Impossible Stand-in for Rebirth

He Qingyu fastened Lu Yizhuo's tie and tied a knot neatly.

Lu Yizhuo leaned over and planted a kiss on his cheek.

He Qingyu also kissed him back.The thing I wanted to say in my heart had already reached my lips, but I was too embarrassed to say it.

Today is his birthday, he wants to tell Lu Yizhuo to come home early and spend a simple birthday with him.

Lu Yizhuo looked at him hesitant to speak, and asked with a chuckle, "Speak up if you have something to say. Don't hesitate."

He Qingyu thought for a while, then shook his head.Lu Yizhuo stared into his eyes again, and replied with a smile: "Okay, then I'm going to work."

He went to the shoe cabinet to change into his leather shoes, opened the door, and had already reached the elevator.He Qingyu chased after him at this time: "That...I want to say..."

"Today is my birthday...can you come back earlier in the evening to spend it with me?"

Lu Yizhuo's eyes lit up: "Today is your birthday?"

He Qingyu said "Yes".Lu Yizhuo made an "OK" gesture, and looked at He Qingyu with a smile: "I leave work early, and I'll be back at five o'clock."

He Qingyu smiled back at him: "Thank you. Slow down on the road."

He Qingyu went out to buy vegetables in the morning, and started cooking at three o'clock in the afternoon.In the end, the dishes were filled with a table, which looked very rich.He Qingyu sat on the chair and began to wait. The clock on the wall turned twice, and it was already 07:30.

He Qingyu couldn't sit still anymore, he took out his mobile phone and wanted to call Lu Yizhuo.And worried about what important things he has now.

After hesitating for a while, he pressed the phone.

The "beep" phone ringing lasted for a long time, and no one answered it.He Qingyu had no choice but to hang up the phone.

At first, I thought to wait a little longer, but it turned out that it was nine o'clock, and Lu Yizhuo still didn't come back.

He felt a little uneasy, and his heart was beating rapidly.He Qingyu finally stood up, put on his coat and went out.

He thought about going to Yichang to find Lu Yizhuo himself.Otherwise, this is the point... I should go home normally.Could something be wrong?He Qingyu was thinking wildly.

As a result, I took a taxi halfway, passing by the Dingxin hospital where my mother was hospitalized.He Qingyu asked the driver to stop first.

He hadn't had time to see the fucking situation today.

Since returning from France, He Qingyu's fucking condition has started to deteriorate.He Qingyu asked the doctor anxiously: "Why has my mother's condition worsened instead of improving after more than a year of treatment according to the hospital's plan?"

The doctor answered him: "I told you when your mother sent her here more than a year ago... Your mother is suffering from advanced uremia, and the best way is to get a kidney transplant, but this suitable pair is not So wait. So the only way to sustain life is long-term dialysis and daily physical conditioning.”

"However, there are many complications and side effects of dialysis, especially for the heart system. Your mother also has a mild cardiovascular disease, so her physical condition is getting worse and worse."

As early as when his mother was just hospitalized, He Qingyu said that he could undergo surgery to transfer his kidney to his mother.As a result, after a professional determination at that time, his kidney did not meet the requirements for transplantation, and it might cause fucking rejection.

He Qingyu was a little scared when he heard the doctor's words.But there is no other way.It is simply not feasible without dialysis.

Now he entered the gate of the hospital and took the elevator up to the fifth floor.After entering the fucking ward, He Qingyu found his mother lying on her side with her face covered, as if she was sobbing.

His heart sank, he walked over to support his mother's body and said, "Mom...Mom, what's wrong with you?"

When his mother heard He Qingyu's voice, she still didn't move her hand covering her face.It's just that there is still an inexplicable sob in the mouth.

He Qingyu pressed his ear anxiously, and heard his mother whispering: "Living like this...too tired."

"Mom... what are you talking about?" He squatted down, staring at the fucking face.

He Qingyu's mother finally moved her hand away, but she was already in tears.

"Qingyu...Mom is in too much pain...Mom can't hold it anymore." His mother sobbed and hugged He Qingyu.He Qingyu burst into tears in an instant, and he stroked his mother's back: "Mom, I know it's hard for you to undergo dialysis, I know it all. But you have to hold on, even if it's for me, for my dad. Having said that, a suitable kidney source will come right away, and a kidney replacement will be all right. You have to hold on..."

As soon as He Qingyu finished speaking, his mother began to retch, and turned her face to the bed.He Qingyu immediately went to get the spittoon from one side and put it under his mother's nose.His mother vomited all kinds of meat and eight vegetables, and after it was over, he fell on the bed as if he lost his strength.He Qingyu cried and hugged his fucking upper body: "Mom... believe me, it will get better."

