Pure jade and gold

The afterglow of the setting sun diffuses into the window, giving the whole bedroom a special sense of tranquility.

Dr. Lin, the private doctor, straightened up and breathed a sigh of relief, "The fever has subsided, and the little red marks on his body after being whipped have also faded. Your family members don't need to worry too much."

Lu Zhao'an stepped forward and retwisted the quilt for the sleeping Yuan Rui.

Meng Xuehua stood at the end of the bed with tears in his eyes, his worried look still on his face, "Doctor Lin, Xiao Rui has been in a drowsy sleep all day, why is he still awake? Are you really all right?"

Yesterday evening, Yuan Rui had an out-of-control explosion in front of other people and then suddenly fainted, which caused Lu Zhaoan and others' hearts to hang high, and they were rushed to the hospital for a good examination, and intermittently developed low-grade fever.

Although there was no major problem with the test results, the hospital did not have any extra beds to give the suggestion of staying in the hospital for observation.

Even so, Lu Zhaoan was still worried, so he contacted Shi Yunnan and Luo Lingsheng, and specially invited a private doctor to continue to take care of him.

"Auntie, you have to trust the professional examination at the hospital. Yuan Rui's health is indeed fine, and the fever has almost subsided now..."

Dr. Lin glanced at Yuan Rui on the bed, and remembered what he heard about the situation Yuan Rui encountered before the accident. "In a situation like his, it cannot be ruled out that the psychological pressure is too great, which leads to instinctive evasion behavior."

In other words, he encountered something he was unwilling to face in reality, so his body mechanism chose 'sleep' as the adjustment method.

"..."

Lu Zhaoan was silent, and the pain in his eyes intensified a bit.

"If Yuan Rui is really a psychological problem, then I can do very little, but I know a very authoritative psychological counselor, after he wakes up, you can contact him to see."

"Yuan Rui had a low-grade fever before, but now the fever has subsided, you might as well wait a few more hours to see..." Dr. Lin explained a few words emphatically, and then packed up his belongings.

Lu Zhao'an raised some strength, and said softly, "Doctor Lin, please help my master to look again."

Yuan Puguang was also very angry yesterday. Hearing what Meng Xuehua said, his heart ached for the whole night.

"Sure, I'll go now." Doctor Lin responded, and glanced at Lu Zhao'an's wrist again, "However, you really pay attention to your wrist, and apply medicine on time to reduce swelling."

"Well, thank you."

Soon, Meng Xuehua took Dr. Lin to the master bedroom on the other side.

Lu Zhao sat quietly by the bed, looking at Yuan Rui who was still unconscious on the bed, his breathing became heavy and difficult again.

——Lu Zhaoan, you are the same as them.

——In the name of "for my own good", I left as soon as I discussed it, and no one wanted to ask me what I thought.

——Actually, you don’t want me, as long as I don’t do well at all, you don’t want me.

——In a situation like his, it cannot be ruled out that the psychological pressure is too great.

Lu Zhaoan recalled these remarks in his mind, and his whole body fell into unprecedented self-blame.

He should have noticed earlier, instead of letting Yuan Rui bear these grievances and pressure.

As a senior brother, he cannot have a good influence on Yuan Rui;

As a lover, he couldn't bring Yuan Rui a full sense of security.

People around him always use 'excellent' to describe him, but Lu Zhao'an only feels that he has failed in a complete mess.

Yuan Rui was right, to a certain extent, he 'listened' to Yuan Puguang's words.

Yuan Puguang took him away from the orphanage and taught him skills for more than ten years. As an apprentice, Lu Zhao'an was unwilling to let him down deep in his heart, so he had more or less concerns.

And his worries were the culprit that caused Yuan Rui's deeper pressure.

"Rui Rui, I'm sorry."

Lu Zhao'an held Yuan Rui's cool hand, feeling like a knife was piercing his heart.

I don't know how long it took, until the sky was completely dark, and the door of the room was quietly opened again.

Meng Xuehua turned on a small lamp in the room, she looked at her son who was still in a coma, and at the disciple who was sitting and accompanying him like a sculpture, her eyes were sore again, "Zhaoan."

Lu Zhao'an raised his head slowly, and there were some tired red threads in his eye sockets.

From yesterday morning to now, he has not closed his eyes for nearly a day and a half.

"Master, Dr. Lin is gone?"

"En." Meng Xuehua responded in a low voice, "Zhao'an, are you hungry? I'll go order some noodles to pad your stomach."

As the only hostess in the family, she naturally remembered every day clearly.

Today is Lu Zhaoan's birthday. It is better to say that it is the day after he was taken home by Yuan Puguang. Every year in the past, their husband and wife would simply set up a banquet for Lu Zhaoan to celebrate.

