bad derailment

The three-day New Year's Day holiday is over, and all walks of life are gearing up to hit KPIs before the Spring Festival.

The overtime work of the news agency was non-stop. I lay prone in front of the computer with coffee in hand, and the words flew around like mosquitoes and flies in front of my eyes. I was only close to dying suddenly on the table.

This time of year, I know firsthand what 'tired as a dog' means.After spending more than half a month in a daze, I checked the calendar and found that next week is New Year's Eve.

My mother has already called me once, and asked me if I will come back as usual, and if I have a girlfriend, etc. My answer is also the same, no.Then he quickly found an excuse to hang up, and never gave her any chance to introduce a blind date.

Chen Feng listened to me finish typing, and asked casually, "Are you planning to go home next week for the New Year?"

I rubbed between my brows wearily, "Yeah, I was nagged by my mother again, are you still staying at home this year?"

He lowered his brows and eyes in displeasure, and deliberately accentuated his words: "I don't want to stay at home alone this year."

I put down my hands, and couldn't answer for a while.

In previous years, Chen Feng spent New Year's Eve by himself.

He hasn't been home for the New Year in four years since he got into trouble with his family.Even though I wanted to accompany him, I still couldn't leave my family alone, so I haven't spent a full year with him until now.

For him, I always have too much guilt.

"So are you going to go home this year?" I asked tentatively.

"No, they won't want to see me during Chinese New Year."

Chen Feng said plainly, stating the facts as if he didn't care, but the more he behaved like this, the more I felt sorry for him.

"Chen Feng, you should try to talk to your parents," I would say this almost every year, even though I knew it would be of no use to him, "No matter how big the matter is, it should be almost over, say After all, they are still your parents, how could they really blame you for the rest of their lives?"

After he listened in silence, he suddenly said, "What if they want me to break up?"

I was slightly taken aback, a little unable to catch up.

I only saw Chen Feng's mother once, that is, the day she broke my relationship with Chen Feng.

In my impression, she is a well-maintained and gracefully dressed noble woman.To this day, I still remember the look in her eyes when she looked at me, heartbroken, disgusted, and unbelievable.As if I was a heinous male vixen who spoiled her son.

I knew then that she had accepted the fact without any explanation.If her attitude remained the same after all these years, what Chen Feng said would definitely happen.

I hesitated for a few seconds, "Will your parents believe you if you say we have broken up?"

"If I tell you, they can immediately arrange for a woman to let me go on a blind date and get married."

Chen Feng rubbed his hair irritably, and didn't want to continue this topic, "Xiao Yao, why can't I go to your house for the New Year?"

I asked him helplessly: "If you go, how should I introduce you to my parents?"

"You can say they are friends." After a pause for a few seconds, he made the biggest concession with a cold face, "or my parents are dead and I am homeless."

"...Isn't it good to curse your parents like this?"

Chen Feng looked away nonchalantly, "Anyway, they don't know."

But even so, I still didn't agree immediately, but said hesitantly: "Let me think about it again."

Even though my parents didn't have any knowledge about homosexuality, they were the people who knew me best in the world.In case Chen Feng and I accidentally made some subconscious little moves, they might find out in an instant, and then a good Chinese New Year would turn into a criticism meeting?

What's more, there is Lin Nuo at home. Children nowadays like to make up their minds. If they see something and mention it to their parents, it's not me who overturned the car in the end?

I really don't want to take such a risky thing because of Chen Feng.

......

The New Year's event has not yet been figured out, and the invitation with Jiang Qiushi came one step ahead.

For half a month after the end of the year, no one would be able to get away. I was afraid that after such a long time, Jiang Qiushi would forget even my last name, so I asked him to meet under the pretext of 'I want to visit'.

When I passed by a flower shop on the street, I went in and bought a bouquet of white roses interspersed with a few lilies and baby's breath, simple and beautiful.Although I started to regret it when I paid the bill, I was still not willing to throw it away after struggling all the way. What if he likes it, right?

When I walked out of the elevator, I knocked on Jiang Qiushi's door nervously with Hua in my arms.

After a while, the door opened from inside with a 'click'.Jiang Qiushi's eyes first paused on my face, then slowly moved down to the bouquet in my hand, the eyelashes under the lens trembled for a moment, and after a while, a faint smile appeared on the corner of his lips.

"Is this for me?"

I pretended to be calm and handed over the flowers, "Yes, I wish Teacher Jiang a happy New Year's Eve in advance."

That excuse could be as high-sounding as it could be, but I knew he wouldn't question it.

Sure enough, Jiang Qiushi did not refuse.He naturally took the flowers and hugged them in his arms. His quiet eyes seemed to be able to see through the tension in my heart, and then he pursed his lips and smiled, "Thank you, I like this gift very much."

I breathed a sigh of relief from the bottom of my heart, and couldn't hold back the corners of my mouth.

At first I wanted to make a red envelope, but let’s not say that Jiang Qiushi is older than me, and giving red envelopes between friends seems too serious.He was also afraid that Jiang Qiushi would refuse to buy other gifts, so after much deliberation, only sending flowers would be the safest way to go wrong.

Even if the motive is easily misunderstood, isn't what I want is Jiang Qiushi's 'misunderstanding'?

After I changed my shoes and walked into the room, I don’t know if it was my illusion, but the smoke in the whole house was much stronger than when I first came here.Fresh fruits are placed on the table, brand-new decorations are placed on the high platform at the entrance, and supermarket shopping bags on the ground can be vaguely glimpsed through the frosted glass blocking the kitchen.Everything is very different from last time.

To seem to be able to sense my presence, the kitten jumped onto the sofa nimbly and walked towards me with graceful cat steps.All the bandages on his body have been removed, and his whole body has been rounded up and down.This feeling was especially obvious after he jumped into my arms, and he was not in the same weight class as before.

I followed the cat's fur, turned around and found Jiang Qiushi was still holding the bouquet of flowers, standing where he was.I thought he was probably worried about not being able to find a suitable container, so I reminded: "Actually, it doesn't have to be in a vase. These flowers are just taken out of the store. It's okay to put them like this for now. It won't wither for a while."

"Well, I'll buy a vase to put it in later."

After all, Jiang Qiushi lowered his head and plucked the delicate petals with his slender fingers, just like teasing cats with a little novel joy, "This is the first time I have received flowers from others."

"Ok?"

I accidentally got stuck, and subconsciously asked, "Am I the first?"

"Yes," Jiang Qiushi looked at me, deepening the smile lines in his eyes, so soft that it was unreal, "You are the first."

His voice is not loud, but his words are clear and clear, flowing into the valley of his heart like a stream, mixed with a touch of touching sweetness.

I almost drowned in his rare tenderness at this moment, the sound of my heartbeat vibrated my eardrums, and I was so happy that I became Jiang Qiushi's "first".Just a little bit of doubt immediately floated up: Jiang Qiushi has such an outstanding appearance and temperament, perhaps with a good family background, has he never received flowers from others?

But yes, most of the methods of sending flowers are boys to girls. Even if a girl takes the initiative to pursue, the gift should be a snack or a tie watch made by herself.This time, I still made a mistake.