1987, I didn't know I would meet you

"Yo, Zhiqing, you have been beaten!"

"What?" My eyes were blank for a long time before I realized that Dongzi was talking to me.

"Why are you in a daze! Look at your dark circles, it looks like you've been beaten by someone!" Xie Dong said while pointing at my eyes, laughing loudly.I subconsciously touched the slightly sunken place under my eyes, and lowered my eyes slightly, but I was not in the mood to joke with Dongzi.

I was dumbfounded, then turned around with my book in my arms and wanted to leave, but Xie Dong caught me with quick eyes and hands.

"I said, why do you look like you have lost your soul?"

"I, no... By the way, where is Yang Zhenyu? I haven't seen him." A trace of anticipation quietly surged up in my heart.

"I don't know, I haven't seen you all day, maybe I went home..."

"What did you say?!" I widened my eyes in horror for an instant, turned around suddenly, and looked at him in disbelief.It was as if a basin of cold water was being poured from the head to the bottom, making my heart chill.

Even Xie Dong, who was fooling around, was suddenly taken aback by my reaction, and asked me in panic.

"What, what's wrong?"

"Why did he go back! How can he, he has already promised me..." I was emotional, but in the end it turned into a lost murmur, and the inexplicable sadness in my heart quickly gathered from my heart to the tip of my nose. Trembling, tears can flood the entire eye socket...

Xie Dong looked at Lin Zhiqing's slightly desolate back, scratched his head inexplicably, and looked suspicious.

Really go back?Really dropped out?Are you really not coming back?But he promised me last night!Should I write a letter?Shouldn't you believe it?Sure enough, how can you believe what he said.I laughed at myself, I'm really stupid, what kind of person is he, he insists on doing things according to his own wishes, he just doesn't want to, will he change his mind just because of a word from me?how can that be possible!You played tricks on me again last night, and you didn't forget to play tricks on me before you left... Yang Zhenyu, you are really annoying!How could this be...

I took a deep breath to hold back the pain in my heart, pulled the corners of my mouth forcefully, and couldn't help but quicken my pace, appearing to be calm, but actually my heart was flustered and anxious, and my eyes were frantically searching for that familiar figure in the crowd.

Libraries, no.Canteen, no.Dormitory, no.Not even the lecture theater where he usually skipped classes!

Yang Zhenyu, you really left!

I couldn't ignore the feeling in my heart. That weird feeling made me feel strange and scared, and I didn't dare to pursue what it was.

Why am I sad, why am I sad, why am I so flustered when I don't see him, why do I think I'll feel at ease as long as I see him?I don't want to pursue all of this!I could come up with all the reasons why I think I can get by with this, but it's not going to be true.I still owe him money?He broke the first button of my blue shirt?Or do you smile far-fetchedly and say that no one wants you to leave?Enough, Lin Zhiqing, all you want to talk about is you!You are the one who doesn't want him to leave, why you lie, why you use all insignificant things to block your mouth, instead of those words you don't want to say...

I suddenly became weak all over, and fell to the ground, staring at the floor absent-mindedly.The bitterness spread from the heart to the whole body and then gushed out from the throat. I opened my mouth slightly, thinking that I could spit out all the bitterness as turbid air, but I held my nose so that the soreness at the tip of the nose was more obvious in my nerve line clamoring.It made me choke up suddenly, my hands were groping for something on the ground blankly, and then tightly clenched into a fist.

"tick"

In my hazy vision, I seem to be able to see a watermark wet on the cement floor in front of my eyes.

"tick"

two drops...

I opened my eyes wide in disbelief, trying to see what it was, sniffed, and quickly covered my mouth with my hand, I couldn't believe it was my tears!It’s so ridiculous, I’m going to cry, obviously nothing happened, right?

"Haha..." Suddenly, I laughed out loud.

Maybe I'm just mentally ill...