bad derailment

In this regard, I can only pretend to be deaf and dumb with a smile to cover up the past.

Once I lied, I have to make up for it with countless lies. I finally realized the meaning of this sentence firsthand.

Sitting in the co-pilot tiredly, I clearly felt that I had done nothing, but I was too tired to say a word.Turning his head to look at the flashing street scene outside the window, he couldn't see anything clearly under the rendering of the night.

Perhaps the atmosphere was too quiet, Jiang Qiushi broke the silence after a while: "That friend of yours doesn't seem to be in a good mood."

"Which one are you talking about?"

"Chen Feng."

I paused for a few seconds, and laughed a little self-deprecatingly, "If he was in a good mood, he wouldn't go to drink so much."

Jiang Qiushi looked at me slightly, his deep eyes flicked across my face, "Did you quarrel?"

My throat suddenly tightened.

"Me and him?...It doesn't count, why do you ask?"

Jiang Qiushi's answer was as simple and calm as ever: "I saw you arguing at the gate of the different degrees, but it was too far away to hear clearly, it was just my guess."

His voice was natural, and he didn't seem to notice the intimate actions between me and Chen Feng.

I breathed a sigh of relief and unconsciously softened my tone, "That's not a contradiction, it's just that he accidentally vomited in the taxi, and I went to pay him. He was so drunk just now that I just passed out. I can unilaterally say a few words to relieve my anger. As you can see, Chen Feng is very clingy when he is drunk, I wanted him to stop hugging me, it might look like he was arguing."

This explanation was so reasonable that even I couldn't find any mistakes, Jiang Qiushi seemed to believe it, and didn't ask any other questions for the next part of the journey.A soothing English song played in the car, still the same female voice, with a deep and charming voice.I turned my head to look at Jiang Qiushi's side face hidden in the darkness. The flashing light and shadow cast various shapes on the face, which was so beautiful that it was unreal.

I didn't want to break the rare moment of silence, but the fact is that I remembered the text message that Gu Mingsheng had sent. He saw Jiang Qiushi getting into a woman's car.A woman can represent countless identities. She can be Jiang Qiushi's family members, colleagues, friends...or a more intimate existence, such as girlfriend, wife.

yes wife.

This sudden thought dragged me into a icy vortex, and then a shock pulled me out of the dead water.

It is impossible for Jiang Qiushi to have a wife, he lives alone, and there is no trace of a ring on his hand, and he has never mentioned the topic of his own feelings - he is as clean as a piece of white paper, but maybe, I just watch to the back of the paper.

It was difficult for me to continue thinking, and I slowly tightened my hands on my knees, wanting to ask him directly, but I didn't know what capacity I should use to ask him all this.Maybe as a friend, I can ask all the questions indifferently or even in a joking tone, but from the beginning, I never thought of him as a friend who can have no worries.

I can't speak.

The car was parked downstairs in the community, and Jiang Qiushi unlocked the car door after a 'click'.I didn't move for a long time, as if I had lost the ability to get up and leave, I just looked up at him in a daze.Jiang Qiushi met my gaze. As always, he was good at penetrating people's hearts. He paused for a few seconds before asking.

"Do you have anything to say?"

I pinched the thin layer of fabric on my thigh, repeatedly tightened and loosened it.It didn't lessen the tension, but at least it distracted me a little from the nervous thoughts.

"This question...may be a bit impolite."

I spoke slowly and with difficulty.

Jiang Qiushi's eyelashes fluttered and cast a shadow, covering the emotions in his eyes, only his voice was always gentle: "It's okay, I won't be angry, just tell me."

His words can always magically soothe my restlessness, as if all problems are no longer problems.I was silent for a long time, and finally asked after taking a deep breath: "That afternoon, did you go to the aquarium with others? After you left, Nuonuo said that you might have come with your girlfriend, and I didn't say anything else. I mean, I just want to know...no, I just, just..."

just what?

care?curious?Or because of strong unwillingness and fear?What should I say?

I 'just' couldn't come out, I was so anxious that I grabbed the material in my hand tightly, almost tearing that piece out of shape, until the warm palm covered the back of my hand, the temperature from Jiang Qiushi was soft and dry, as smooth and flawless as porcelain.My voice stopped abruptly, and my whole body was concentrated on the short touch on the back of my hand. I looked up at him in a daze, and couldn't speak out.

In the narrow compartment, Jiang Qiushi looked at me, his eyes were calm, and there was a faint halo under the warm light, "I went out to play with my relative's child that day, and his mother came to pick him up after the end. Do you want to know this?"

"Yes, it's this..."

"I don't feel offended, you can ask any questions you have in the future, don't worry I will think too much," he smiled indifferently, and naturally retracted the hand covering the back of my hand, as if it was just a meaningless question. The usual behavior, "It's late, you go back."

I watched him for a long time, but I didn't quite understand how he got the answer so quickly, without the big fight I imagined, but I felt that there was an indescribable sense of disobedience everywhere.

My voice is slightly tight.

"Didn't you just... say you have something to tell me?"

Without the cover of the lens, Jiang Qiushi's eyes seemed to know for a moment.He looked at me for a long time before he said clearly, "I did have something I wanted to ask you at first, but I don't have it now."

It seemed to be saying that he had already got the answer he wanted just now.

I opened my mouth, but didn't make a sound, maybe I didn't even think about what to say.

After getting out of the car, Jiang Qiushi slowly lowered the window, the dim light inside the car put a darker and more mysterious mask on his face.He said something again, but I didn't listen to a word, I just nodded in response, until he said the last sentence.

"Your boyfriend doesn't seem to be in a good state. If there is any conflict, the two parties should sit down and have a good talk, which should solve the problem better than arguing."

I nodded unconsciously and said, "Okay..."

Suddenly, a hammer hit the head, and the temperature of the whole body flowed back from the limbs.I froze there, staring straight at Jiang Qiushi's undisturbed face, looking at him indifferently as if there was no question or anything wrong, and then I heard him say "goodbye" softly, and the car body was completely in my field of vision.

He got it.

He knows it all.

I stood where I was, my hands and feet were as cold as unconscious ice.