The feelings that came to an end caused him too much harm. He thought that staying away and resisting was the best way to protect himself.

The evasion all the time made him adapt to this kind of relationship that only satisfies each other spiritually and sexually. At this time, he still doesn't have the courage to bear the rest of his life alone.

"No, I can't go."

The unexpected refusal made Song Yuzhi feel helpless. He leaned against the car window with his chin on his hands and pretended to watch the scenery, as if he didn't listen, but in fact, the critical blow caused by these words was enough to beat him to half blood .

Song Shensi glanced at him, without considering his face as his younger brother, and asked, "Have you thought about it too? If you just think it's fun to learn from me, I advise you to withdraw this ridiculous idea as soon as possible. You want to go so well."

"Think about it, this is the feeling I want."

Song Yuzhi didn't shy away from it, and answered truthfully, looked back at Jiang Xun, smiled at him, and stretched out his hand to touch him, but the man carefully avoided it.

"Don't be like this. It's my fault to make claims, but I have your permission."

Jiang Xun was silent and didn't answer. It took him a while to meet his palm, rubbed his face against it, and said angrily: "I didn't allow it, just wait for me..."

Song Shensi drove the two of them to a villa in the deep mountains near the junction of Jingcheng. Jiang Xun seldom comes here, but the memory of this place in his mind is rare and clear.

"The last time I came here was at least seven or eight years ago, how could I remember it so clearly..."

He even remembered which corner of the mountain road he could see an abandoned wooden house, and where there was a tree that needed to be embraced, but he couldn't even tell the exact details of what happened recently.

It’s no wonder that others suspect him of a crime. Sometimes even he himself wonders if there is actually a brutal and bloodthirsty personality hidden in his body. The truth he has been pursuing has actually gone around and returned to himself. What about him?

"Your situation is a normal reaction. When you just woke up, your memory was blank, just like the plot of a baby bird. You will deeply engrave everything you saw in your mind. The reasons are both physical and mental. After the brain capacity is emptied The efficiency of re-storage will be higher than other times, and you also urgently need to understand the world to gain a sense of security." Song Yuzhi explained.

Jiang Xun did not deny this statement, he thought for a while, "The last time I came, it was for the inheritance of the surname Jiang. He left me a lot of things, including the property that he gave away. I hate him After I hired Wen Zheng, I entrusted him to dispose of all the things left by the old stuff. It rained a lot on the day I came to sign the contract. That was the day I brought Peng Peng to the place where we had never met before. The place where my father lived before his death, and all traces of him left in this world have been erased."

Jiang Xun spoke calmly, as if he was telling someone else's story, even when it was about his private emotions.

"I have always felt that whether a person is alive or dead, memory is the best proof of his existence, and I did this just to make him disappear completely, which is the most vicious revenge. Recently I I also think that although Pengpeng is still naive, the emotion I instilled in her about her father seems to have always been hatred, and for some reason, she suddenly doesn't want to hate him that much."

Song Yu could only understand the hidden deep meaning in his words. The elimination of great hatred is usually between life and death, and he began to be afraid.

When he turned his head again, Jiang Xun was already asleep, his head resting lightly on the car window, and his breathing was steady.

Song Shensi stopped the car and asked, "Will you wake people up, or should you two sleep in the car overnight?" He looked up at the already pale sky, "I didn't rest all night, and he was wounded again. No one would bother me when I went to see the old man after sleeping, although the old man is very harsh on us, he is very tolerant to people from other families, and you Jiang Fu just happen to be that kind of child from other families."

"Brother, you go to rest first, Brother Xun will take care of me."

Song Shensi did not insist, but kindly reminded: "Be careful, don't stay in his room."

"I see."

After Song Shensi left, Song Yuzhi moved closer to Jiang Xun and kissed him on the face, "Do you still want to pretend to be asleep? If you don't get up, I can only carry you in."

"Plan to let me stay here for a few days." Jiang Xun asked without opening his eyes.

"When will you be more agile, the outside is no longer dangerous, and I will let you go."

"Then I'll sleep until the day I leave."