Now that something like this has happened, it is impossible to set up a banquet, but she always serves the child a bowl of noodles.

"Don't bother, I can't eat." Lu Zhao'an refused with a hoarse voice, he paused, "...is the old man better, master?"

Meng Xuehua nodded, then shook her head again.

Others don't understand Yuan Puguang, how could she, as a wife, not understand.From last night to now, isn't Yuan Puguang the one who suffers and blames himself?

It's not that he doesn't love Yuan Rui, it's just that his love is in the wrong way.

Yuan Puguang received the "apprentice" education of the older generation since he was a child. The strict and stubborn thoughts are engraved in his bones. In addition, Yuan Rui and him do have an age difference that is larger than that of ordinary father and son. , some contradictions are inherent.

At this point, she understood that the children were dissatisfied with their husbands, and she couldn't objectively act as a middleman to mediate.

"Teacher, you and master go to rest first, I will guard Ruirui here."

After coming out of the hospital last night, Lu Zhao'an originally wanted to take Yuan Rui away directly, but Meng Xuehua was really worried, so the group chose to return to the courtyard temporarily.

Meng Xuehua knew the current situation, even she couldn't stay by the children's side, so as not to bring more pressure.

She was silent for two seconds, and had no choice but to respond, "Okay, I'll prepare some millet porridge in the kitchen. If Xiao Rui wakes up, you and he can eat some together, so don't cause stomach problems."

"it is good."

The door of the room was quietly closed.

Lu Zhao'an still sat in front of the bed like a sculpture, Yuan Rui showed no signs of waking up, and several calls in a soft voice failed to arouse him to respond in the slightest.

Probably because of being awake for a long time and sitting for a long time, Lu Zhao'an only felt that the drowsiness in his brain was getting heavier and heavier.He glanced at the time on his phone, it was already nine o'clock in the evening.

You still have to watch at night, no matter how sleepy or tired you have to be.

"Ruirui, senior brother, go wash your face and wake up, I'll be right back to accompany you, don't be afraid."

No one responded.

Lu Zhao'an got up, and after confirming that Yuan Rui was tightly covered by the quilt, he returned to the opposite room, took a shower as fast as he could, and drove away the fatigue and discomfort accumulated in his body.

Lu Zhaoan opened the cabinet, found a piece of clothing and put it on.

When he saw the bottom grid, Yuan Rui's grievance and accusation after losing control suddenly flashed through his mind——

"I knew it... I sent you so many WeChat messages, I kept apologizing to you, and you ignored me, even if you just said a word, you ignored me..."

The heart suddenly twitched.

Those key points that Yuan Rui didn't have time to think about because of fainting came to the fore at this moment.

Lu Zhao'an opened the cabinet as quickly as possible, and took out the old mobile phone that had been dusty for a long time.

At that time, he was afraid that his heart would be soft, and he was also afraid that Yuan Rui would be disgusted even more by leaving and returning, so he changed his mobile phone and number cruelly, and left the original mobile phone in the cabinet at home.

Charge, turn on, and connect to the signal smoothly.

Lu Zhaoan opened WeChat, and after a few short but long seconds of buffering, hundreds of WeChat messages rushed out like a mountain, all of which came from Yuan Rui.

Dengdengdeng-

Lu Zhao'an unconsciously stopped breathing when he heard the reminder that was approaching like a legato.Even before he started checking, his heart was already throbbing with pain.

Lu Zhao'an desperately condensed his thoughts, and clicked on the initial WeChat.

——I heard from Aunt Chu that you traveled far away?Where did you go?

——Last time in the conference room, I was angry, you are not angry, are you?When you come back, I treat you to dinner?

"Then what... I was too impulsive a while ago, and I didn't mean to hurt you with my words. If you are angry, tell me, and I will apologize to you in person when I come back. Anyway, I am a senior brother...don't bother with me OK, okay?"

——Are you busy?Why don't you reply to WeChat or answer the phone?

—Are you angry?I know I was wrong, and I won't make children angry again, so don't argue with me, okay?

——I also learned a lot of new things this week. Several uncles said that I have improved, but I am definitely not as good as you. Wait for you to come back and take me with you?

——It’s almost time for dinner, remember to eat, come back to me when you have time!

These are the first few WeChat messages, and the intervals are very short.

Looking at the text and listening to the voice, Lu Zhaoan could imagine Yuan Rui sending WeChat with his mobile phone at that time. He must be eager to wait for his reply on the one hand, and feel embarrassed on the other hand.

Then, there was a long wechat text in the early morning.

