Sick roommate observation notes

Arian didn't realize what earth-shattering words came out of his mouth.

"What is good and what is evil?" Without waiting for Shen Lu to express his opinion, he then said slowly, "I have been thinking about this question since I was a child, but I have never thought about the final result, so I entered the seminary after graduating from middle school , I wanted to find the answer to the question I was looking for from theology, but I didn't expect that the result I found in the end told me that I was 'evil'."

"Tianmu said that kindness is kindness, kindness is tolerance, and kindness is restraint... But my heart is completely different from her teachings. There is an evil ghost hidden in it, and it always wants to break out of its shell."

When did you realize that you were different from ordinary people?

Arian thought, it probably started when the puppy was raising a dog at home in primary school. When the puppy accidentally fell to the building and died, all relatives cried heart-rendingly because of the loss of an important family member, only he was indifferent. Looking at the broken and bloody corpse of the puppy, no matter what, he couldn't squeeze out any tears, and even secretly felt an indescribable pleasure in his heart.

He felt that all this was not normal, but he was afraid of seeing the strange eyes of his family members, so he refrained from saying all this, and what followed was an increasingly intense sense of pleasure when seeing other creatures die...

"I have had the instinct to destroy for a long time, but I was afraid that letting myself go would make things irreparable, so I restrained myself with all my strength," Arian's eyes showed a trace of heavy confusion. At this moment, the symptoms of his inability to control his body seemed to have become more serious. Shen Lu could see that his arms hanging by his sides were also trembling, "I thought becoming an envoy of God would purify the sins in my heart." , I thought that as long as I worked hard to become the beautiful appearance in everyone's minds, then I could really become that kind of person... But no, only I know that under the sacred appearance I pretended to be, there is a What a terrible soul."

After being shocked for a moment, Shen Lu quickly realized that if what Arian said was true, then he felt that this person was kind in nature, because the other party was aware of his abnormality and worked hard to correct it with his own power , but unfortunately, the sadistic desire in the other party's heart does not seem to belong to a social pathology, but a genetic pathology that can only be suppressed by drugs.

Shen Lu swallowed hard, and his tone was a little low: "How strong is the desire to destroy in your heart now?"

Hearing that Arian fell silent, he breathed quietly like this for a while, and then said in a calm tone after his arms were not shaking so much: "I want to smash the water glass in my hand and stab you hard with glass shards. To touch the blood oozing from your shattered skin, to hear your fragile groans that cannot be suppressed by the pain... I think, this makes me happy."

Shen Lu: "..."

Arian smiled apologetically, noticing that the person in front of him seemed to be facing a formidable enemy: "Is it because I can't see that I have such thoughts at all?"

Shen Lu was indeed terrified for a moment, but after that, his heart quickly calmed down.

It takes a lot of courage for a person to dissect his heart to another person. No matter where this courage comes from, he should not trample on this sincerity with fearful eyes: "Why did you tell me These?"

"Recently, the sinful impulse in my heart has become stronger and stronger, and I don't know how long I can control myself, and you are a policeman, so I am thinking, if one day I really lose control, maybe you can do it Control me," the blond man has restrained his smile, and his tone is full of expectations, "Besides, there is an aura about you that makes me feel very stable. I can't explain what it feels like. Maybe it's People often say it’s God’s will in the dark.”

Shen Lu didn't understand what the man was referring to as a stable breath. In his opinion, many religious believers tended to talk like men.

"If I don't meet you today, are you planning to go to the police station for help?"

"We're already sitting here, so that possibility doesn't exist," Arian replied seriously, "but if you have to make such an assumption, then yes."

Shen Lu pursed his lips, and said helplessly: "Do you regard the police as gods? If something really happened, how could they arrive in time to control you? You should go to Seek help from the hospital, only a doctor can prescribe the right medicine and help you control your sadistic desires with gentler means."

Maybe the hospital's practice of sedating and prescribing psychotropic drugs is not very gentle, but at least it is much gentler than the physical control that law enforcement agencies can do.

But Arian was very repulsive about going to the hospital. With a bitter face, he showed an expression of panic for the first time when he met Shen Lu: "I don't want to go, I'm afraid...afraid that I will be treated as Being a mental patient separates you from the world."

Shen Lu was almost speechless and grabbed the ground with his head.

But you obviously have mental problems!elder brother!

He wiped his face hard in his heart, but after all, he still didn't let the other party's irrational willfulness, and patiently persuaded him: "If you don't go to the hospital, you won't be able to alleviate your problem. If the situation is too serious, maybe Before others can control you, you can't help but hurt the people around you, so you will really be distinguished from ordinary people by society."

