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Qindao is close to the sea and is a very hot city. The father who came to Qindao from Sheng’an to start a business ignored the obstruction of the two families and the local mother quickly plunged into the ocean of love as soon as they met. Ma Qunyao was almost born in the heat and grew up in it. In the heat.

When I was young, I always heard the stories of mermaids from my mother. The beautiful mermaids would always break through the world and fall in love with the handsome prince. Later, when I grew up, the atmosphere in the house gradually became strange. Going out to socialize, my mother waited at home until late at night every day, and the evening story time that accompanied Ma Qunyao growing up gradually turned into him sitting on the sofa with his mother and waiting for his father to come home.

Later, when she grew up, Ma Qunyao realized that the real mermaid princess was not with the prince, that the prince didn't love her, and she allowed herself to become a handful of foam on the sea in the early morning when no one cared.

What kind of morning was that?Ma Qunyao sat on the sofa and looked at the two divorce certificates thrown on the table. The quarrel in the bedroom never stopped. Even through the door, he could hear it clearly. His mother pushed the door open with her luggage, and the roar behind the door followed closely. Come out, "You go! I never fucking loved you!"

Being dragged out of the door by his mother's arm, Ma Qunyao looked at the gleam of light on the table from the window, and suddenly understood that the morning when the princess died was probably like this.

After the divorce, my mother seemed to be a different person. She was no longer gentle and understanding. Every time she looked at Ma Qunyao, she would cry and push him and then hugged him again. In her body It seemed that two people lived, one loved him and the other didn't love him, until three years later she met a new man, a gentle and polite man, just like her father before she married her mother.

After they got married and gave birth to a younger sister, the family became orderly again, and everything seemed to be moving in a good direction until Ma Qunyao was diagnosed with bipolar disorder when he was 15 years old.

That day he sat face to face with the doctor to answer questions. After sitting with him for a while, his mother said that he was going to the bathroom. She lied, and Ma Qunyao heard her crying outside the door, but why was she crying?The doctor patted his head and answered him, because mother loves you.

Thinking of those tormented days and nights, Ma Qunyao shook his head, he was not as naive as the mermaid princess his mother said, he knew that her mother only loved herself.

At the beginning, when Ma Qunyao couldn't control his temper, his mother would hug him to comfort him. Later, the number of times, facing Ma Qunyao who couldn't control his anger and trembled, she slapped him without thinking.

"Can you calm down!"

The family seemed to be in grief again. My younger sister was afraid of him and never dared to get close to him. She only dared to throw things at him, both big and small. My mother and stepfather always looked at him with unspeakable expressions, as if they were always Beware of his illness.

Ma Qunyao didn't understand, but he seemed to understand that he no longer had a home.

Ma Qunyao was very calm when he proposed to live with his grandmother, but his mother was calmer than him, as if she had expected him to say that, or was waiting for him to say that.

Grandma’s house is very close to the sea. Ma Qunyao likes to squat on the reefs by the sea and watch the waves splashing on the beach with the seagulls. He likes to watch all kinds of people come and go. The freest place is both free and peaceful. Every time Ma Qunyao plunges into the sea and feels surrounded by the current, he always thinks, is that so?How does the little mermaid die?

So in the middle of a certain night, Ma Qunyao decided that tomorrow he would float along the sea and float into freedom like a mermaid princess.

After tidying up his few things, Ma Qunyao lay down on the bed and wrote a lot in his notes. Grandma outside the door was preparing her luggage to go to the tour group that Ma Qunyao had reported to her. In order to make her not so sad when she came back, Ma Qunyao thought he should Be honest and at least give a reason.

But writing, scratching and writing, there is really no decent reason, so let's do it, Ma Qunyao sleeps under the quilt, and only a scribbled sorry is left on the notes under the pillow.

When she woke up in the morning, grandma had already left. She left porridge and a note, and asked Ma Qunyao to go out and play more during the summer vacation. out the door.

When he walked downstairs, the old man who opened the small shop downstairs stopped him and asked him to look around the shop for a while. Ma Qunyao lay on the recliner outside the small shop in a daze until someone knocked and covered his face. Ma Qunyao raised his head with a frown, and a white glowing person squeezed into his sight, "Excuse me, how do I get to Taipingjiao Park?"

