1987, I didn't know I would meet you

"Zhiqing, please! Please don't go to him, okay?" Lu Manqing, who fell to the ground, watched my movements with tearful eyes, and finally cried out hysterically.

But I was expressionless, and my face was terribly cold.

The flames were extinguished, and with trembling hands, I picked up the wedding invitation that had been burned to the ground and squeezed it tightly, looking at her coldly.

"You shouldn't touch my things." After that, I walked out the door without looking back, and didn't care how terribly Lu Manqing was crying behind me.

I went straight to work without changing my clothes. My hands were burning red and I didn't bother to take care of it. I just hurriedly took out the envelope to read it in a panic.Only half of it was burned, but it happened to burn the signed piece.I couldn't help stroking the missing corner, thinking about the place Yang Zhenyu had touched, my heart ached a little.

Maybe God has made a choice for me, I shouldn't think about going to him again...

As soon as I closed my eyes, I pulled the drawer open, stuffed the envelope in and quickly locked the drawer.Such a simple action made me lose all strength. I lay on my back on the chair, sighed, and unconsciously touched my pocket with my hand, wanting to smoke a little.

I had to work overtime today, but I breathed a sigh of relief, let's work overtime, I would rather stay up all night than go back to face Lu Manqing.

I owe her too many people, but I can't pay back things like feelings.If I could go back in time and I fell in love with Lu Manqing instead of Yang Zhenyu, would things be much simpler?

Maybe now that I'm married to her, have a baby, and live in harmony, instead of being here alone, smoking a cigarette with a pile of documents and data.

After pressing out the last cigarette butt, I stared blankly at the white smoke circling the air, which was very clear in the dark night.I paused, if, not if...

Perhaps fate has already made a decision for me, and the rest of my meaning can only be adapted according to the arrangement of fate...

After wiping the corners of my eyes, I straightened my clothes, took the keys, and prepared to go home.

It's decided, this decision... suffocating makes me want to break down.

"I promise you, I won't go to him."

Facing Lu Manqing, I endured the pain in my heart and tore the envelope into pieces. My hands were trembling. The sound of paper tearing was nothing more than the sound of my heart breaking. I closed my eyes evasively, trying to suppress the Tears about to fall.

I wove myself a dream and forced myself to believe that was the "what if" I imagined.There may be someone like Yang Zhenyu in my life, but we are just casual acquaintances with him. What I have always liked is this woman by my side.She loves me like...

"Zhiqing, I wrote to my parents and told them that I want to marry you."

"...If you want to...just do it."

"Really?! You promise?"

"..."

Actually I don't want to...

From that day on, the relationship between Lu Manqing and I gradually became what she expected. She was very excited and wept with joy. I wiped away the tears for her with some distress, and wanted to comfort her, but the words were stuck in my throat. I dare not speak.I'm afraid that if I open my mouth, I will cry sadly.

She seemed to be very anxious, maybe she was afraid that I would repent, just like the unbelievable look in her eyes after seeing my acquiescence, she couldn't believe it for a long time, and kept asking me repeatedly childishly.

"Zhiqing, is it real? I'm not dreaming, am I?"

That jumping look was exactly the same as mine at that time, but I could never understand Yang Zhenyu's mood at that time.I smiled and closed my eyes, unable to bear to look again.

That day, when I sent her to the train station, she hugged me happily and said.

"Zhiqing, I'll be back soon, my parents have let go, and we'll get married when I come back."

I smiled bitterly where she couldn't see, everything should have a new start.