——Brother, I heard from my dad, can you come back?I said the wrong thing that night, I was just a little drunk, but I didn't mean it that way.

——I still treat you as a senior brother all the time, and I don't want or need you to leave home to make room for me, really!

—Brother, I actually just want to work with you.My dad always said that I am not as good as you, and I also know that I am not qualified, so I am embarrassed to tell you.

——Anyway, it's all my fault. I'll apologize to you when you come back?Or teach me whatever you want!

——Brother, don't leave me alone to manage the studio.You know, since I was a child, I will only do things behind your back, and I am afraid that I will not be able to manage it by myself.Call me back if you see it, good night.

Obviously, Lu Zhaoan didn't see such candid words back then, that is, since then, Yuan Rui has sent one or two WeChat messages almost every day.

——Brother, all the designers in the studio are gone, except for Yunan, they don't believe me, what should I do?If only you were here.

—Brother, are you still angry?I went to contact other designers to join our studio today, but after a lot of closed doors, I can think of how they laughed at me behind my back. I was a little angry, but I couldn't help it. Is this considered progress?

——Brother, good morning!If I can invite a designer to join the studio today, just talk to me, okay?wish me success!

—Brother!i did it!The lips are almost worn out!Isn't it great? [Contract photo]

—Brother, are you still angry?How petty.

- Withdraw, withdraw!Just be stingy if you are stingy, I have a cheap mouth, you should be angry.It’s fine if you didn’t blacklist me, and let me know when the weather clears up.

——Brother, I was really blind before, but Xie Keyue is a duplicity scum!Fortunately, I believed his words at the beginning, thinking that after he invested, he would reduce your pressure in the studio!I will keep my eyes open in the future!However, Yunan is someone you can trust, and I can trust him too, right?

——Lu Zhaoan!You have ignored me for almost a month and a half!If this continues, I will be angry!

"Brother, where are you now? I, I miss you a little bit."

Lu Zhao'an read every WeChat message carefully, and felt Yuan Rui's growth every step of the way. He listened to this rare voice over and over again, and felt even more uncomfortable.

Yuan Rui has always had a good face, it is rare for him to say "I miss you a little bit", but he didn't reply in time.

Lu Zhaoan continued to read WeChat.

Two months later, Yuan Rui had almost acquiesced to the fact that he would not reply to WeChat, as if he took his chat interface as a memo, and even sent back such trivial things as 'an appointment to meet the supplier at three o'clock'.

In addition, the most is good morning and evening.

But sometimes, he will suddenly not send a message after two or three days, but the next sentence will also explain the reason for "self-disappearance", without exception, he is busy with work.

Lu Zhaoan looked at the time when Yuan Rui sent the message, and saw that two or three o'clock in the morning had become a common number, and his mood was indescribably heavy.

He didn't eat well, didn't sleep well, forced himself to become a workaholic... This was Yuan Rui, whom he had never seen or come into contact with.

Going down again, there are three consecutive voices from one o'clock in the morning.

"Brother...my stomach hurts...can you come and pick me up? I want to go home."

"Don't ignore me... Please, please... Lu Zhao'an, don't want me, why... why you don't want me..."

"Brother, I, I miss you so much."

Lu Zhaoan clicked on them one by one in order, but the desperate crying that followed almost made him crush the phone.

Is this drinking?Why go for a drink?

How much alcohol did you drink to get your stomach ache?

Where was Yuan Rui at that time?How could there be no one around to take care of?

Countless questions popped up in Lu Zhao'an's mind, but it's a pity that time has passed and no one can tell him the answer.

In the whole three months of WeChat content, Yuan Rui never cried out a word of "pain" to him, nor did he say anything coquettish and grievance, and he just didn't respond when the other party needed it most.

What would Yuan Rui think?

Do you think you were really abandoned by him?

Thinking of this possibility, Lu Zhao'an, who has always been calm, turned his eyes red.

No wonder when Yuan Rui left Dehua County, he only chose to leave him a note that he would definitely see.

It's no wonder that after losing control, the other party still doesn't want to believe that the two of them can stick to it and keep going.

Lu Zhaoan prides himself on being the older one, and feels that he has been thinking about Yuan Rui since he was a child, but his only selfishness has brought about such an end.

These WeChat messages appeared in front of him across more than half a year, reminding——

How did Yuan Rui spend his energy to love him little by little, and how did he slander him completely without knowing it.

"Okay, I don't want you either."

Lu Zhao'an remembered Yuan Rui's last sentence before he fainted, and the fear of 'losing' that he had never felt before spread in his heart, and he suddenly stood up from the chair.

He wants to return to Yuan Rui's side, and he can't leave for a moment!