"Go straight along this road, turn three intersections, one turn left and two right turns." Impatiently sitting up and pointing, Ma Qunyao lay down again with the straw hat on, seeing his bad tone, The girl standing next to the man tugged at his sleeve and wanted to drag him away, "Don't ask, Ah Lin, let's go, sister-in-law is still waiting..."

"Wait a while, I'll buy some ice cream, Mom and the others seem to be very hot..." After picking up what he wanted and putting it in a bag, the man knocked on Ma Qunyao's hat again and called him to get up to pay the bill. Came back with the cattail fan, Ma Qunyao heard the boss yelling, so he just lay there motionless.

They asked for directions, and after shopping, they thought they would leave in a hurry. Unexpectedly, the man knocked on Ma Qunyao's hat, and when Ma Qunyao stood up with staring eyes and was about to scold him, he handed him an ice cream quickly. Seeing that Ma Qunyao was stunned, the man smiled and discussed with him, "We are foreigners and road idiots, please lead us for a while, please eat this ice cream."

Taking them to the beach was an unplanned itinerary, but after thinking about it, they were going to both sides, and the sooner they went, the sooner they went, so Ma Qunyao took the ice cream, tore it up and stuffed it into his mouth, muttering, "Let's go."

It may be due to the peak season of summer vacation. The public beach in Taipingjiao Park was crowded with people. Wave after wave of people, old and young, were carrying three-piece suits. Ma Qunyao looked at the empty-handed people around him and frowned and asked, " You didn't bring anything, what are you doing here?"

"Walking in the sea!" The person named A Lin and the girl took off their shoes and rushed through the crowd into the sea, dripping with water. A document was left in the bag, and the words printed on it were words that Ma Qunyao hadn't heard for a long time.

"Sheng'an High School..." Ma Qunyao picked up the student ID card, patted the gravel stuck on it, and turned it over. Next to the ID photo with a pretty face, there were three large characters written: Lin Yikai.

"Lin...Yi...Kai..." Ma Qunyao read his name softly, "So he's from Sheng'an, no wonder he looks so white."

Lin Yikai ran back to look for him after taking a dip in the sea. As soon as Ma Qunyao put his student ID card into his trouser pocket, he saw him rushing towards the sea with great interest and dragging his wrist, "What are you doing standing there? Let's play together!"

Standing in the water watching Lin Yikai and his companions fighting and chasing in the water, Ma Qunyao held the wrist that was just caught, the sea water that was splashed and fell on Lin Yikai was crystal clear under the sun Ma Qunyao looked at him in a daze as he dodged the water drops and splashed them again. He seemed to be very happy, the sun and water fell on him, even the beauty.

In the evening, the people on the beach faded away in twos and threes. Ma Qunyao, who was sitting on the reef, stood up and moved his joints a few times after they faded away. The sea water under the night was like a beast with teeth and claws. Ma Qunyao stared at the trousers and the hem of the clothes for a while, then jumped in.

The tide rose quickly, and after three rounds, someone climbed onto the beach, choking on the water. Ma Qunyao took out the student ID card in his trouser pocket, wiped his wet face, and cursed, "Fuck... "

The next day, Ma Qunyao sat in front of the small shop with a dark face and waited. At about ten o'clock, a car finally stopped slowly. Seeing the person he met yesterday getting out of the car anxiously, Ma Qunyao held the bag in his hand. Just took the ID he left behind, saw him get off the car, reached out and threw the ID over, and stood up to leave, but Lin Yikai rushed over after taking the ID, the panic on his face had settled down, Ma Qunyao was hugged by him with a stiff body, Lin Yikai solemnly said thank you in his ear, and then let go of him and walked back, Ma Qunyao watched him return to the car and waved his hand to say goodbye loudly, "Thank you! goodbye!"

"goodbye……"

"goodbye……"

"Ma Qunyao? Are you awake? Ma Qunyao?"

Frowning and opening his eyes, the feeling of dizziness has not dissipated, there is a circle of people around the bed, Ma Qunyao watched for a long time before he could see Lin Yikai standing in the crowd clearly, wondering if the scene in the dream was reproduced too real , Ma Qunyao raised his hand and grabbed Lin Yikai's arm, and after grabbing it firmly, he muttered goodbye in a daze.

"Is he stupid? Why do you keep saying goodbye?" Xiangxiang was a little worried, "Should I call the doctor?"

