fall in love with your soul

It took me a while to realize that I was in the water now, and the icy cold water pierced into my flesh and blood, and my body stiffened for a while.

I know it's because I'm not used to it yet. Even though it's summer, I still can't stand being in the ice water at first.

Fortunately, I often follow Suhang, and I am slightly immune to this biting chill, so I can hold on to the car floating up in the rushing river.

It's a pity that the good times didn't last long. The car began to sink slowly because it was filled with water, and finally all sank.

I can't swim, and I don't have anything to hold on to, so I suddenly fell into a crisis. The pervasive water almost swallowed me several times, and I could only try to breathe deeply under the threat of death.

Although I can't swim, I know that I have to use my hands and feet to move forward. Over time, I even got a little trick, at least I won't be drowned directly.

But the current is too fast, even if I can guarantee that I will not be drowned, I cannot guarantee to swim against the current.

After all, I am a novice, not to mention grasping the direction, it is difficult to swim up to catch my breath, and the longer the time drags on, the weaker I become, my arms and legs are sore, I don't even know how long I can last.

Floating up with difficulty to take a breath, a stream of water came and washed me down again. After a while, I floated up again, trying to swim towards the side with my hands and feet. As long as I can grab the railing or the edge of the ground, I can climb up .

It's a pity that the strong current of water is pressing on my body, like a mountain pressing on my back.It made it hard for me to breathe, and I felt that the flow speed was getting faster and faster, two or three times higher than before, this is not right!

boom!I watched a piece of rotten wood disappear from my eyes, and then made the sound of a huge weight falling into the water. I finally understood why the water flow was getting faster and faster, because it reached the dam.

This dam is similar to a cliff waterfall, but it is dozens of times smaller than the real cliff waterfall, but this is not something I can handle.

Although I tried my best to swim upstream, I still couldn't resist the power of the current.

boom!I fell into the water below like that rotten wood. My weight made me sink continuously. The lower I went, the greater the water pressure. Falling down made me dizzy and weak.

The air in his mouth ran out uncontrollably, spitting out small bubbles in the deep water.

I thought I was going to die, and I even felt the call of the god of death. It is said that people will remember the past memories before they die, and they did not lie to me. I really saw the past memories.

When I was eight years old, my mother took care of me from dawn to dusk. She had to go to work, and she couldn’t eat hot meals when she came back. My grandparents didn’t like her very much. They let her do the work in the field every time. As her only son, grandparents’ only grandson , I was treated much better than her, but I was so ignorant when I was a child that I thought she was not worthy of being my mother.

When I was young, people took what others said for what they said. Grandpa and grandma always said that she was not filial, that she was not worthy of being my mother, and that she couldn't control my husband and let him cheat, have an affair, and be adopted.

It was a gloomy night, my mother was sitting on the edge of the bed, tucking me in, she took out the clothes on the table and folded them one by one, "This is a sweater for your tenth birthday, and this is for your 20th birthday." Yes, this one is 30 years old, this one is 40 years old... this one..." She was already in tears as she spoke, but she pretended to be calm, turned her head to wipe away her tears, and turned her head again, her face had returned to normal, " Mom can't accompany you anymore, you have to take care of yourself, your dead dad is back, and he wants to take you away, and when you leave, I will leave too, if possible, I will never come back again, just be You don't have a mother like me, and I don't have a son like you."

She said she was determined, and since then she has been depraved, not cooking, not working, not going to the fields, and locking herself in the hut and not coming out.

Grandparents watch her door and scold her at the door every day, but she just won't come out.

Grandpa and grandma had no choice but to cook and work by themselves. They had no financial resources, so they had to borrow money from everywhere. In the end, others refused to lend them. They couldn't borrow money and had no expenses. Their temper became worse and worse, and they often took it out on me. .

As a child, I couldn't resist and could only cry desperately. My mother would feel distressed and ran out to buy me delicious food when she heard it.

Although my mother has no money, she never beats me, and she will give me something delicious to eat first. It was only then that I realized that my mother has always been the pillar of the family, but I was too young and was always beaten by my grandpa. Grandma's words blinded.

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