"It's useless, I have plenty of ways to wake you up, but..." Song Yu only touched Jiang Xun's lips, seeing that the other party didn't respond, and was still a little disappointed, "Is that why you don't want to have more interaction with me? I thought, at least our relationship shouldn't stop on the bed, I want to know you more, and I want you to know me more..."

"Speaking of which, I want to ask you, am I really your ideal object?"

Jiang Xun opened his eyes and looked up at Song Yuzhi. When the man looked down, he pinched his chin, asking him to look at him.

"I won't be the most suitable person for you. I thought that as long as we didn't cross the red line, there would still be room for turning back. You can go back on your word at any time, and you can...don't want me."

"I want it!" Song Yuzhi was afraid that he would disappear like this, hugged him, put his arms around his waist and refused to let go, buried his head in his chest, and shook his head in denial.

His hairy head rubbed against the ginger, but he couldn't laugh. He didn't think he was a particularly emotional person, but at this moment, his throat seemed to be choked by something, and he couldn't speak, nor could he digest that person's words. Only the eyes were wet uncontrollably.

"I originally wanted... thought... to give you some time, and give me some time. If you still want me, then I am naturally willing to go on with you, but I know, at least right now, I don't have the ability to give it to you." Your stable relationship and life, you are still young, and you still have a great life in the future, you shouldn't...waste it on an unworthy person like me."

"You're worth it! If my life doesn't have you, how can I be worthy of a good name, Brother Xing, it's not that I don't want you, it's actually that you don't want me..."

Song Yuzhi suddenly began to cry, Jiang Xun didn't know how to comfort him, and rubbed his hair in a hurry, a little at a loss.

"Uncle policeman, don't want me, okay? If you hold me, I won't lose it. You said that you will lead me to my home..."

will take me home...

I'll take you home...I'll take you home.

Jiang Xun suddenly woke up, his hand holding Song Yuzhi trembled, and he always felt that this sentence, this picture, echoed a certain memory sealed in time.

But where...and who?

Song Yuzhi...who is it?

"Oh, isn't this the young master?" The nanny who got up early happened to see Song Yuzhi who was lying motionless on the back seat when she went out, and she walked over quickly and asked concerned: "Master, why did you come back suddenly and didn't call Mrs. Song and Mrs. Song?" Say hello... What's the matter with you, are you feeling unwell?"

"No, Aunt Wu, a friend of mine is injured and needs to be treated. Can you help me prepare the medicine box?"

Before the nanny approached, Song Yuzhi straightened his upper body to block Jiang Xun.

"He is always so considerate..." Jiang Xun thought to himself.

But he himself has never had anything to repay, and has been asking for it without satisfaction.

Even if the sun shines brightly, there will be a tiring day, right?

"Ah, do you want to call a doctor? If you are seriously injured, you still have to be sent to the hospital. Our place is far away from the city, so we can't afford the time spent going back and forth."

Song Yu only explained a few words, and Aunt Wu went in to clean up the guest room. He stretched out his hand to Jiang Xun, smiled, his eyes seemed a little red, "If you don't want to, I won't force you, I respect your choice, these You can rest assured to recuperate, I won't let anyone disturb you."

Jiang Xun didn't shake his hand, but touched his cheek. After a long time, he let out a long sigh.

"Sorry, I'm a coward."

Song Yuzhi shook his head, "If I were you, it would be more difficult than you to take that step, but in my position, I am a little eager for success. If I scare you and make you feel uneasy, I apologize, but you Just trust me, I love you, and that will never change."

Jiang Xun was stuck in his throat, looking at Song Yuzhi who treated him as always, feeling unspeakably uncomfortable, he could only release his inexplicable emotions by hugging him.

He hid his face where the man couldn't see, and murmured for a while, before he tried his best to make a complete sentence when he opened his mouth:

"Yuzhi, how can I be worthy of someone as good as you..."

In this world, how can there be a canary willing to kiss a crow?

Jiang Xun couldn't understand it.

The author has something to say: Thank you for reading the text, the little cute duck~

Thanks to brother Xun's little wife, cute, for donating a landmine, thank you for feeding! !