Your ex boyfriend, I took over

The evening breeze was cool, and Qu Nan suddenly wanted to kiss him.

In the turmoil, Chen Shuang became his safe haven.In the past, he was an isolated island trapped in the fog. Chen Shuang pushed through the fog and found himself without fear of warning.

The feeling of being found is very reassuring, and there is a sense of security deep in my heart.

But just now, when Chen Shuang proposed to change the way of taking off, his sense of security disappeared again.No, not just disappearing, but physical pain.

Everything about his brother belongs to him, but now, what he faces is to let it all be exposed.For so many years, he hoped that Qu Nan was Qu Xiangbei.

Qu Nan is the living Qu Xiangbei.

Qu Xiangbei is not dead, as long as he is still alive, his brother is not dead.He will turn over the high jump pole again and become the focus of attention on the track and field. As long as he can still jump, his brother can once again stand on his favorite podium and wear the gold medal.

He is a champion and he will always be a champion.

But... I can't beat him all the time.

Qu Nan fell into a thick confusion, and the vortex of difficulties fell from the sky and poured on his head.He hopes to become an elder brother, to replace his elder brother in the game, and let everyone think of the other person they have forgotten through himself.My legs are my brother's legs, my face is my brother's face, but my grades have never surpassed him.

The number of gold medals is one less.

One piece missing, one piece missing...

what to do?what happened?Qu Nan was spinning in the vortex, he couldn't get out.The whole body is mostly the shadow of my brother, he walked here, there, to the training ground, to the cafeteria, everywhere, everywhere... Qu Nan flew up, as if he was looking at everything from above, just like his brother flying. The soul that got up looked at all that he loved so much.

what to do?The gold medal is still one piece away. I haven't surpassed it yet, and I'm not that good.This shouldn't be, isn't he Qu Xiangbei?He is obviously him!

A strobe-like memory began to erupt at the end of his mind, making Qu Nan even more confused.

Suddenly, he grabbed Chen Shuang.

In other words, he was actually caught by Chen Shuang.Chen Shuang was real, and Qu Nan began to slowly descend.He descended, and his line of sight changed from a bird's-eye view to a head-up view. The whole school was covered with his brother's shadow, which was gradually replaced by himself, and he was everywhere.Chen Shuang said that he only felt that he was everywhere.

He lowered himself, and he believed that his feet were on the ground.

He is no longer flying.

It landed... He opened his eyes and saw Chen Shuang's eyes.It turned out that he was not Qu Xiangbei, but Qu Nan.

"Are you okay?" Chen Shuang cupped his cold face with both hands, and looked at his mouth again.He heard everything just now. Qu Nan seemed to be crying, but in fact he was crying unconsciously. He read a series of words impatiently, and when he didn't even realize it, he said what was in his heart. .

Now, there is no one in the world who knows him better than Chen Shuang.

"I...I'm fine." Qu Nan's chest heaved violently.

"I've finished listening." Chen Shuang also hugged him and smiled warmly at him, "You are afraid that no one in the world will remember your brother anymore, right?"

Qu Nan was taken aback, what happened to him just now?Are you talking to yourself again?

"What you said just now." Chen Shuang's words seemed to dissect Qu Nan with a knife, but at the same time, he also dissected himself.They also have things that they cannot let go of, they are burdened with secrets, and they love their brothers dearly.

Qu Nan quickly rubbed his nose, his voice was very low, but he had the quiet feeling of telling nonsense aboveboard. "I did not say."

"You just said, you still cried." Chen Shuang reached out to wipe his tears. Every time Qu Nan cried, it was like glue covering their relationship.They were originally two people, held together by glue.

"No." Qu Nan pressed his eye sockets with the heels of his palms.

"You don't want to forget your brother, then don't forget, there will always be someone who will remember him, now I can accompany you to remember, Qu Xiangbei, 2.25, let's all forget. But you can't carry his shadow forever, You have to become yourself." Chen Shuang's eyes sparkled, "The gold medal left by your brother is almost lost, and the foreign students are coming fiercely, you can become yourself and keep this medal!"

