Your ex boyfriend, I took over

When he got home, Chen Shuang first saw the express boxes piled up in the living room.

"I had nothing to do these days, so I cleaned up your clothes and shoes, and some of them were old." Wang Lingzhi put down the two children's sports bags, "I just bought some more for you, such as shoes, pants, etc. I don’t know if you like it or not. Take it apart and have a look, you two have the same shoe size, so you can wear them interchangeably.”

"Thank you, Mom." Chen Shuang said, no matter how heavy the corners of his mouth were, he would still laugh.He picked up the box closest to him, a pair of professional running shoes.

"This is..." He looked at the words on the shoe box, "Light blue."

Light blue, the mere appearance of these three words is enough to make Chen Shuang happy, and now it is just another stab in his empty heart.

"This color doesn't suit me." He gave the shoe box to his younger brother, "It suits Sishui. Sishui looks best in blue."

Lu Shui is unpacking another package, which contains several pairs of soft and delicate cotton socks, which are most suitable for training.His brother handed him the shoe box, but he didn't answer it, instead he grabbed Chen Shuang's wrist.

Chen Shuang raised her head, not daring to look at him.Mom may not be able to see what's going on with her, but Sishui certainly can.

I can't hide my every move.When Gu Wenning threw him away, Sishui just held his hand like this, without asking anything, but his tears fell down disobediently.

This time, Chen Shuang didn't want to make herself so embarrassed, so she tried her best to hold back.

Lu Shui just looked at him, and guessed everything with just a few gazes.He had guessed it from just now.Qu Nan didn't send his brother out, and his brother was sad.

It was exactly the same as that year when Gu Wenning ignored him.

"Brother..." Lu Shui put down his socks and pulled him into his arms, "Don't want him."

Chen Shuang frowned, but his eyes began to turn sour.

And all this, Wang Lingzhi seems not to know.She was immersed in the joy of celebrating the Spring Festival with her two children, and was busy buying new year's goods.Chen Shuang didn't blame her, his mother didn't grow up with him, so it's normal for him to be confused about the details of his emotions. On the contrary, he was glad that he wasn't seen through by his mother.

The phone has not vibrated, and no one is looking for him.

The house has been carefully tidied up, and there is a festive atmosphere everywhere. The couplets of all the best and surplus every year have been pasted up, and a lot of lucky characters have been bought, in various sizes.

He helped Wang Lingzhi hang small strings of lights for the house, placed the newly bought potted plants of green radishes and kumquats, replaced all the four-piece bedding sets with new ones, and finally pasted the paper-cut pictures of Yu Leaping over the Dragon Gate on the floor-to-ceiling windows.

"I specially asked someone to cut this Yuyuelongmen." Wang Lingzhi's forehead was full of sweat, "I hope you both will have good grades in the coming year. I heard that this paper-cutter is very clever. The window grilles he cut have all come true. gone."

"Thank you mom." Chen Shuang wiped her sweat with his cuff, "Sishui and I will definitely be able to compete next year."

"Hey, I don't ask you two to take the ranking, safety first, safety first." Wang Lingzhi bowed to the window grille again, very piously, a piece of handmade red paper-cut embodies her hope, but in this hope It's all about worrying.

The mentality of the parents of athletes is that although the children are happy to achieve results, they are afraid that the children will hurt their health for a lifetime if they want to achieve too much.Especially in Sishui, the 10-meter diving platform is not a joke. It is not easy to jump and shoot on the water, which is almost the same as shooting on the concrete floor.

Seeing his mother's piousness, Chen Shuang bowed himself too, but his movements stopped suddenly. He was stunned, thinking of the wall of fame in the school, and the group photo of the great high jumpers.

I used to worship so piously, in order to ask Qu Nan for a good ranking.

I can think of him in everything, I can think of him in everything... Chen Shuang shook his head and looked at Yuyuelongmen in a daze.

This paper-cut painting is probably a pattern specially ordered by my mother, and it contains a lot of heart.The fat carp leaps up from a low place and surpasses against the current. The arc of the fish's body is almost the same as that of a back jump high jump.And the water marks around it just corresponded to my younger brother's swimming pool.

The layers of scales are lifelike, as if this fish really carried the future of the two brothers on its back, first leaping and then falling into the water.

But no matter how interesting it was, Chen Shuang's heart was still stagnant, unable to make ripples.He has to find something to do, and if he continues like this, he will probably be cornered again.

After dinner, he took Sishui downstairs, and continued the small cooking class that Wang Guohong gave him alone in the community.He didn't take off the lead belt that fit around his ankle, he was afraid that after taking it off, he would lose motivation, lose his goal, and then continue to think wildly.

