The Great God of Net Wen was reborn in 1927

For Shen Lingjun's question, Xu Shaoting thought that this person already had the answer in his heart, and he didn't need him to answer.

However, a person who has an answer in his heart and still has doubts is probably because he still has doubts about such an answer even if he has an answer.

When he got home, he got out of the car and said goodbye to Shen Lingjun. He entered the house alone. Xu Yanran complained to him "Why didn't you invite someone in for a cup of tea?" He said: "Mr. Shen still wants to go back to Ms. Mary. It shouldn't take too much of his time."

Mrs. Zhang urged him to take a bath and change clothes, and told the servant to wash the changed clothes twice more.

Ignoring the two ladies and parents who were talking about the funeral, Xu Shaoting went back to the room. Zhenzhen came to him that night and asked his brother to read the manuscripts he wrote every day. I didn't have much activity. After writing the manuscript for a long time, my mind started to feel sleepy.

Facing Zhenzhen's question, she replied sleepily: "I didn't write "The Great Way of Immortals" today."

Zhenzhen was extremely puzzled, looking at the freshly baked snow-white manuscript paper and black pen writing on his desk: "Isn't this the novel you wrote today?"

"Hmm...it's not "The Great Dao and Immortal Journey"." Xu Shaoting yawned, "I want to sleep, you want to read a novel, let's talk about it tomorrow."

Zhenzhen felt as if she was hiding a cat in her heart. The cat's paws scratched her heart itchingly: "Then what did you write—a new novel?"

Xu Shaoting closed the cap of the pen, pressed the manuscript with stationery, got up and walked towards the bed unsteadily: "It's a new novel."

"Why don't you write "Da Dao" and write a new one?"

"Then let me see what you wrote."

Xu Shaoting threw himself on the bed, his mind was so sleepy: "I haven't finished writing it yet, if you want to read it, I will read it when I finish writing it."

Zhenzhen yelled a few more times, and saw her elder brother lying there on the bed, as if he had been asleep for a long time.

The little girl circled the manuscript a few times with her eyes, resisted the urge to take it over to read without authorization, and sighed like a grown-up before leaving the bedroom, covered Xu Shaoting with a quilt, so that only her head was exposed.

After making sure that he would not catch a cold, he stood by the bed and wiped off the non-existent sweat on his forehead, and said to himself very sadly: "Brother is such a big man, he can't take good care of himself, it seems that I will have to work hard in the future." sister-in-law."

Xu Shaoting didn't know that the little girl said such a thing, and when Zhenzhen went to school the next day, Xu Yanran came to ask for a novel, almost repeated the conversation with Zhenzhen yesterday, and then sent the girl away. cheap aunt.

In the evening, Zhenzhen came to ask again, and Xu Shaoting never thought: Why is the author of a long serial novel so miserable?

Reminders—it was a fate they could never escape!

After being urged like this for three full days, the three women in the family interrogated him three times during dinner.

Xu Yanran hated iron for being weak: "Since you have already serialized novels in newspapers, why did you start writing novella again without doing your job properly? Shaoting, do you think you are worthy of Editor-in-Chief He?"

Xu Shaoting thought to himself, what's the point of being sorry, the manuscript he handed over to Editor-in-Chief He told him not to write for a week, so he didn't have to worry about serialization. Where can a conscientious author like him who has a full week's worth of manuscripts go to find it.

Zhang also said: "Since the serialization of "The Great Dao" has already begun, it is not good to use one mind at two tasks...."

Zhenzhen is the most straightforward: "Brother, haven't you finished your new novel, isn't it just a short story?"

"Originally, I only planned to write a short story, after all, I just suddenly had some feelings..."

"What is Original?" The three ladies looked at him in surprise.

Feeling the great pressure, Xu Shaoting said in a low voice, "Writing and writing will make the writing longer."

The writing was long and dragged on for a full week, until the day when Editor-in-Chief He came to the door again, he dropped the last word. The finished manuscript was about 15 words in total. In the morning, three curious ladies at home eagerly took the manuscript away. If you want to read this serial novel that is on fire, if you don't write it, you don't know what kind of "inspiration" you wrote such a novel.

When she first saw the title of the book, Zhenzhen muttered: "This name is really strange, even stranger than the name of "The Way of the Great Dao".

Zhang said: "It's really confusing, but if you look down, maybe you'll know what it means after reading it."

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In the new novel, two little girls appear first. The names of these two girls are very interesting. One is Chi Yang and the other is Yin Yue.

The parents of Chi Yang and Yin Yue are Chinese immigrants who immigrated to the UK. Both families belong to the middle class and live in the same high-end apartment. After having a daughter, the two little girls also grew up together. It is not an exaggeration to say that they are the most important friends in each other's lives.