Qu Nan lowered his head, in the darkness, but felt that there was light in front of his eyes.

"You try, as long as you are willing, I will try with you." Chen Shuang said with a drink, "Now you nod."

Qu Nan raised his head abruptly.

"This is a training. You only feel me. If I tell you to nod, you just nod. It won't do anything..." Chen Shuang muttered in a low voice. meeting.

These words were obviously said to him by himself, but in reverse, they still work.Qu Nan's face finally felt a little warmer, but his smile was still weak. "You are amazing, Chen Youyou."

"That's it!" Chen Shuang was a little proud, "And don't cry anymore."

"Then what if I can't help but want to cry again?" Qu Nan asked, "I'm so weak after all."

"Cry again, I'll kiss you to death!" Chen Shuang said fiercely, "Are you afraid?"

Qu Nan froze for a moment, and then his smile changed from thin to full. "It's scary, you are really amazing."

"Cough...that..." Tao Wenchang waited for them to finish before poking his head, "Should I still take a bath? If I don't take a bath, can I pick up the washbasin on the floor? Is there my shampoo in the basin?"

Qu Nan and Chen Shuang turned their heads at the same time, why is Chang Zi still there?

"Wash." Qu Nan walked a few steps, picked up the washbasin, turned around and said, "Let's go, let's take a bath."

Chen Shuang quickly followed, secretly tugging at the back of Qu Nan's coat.

After the chat, Chen Shuang never talked about this matter with Qu Nan again.He believed that Qu Nan had listened, and that Qu Nan needed time.He did not reply to Lucas's comments, but the pressure of international students is like a dark cloud. The overwhelming army has come under the eyes of Chinese athletes and cannot be ignored.

Once the suspension period passes, July will suddenly emerge.

Training has become Chen Shuang's top priority, and he can only see his younger brother and mother across the school gate on weekends.Sishui has lost some weight recently, and seems to be in good spirits. She is no longer that lonely and weird child. Her mother takes her clothes back to wash every week, and then sends a big bag of clean ones.

Looking at the washed socks and underwear, Chen Shuang often wondered if he would become a mother's baby if he went on like this.

As for the payment of public rations...the two of them haven't found a chance to really fulfill it. During the closed training, the gymnasium is full of people, and every night after the evening training, they are exhausted.

After the lights are turned off, there will be dormitory rounds, which are stricter than during the winter training period. It is completely militarized management.Judging from the strength of the school's actions, it also cost a lot of money. The overall defeat in the school-level league more or less alarmed the leaders and put a lot of pressure on the sports institute.

They can only get together during the big break and hide in the locker room next to the main playground as gourd babies.When someone came in occasionally, Chen Shuang turned pale with fright.

There was no strength in the whole body, and the body was rising and hitting the ground heavily.He vaguely heard someone talking, someone approaching, and the sound of footsteps and breathing suppressed each other.There is a curtain between them and the outside world, and Qu Nan's sports bag is placed outside the curtain.

Silently announce that there are people in this locker room, don't come.

But there was not one person inside, but two.

Chen Shuang kept his eyes blank, fearing that the hearing system would fail, and all the voices were concentrated.He had been looking at the light above the dressing room, which seemed to be flickering on and off, and there was a gust of wind behind him, making the curtains keep moving.

He put one arm around Qu Nan, and Qu Nan also held him steady with the other. He turned to look in another direction, trying to hear who had passed by, and Qu Nan bit his chin with his teeth, Turn his face straight.

"Don't be afraid, just look at me."

For a few seconds, Chen Shuang was dumbfounded, Gu Wenning seemed to be among the group outside.But he immediately had no time to manage his hearing, and another sense popped up particularly vividly.He and Qu Nan continued to kiss until his mouth became parched, and he didn't dare to hum, his voice turned into a thread of saliva after they kissed.

