He stalked me after amnesia

Chapter 74 What If I Learn To Love You

Several people forcibly dragged Shen Chi into the store, and all the KTV employees were present, playing lively until almost the wee hours of the morning.After getting tired from playing, only Shen Chi who hadn't drunk was left in the luxury box and remained sober.

Jiang Yue got sleepy early and fell asleep in the next room.

Shen Chi got up and walked past Cheng Yuhai who was drunk and fell asleep on the ground, thinking that he was drunk like this, and he didn't plan to go to work tomorrow, right?

He went downstairs alone, turned on a small light, found a pack of cigarettes in the bar, took out one between his teeth, and rummaged through it again.

"Where are you looking for a lighter?" Jiang Jinli leaned on the railing at the stairway, her cheeks turned red from drinking, "Don't look for it, I'm hiding it."

Shen Chi smiled helplessly: "Where is it hidden?"

"It's all said to be hidden, how can I tell you? I'm not drunk," Jiang Jinli walked down the steps, staggering, still wearing high heels, about to fall

, Shen Chi hurried forward to give him a hand, "You still want to smoke when your hand hurts? You're dreaming."

"Yes, yes," Shen Chi put the cigarette on the bar, helped Jiang Jinli to sit on the sofa, "I won't smoke, do you want some water?"

He turned around to pour a glass of water, but was stopped by Jiang Jinli.

"Shen Chi!" Jiang Jinli, who was drunk, frowned solemnly, "Don't care if I drink water or not! Do you want to drink it yourself? If you want to drink, pour it out, and if you don't drink it, don't pour it down!"

Shen Chi stopped, sat on another sofa, and sighed, "Okay."

"You're not happy today," Jiang Jinli took off his high heels and stepped on the carpet with bare feet, "then don't pretend to be happy!"

"Okay." Shen Chi replied quietly.

"You told me so four years ago." Jiang Jinli was not completely drunk, and her mind was a little dizzy, but it didn't affect her to continue speaking, "Tell me, you don't have to force yourself to smile, it's okay to be unhappy or sad , it’s okay to cry out loud.”

"You told me to love yourself, do things not for others, but for yourself."

"You tell me that all scars will eventually be healed. Before that, you have to treat yourself ten thousand times better than before."

Jiang Jinli put her elbows on the armrest of the sofa, supported her head on her wrists, and said with a choked voice, "Why are you the one who gets hurt?"

Shen Chi is such a nice person, why should he be hurt?

Shen Chi got up, went to the shelf, took a bottle of lemonade, unscrewed it and handed it to Jiang Jinli: "Sister Jiang, I'm fine."

"You're pretending it's okay," Jiang Jinli took a sip of water, and exposed him viciously, "You've been pretending it's okay for four full years, pretending that you don't care about anything, so much so that you believe it yourself!"

Shen Chi was silent, and it took a long time before he said, "It's really all right."

It's just that he has been tense, and in order to deceive himself, he is so busy every day that he has no time to think about it, and no time to be sad.And when the dust settled on the ending of parting, he also decided to let go, only to realize that he was very tired.

"Shen Chi, it shouldn't be you who is in pain." Jiang Jinli's eyes were filled with tears, and when he blinked, a tear rolled down.

Shen Chi handed over a pack of tissues: "Don't cry, Sister Jiang, the eyeliner should be gone."

"I'm telling you something serious, but your focus is on my eyeliner?" Jiang Jinli took the tissue and pressed the corner of his eye, "If you weren't gay, how many virtuous women would line up to be your wife."

Shen Chi looked out the window without answering.

……

In the noisy bar box.

"Stop fucking drinking!"

When Pei Yichen and Han Zhou entered the door, they saw two or three empty bottles on the ground, and Jiang Zhan was opening a new one to pour into the cup.

Pei Yichen quickly snatched the bottle of wine with his hands, and took the glass a little farther away: "What are you crazy about?! You drink before the stitches are removed from your fucking hands, don't you want your hands anymore?"

"Sit down." Jiang Zhan's eyes were bright and he was not drunk, "Jiang Wanli gave Jiang Hao my shares in Jiang's."

"Just give it, you don't care about it," Pei Yichen was speechless, "Just because of this, you ran out to drink? What have you been doing these days? You don't go to the hospital either."

"Work." Jiang Zhan said lightly.

"Work?" Han Zhou glanced at his gauze-wrapped hands, "I don't see that you are quite dedicated."

"Don't talk nonsense, drink." Jiang Zhan took the glass he just had, and drank the wine in it.

"No," Pei Yichen pushed the wine to Han Zhou's side, "you can drink so much that you don't want to use alcohol to drown your sorrows, okay?"

"Chen," Jiang Zhan said in a low voice, "he removed the stitches, how is it?"

"Him?" Pei Yichen was stunned for a moment, "Oh, you said Shen Chi, his wound has grown well, but it will take a while for him to regain his flexibility."

Jiang Zhan kept staring at him until he finished speaking, then lowered his eyelids and played with the empty cup in his hand, "That's fine."

Hearing from Lin Jiu that Shen Chi looks pretty good these days, I guess the hellish withdrawal reaction has gotten better.Jiang Zhan has been staying in the company for the past few days to deal with some accumulated work, and he never dared to be idle for a moment.

