bad derailment

As soon as he said this, the beef roll in his mouth lost a bit of taste, and was replaced by astringent bitterness, rushing to the corners of my mouth and eyebrows.

"that's it."

"It doesn't sound like it's going well," Gu Mingsheng said slowly while drinking beer, "Do you want me to give you another trick?"

I gave him an angry look, "Come on, I was rejected by him only because I believed your nonsense."

"Refused, why?"

Gu Mingsheng asked in surprise.I glanced at him casually, wondering if I was blinded by the mist, as if I saw a faint smile on the corner of his mouth, which was so fleeting, as if it was just an illusion.

"I already said that Jiang Qiushi is a straight man, and he didn't understand my hint at all. I bet, even if I confessed to him face to face, he would take it as me thanking him for his teaching on Lin Nuo's behalf."

I picked up a piece of kelp and threw it into the bubbling hot pot. I held my chin and continued, "But this is fine, and I don't have to feel guilty."

Gu Mingsheng put the cooked chicken wings into my bowl, the smile in his eyes was slightly hazy, "Is it the guilt towards Chen Feng?"

I choked, didn't refute, and added, "I still have the guilt of flirting with a good person."

Gu Mingsheng's short laugh rang in his ears.

"How do you know that he's not doing the same thing on the surface? Maybe your Teacher Jiang has guessed your mind long ago, and he's still in trouble as to how to reject you."

"impossible."

I turned up my voice and seriously defended Jiang Qiushi: "He really doesn't understand those things, he just treats me like an ordinary student's parent, don't talk nonsense about things that have no basis."

"Okay, okay, I won't talk about him anymore," Gu Mingsheng raised his hands in surrender, and sighed softly, "I really forget my friends after seeing sex."

"Aren't you too..."

Gu Mingsheng raised his eyelids, and said slowly: "What is it?"

I was stuck, recalling Gu Mingsheng's previous girlfriends, but I couldn't find the experience of him choking me for others.I was a little guilty, so I put a piece of chicken wing into Gu Mingsheng's bowl, and signaled him to see my parting.

"The last piece is here for you."

He looked at the chicken wings amusedly, and then at me, "Are you trying to bribe me with a chicken wing?"

"If you don't eat, I will."

I stretched out my chopsticks to snatch it, but Gu Mingsheng quickly protected the bowl and laughed at Yanyan.

"Eat, of course I will eat what you put in."

The movie played slowly to the end, I had almost eaten, and was bored looking at the screen.It just happened that the male lead fell for the female lead's attack, and confessed affectionately with blood in his mouth. Accompanied by the sensational bgm, my mood suddenly became a little delicate, I lowered my head and took a sip of wine, and quietly looked away.

Gu Mingsheng also noticed the scene in front of him, he quickly pressed pause, found another movie and clicked to play, his voice was a little softer than before, "I won't watch that one, the score is not bad."

"It's okay." I didn't expect him to be more sensitive than me, and I was a little moved when I couldn't laugh or cry, "It's almost the end, you really don't want to continue watching?"

"I didn't look into it for a few minutes anyway," Gu Mingsheng smiled, then thought of something, and asked deliberately, "Have you thought about that again?"

I didn't speak, I pursed the corners of my lips tacitly.

This topic is not heavy, but it takes a lot of courage to speak every time.Gu Mingsheng put down his chopsticks, as if he had lost his appetite, and asked after a while, "Has he improved recently?"

This 'he' refers to Chen Feng.Gu Mingsheng seldom said his name directly, and over time he developed this word into a code name between us, as long as he opened his mouth, he knew who he was talking about.

"It's still the same," I smiled helplessly, with a self-deprecating tone, "I can say that he can choke three sentences, and Nuonuo, a high school student, is more sensible than him."

"You can't be anxious about this kind of thing," Gu Ming raised his lips peacefully, and his smile deepened indistinctly, "Of course he will be angry if you speak too bluntly."

"Then I won't be angry?"

I retorted almost subconsciously, unconsciously carrying some grievances of failure to suppress.

The atmosphere will always be frozen by this topic.Gu Mingsheng rubbed the back of my neck, showing a touch of comfort, "You have to give him more time, okay, let's not talk about this, have you finished eating? I will clean up the dishes after eating."

I muffled a reply, and helped him clean up the mess on the table.

Five full years have passed since that accident, but as long as someone mentions it, or just sees a similar picture, I can recall every frame of that day in an instant—the air is stuffy, and there is continuous light rain , Chen Feng blocked the dagger that stabbed in front of me, the blade was white in and red out, the screams of the crowd were just like those in the movie just now, it was a headache.He slowly fell into a pool of blood, his breath was like a silk, but he still told me not to be afraid, he was really stupid.

My body was a little cold, I forced to stop thinking about it, picked up the bowl and chopsticks and wanted to get up: "Do you want to wash the dishes tonight?"

Gu Mingsheng walked in front, "There is a dishwasher in the kitchen, just put it in."