But he also understood not to push people too hard for a while, paused, and then softened his tone: "Whether you go to the hospital or not, I will help you on the basis of my ability, but I still suggest you Go to the hospital for a mental evaluation as soon as possible, if you are afraid, then make a mental preparation before going, do you think this is good?"

After all, Arian was finally appeased for the time being, Shen Lu was finally able to get up and leave, and was escorted by the other party who seemed to be somewhat attached to leave the Tianmu Courtyard.

God knows how confused Shen Lu is now, he couldn't help but look back at the religious building hidden in the night, as if he could see the blond man inside through the barriers.

Is Arian kind?Shen Lu thought, who can say that such a gentle and polite man who advocates being kind to others and takes good care of several orphans is not kind?

Is he dangerous?The answer is yes, once the other party puts the bloody desire in his heart into action, how many innocent people in this society will be hurt.

Evil but kind, impulsive but restrained, these contradictory characteristics co-exist in Arian, causing Shen Lu to die for a while, because he hates the cruelty of fate to kind people, and also hates himself being helpless against these inborn brain diseases.

While meditating, a strange and familiar voice suddenly sounded not far away: "Hey, melancholy young man, have you finally come out of it?"

Shen Lu quickly turned his head to look for the source of the sound. After a few seconds, his eyes fixed on a curly-haired man in a black T-shirt under a street lamp. He identified it carefully. It was the one who disappeared inexplicably after he was pulled up by Arian. man.

Shen Lu's eyes couldn't help being a little cold, this man obviously waited here for a long time on purpose, he had to be vigilant to think that the other party was following him: "Why are you here?"

While questioning, he couldn't help but reflect in his heart, why is he always surrounded by some weird people outside of work? !

"Of course I'm afraid that you will be swallowed by that golden-haired envoy. You don't know, that guy's brain is not normal,"

The man approached Shen Lu while talking, when the distance between the two was only two steps away, Shen Lu could even see the crooked yellow teeth in the man's grinning mouth.

He frowned uncomfortably, looked away from the man's mouth, and turned to look at the man's emerald green eyes: "Why is his mind abnormal?"

"You don't even look at it. Is there anyone on our side who doesn't know that this envoy is mentally ill, and the way he looks at me today is the same, tsk tsk, it's too scary, otherwise why do you think I want to run away?" The man stretched out his hand wanting He patted Shen Lu on the shoulder, but Shen Lu nimbly dodged it sideways, "I don't know how you dare to just follow him like that? I don't even dare!"

The man's laughter sounded extremely ear-piercing to Shen Lu, he frowned and took a step back: "You're talking too much, he obviously doesn't want to do anything."

"I didn't expect you to be not only a melancholy young man, but also so naive." The man didn't seem to notice Shen Lu's deliberate alienation, he fished in his pocket again, and handed a cigarette to the young man, "Smoking, did you smoke before?" You rejected me once, why don't you reject me this time?"

Shen Lu frowned even deeper, he had an extremely bad sense of this person now, and even felt that the other's courteous behavior had other motives.

"Hey, don't stare at me like that," the man said with an ambiguous expression, and this expression combined with his greasy face made people feel a little disgusted, "You don't even know how much you look like this cute."

Shen Lu: "..."

He glanced at it out of the corner of his eye, and realized that he was about to retreat into the corner of the alley just like that.

At this moment, a familiar figure suddenly appeared in Shen Lu's line of sight. It was his black-haired and blue-eyed roommate standing behind the greasy man, and said softly, "If I were you, I wouldn't think about it." Take one step closer to him."

The body of the curly-haired man froze immediately. He stood still and didn't dare to move any more. There seemed to be a glint of light in his eyes staring at Shen Lu: "So there is such a role beside you, melancholy young man."

The two people in front of him were also black-haired men with country C looks, one of them was ordinary and wretched, while the other was heroic, which greatly healed Shen Lu's eyes and soul that had been tortured just now.

The only problem was that he took a step forward to take a closer look, and found that what was pressed against the back of the greasy man was a small pistol/gun held by his roommate in his right hand.

Shen Lu: "..."

He couldn't help but want to raise his head to the sky and shout, he really had a very colorful life tonight, didn't he? !

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The author has something to say:

The breath that Arian feels comes from the legendary perverted attractive physique√

-Indecent Little Theater-

Shen Lu: Arian+greasy man+Uncle Qin, the probability of meeting a pervert today is probably enough for me to win 1000 million in the lottery? ? ? ? ?

Lightbulb: It might be the smell of pheromones on you that attracts them (serious

Qin Qiu: (but laughing silently