"Sometimes I think, living like this...it's better to be euthanized now. Death sooner or later is death, Qingyu, don't you think so?"

"Mom really doesn't want to live in such a miserable life..."

He Qingyu was shocked.This was the first time his mother had said such words to him since he was hospitalized.Only then did He Qingyu realize that his mother no longer had any desire to survive, and was tortured by the side effects of chemotherapy and dialysis.

But he couldn't say a word. After He Qingyu heard his mother's words, he became unclear in his heart, whether to continue suffering in pain or euthanasia now, which is the best choice for his mother.

When He Qingyu came out of the hospital again, an hour had passed.Just now the taxi he ordered to wait here had already left, and He Qingyu stopped another one.

He called Lu Yizhuo again in the car, but he still didn't answer.He Qingyu felt even more uneasy.

The taxi stopped at the gate of Yichang Building, and he hurriedly paid the driver.After getting off the bus, I stood under the tree on this side of the street, and caught a glimpse of a man walking out of the door of Yichang Building.

He Qingyu took a closer look, and found that the man was Lu Yizhuo.

It turned out that he was still busy with business in the company... But why didn't he answer his phone?

Just as He Qingyu was about to walk over, he saw Lu Yizhuo standing there, took out his cell phone from his pocket, and pressed it a few times.

Then He Qingyu's mobile phone suddenly rang a text message prompt, and He Qingyu knew that Lu Yizhuo was sending a text message to himself.He turned on his phone and looked at it—"Unfortunately, I have important documents to deal with this afternoon, and I'm too busy with the speech at the meeting tomorrow morning... I may have to go home after eleven o'clock. I'm sorry Qingyu. Happy birthday."

He Qingyu was a little puzzled. He had already left the company, and he could go home now.Why did you still send a text message saying that you won't be home until after eleven o'clock?

He Qingyu was still puzzled, but Lu Yizhuo, who was in sight, had already started walking towards the distance.

He didn't drive today, but walked instead... He Qingyu hurriedly followed, and didn't even have time to reply a text message.

He followed Lu Yizhuo and walked down two streets.The direction Lu Yizhuo went was not the apartment where the two lived together, which made He Qingyu even more uneasy.

On the way, he saw Lu Yizhuo turning into a cake shop. After 10 minutes, he came out with a box of cakes in his hand. He Qingyu looked behind him with a smile on his lips.

He probably has something to do now... he will go home after finishing.He Qingyu thought.

At four o'clock in the afternoon, Lu Yizhuo had already handed over the work at hand to secretary Xiao Song, and was about to pack his briefcase and leave work.Suddenly someone called the phone, Lu Yizhuo opened it, and saw that the caller was actually "Lin Zhen", his hand holding the phone began to tremble slightly, and he had already walked to the door of the office, but turned back.Standing in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows, he connected the phone.

Lin Zhen's voice sounded hoarse, and as soon as he connected, he said to Lu Yizhuo, "Yizhuo, how are you recently?"

Lin Zhen seldom called Lu Yizhuo "Yizhuo", most of them did not use any title.After hearing his words, Lu Yizhuo opened his mouth, and it took him a long time to reply: "Lin Zhen...do you have a cold?"

Then the two exchanged a few words.Lin Zhen said that he hoped that Lu Yizhuo could come to him at ten o'clock tonight, and the location was one of the villas in the area not far from Yichang.

Lin Zhen said that it was a house owned by Lin's father, and he lived temporarily recently.

He also gently mentioned the possibility of "starting over" with Lu Yizhuo, and Lu Yizhuo felt his heart skip a beat when he heard that.

Lin Zhen's words seemed to have a huge allure, attracting Lu Yizhuo who had no self-control.

Maybe...is it really possible to "start over"?If Lin Zhen could really make some changes, why couldn't it be possible between them?

Lin Zhen has already hung up.Lu Yizhuo was still pinching the phone, his hands were filled with sweat for a moment.

He sat back on the chair, thinking over and over whether he should go to Lin Zhen for an appointment.If you miss it... I'm afraid there will be no possibility between them.

But what about He Qingyu's birthday... He has already promised to go back early.And the hard-won reunion with He Qingyu.

Lu Yizhuo sank into the executive chair, thinking hard.During this period, his cell phone rang many times. He saw that it was He Qingyu's call, so he simply ignored it.Until eight o'clock in the evening, most of the company's employees had gone home from get off work, and it was pitch black outside the office building on this floor.

No matter... He finally decided that he must go to see Lin Zhen tonight.Just like a meeting between friends.It's not a betrayal of He Qingyu.