Ridiculous, very ridiculous, Chen Shuang smirked while his legs were weak.

In this way, as the time approached the end of March, another problem for Chen Shuang came up, how to celebrate Qu Nan's birthday tomorrow in a closed training camp.

During class, Chen Shuang writes and draws in his notebook. Cakes can be ordered from outside, but he must not eat too much, and he needs to report to the coach in advance.Would you like to buy a bouquet of flowers?Too cheesy, right?

Chen Shuang crossed this idea out of the notebook, propped his chin and looked at the sunset outside the window.

The sunset glow was pink and purple, just as beautiful as when he was in his third year of high school.

It was completely dark, and Qu Nan came to the small training ground alone.

He and Chen Shuang made an appointment to meet here, but there is no one in the venue yet.Occasionally someone ran over, and soon it was quiet again.

This is where Chen Shuang broke through, and Qu Nan put his sports bag by his feet.The black studs were cracked, yet another pair had done its job and was about to be scrapped.

The nails were also worn out.

The jumping mat in the distance is like a call, guiding him to move forward.Ever since he was a child, Qu Nan's attention has been on the horizontal pole, and he has seen it rise from a height of one meter to more than two meters.

Every time you go up, you get closer to your goal.

It's just that it hasn't moved for a long time now. It's not a bottleneck period, but he is approaching the upper limit of the Asians. 2.20 to 2.30 is the interval for Asians, and the number of Asian athletes decreases sharply, almost disappearing.

More than 2.35, maybe two or three.

In the 2.40 club, there are no Chinese at all. The current highest record in China is fixed at 2.39, and no one can surpass it.

But looking abroad, this figure is not the peak.

But this is also a huge improvement in China's back-style high jump. From my grandfather's generation, it is difficult to jump past 2.00. After several rounds of people's washing and updating, the results have a chance to iterate.

Now is the era of my age.Qu Nan moved his right ankle and rested for a month. He wanted to try it.

The surrounding area is surprisingly quiet, not even birds chirping. It seems that someone has notified the small animals in advance that there will be people jumping high here, so don't make any noise.Qu Nan was standing at the start of the run-up, with left and right choices in front of him, but it was like choosing two life modes.

left or right?

To the left is myself, to the right is my brother.If I choose the left side, does it mean that I have betrayed my faith?

"Qu Nan! Happy birthday!" The shout behind Qu Nan interrupted Qu Nan's entanglement. He turned around and found the source of the sound at the intersection of darkness and streetlights.Chen Shuang stood above the steps of the teaching building and sprinted down the steps.

But he didn't choose to jump down more than a dozen steps. After taking off, he landed on the concrete ramp on the side of the steps.It was a place where the trolley was convenient to go, and now it has become a slide for Chen Shuang's feet.

He slid down the ramp like a skateboard under his feet.Actually just a pair of short spikes that are going out, the nails worn down.The high-speed friction between metal and cement produced a chemical reaction, and bright sparks were shot out in circles, right under Chen Shuang's feet.

A straight spark, like stepping on a hot wheel.This is a romance exclusive to sports students. Sometimes, boys will kick the ground quickly to coax their girlfriends in this way.

Now Chen Shuang is coaxing herself in this way.

After skating for a total of several meters, Chen Shuang himself did not expect the visual effect to be so amazing, as if a special effect performance had been activated.His shoes were completely useless, and he obviously felt unable to use them when he ran towards Qu Nan.

"I'm here!" He rushed to Qu Nan, "The person you like is coming on hot wheels."

Qu Nan pursed his lips hard, turned to the side, Chen Shuang turned with him, only to realize that he was smiling.

"What are you laughing at?" Chen Shuang took off his shoes directly, "This is a plan I've been thinking about all day."

"It's okay, just smile." Qu Nan held back the throbbing in his chest, and when he looked at the high jump mat, he wanted to choose the left side to try.

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The author has something to say:

Cha Nan: Record the time of delivery of public rations in a small book, and tick off on time.

And again: the body was hollowed out.