The closed bedroom door opened.

Before Lu Zhaoan could take a step, he bumped into Yuan Rui who was standing stupidly in the aisle at the door.

The wind at night was very cool, Yuan Rui's eyes were red, but the side of his lips was pale and haggard, "Brother, you are here."

"..."

Lu Zhao'an was in uncontrollable pain, and immediately hugged Yuan Rui back to his bedroom bed, and picked up the quilt on one side to cover him tightly.

"Are you stupid? Why didn't you call me when you woke up? How long have you been standing at my door?" Lu Zhaoan held Yuan Rui's slightly cold hand, as if bleeding was oozing from his heart, "The fever subsided just now, don't stop caught a cold."

"I didn't see you when I woke up, so I wanted to look for you."

Yuan Rui's voice was hoarse, and his voice was very soft and flat.

He actually lied. After waking up and found that Lu Zhaoan was not there, he searched for it immediately, but lost his courage the moment he pressed the doorknob of Lu Zhaoan's bedroom.

He was afraid that the scene would be empty again after opening the door, so he stood there for a long time in a daze.

"It's my fault that I didn't go back to guard you in time." Lu Zhaoan got stuck in the WeChat message, and then made another big mistake.

He warmed Yuan Rui's hands again, "Are you still feeling uncomfortable? Are you hungry? I'll go and pour you some warm water first..."

"Brother, I have something to tell you."

Yuan Rui grabbed Lu Zhaoan's wrist instead, and after staying for three or four seconds, he uncharacteristically let go.

"..."

Lu Zhao'an was taken aback, and still spoke to him in a gentle tone, "Okay, you go ahead, I just happen to have something to tell you."

Yuan Rui subconsciously apologized, "I'm sorry, I lost control and became confused before, so I shouldn't lose my temper with you."

Lu Zhao'an tried his best to suppress the sourness, and gently stroked his face, "I don't blame you, you are right."

"Brother, I've figured it out."

Yuan Rui avoided his touch, the corners of his eyes were still red, but no tears fell down.His throat choked, and he mentioned slowly, "Let's separate, I thought about it, we are not suitable..."

"no!"

It was the first time in Lu Zhao'an's life that he lost control and yelled out. He held Yuan Rui tightly in his arms, "Rui Rui, do you remember how we promised each other when we first got together?"

——If we want to be together, it has to be a lifetime.

Yuan Rui pursed his lips and remained silent.

Of course he remembered, but he didn't have the courage to do it alone.

"It's my fault that I haven't seen those WeChat messages. I don't know what happened to you in the past six months. When you were sad and wronged, I was not by your side. It's all my fault, my failure to protect you."

Lu Zhaoan hugged him and did not let go, his voice choked with self-blame.

"I've been the one who has done wrong things all this time. It's my brother's fault. I left without having a good talk with you and recognizing your thoughts. I thought it was what you wanted, and it's all my fault..."

"You've been afraid all the time, haven't you? I promise I won't do this again, Ruirui, can you trust me once?"

"You can vent your anger as much as you want, but we just can't mention breaking up between us."

"Ruirui, I'm sorry, I will never not reply to your messages again, and I will never make you worry again."

Yuan Rui heard Lu Zhaoan's trembling promise that he had never made before, and his restraint finally broke down. He whimpered, "Brother."

"……I am here."

Lu Zhao'an slightly loosened his strength, half-circling him in his arms.

Looking into Shanglu Zhaoan's eyes, Yuan Rui finally told the truth out of fear, "I, I just feel like I'm sick, once I think of you leaving, I'm so scared that I can't control it."

"I didn't mean to get angry at you, and I know it's not good, but I, I just can't control my emotions... I'm sorry..."

He can face Yuan Puguang's self-blame and anger alone, but he just doesn't want to hear the other party order Lu Zhaoan to leave him.

Yuan Rui knew that Yuan Puguang would not agree and would separate them. This fear had been deeply rooted since the day they were together, and it could not be eradicated overnight.

This fear hung over his head like a knife, and it might fall and kill him at any moment.

He was afraid that it would affect Lu Zhao'an in the long run, so instead of doing this, it's better to cut the mess quickly——

Even if the two return to a brotherly relationship, it's better than Lu Zhao'an leaving the studio again because of Yuan Puguang's objection.

"Needless to say I'm sorry, I don't blame you, it's because I didn't give you enough sense of security."

Lu Zhao'an wiped away Yuan Rui's tears and comforted him, "Rui Rui, listen, I will never leave you again. If you are not sick, I will accompany you. Even if you are sick, I will accompany you to see a doctor. "

"I'll be with you all the time, it's okay."