After waking up, Ma Qunyao stared coldly at Chen Jite who was pressed by Lin Yikai on the side of the bed. He couldn't get away, so he stuck his neck and said sorry reluctantly. He felt that his attitude was not good enough. She slapped him on the back of the head with her hand, "Speak well!"

"I'm sorry! I was wrong! I shouldn't have put down such a heavy hand!" Breaking free from the control, Chen Jite shook his body and moved away, "The doctor said that it wasn't because of me that he fainted, so I apologized. Can I go?"

"You all go." Ma Qunyao pulled the quilt and lay down again, as if he didn't want to see anyone. Lin Yikai was stunned for a moment. After he lay down, he closed his eyes, as if he really didn't want to see anyone.

"He's a bit scary." After walking out of the ward, Xiangxiang rubbed the corner of her clothes to look at Lin Yikai. She had never seen such a horse Qunyao before. Lin Yikai patted her on the shoulder and let them go first. Xiangxiang hesitated, "You Won't you go?"

"You go back and report to the teacher that you are safe, and I will wait for his parents to come here."

After Xiangxiang left, Lin Yikai walked back and sat next to Ma Qunyao. Ma Qunyao probably knew that someone had come back, so he simply turned his back on him. Lin Yikai poked Ma Qunyao's back with his hand, "Hey... "

"I apologize to you on his behalf. He is just a child, and he does things without thinking. I have already taught him a lesson for you and gave him several ear scratches. Don't be angry."

This kind of substitute apology always reminded him that in the past, his mother had been apologizing for his sister and him, she said you forgive her, she was still young, and she just threw things at you because she was afraid of you. is one, and the self who is forced to accept the apology is just an unimportant outsider.

Even now, Ma Qunyao feels that he has never been integrated into Lin Yikai's life. He and Chen Jite are like his mother and sister. They will always be together, as if they will always be together.

"I have nothing to do with you, let's go." Ma Qunyao was extremely tired, as if he was pressing his head to make him fall asleep again, but after falling asleep, the dream was empty, and after waking up, the surrounding was also empty , there was still half of the bottle in his hand, Ma Qunyao sat up and pulled out the needle for himself, pressed the wound and waited until it stopped bleeding before staggering out, while his father was waiting outside.

"Your teacher said you got into a fight."

"So?" Ma Qunyao looked at him expressionlessly, "Are you going to teach me again? Like last time?"

"I saw him when I came, and you like that?"

Ma Qunyao didn't want to talk to him anymore, so he turned his head and walked out, "You don't need to worry about it."

"Does he know that he is being targeted?" Ma Qunyao's father followed behind as if he wanted to choke him to fight with him again, "If his parents know, they will definitely arrest you and call you crazy. Come to me and say I am your father!"

Lin Yikai didn't expect his father to come for so long, and he didn't expect that he would smell so much alcohol when he came. When he left the hospital and took a taxi, Lin Yikai suddenly remembered that Ma Qunyao had fought with his father some time ago. Calling him this time might not be the right decision.

I thought about apologizing to Ma Qunyao when he returned to school the next day, but Ma Qunyao seemed like a different person after he returned to school, sleeping on his stomach all day long, and ignoring anyone who talked to him, Xiang Xiang Anxiously going to tell him as the perpetrator, when the school dealt with Chen Jite, he just nodded his head, and he refused to say anything else.

In addition to this, when Lin Yikai returned to the dormitory at night, he found that the bedding where Ma Qunyao slept had been packed and disappeared. He just dealt with some things in the teacher's office. When he came back, he was the only one left in the empty dormitory. Ma Qunyao seems to have finally made up his mind to stay away from him.

With so many things happening recently, his staying away should be a good thing for him in some respects, but it is strange that for Ma Qunyao's staying away, he didn't feel as relaxed as he was staying away from Chen Jite. It's different, he didn't deceive him, and thinking about it carefully, on the contrary, Ma Qunyao had no intention of deceiving him when they first met.

He has been telling himself that he likes it unabashedly, but what about himself?Lin Yikai lowered his head, except for the self-deceiving evasion, all kinds of subconscious stay away, but he obviously doesn't hate it, but like it?It doesn't seem to count.

So what happened to my strange mood now?Is it because you don't want to lose this friend?

It was very late at night, and Lin Yikai sat there for a long time, as if he still couldn't find the answer.