Sitting like this until ten o'clock, he finally packed up and went downstairs.

When he arrived at the gate of Yichang, Lu Yizhuo sent a text message to He Qingyu as he had planned before.Because the place where Lin Zhen made an appointment was not too far from Yichang Building, he didn't plan to drive.

Instead, walk.Walking in the middle, in order to strengthen his mind, he even went to the cake shop to buy a piece of cake.After seeing Lin Zhen in a while, I will leave, and I will never stop.

Lu Yizhuo thought.

He Qingyu watched him turn into a garden again, and he followed suit.Looking around, I realized that it was a group of villas.

Fortunately, the security guard at the door was not too strict, so he followed Lu Yizhuo in with a distance.

After walking in for a while, I lost track of it for a while.He Qingyu looked around, but couldn't find which path Lu Yizhuo went to.I had to walk around subconsciously.

He Qingyu turned into a small road, and in front of him was a piece of clean swimming pool water.He thought to himself, this is really a place that only rich people can afford to live in.I haven't seen it before, but now I see it, I will take a few more glances.

He squatted halfway to get close to the pool of water, stretched his hand in and dipped into the water, feeling slightly cool.I'm afraid this swimming pool will automatically enter warm water, otherwise, in this weather... the water in the pool should have been frozen.

He Qingyu straightened up, thinking that he should go home first...otherwise he would have lost Lu Yizhuo by now, so what's the point of staying here.

But she didn't expect that when she turned around and raised her head inadvertently, she saw a floor-to-ceiling window above it, and on the recliner in front of the window, there were two men clinging to each other, eagerly asking each other for kisses.The body is almost completely naked.

He Qingyu blushed, and hurriedly rolled his eyes away.But for a moment, he felt that something was wrong, the face of the person pressing on the other man was too familiar.

He raised his head and glanced again...the circles of his eyes suddenly turned red.

It's Lu Yizhuo...it's Lu Yizhuo...

It's really him.

The man who was pressed down turned his face away.He Qingyu recognized that it was Lin Zhen.

For a moment, he felt as if he was hit by a thunderbolt from the blue sky, and he couldn't support himself and took a few steps back.

The phone rang twice, and He Qingyu pressed it in a daze.It's a voice message.

Lu Yizhuo's voice came out - "My heart for you has never changed... Lin Zhen. That He Qingyu is nothing at all, I never took it to heart."

It's all lies... It's all lies... He Qingyu feels that he can't move.How is it possible...how is it possible...he said that he would celebrate his own birthday this morning.How could it be fake...

He shouldn't have believed him in the first place...Lu Yizhuo just used him as a stand-in, always had.It's ridiculous that he still believes in the last time.

Tears flowed all over his face in an instant, and He Qingyu wiped it vigorously, but he couldn't wipe it off.He hurriedly turned around to leave, but accidentally bumped into a pot of flowers and plants by the swimming pool.

He Qingyu staggered for a moment, then quickened his pace, almost running away from here.

He Qingyu didn't know how long he ran, but he felt that he slowly ran out of the garden, and then the villas.

He ran to the side of the street and squatted next to a tree. He knew he shouldn't cry. The tears shed had no value, they were just a symbol of the weak.

It's just that he can't control it at all.

The cold wind in the air rushed into the clothes in an instant, He Qingyu shrank and wrapped his arms around his upper body, trying to gather some warmth.

The phone in his hand started ringing again.It sounded extremely harsh to his ears, so he ignored it.

However, the bell rang persistently.He Qingyu answered the phone with dull eyes, then moved to his ear.

Before I could even say "Hello", the doctor's anxious voice came from over there: "Mr. He, your mother probably won't make it through tonight... The situation is very serious, come to the hospital quickly!"

There was also his father's voice, a low crying sound.

He Qingyu's phone fell to the ground with a "slap". He bent down and tried hard to pick it up, but his hands kept shaking and he couldn't pick it up.

Only then did He Qingyu feel that his body was shaking all the time, the kind of trembling that couldn't stop at all.He fell to the ground unbearably, and finally grabbed the mobile phone lying on the ground.

At this time, his father's loud cry came from the phone: "Doctor! She's out of breath! My wife's out of breath! Please save her! Please..."

He Qingyu covered his face, and at first he was choked up and sobbing silently, but later it turned into a big cry without any scruples.

While weeping, a morbid smile appeared on his mouth: "My mother is dead...she is dead."

He threw his head back and his body lay on the ground.The concrete floor was very cold, and it seeped into his body.

He quickly curled up and curled up into a ball.But it's still cold... cold all over.

It was too cold, even the tears that fell on his lips were equally cold.

