1987, I didn't know I would meet you

I can’t deny it, I don’t have the strength to resist the arrangement of fate, Yang Zhenyu and I can only miss each other, even if we want to save both of them, we are already gone, you must be young at that time, because we have grown a lot, see A lot has been opened, and some things you are destined to not be able to change...

I closed my eyes with tears in my eyes and felt his kiss like a touch of water. The delicate tenderness touched my nerves and made my heart ache uncontrollably.

Yang Zhenyu...

If I can, I really want to be with you, want to be with you, just want to be with you.

I couldn't help the tears sliding down my cheeks, he seemed to feel something and wanted to separate, but I held his face in my arms and kissed him almost crazily.

His body froze, and then became clear, his hands wrapped around my waist and hugged me tightly, and responded to me equally fiercely.

"Zhiqing, let's go, go far away, so that they can no longer force me..."

"Do you remember that movie we saw?"

"Remember, what happened?"

"Do you think it's possible for you? For me? Or for your future... Don't say anything nice. Now that you're mature and grown up, I know you have more than one thought in your heart..."

"Do you want me to do the former or the latter?"

"Yang Zhenyu, do you know...love is selfish, but I love you and don't want to ruin you. Tell me, that woman will make you happy, right?"

"...My happiness is only you." He is a man with such a strong self-esteem, but now he is like a lost child, wiping his tears fragilely, which does not match his mature appearance at all. Like him I know.

"Don't be like this, we can't go back to the past... I regretted it too, I should have believed in you, if I could be a few days later and wait for you for a few days, maybe we would be together desperately at that time Together."

"Why didn't you believe me then?"

"I thought...you didn't love me anymore."

"Lin Zhiqing, you idiot!"

Yang Zhenyu's engagement is getting closer and closer, but he refuses to go back anyway, as if he is greedy for the last trace of happiness. He hugs me tightly every night before falling asleep.

And I was also clinging to the last straw, and I was also obsessed with the last sliver of nostalgia.

But time flies by so fast, when I excitedly came home with a bag of vegetables and wanted to have a hot pot with Yang Zhenyu, my steps stopped.The sound insulation of the room is not very good, I can clearly hear the conversation inside.

"Why did you come? Zhiqing had finally let you go, why did you come!"

I frowned, and after counting the days, I suddenly realized that today is the day when Lu Manqing comes back!

"I have my reasons, there is no need to tell you."

"Of course it is necessary! Zhiqing is mine, why do you still want to fight me? I have pampered you for three years, what do you think of me!"

"Shut up, don't think that God knows what you did! When I was about to graduate, my relationship with Zhiqing was leaked. How could I not guess that it was you?"

"you!"

"I never hit women, but do you know how much I hate you? I want to tear you to pieces and drag you to the dogs! You ruined my future with Zhiqing!"

"Don't say it so swearingly! Even if I said it, so what? You and Zhiqing have no future at all, I'm just helping you, I can't just watch Zhiqing's future ruined in your hands."

"Heh... Lu Manqing, so what if you try your best in the end? He will never love you."

"You bullshit!"

Lu Manqing's heart-piercing voice came from the room. I stood outside the door, pursed my lips tightly and didn't say a word. I gently let go of the hand that was stalemate in mid-air and wanted to push the door, and turned to leave.

All of this, I can only blame fate, and I can only blame it.There is nothing in the world that you can accurately predict, as well as those illusory feelings.

If I had never heard what I just said, maybe I would have married and had children with Lu Manqing with a wry smile. My God, maybe my heart would not be so empty, but it would become a memory that I can't erase; if I hadn't met them at that time...

If everything is not if, I think it is another way...

Falling in love with a girl, working hard with her, living a happy life, watching younger siblings grow up, watching parents who have been eroded by time grow old...

Later, I quit my job and returned to Beijing with Lu Manqing.I didn't say a word about all the things I heard that day, so what if I said it, time can't be turned back, and the lost love can't be retrieved.only...

I hesitated, and when I saw her excitedly choosing a wedding date, I hesitated.

May I give her happiness?The answer is clear, I don't love her, she should find her true happiness, but how can I say it out loud.