I went over and bent down to help him arrange the plates one by one, and then I washed off the oil stains on my hands and shook them lightly.The hour hand of the clock on the wall just passed eight o'clock, neither early nor late.

Maybe it's because the last topic of tonight is a little heavy, and I'm a little bit interested.

"Then I'll go back first."

"Are you going to leave now?" Gu Mingsheng leaned forward, an inaudible fluctuation flashed across his eyes, "It's better to sleep here for one night."

I hesitated for a few seconds and shook my head, "I have to go to work tomorrow, so it's not convenient to sleep here."

"It's okay, I can drive you tomorrow morning."

"But......"

Gu Mingsheng tilted his head and smiled, his expression was gentle and innocent, it was too difficult for people to refuse, "What do you want for breakfast? I'll make it for you."

I wavered and said, "I'll think about it again."

But he acted as if he hadn't heard of it, and said in detail: "When I clean up the kitchen, I'll put bath water for you. You've eaten hot pot all over your body today. You'll remember to take a good bath later."

"......it is good."

After I reacted, I realized that I had compromised with Gu Mingsheng.

He has always been very good at handling my wavering psychology, and he is also very caring for others. I think this should be his life experience accumulated over time.Children from single-parent families are more likely to mature precociously than ordinary children. I don't know where I saw this sentence, and it fits Gu Mingsheng.

He adjusted the water temperature, hung up the brand new underwear and bathrobe, and closed the door intimately without me saying anything, "Call me if you need anything, I'm in the next room."

He took care of everything directly, leaving me with only one mouth to use, and replied 'yes'.

The water temperature in the bathtub was just right, and I let out a comfortable sigh as I let go of my exhaustion.After soaking for half an hour, I got up and changed into the clothes that Gu Mingsheng had prepared. The bathrobe was a little too big for me, and it couldn't hold my chest no matter how fastened it was, so I had to give up.Fortunately, there is heating in the house, so I won't catch a cold.

The apartment has two bedrooms and one living room. Gu Mingsheng took a shower in another room, wearing the same bathrobe and leaning against the door frame while wiping his hair.Seeing that I was about to leave, he stretched out his long legs to block the door frame, stopped and asked, "What are you doing out there?"

This question was a bit inexplicable, so I glanced at him, "Of course I'm going to the guest room to sleep."

Unexpectedly, he suddenly took a step forward, directly blocking my path, then rolled his eyes, and said in an innocent voice that I am all too familiar with: "Xiao Yao, we haven't slept together for a long time."

"...have we ever slept together?"

I asked back uncertainly, suspecting that Gu Mingsheng was slandering my innocence,

Unexpectedly, he continued leisurely: "Did you forget the night you came to my house in the second year of high school?"

As soon as he opened his mouth, it was the past ten years ago. My brain was down for a while, and I finally said oh.

It seems that there was an experience of sharing the same bed with Gu Mingsheng.

At that time, he was already working part-time secretly. I didn't understand why he was working so hard, but I didn't ask too much.Until he suddenly fell ill one day, as my best friend, I naturally carried the expectations of all the female students in the class, and came to the address given by the class teacher with a bag of snack papers on my back.Perhaps it was at the moment when I walked into the dilapidated corridor that I suddenly understood why he needed money so much.

Gu Mingsheng's mother was born and bred in Yancheng, and she was so beautiful that it was unforgettable at first glance.In that small house of more than ten square meters, she told me a lot about Gu Mingsheng.I was fascinated by it until Gu Mingsheng, who was sick and had a thick nasal voice, came out of the room and interrupted us with red ears. Maybe I can continue to learn about his kindergarten chronicle.

I didn't go home that night, and stayed to take care of Gu Mingsheng all night.

It's just that more details have long been blurred for a long time, and what I can think of now is that Gu Mingsheng's sleep was not peaceful, and he almost strangled me to death in bed when he woke up in the morning.

The memories that ruined the atmosphere made me choose not to talk about it. I just said vaguely: "I would have forgotten what happened so long ago if you didn't tell me."

Gu Mingsheng lowered the corners of his mouth and narrowed his eyes as if threatening, "If you can't remember, don't even think about walking out of this door tonight."

I have always been able to bend and stretch, and it only took three seconds to weigh the pros and cons, and then I went back to the bed, "Then I won't go."

I found the most comfortable position and buried myself in it. As soon as my body touched the soft mattress, I fell asleep.After a while, the place next to him suddenly collapsed, and a male body exuding a faint fragrance of bathing lay beside him, causing the drowsiness that had just drifted away to run away immediately.

I suddenly regretted the weak-willed compromise just now, after all, before we became friends, I was still a thoroughly gay.I quietly turned over and said to myself for the second time today that form is emptiness is form.Gu Mingsheng next to him accidentally pressed down on the hem of the nightgown, and stretched out his hand to pull it out. Following his ups and downs, the neckline of the bathrobe, which could not be closed at all, let out a burst of spring light. I closed my eyes and couldn't read any more.