He hugged his body, only feeling despair sweeping his body.The pain rushed to my head one after another.

He Qingyu thought about ending...let's end.He wants to end, he is too painful and desperate now, tears are still flowing down, but he doesn't care at all.

He walked up to the overpass in a daze, and underneath was a night scene that was still bustling after nightfall.

He Qingyu's legs had already stretched out halfway, but they came back again.Suicide by jumping off a bridge like this will hurt, and the whole body will hurt. He Qingyu is terribly afraid of the pain.And the extreme fear of falling.

He lay down again, lying on the overpass and listening to the gurgling wind blowing past.

He Qingyu's grief is still growing infinitely.He covered his face, wet and hot tears kept streaming down.The pain in his heart made him roll a few times, but it still didn't ease in the slightest.

The fuck is dead...how the hell is it going to die?Obviously, I have insisted on treatment for more than a year, and the situation should get better...Why did I die so suddenly?So what's the point of him going out to sell...Does he deserve it for being looked down upon by Lu Yizhuo?

It's all a joke.Hastily opened and ended alone.

What's the point of him being so dirty now...

He's already given everything... how the hell is he still going to die.

Why on the night of his birthday...

He Qingyu felt cold all over, he covered his face tightly and cried bitterly.

He has nowhere to go... Lu Yizhuo's words are all false, and he still regards himself as a substitute.He can't go back to his apartment...fucking dead again.He really didn't want to go to the hospital now, seeing the fucking corpse, he was afraid he would go crazy.

He couldn't take it anymore...Endless despair was constantly surrounding He Qingyu.

He felt like he was on an isolated island, and he was only one step away from falling into a situation where he would never be able to recover.There is no one around him who can save him, he is alone and entangled in endless pain.

He Qingyu knew that he had nothing left.Dirty bodies... broken feelings... dead relatives.

He has nothing left.

There is no point in living anymore.He Qingyu just wants to die, he wants to end this hopelessness.

He stood up with difficulty, and walked down the stairs leading down from the overpass.Walk along the side of the street until you see a pharmacy that is still open with its lights on.

He Qingyu wiped away the tears on his face vigorously, and held back the tears again.He patted his face again, trying to look as normal as possible.

After walking in, there was only a half-squinting female salesperson inside, and He Qingyu said that he wanted to buy two bottles of sleeping pills.

The female salesperson also looked young, and said: "When buying sleeping pills in pharmacies, you need to show the doctor's prescription and diagnosis, otherwise they won't sell them."

He Qingyu forced himself to smile slightly: "I just went to the doctor the day before yesterday, and the diagnosis he gave me was kept at home. I was in a hurry, so I forgot to take it. Can you help me?" ?”

The female salesperson waved her hand: "No... no. We have to take responsibility. You must have a prescription to get medicine."

He Qingyu laughed again: "Look, it's already one o'clock now... If I hadn't suffered from insomnia, I wouldn't have gone out to buy sleeping pills in the middle of the night. Because I live in a remote place, it's a bit inconvenient to go back and get prescriptions now. How about it...I'll come over tomorrow morning, can I bring it to you?"

The female salesperson was young and her ears were soft, and she became a little loose after hearing what he said.He Qingyu looked at her and almost agreed, and then took out his ID card from his trouser pocket.

"Look... tonight is my birthday. It's impossible for me to buy medicine and do something stupid because I just want to sleep well."

The female salesperson took a closer look, and sure enough, the date of birth shown on the ID card was today.She nodded and went to a counter to get him a bottle of sleeping pills.

"Remember to come here tomorrow with the prescription...otherwise it will be very difficult for me to do things." She finally ordered.

"Don't worry." He Qingyu thanked, turned around holding the medicine bottle, and his eyes changed back to the previous hollow and soulless.

He strode out, tears streaming down his face again.He Qingyu didn't know where he could go, so he went back to the foot of the previous overpass, and sat down by the bottom flight of stairs.

He unscrewed the medicine bottle, poured it full, and swallowed it down his throat without hesitation.It is difficult to swallow without water, and it is extremely difficult for He Qingyu to swallow.

He was also afraid that this amount of medicine would not be enough to kill him, so he poured out two more handfuls and swallowed them all.

He Qingyu lay down, and the last scene he saw was the vehicles driving on the overpass and the dark sky in the distance.

He closed his eyes, and the last line of tears fell down.It crossed the sideways face and seeped into the ground.

The author has something to say: It's not that I'm about to torture Xiao Shou to death, but I have already tortured him to death. .puff

Finally survived until rebirth, the era of being aggrieved is completely over Smecta_(:_」∠)_

You are rough and bubbling (*>.<*)