Impossible Stand-in for Rebirth

Yang Guiwen looked at the wine that the man on the opposite side handed to He Qingyu, and blocked it for He Qingyu calmly.He Qingyu's stomach is not very good recently, Yang Guiwen originally disapproved of He Qingyu's participation in today's industry gathering.

But after all, gatherings in the industry are still rare, and there are many people who don't often hang out in nightclubs today, He Qingyu will naturally not willingly let go of this opportunity to get acquainted.Now that his own company is at an inflection point in its ascent, it still needs a boost.These necessary entertainments are naturally indispensable.

Yang Guiwen has blocked a lot of wine for him.Taking advantage of no one's attention, He Qingyu leaned over and kissed Yang Guiwen's side face: "Brother Yang, thank you."

Yang Guiwen tilted his head and saw his slightly parted lips, which looked a little red under the dim light of the box.Some thoughts of kissing rose in his mind, but he didn't dare to move because of the middle-aged people who were drinking and punching in the opposite circle.

So he got up and went out by going to the bathroom.Before leaving, he followed He Qingyu and said in a low voice, "Follow me out. I'll wait for you outside."

He Qingyu made a "hmm".The atmosphere in the box was chaotic, and the smoke and alcohol were everywhere.The TV by the wall was still on, but no one looked at it.Naturally, no one paid attention to the slight interaction between the two of them.

Not long after Yang Guiwen walked out, He Qingyu and the man beside him who was talking to him also made a sign to go out, which meant to go out to the bathroom.Then he walked around the sofa and walked to the door.

The corridor outside was brightly lit, He Qingyu opened the door a little, and a few beams of orange lights fell into the box.He walked out through the crack of the door and closed the door again.

With a glance, he saw Yang Guiwen leaning on the wall at a corner not far away.He Qingyu smiled at him and walked over quickly.

The two of them went into the bathroom together.After coming out, he stopped for a while in front of the sink.He Qingyu brought up an interesting story that a friend mentioned during the chat just now, and talked with Yang Guiwen just for fun.Yang Guiwen was drying his wet palms at the hot air dryer, turned around after hearing his words, and laughed a few times.

The two chatted casually for a while, and Yang Guiwen asked He Qingyu to tell him to drink less after returning.So as not to hurt the stomach again.He Qingyu felt warm in his heart when he heard this, and Yang Guiwen put his arms around his waist at this time, rubbing gently on his waist.The lips also came closer, as if asking for a kiss.

He Qingyu laughed lightly, and Ren Yang Guiwen caught his lips in a pandering manner.The two of them lingered for a long time, Yang Guiwen couldn't help but pester He Qingyu's tongue that had nowhere to hide.It wasn't until he scanned all the places in his mouth that he reluctantly backed away a little.Hearing He Qingyu's slight panting, his lower abdomen felt hot again.

He Qingyu smiled and pressed his hand that was groping on his body: "Brother Yang, it's better not to go too far. We haven't gone back for so long, others will be able to talk about it."

Yang Guiwen licked his lips lightly again, and then released his body.The two sorted out their descriptions and walked out of the bathroom.

Lu Yizhuo originally planned to come out to smoke a cigarette, but the atmosphere in the box almost made him suffocate.He couldn't restrain himself from drinking, and when he drank, he felt pain in his heart, and when he hurt, tears fell down uncontrollably.

He also really felt that he was too worthless.Wei Xianzhong was also exhausted and painful by him, and just now he scolded him with a smile: "I said Lu Yizhuo, you have just recovered for a few days? Why are you starting to go crazy again now?"

How could he not go crazy, today is the anniversary of He Qingyu's death.It's also his birthday.When he woke up in the morning, his mind was full of the day two years ago, when He Qingyu smiled at him by the door, asking him to come back early.

It's all gone now... It's been two years and he still can't forget it.

Lu Yizhuo was alone at home, and couldn't bear the loneliness and endless suffering, so he called Wei Xianzhong and asked Wei Xianzhong to come out and have a gathering at the bar.As a result, he began to cry bitterly while drinking, and Wei Xianzhong really couldn't help it, and there was no place to comfort him when he looked at him.