As two little girls who grew up in England and have never been to China, outsiders may think that they no longer consider themselves Chinese. Even though they have yellow skin and black eyes and hair, the heart in their hearts is already gone. It's white now.

But in fact, it was precisely because of this appearance that Chi Yang and Yin Yue could not integrate into the group of white children since they were young.

Some children reject people who are different from themselves out of nature, and some of them have white parents who discriminate against people of color, so they instill in their children the values ​​that people of color, especially yellow people, are inferior .

Chi Yang and Yin Yue had almost the same encounters and experiences in the first 18 years of their lives. They were both confused about where they belonged. If they were based on their nationality, the aborigines around them obviously did not welcome them.

If you look for their roots and ask their ancestors, they have never set foot on the distant Chinese land, and their parents' evaluation of their mother country is both nostalgic and repulsive, but they have never relaxed their study of Chinese culture.

So much so that even though they grew up in an English-speaking environment, they can speak authentic Chinese and write neat Chinese characters.

Until they went to college, met many foreign students from China, and learned more and more about what happened to China, a giant country in the East, and they were united by the Chinese students, shouting slogans, and they were young but firm-eyed. Impressed by his face.

Yin Yue asked Chi Yang: "What's in their eyes?"

Chi Yang said: "It is the spirit called pursuit."

Yin Yue's eyes were full of yearning: "That's great, Ayang, I really envy them that they can express their love for their country so straightforwardly, but until now, I don't know where I belong."

"Life is long but short." Chi Yang took Yin Yue's hand, and the young girl's eyes seemed to light up.

She said to her best friend, "If you don't know where you belong, then take the initiative to find it."

On this day, the seeds of "seeking" were buried in the hearts of young people. The two girls left the UK together with Chinese students who decided to return to China when they graduated from university. Even before they left, their parents sent They say so.

"Are you crazy? It's okay for men. Women are not welcome in the place you are going to. You are looking for your own death."

"When you grow up, no one can stop you wherever you want to go, but don't be brave. If you can't stay, come back here. Mom and Dad will always be your backing."

The two girls took the reluctance of their parents to board the ship to China. They were full of enthusiasm, just like the group of Chinese students studying abroad. When dark times need light, we are the candles that light ourselves."

Such a lofty banner is actually full of utopian ideals, which were soon shattered by reality shortly after they set foot on the land of China.

They came with their savings and wanted to start businesses and provide jobs for the poor.

As a result, seeing the two girls, not only was no one willing to cooperate with them, but they also said with contempt: "A serious woman will not come out to show her face to do business."

"How can you two girls be like men? You haven't married yet at this age? It's so pitiful. My daughter has three children at this age."

"You are simply immoral, what, British? Bah! Traitors! Traitors! When the country is in crisis, you actually go abroad to enjoy the blessings. It is true that only women and villains can be trusted!"

There are even more men who don't even find the reason, and just say: "I don't deal with women."

Yin Yue cursed angrily, and soon said to Chi Yang coldly: "Oh, that's why we are women."

Chi Yang saw that the originally bright light in Yin Yue's eyes had gone out, and she said with a tired face, "Go back, Ayang. We are women, and that's the reason—haven't you discovered it yet, those Chinese students studying abroad?" It's all men, when have we seen girls?"

"Women are not welcome in this country." Yin Yue had tears in her eyes, "I also never think that this is where I belong."

Chi Yang held Yin Yue's hand, just like every time she grew up, she cheered up her sister who was two months younger than herself: "Ah Yue, discrimination is everywhere, isn't there discrimination in the UK? As long as Discrimination will always exist where there are people."

Chi Yang's words moved Yin Yue, she gave up the idea of ​​returning to England for the time being, but the business couldn't go on, so the two girls decided to start a school. After all, apart from the economy, education is the only thing that can make a country develop.

It took a lot of effort to start the school. First, it was hard to recruit a few teachers, and they were too poor to get rid of the pot, so they were willing to be teachers under the two female principals.

But there are teaching staff and teachers, but no students are willing to come. It is said that the school is founded by women. Even if they can go to school for free, the family that can send their children to school these days is not short of this money.

The poor family spat viciously: "You actually let my son go to a school run by a woman? You are so ungrateful! What? Then let your daughter go to school? How can a woman be able to read and write? This is going against the sky. I want to ride on a man's head!"

The woman from the poor family scolded even harder: "I don't know where the money came from to run the school, and all the dirty places are called the school. The two of them are placed in our hometown, and they are all going to be soaked in pig cages. !"

Yin Yue couldn't hold on anymore, she came here with something called "ideal", and finally chose to leave, she persuaded Chi Yang to go back to England with her.

But they saw that the light in her eyes was still bright, just like the first time they saw the young faces of those foreign students, there was a firmness that was not seen in the eyes of their peers.