When he was free, he had to face his own heart. He was a little timid, and vaguely guessed something, but he didn't dare to admit it.

"What are you doing so cowardly?" Han Zhou took a sip of wine, a little resentful, "If you really care about it, go after it."

Although he personally favored Xu Xiuran, he had also heard about what Xu Xiuran had done some time ago, and felt that something was wrong.

"I don't know." Just thinking about it, Jiang Zhan's breathing seemed to be strangled.

It's been ten years, and he was only tempted after the person left. What is this not doing?

He ran home early that morning, lay on the bed, turned his head to look at the side where Shen Chi had slept before, got out of bed and walked over, and opened the drawer of the bedside table.

After he came back from the hospital in a car accident, he didn't touch anything at home, let alone Shen Chi's bedside table.

But in the early morning of that day, he squatted in front of the bedside table as if possessed by a demon, and slowly opened the upper drawer bit by bit, holding his breath.

Grinding it out centimeter by centimeter, he didn't pull it all away until he saw what was inside.

Inside was a drawer full of empty boxes and bottles of sleeping pills and painkillers.

Looking at those medicines, Jiang Zhan's heart seemed to constrict.

He sat on the edge of the bed, an image uncontrollably emerged in his mind - Shen Chi poured a glass of water and put it on the bedside table, opened the drawer, unscrewed the medicine bottle and poured out two pills.

Shen Chi took out a box of medicine from the drawer and put it in his coat pocket.

In Shen Chi's car, he opened the storage drawer, and there were medicines in it.

……

He clearly always remembered that Shen Chi was taking medicine, but he didn't give him the attention he deserved.

If at this time, he said that he was a little bit interested in Shen Chi, and that he was a little different from before, would Shen Chi find it funny?

Jiang Zhan seemed to know why Shen Chi left so resolutely, and he didn't want to turn back at all.

It wasn't until now that Jiang Zhan realized that Shen Chi was not as he thought, he was always pretending to be free and easy.

He really doesn't want to love anymore, it's true, he wants to let go of this ten-year love.

And these experiences change him, I'm afraid he will be more decisive than Shen Chi.

So Jiang Zhan felt a huge panic in his heart, as if he was going to swallow him up. He could only rely on work to numb himself and relieve his heartache.

……

"You deserve it," Pei Yichen sighed, "you owe it, you should let it go, anyway, there won't be any good results, it's better to stop thinking now, it's good for both of you."

"Is there still time for me to make up for him?" Jiang Zhan turned the glass around again.

……

"You want to make it up to me?" Shen Chi frowned and looked at Jiang Zhan who was standing in front of him reeking of alcohol.

If Jiang Jinli hadn't gone upstairs to accompany Jiang Yue just now, he would have come down and slapped Jiang Zhan and both of them.

"Yes."

"How do you make it up?" Shen Chi stood leaning against the door with his arms folded, feeling annoyed by Jiang Zhan's pestering behavior again. If he had ice water at hand now, he thought he wouldn't mind pouring it over Jiang Zhan's head to wake him up. .

The moonlight was heavy, reflecting Shen Chi's face even more cold and pale to the point of inhumanity.

Jiang Zhan opened his mouth, dumbfounded.

Shen Chi slightly hooked the corner of his lower lip.He knew that Jiang Zhan was immature emotionally, and would sometimes make promises impulsively, but he didn't know how to do it at all.

He sighed, took a step forward, grabbed Jiang Zhan's right hand and rewrapped the loose gauze bandage. The nerves in his left hand had not fully recovered, and his fingertips trembled slightly, trembling all the way to Jiang Zhan's heart: "Jiang Zhan, I seem to have said something similar before, you don’t owe me anything. I did everything for you willingly, and I was willing to give, and I never thought of getting anything in return. Now I am not willing, and other It doesn't matter."

He let go of his hand, pretending not to see Jiang Zhan's subconscious move to stay, and said in a calm tone, "There's no need to torment the two of us over this matter, and you don't love me, so it's pointless to pester me now."

Jiang Zhan wanted to refute, but for a moment he didn't know how to refute.

"You don't love me, and I don't want to continue to love you. It's over. When we meet in the future, we can greet each other like old classmates." Shen Chi's tone was very light, which made Jiang Zhan feel like he was back in the past When Shen Chi was full of patience with him, what Shen Chi said was not what he wanted to hear, "If you learn to love someone one day, then I wish you love that person for a long time."

"It means that no matter what I do, you won't look back, right?" Jiang Zhan stared into his eyes, trying to see the emotion he wanted.

And Shen Chi just nodded, his eyes were as calm as water: "Yes."

Jiang Zhan's throat seemed to be choked by something, and it took him a long time to hold back a sentence: "What if I learn to love you?"

Shen Chi was walking towards the door, but when he heard this, he turned to look at him again.

"What if I want to learn how to love you?" Jiang Zhan asked.

"How do you learn?"

"You can tell me what's wrong with me and how I should change it," Jiang Zhan met Shen Chi's indifferent gaze, "You tell me, and I'll just..."

"Jiang Zhan, I'm not your father, I have no obligation to teach you to grow up." Shen Chi looked at him indifferently, "You don't have to waste time learning to love me, I'm not looking forward to it anymore, just look at the person in front of you. "

Why doesn't this dog listen to what he says?For the first time, Shen Chi felt that there was a communication barrier with humans.

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