Lu Yizhuo lay on the sofa for a while, closed his eyes and fell asleep in a daze.When I wake up, I open the door and come out, wanting to get some air outside.

He pressed the lighter, and the flames burst out.He borrowed the fire and took a deep breath.Leaning against the wall, the alcohol in my mind came up again.He looked around, and randomly glanced at the bathroom at the end of the corridor not far away.

With such a glance, he caught a glimpse of a familiar figure... Lu Yizhuo remembered him, that man was a guest He Qingyu had dated with before his death.What is the regulation.

Lu Yizhuo frowned and looked around him.Saw a slender and thin figure.

With a blink of his eyes, he almost thought it was He Qingyu.He walked over there faster than his thoughts, and ended up taking a closer look.I found that the profile of that person was not He Qingyu...it wasn't...

Lu Yizhuo's body was about to collapse, so he looked carefully.Only then was it confirmed that it was not He Qingyu.

Just a strange smile.It reminded him of He Qingyu.

He watched the man turn his face completely.Lu Yizhuo turned around in his mind and remembered the identity of this person.

It seems to be the Ayu I met at He Qingyu's father's house a few days before the Chinese New Year this year.

At that time, Lu Yizhuo felt that he was a little strange, and that he was a little excessively and deliberately indifferent to himself.

He stared straight at the two people talking and laughing, even A Yu leaned over and kissed Yang Guiwen intimately.An evil fire burst out of his mind uncontrollably.

I remember that it was the same way a long time ago, he watched He Qingyu make out with that Yang Guiwen from the corner.This scene is so familiar.

Lu Yizhuo sneered, another stream of tears flowed down his face.He didn't care.Why his He Qingyu died, he was in so much pain.And they are living so happily.

Why... No one can tell about his pain and guilt, why should he watch them happy.

He subconsciously wanted to go over, but stopped halfway.What does he want...?He wanted to interrupt their intimacy.Then let that Ayu stay by his side, he is in pain... others should not think about it.

He is almost mentally deformed.All because of the accumulation of these pains that arise.The tears are still flowing.

He thought for a while, then returned to the box.Wei Xianzhong watched him come in and glanced at him: "Do you feel better?"

Lu Yizhuo looked at Wei Xianzhong with wine in his eyes and said, "Wei Xianzhong, do me a favor."

He Qingyu followed Yang Guwen, and Yang Guwen advanced into the box.He was about to follow in, but suddenly there were hands lying beside him.

He Qingyu raised his head and saw the face of the person who blocked him.It turned out to be Wei Xianzhong.

He asked calmly, "What's the matter?"

Wei Xianzhong laughed dryly: "I might trouble you to come here. I have a friend who wants to talk to you about something."

"A friend of yours?" He Qingyu frowned: "I don't know you at all, so I don't know your friends either."

Wei Xianzhong also knew that there was a small gathering in the civilian processing industry here, thinking that this Ayu should also be a businessman.He laughed again: "You won't refuse to talk about business, will you?"

He Qingyu thought to himself, Wei Xianzhong's friend...?Who else but Lu Yizhuo.The two of them hadn't always been close before.

But he had nothing to fear.Just go, if there is any fraud, just come out immediately.

With an inexplicable smile on his lips, he followed Wei Xianzhong into the box he pointed to.

As a result, it was a little dark inside, and there were a bunch of messy wine bottles on the ground.He Qingyu frowned and walked over to the sofa. As soon as he sat down, he felt someone hugging his upper body tightly.He Qingyu frowned and pushed hard.

He heard the low cry of the person holding him.He leaned against He Qingyu's body and asked vaguely: "Who are you...Who are you?"

"What's the matter?" He Qingyu ignored him, and glanced at Wei Xianzhong who was standing on the side, Wei Xianzhong was obviously a little confused.He laughed and said to Lu Yizhuo: "Yizhuo, what are you doing? Hugging him nicely."

He Qingyu paused, took a look, and found that the person holding him was Lu Yizhuo.

He stood up almost instantly and wanted to leave.

A little light came from the wall lamp, Lu Yizhuo opened his hazy eyes and looked at A Yu beside him.I just felt that the alcohol in my mind was going up one after another, and the more I looked at A Yu, the more I remembered He Qingyu.

