bad derailment

"Then I won't disturb you."

Jiang Qiushi's voice broke the brief silence, it was still gentle, but its tone was a bit colder than before.He didn't look at me, but said to Lin Nuo: "Chinese New Year is fun, don't forget to do your homework, I will check when school starts."

Lin Nuo smiled bitterly, "Good teacher Jiang, I will definitely study hard at home and prepare for the exam."

Jiang Qiushi hummed lightly, and didn't look at me again until he turned to leave.

It never took me more than 10 minutes to walk, but in just 10 minutes, my mood went up and down like a roller coaster, climbing to a peak and falling to a trough.Even if Jiang Qiushi's figure is no longer visible, the stamina still persists.

Gu Mingsheng didn't think it was a big deal to watch the excitement, and said with a deep smile like a spring breeze: "Xiao Yao, this Mr. Jiang is indeed a modest gentleman as you said. It's just that a gentleman and an aquarium don't seem to fit well."

I was a few beats behind, and Lin Nuo had already answered first: "It's a bit strange to come to the aquarium alone, but Mr. Jiang may not come alone, maybe he came to play with his girlfriend."

"That's right." Gu Mingsheng shifted his eyes to me meaningfully, "Judging from his appearance just now, he seems to be in a hurry to leave."

I suppressed the complexities in my heart, and glanced at him, "Are you still watching? If you don't read it, leave."

"Look, of course, how can you waste the ticket money?" Gu Mingsheng answered politely, "Maybe we can meet that Teacher Jiang again, don't you think? Xiao Yao."

For the first time, I discovered that his level of yin and yang is also top-notch.

But fortunately, Gu Mingsheng's words were not effective, and Jiang Qiushi was nowhere to be seen during the second half of the sightseeing journey.I was a little absent-minded, and Lin Nuo didn't seem to be as excited as he was at the beginning. After he hurried out, it was just over an hour.

"What, I was reminded by Teacher Jiang just now, I feel that it is more practical to go home and write the papers." Lin Nuo rubbed his head, and then pulled me away as if thinking of something, "Brother, you accompany me home."

She only mentioned me, but did not call Chen Feng and Gu Mingsheng. Obviously she wanted to ask me something, and I guessed most of it from the bottom of my heart.Gu Mingsheng smiled, as if nothing could spoil his good mood, and replied, "Alright, I just went home to visit Mom, Xiaoyao, see you next time."

I smiled dryly, "See you next time."

After Gu Mingsheng left, Chen Feng stared straight at me, his black and white eyes showed a slight reluctance, "I want to go back with you."

In front of Lin Nuo, I didn't dare to easily reveal the fact that I was living with Chen Feng, so I could only look at him in embarrassment, "Next time, Nuo Nuo wants to go home to do homework, I have to send her back."

"......Um."

He seemed to have a lot to say, but it all ended in silence and a simple 'um'.Lin Nuo and I left together, we clearly walked in opposite directions, but we could still clearly feel Chen Feng's bright and torch-like gaze, which followed us like a shadow.

"Tell me, what's going on?"

After getting in the taxi, Lin Nuo immediately folded his arms and looked at me with a serious expression of 'Don't pretend to be with me'.I wanted to laugh, but I couldn't, so I could only twitch the corners of my mouth nondescriptly and speak slowly.

"This matter is actually a bit complicated..."

"To make a long story short, why didn't I know that you invited me to dinner? And why did you lie to Brother Chen? He is your lifesaver, how could you lie to him like this?"

Facing Lin Nuo's questioning one after another, I opened my mouth, but couldn't utter the unspeakable truth, and finally just sighed softly: "As long as you know that my relationship with him is very complicated, I have no choice but to lie to him."

After saying this sentence, I almost laughed myself, I have no choice, is it really no choice?

I know, that's just a high-sounding excuse.

For them, I may more or less like them.Talking too much is not enough to make me want to die for someone; talking less is not enough to make me completely give up on someone.

They are all important, but they are not important. If I let others know what I think, I am afraid that ten thousand words of "scumbag" will not be able to offset my badness.

In the end, I was only selfish and only thinking about myself. Many things were just what I thought, so I did that, without worrying about the consequences or morality.I know this is a mistake, but it is like people always know that smoking and drinking are harmful to health, but they are still addicted and cannot quit.

Such a grandiose excuse may make my poor conscience feel better.

Lin Nuo frowned, trying to understand the deep meaning of my words.She showed confusion for a while, dazed for a while, and surprised for a while.She looked at me, hesitating to speak.

"Brother," Lin Nuo paused, and leaned closer to my ear, "What's the relationship between you and Brother Chen?"

This was clearly a question, but Lin Nuo stared at me blankly, determined and tough.I knew I couldn't hide it anymore, so I looked away and said, "It's what you think it is."

"elder brother!"

Lin Nuo patted me again. She didn't seem surprised, but rather aggrieved and upset.

"When I saw you brought him home, I felt something was wrong. I wondered when you became such a warm-hearted person? It was the same at the dinner table. He looked like he came to our house to propose marriage. Every now and then I glanced at you in a few seconds, I thought it was my illusion!"

I rubbed my arm that was numb from the beating, "When you eat, just observe what's there and what's not."

She glared at me fiercely, "What do you mean if you have something? Isn't that what you have!"

"...Lin Nuo, pay attention to your words."

"I didn't expect you to hide so deeply, I didn't even know you were..." Realizing that he was still in the taxi, Lin Nuo swallowed the following words and changed it into a deep question, "I You clearly remember that Brother Chen didn't break his brain in that accident? How did you guys get together?"

The corner of my mouth twitched, and the embarrassment that had just arisen disappeared instantly under Lin Nuo's question, "What did you say? Couldn't it be that he chased me actively while awake?"

Lin Nuo rolled his eyes, and almost had the word 'disbelief' written all over his face.

I looked at her amusedly, and there was an unspeakable emotion in my heart, rubbing together seemed to be relieved, but also moved.

Her tolerance of different sexual orientations has always been within my expectations. I remember sitting together watching TV one day, and the news was broadcasting the legalization of same-sex marriage in foreign countries. I can get married', Lin Nuo immediately started to popularize the knowledge of homosexuality with my mother based on this argument.At that time, I was sitting by the side, thinking that maybe in the future, coming out of the closet can save one person to persuade.

But even though I knew all of this a long time ago, I was still slightly shocked after hearing Lin Nuo's words, as if my chest was blocked, I didn't know what to say, and a feeling of sour heart palpitations surged up in a moved and hypocritical way.

She didn't show any disgust or disappointment, just a brief moment of surprise at the beginning.But she would be surprised when she saw guests coming to the house, and she would be surprised when she met Jiang Qiu in the aquarium, and she was just surprised when she learned of my sexual orientation.

I smiled involuntarily, looked into Lin Nuo's dark eyes, and said seriously: "Thank you, remember to keep this matter a secret for me."

"Of course," Lin Nuo nodded disapprovingly, "I've already kept too many things secret for you, if there is another time, I will have to pay more for memory, 20 yuan per g, refuse to bargain."

I couldn't help laughing, "Even stealing your own brother's money?"

"I'm just robbing my brother, can't I?"

Lin Nuo choked on me thoughtlessly, and finally made my depressed mood gradually clear up.The cell phone in his pocket rang suddenly, and at the same time the taxi stopped at the gate of the community.I scanned the QR code and paid for the car. After walking for a while, I realized that I hadn’t checked the news, so I clicked on WeChat and stayed where I was.

Gu Mingsheng: Xiao Yao, do you want to hear some bad news?

Gu Mingsheng: I saw your Teacher Jiang got into the car with a woman.