Yuan Rui still asked worriedly, "But my parents still don't agree, what should I do?"

"I didn't handle it well, master and mother. You can blame me or blame me, but I never intend to let you go." Lu Zhao'an continued to comfort.

"If they know it, they will know it. I will figure out a way, and I will persuade them."

"Even if they still don't agree in the end, then I will take you away together. Whether it's in the Imperial Capital or somewhere else, we'll all be together."

"Ruirui, trust me, I, Lu Zhao'an, will never abandon you again in my life, I have the ability to support you and protect you."

"Senior brother, you must keep your word and take me with you wherever you go."

Yuan Rui sobbed uncertainly, his hoarse voice was soft with longing.

"I, I'm easy to raise, it doesn't cost much, and I can make money myself... You are not allowed to leave me anymore..."

"Okay, I'll keep my word."

Lu Zhao'an kissed away the watery light from the corner of Yuan Rui's eyes, and then the comforting kiss fell on his cool lips.

I don't know whose tears caused trouble again, the salty taste entered the lips, stuck to the tip of the tongue, and disappeared without a trace in the stirring.

In less than half a minute, Lu Zhaoan restrained himself and stopped.

Lu Zhao'an buried his head in Yuan Rui's neck, breathing with the joy of 'recovering what was lost', just for a moment, he really felt that the people in the circle were going to leave him.

"Rui Rui, I'm sorry, never again."

The words of apology came into his ears again, Yuan Rui reached out and hugged Lu Zhao'an tightly, and said in a low voice, "Brother, I believe you."

Lu Zhao'an let out a long sigh, still thinking about Yuan Rui's physical condition.

"Are you hungry? I'll get you something to eat, okay? I don't know if you'll catch a cold just now, but don't..."

Before he could finish his apologetic and pampering nagging, Yuan Rui blushed and kissed him proactively. His kissing skills were still very jerky, so he only dared to simply suck a few times to give up.

"Master."

"Ok?"

"Happy birthday."

Yuan Rui's eyes were still immersed in the thin water, but now there was a smile underneath.

Lu Zhao'an felt sour when he saw it, and always felt that he owed Yuan Rui more. The other party has always been like this, obedient and easy to coax.

"Brother, am I late for this blessing? I originally planned to give you a good life, but unfortunately... um..."

Lu Zhao'an's eyes darkened, and he suddenly leaned forward and kissed her.

He who was always a gentle gentleman suddenly lost control at this moment, sucking and kissing vigorously, and occasionally when he separated in a vague way, he still murmured the name of 'Yuan Rui' in his mouth.

"Brother." Yuan Rui's breath was trembling, and he leaned forward on the verge of losing control, "I want you."

"..."

Lu Zhaoan's grip on his arm was so tight that it hurt, and he was still thinking about Yuan Rui's physical condition, "Rui Rui, no, your health is critical now."

"Brother." Yuan Rui put his arms around Lu Zhao'an's neck, with a hint of unceasing crying in his voice, "Don't want me."

"Rui Rui..."

"Rui Rui!"

The composure and endurance that Lu Zhaoan had cultivated in jade carving in the past disappeared at this moment, and it was the first time that Lu Zhaoan, who was gentle and gentle with the kiss, did not hide his fierce thoughts.

Yuan Rui has no experience in this area at all, and only relies on the turbulent affection after talking through his mind.

After some kissing and releasing, he had already been so forgetful that he couldn't tell the difference between south, east and north, and his whole body was dizzy.

Until the sudden pain brought his reason back to reality.

"Ugh...it hurts!"

Lu Zhao'an's attack stopped because of the cry.

He forcibly suppressed the savage impulse, kissed the eyebrows and eyes of the person under him with the remaining gentleness and reason, and had no choice but to say duplicity, "How about another day?"

Yuan Rui opened his eyes slightly, and saw the forbearance that had never appeared on Lu Zhaoan's face, and suddenly felt extremely real.

He had a more sacrificial impulse, and kissed him proactively, "Brother, I'm not afraid."

Actions supersede all words.

Yuan Rui hugged Lu Zhao'an's shoulder tightly, and the side of his lips was grabbed by the other party again. He finally let go of his voice, which was a rebellion that had never been seen in more than 20 years.

A strange feeling of pain and pain raged.

In the dark, Yuan Rui saw the old tree swaying outside the window, looked at the layout of the room for ten years, and listened to the creaking and shaking of the wooden boards below, never felt more stable and real than now.

He and Lu Zhao'an, in this bed where they hugged and slept together when they were young, in this bedroom with poor sound insulation, under the same roof with their parents' disapproving attitude——

Lingering to death, they belonged to each other thoroughly.

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