But he knew he wasn't... he was drunk, but he knew it too.

"Don't go...I just want to find someone, listen to me for a while. You remind me of He Qingyu, just because of this."

"You are so resistant to me... It makes me feel that you are a bit like him. Because if he is alive, he will probably hate me very much." Lu Yizhuo said, and let go of his hand.He Qingyu felt hypocrisy when he heard it, and wanted to stand up and leave, but Wei Xianzhong persuaded him: "Please. My brother is really drunk, and I feel uncomfortable. Just stay here for a while, please gone."

He Qingyu couldn't say anything for a while after hearing his words.After all, it was Lu Yizhuo who had a grudge against him, not Wei Xianzhong in front of him.

But it doesn't stop.He Qingyu couldn't deny that he had a secret expectation in his heart, and he immediately felt that he was ridiculous and pathetic.It is already an established fact that Lu Yizhuo played with himself in the previous life, and now these tears have no other meaning besides false confession.

But what has he been crying about... What exactly is he trying to redeem.

"Today is his memorial day, and it's also his birthday...They don't remember it...Only I remember it. I won't forget it either."

He Qingyu's body froze. He didn't expect Lu Yizhuo to remember today... To be honest, he even forgot himself. In this body named "A Yu", he lived a busy working life for others.He almost forgot about the past...

He Qingyu heard Lu Yizhuo continue to say: "I just want to say I'm sorry...I know that other arguments are useless. Qingyu won't believe it either. I'm sorry for him...I'm sorry from the beginning."

"The funny thing is that I didn't know until the end...I understood." Lu Yizhuo covered his face, and his voice was broken: "It was his birthday that day, and he clearly told me to go home early. I'm the bastard... I saw Lin It’s true that the text message is obsessed... I don’t want to lose him, but I can’t let go of He Qingyu, I kept thinking about it in the office that night, I kept thinking about it.”

"I can't be sorry to He Qingyu...I really can't bear his tenderness. I just want to go and see Lin Zhen, as a friend."

"I bought a cake for Qing Yu on the way...I thought he would be happy when he got home...but I'm just an asshole." Lu Yizhuo said this intermittently, and began to cry uncontrollably again.

Wei Xianzhong felt a little helpless when he heard it. To be honest, he had heard Lu Yizhuo say these words no less than twenty times in the past two years.

Every time he started to cry in the middle of speaking... Wei Xianzhong couldn't understand, what about it?People have been dead for such a long time, so what?

"I didn't know that it was Lin Zhen's intention. He was as stupid as me. I still loved him at that time, and I couldn't stand the temptation...I didn't expect He Qingyu to follow me to see it."

"Those words... are all false... How could I not love He Qingyu... How could I not have put him in my heart... I can't let him go..."

When He Qingyu heard this, he was actually touched, and his body shook slightly.But the face is still silent.

Lu Yizhuo didn't care about anyone, and continued: "Later I went to look for him... I searched all over the street, I was afraid that something would happen to him outside alone... and I was afraid that he would misunderstand. I knew I was wrong. ..”

"I've been on the overpass...I've been there...but he had left by then...I went back to look for it."

"I didn't expect that he would die later..." Lu Yizhuo was such a big man, and now his face was full of tears.Wei Xianzhong couldn't stand it anymore, he patted Lu Yizhuo's hand: "Yizhuo...it's all over. I want to open up."

Lu Yizhuo didn't answer, and continued to talk: "It was only later that I realized that I missed him... I missed it. Obviously if I stopped for a while, I might meet him again... But I missed it. He left me forever and ever."

"I took his mobile phone later and heard the news of his mother's death. I thought... how sad he must be. He was so good to his mother. Apart from staying at home and cooking for me every day, he just went to Seeing his mother in the hospital. Hehe...so you want to commit suicide?"

"I killed him..." Lu Yizhuo seemed to be talking to himself: "Isn't it I who killed him... If I can strengthen my heart that day and go home with him, he won't be alone People face these..."

"I'm so fucking inhuman..."