Yin Yue understood Chi Yang's choice, she scolded: "Are you a lunatic? You will die here!"

He begged her again: "Go back, you can choose to live your life more easily, why do you have to stay here? Are those people really worth saving?"

"Whether it's worth it, is up to me. I'm not the Holy Mother, I just understand..." Chi Yang gave her answer on this day, "I understand that if I leave here, at the moment my life ends, I will always regret it." It's the one thing I chose to give up."

"Since life will regret it no matter what, let me be willful once."

Yin Yue knew that there was nothing wrong with this answer, but she couldn't agree with it. With resentment towards Chi Yang, she left Huaxia alone.

Although the parting was unpleasant, the two did not cut off contact. In the next 20 years, Yin Yue got married, had children, worked, and finally became a housewife because of taking care of children.

And Chi Yang, who had the same experience as her in the first half of her life, has never formed a family so far, but her name has spread among Huaxia international students, and she has become a well-known and respected Principal Chi in Huaxia Shanghai Stock Exchange.

Yes, Chi Yang succeeded.

Yin Yue wanted to meet her in the past and congratulate her, but she was always delayed due to various trivial family reasons, or because her youthful appearance was no longer there, and her life was full of dull and boring things, so she herself avoided seeing her. That respectable lady Chi.

Since she was 21 years old, she has given birth to three children in succession, and then her children were also born. When she suddenly looked back half her life, looked at the haggard woman in the mirror, and then remembered the respected "Chi" in the Chinese circle around her. Sir" "Principal Chi"...

The Chinese people praised her, and even used greatness to describe her, which made her suddenly see herself in her youth, with an immature and innocent face full of longing: "Ayang, I want to be that kind of person too."

I am... what kind of person do I want to be?

Why did I end up being such a mediocre person?

Confused, Yin Yue thought that when her grandson's cry sounded, she had no time to think about it, and hurriedly took the prepared milk powder to feed the child.

Until she received the invitation to Chi Yang's funeral, after 20 years of absence, she set foot on the land of China again, and told herself: "In the end, Chi Yang's choice was wrong. If she returned to England, she would definitely live to be seventy or eighty, instead of Died before the age of 40."

She went to Huaxia empty-handed, and when she returned, Yin Yue took away what Chi Yang left her: a diary with a hard shell and thick leather.

After she finished reading, she ignored the words written on the title page. The content of the main text is not so much a record of a woman's half life, but a history of a person's half life of suffering.

So she told herself: I am not wrong, my ordinary life is very good.Even if Chi Yang has gained fame, it is unnecessary to praise suffering. Life is short, and my choice is the right one.

In a blink of an eye, Yin Yue was old, and her husband had passed away ten years earlier than her. She just started taking care of her granddaughter and grandson at her son's house, and then she went to take care of her grandson after her daughter gave birth. When she was too old to take care of the children, She was sent to a nursing home.

By the time she was about to die, her children, children's children... even the fifth generation was born, because she was old enough, she was 95 or 96... too old to remember how old she was up.

Also dying of old age.

Descendants of different ages, skin colors and genders surrounded her hospital bed, weeping, but also saying: "This life of mother/grandmother is a good life."

Finally, the children came forward to say goodbye to her, until the nurse who had been taking care of her for a long time asked, "Do you have any other wishes?"

Yin Yue looked at the white ceiling of the hospital, she opened her mouth, she wanted to say something, she tried hard to move her fingers, to touch the diary under the pillow...

The light in front of her eyes gradually disappeared, and the long night came, and after she reviewed her life, a light lit up in the distance, it was the sun——

It is a blazing sun!

She blinked, and the girl in the sun smiled and waved at her, so she smiled too, and then watched the young girl run towards the blazing sun and never look back, until she and the sun disappeared in the long run of her life. in the night.

When Yin Yue died, the children cried out in grief. The eldest son went up to sort out his mother's body and found the hard-shell notebook under the pillow.

He opened it suspiciously, took a quick look and put it aside.

The breeze blew across the title page of this diary, and it was written in beautiful and firm handwriting:

My dear friend, please don't be sad that I am gone

I'm just in this long night of life

To chase the eternal sun

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With 15 words, it describes the two completely different lives of Chi Yang and Yin Yue.

After reading it, Zhenzhen was the first to speak out: "I don't understand... I can't understand people like Chi Yang at all."

Xu Yanran and Zhang Shi looked at each other, obviously the two adults thought of something more.

Zhenzhen said again: "However... it seems that I understand the name of the novel a little bit."

In the middle of the first line of the first page of the snow-white manuscript paper, Zhenzhen turned it back, obviously not understanding the meaning of Xu Shaoting's novel, but still staring at the title of the article in a daze——

sun chaser