In the end, she finalized the date, but whether it was intentional or ignorant, she actually chose the same day as Yang Zhenyu's wedding.I laughed, how scared is she?

When that day really came, when I was really standing outside the auditorium in a formal suit without any wrinkle, I actually had the urge to run away.

I admit that I am hateful, since I promised her, I should do it, not to mention that Lu Manqing really paid a lot for it, even if she did such a thing, I have no right to blame her, without her there will be a second person, Our affairs will eventually be exposed, I don't blame her, it's just sad.

I walked to the dressing room, where Man Qing was dressing herself happily.I opened the door and walked in, laughing softly.

"Man Qing, I want to say a few words to you."

Hearing this, her expression changed, but she didn't react much, she just couldn't hold back her smile, and said to the others calmly.

"Go out and get busy."

When everyone was gone and it was just the two of us, she got up and walked towards me in a beautiful white wedding dress with a forced smile.

"What do you want to say? We will be husband and wife soon, and it's not too late to talk about it then."

"I think, you know."

"Zhiqing...you know? I'm so tired..." Her eyes slowly turned red, but she still looked at me without blinking, as if she wanted to imprint me in her heart.

"sorry."

"I don't want to hear sorry, I said everything has nothing to do with you, loving you and being you is my own decision."

"I once wondered if I could give you happiness."

"You can! You can!"

"...Sorry, I can't give it."

"I think I love you more than you love him. Why?"

"Love is not a scale, it can be measured. It is such a helpless thing, and it is hard to explain. It still sucks you in like a whirlpool. The more you struggle, the more you sink. You can't help yourself."

With a long sigh, I reached into my pocket and slowly pulled out a crimson box, which contained a wedding ring.

She followed my movements and looked over, and instantly tears were like beads of loose threads, she covered her mouth and didn't want to cry out.

"...sorry."

I frowned slightly, and apologized sincerely again, not daring to look up at her.

I opened the door abruptly, and walked out quickly without looking back.Passing through the crowded hall, ignoring those colleagues and friends who came to congratulate me, at this moment, there is only one destination that I yearn for in my heart.

"I love you, so you get married."

That's what I told him at the time, but I never regretted the decision.There is no stake between us, no passion to resist the fear of the unknown.There should be a happy ending, and this is the ending we should have.

I stood at the corner not far from him, and I could clearly see that he was wearing a black wedding dress, which was graceful and graceful, just like when we first met at that time. Standing beside him was a bright and gorgeous The woman tenderly raised her lips to welcome the visiting guests with him.

What a harmonious scene, I took a deep breath, raised the corners of my lips and walked slowly.

He was stunned for a moment when he saw me, he didn't expect me to come, according to Man Qing's temperament, he probably told Yang Zhenyu a long time ago, he is not the only one getting married today.

"Why did you come?" His astonished appearance made the woman who was holding his arm look me up and down suspiciously.

I smiled back at him, more broadly.

"Why can't I come? Not welcome?"

"welcome..."

At the wedding, my eyes never left Yang Zhenyu for a moment, I think I should remember his appearance well.

He seems to be very busy and has no time to greet me. Every time he wants to come to my side, he is always held back by someone, thanking each other, and his eyes always drift to my side, a little anxious.

I smiled, knowing what he was thinking, but I didn't dare to speak to him.

"The newcomers exchange rings."

I kept smiling from the beginning to the end, watching him from the audience.Hearing this, he froze for a moment, and subconsciously looked at me.

My eyes were a little wet, I opened my mouth, and silently said something to him that I couldn't even open my mouth.

"I wish you happiness."

He froze for a moment, frowned slightly and turned his gaze, and slowly put the ring in his hand on the bride's ring finger, with a wry smile on his lips.

After the newcomers exchanged the rings, there was a burst of applause from the audience, all of them wished for their wedding.

My head seemed to be buzzing by the applause and cheers from the audience, and the smile on my face slowly collapsed.Finally turned around resolutely and walked through the crowd, the crowd quickly drowned my figure.I looked back, Yang Zhenyu was standing on the stage looking at the crowd anxiously, as if he was looking for something.

I opened my mouth, and in the end I could only utter his name tremblingly, but was quickly swallowed by the noise.

"Yang Zhenyu..."

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