"He seemed to be on the edge of a cliff, and I pushed him off with one hand. Let him be doomed. I forced him to death. Let him die alone on a winter night. He must have been very cold at that time."

When He Qingyu heard this, tears welled up from the corners of his eyes. He was startled, raised his palm, and wiped the corners of his eyes fiercely.

Then he changed into that cool look again.

"That's why I deserve such pain every day." He raised his head and smiled wryly. After a while, he picked up the beer can on the table and poured it down his throat.

"I always thought he was dirty, but I'm actually the dirtiest..." He leaned his head on the back of the sofa, and said the last sentence in a low voice.

A short break.

He Qingyu immediately glanced at Wei Xianzhong on the side: "Are you finished? I can go now, and it's not a disgrace to you."

Wei Xianzhong followed He Qingyu out of the box.There was a helpless smile on his face: "I'm sorry. Maybe Yizhuo thinks that you are similar to He Qingyu, so he thinks of him when he sees you. He has not been in a good state of mind recently. Thank you today .”

He Qingyu suppressed the fluctuation in his heart, and replied: "Not everyone is obliged to appease your friend's mood. I suggest you take him to see a psychiatrist, so as not to develop into some kind of disease in time."

"What's more, I'm not like anyone else, I'm just myself. Please stop doing such abrupt things for this reason, or I'll call the police."

Wei Xianzhong was taken aback when he heard this, but he didn't expect that this man looked quite small, but he was quite imposing.To be honest, it really doesn't look like He Qingyu at all.

He is much tougher than He Qingyu.I don't know what Lu Yizhuo thinks, how does this person look like He Qingyu?

Yizhuo must have hallucinated from crying.

Wei Xianzhong had to laugh dryly twice, sent this Ayu away and returned to the box.

In the box, Lu Yizhuo was still half dead.Wei Xianzhong couldn't bear it, but to be honest, he really wanted to call him what he deserved.

If it weren't for such a good friend...he would have really said that.

Unexpectedly, just as he was about to lower his head to clean up the table, the door of the box opened suddenly.A Yu, who had just left, came in again, "I left something behind, come back and get it."

He Qingyu was just groping on the sofa, and seemed to have touched his watch.Unexpectedly, at this moment, Lu Yizhuo, who was sleeping, suddenly sat up and hugged He Qingyu's waist suddenly.

"I know you're not He Qingyu...I know...I just want to hug someone, just feel the body temperature...don't push me away..." His tone was crying.Looks like he was really drunk.

He Qingyu immediately pushed him away.He couldn't bear it anymore.

A series of cold words jumped out. "Oh, judging from what you said just now, you should have treated He Qingyu very badly before he was alive. Now that people have been dead for so long, what's the use of being affectionate. Sorry, I just hate people like you If you want to feel the body temperature, find someone else, it’s not in front of you.” He gestured to Wei Xianzhong in front of him: “Please don’t look for me again, thank you.”

After speaking, he strode out of the box, not even bothering to look for the watch.

As soon as he went out, he saw Yang Guiwen anxiously wandering around in the corridor.He hurried over, and Yang Guiwen saw him and immediately hugged him: "Where have you been? Why haven't you returned for so long, I was so scared that I came out to look for you."

He Qingyu smiled, and kissed Yang Guiwen's lips: "I'm sorry. I had something to do just now. I met an acquaintance, and I wasted time. Let's go back."

As for Wei Xianzhong, the air pressure in the box dropped to zero after A Yu left.Wei Xianzhong was also really speechless, and persuaded Lu Yizhuo, "Don't worry about this matter anymore, live a good life, Yizhuo. I'm really worried about you. This is the first time you've been stuck in something since you were a child and you can't get out. "

Lu Yizhuo ignored him, his mind was full of what A Yu said just before he left.After a while, he held his head, smiled self-deprecatingly, and said to himself: "I deserve it right? I know, you all think I did it myself... I deserve it."

"I'm finished...I can't get out for the rest of my life..."

The author has something to say: I also said that I didn't have a list and yet my favorites went up. It turns out that I was on the current rebirth list.I feel like I cheated the readers who bookmarked for "Rebirth" qaq

In fact, I was shocked when I first saw it.When I opened it, I found that it seemed to be a natural list.