There are various training contents, each of which is aimed at the basic skills of the back-style high jump. An hour later, Chen Shuang completed the last 1 sets of burpees. He walked to the steps and stretched his tendons, enjoying the pain in the back of his calf, and then tightened his instep and pressed his stiff toes.He trained himself to be a person who has no thinking ability at all, and his whole body was covered with sweat, so he took his younger brother upstairs.

And Lu Shui saw all of this, but didn't ask anything.

At night, after the two brothers took a bath and were about to go to bed, Chen Shuang sat on the edge of the bed in a daze, always thinking that there should be one more person on this bed, and that person was always there when he couldn't sleep.

"Sishui, what are you looking at? Are you sleepy?" He approached Lu Shui and asked.

Lu Shui was looking at his mobile phone. At this time, he turned over the mobile phone, and it was full of house rental information.

"Leasing..." Chen Shuang glanced over, "You don't want to live here anymore?"

Lu Shui nodded, tapped the screen with his fingers, and clicked on the one he had just selected. "Change place."

The selected house is a little far from the school, but not too far. It is an old-fashioned residential building with 6 floors and the interior decoration is also average.

"You can change it if you want." Chen Shuang agreed. It's not that Sishui wants to change, it's because the younger brother is afraid of being emotional. "But this building is too old. If you want...you can go back with brother."

Yes, the mother's house is fully prepared, and you can move in directly with your own four waters.

But Lu Shui shook his head. "I... lived here."

"What?" Chen Shuang took the phone and looked again, "Have you lived there?"

Lu Shui shook his head again.

Chen Shuang thought about it and came up with a general idea.Sishui is too smart, and it is estimated that his memory was enlightened very early, and he remembered the place where he once lived with his mother.This building or environment may be similar to what Sishui remembered when he was a child.

"Okay, I'll listen to you, let's go live." Chen Shuang quickly agreed. It turned out that my younger brother knew everything, but if he didn't say anything, he would miss his mother.

Another day passed, New Year's Eve, the Spring Festival.

Wang Lingzhi has not been idle all the time. In the morning, she took her two children to go shopping and continued to replenish the New Year's goods. In the afternoon, she didn't know where to buy the goods, so she bought a box of cold fireworks fairy sticks and came back.Seeing her mother busy, Chen Shuang brought Sishui to help, feeling the strong festive atmosphere for the first time.

"Come on, try this stewed meat egg made by Mom." Wang Lingzhi showed off her cooking skills and fished out an egg that had been marinated for several hours from the gravy, "Sishui, stop reading, the Spring Festival Gala has begun, let's Have a meal."

There is no TV at home, and there is Wang Lingzhi's work notebook on the dining table, which is live broadcasting that lively program. Even if most Chinese people don't watch it, they will use it as the designated background sound for New Year's Eve.

Chen Shuang took a bite of the marinated egg. The taste was very familiar, and her mother's cooking skills were never inaccurate.The younger brother was still reading on the coffee table, so he brought half an egg over for Sishui to eat.

"What are you looking at?" Chen Shuang asked.

Lu Shui chewed the egg, and turned the title page to Chen Shuang to see, it turned out to be a comic book.

"You actually read this?" Chen Shuang was a little surprised. My younger brother had never read this kind of book, and he thought cartoons were childish before.Only myself at home likes to read comics.

Lu Shui nodded with a smile, put the book away carefully, and then came to the dining table and sat down.

The dinner was sumptuous and the show was exciting. The plate in front of Chen Shuang was never empty. Either her mother had some food or her younger brother had some ribs.The two of them fed him at the same time, and Chen Shuang soon couldn't eat any more, but this time, he disguised himself very well, and his mood remained on the average level of happiness throughout the night, and he would never be exposed.

When it was close to 12 o'clock, Wang Lingzhi started cooking dumplings.

Chen Shuang helped with the bowls, chopsticks and vinegar, smiled and discussed with his younger brother what to buy after the move. Everything was so harmonious, as if he had super powers to turn emotions over. Suddenly, he seemed to hear a knock on the door.

The knock on the door wasn't too soft, as if it was too light to be heard by others, it was slow and forceful, and relaxed, but it seemed too heavy to be impolite.It was like a signal that completely stopped Chen Shuangqiang's body that had been supporting him all day.

It is the midnight bell of Cinderella, which makes the beautiful dress, the resplendent pumpkin cart, and the transparent crystal slipper disappear together, revealing the hidden embarrassment and anxiety.

"Who? Knock on the door at this time?" Wang Lingzhi came out with dumplings.

Lu Shui looked in the direction of the door with an indecipherable expression, then grabbed his brother's wrist, trying to pull him back.

"I'll go and have a look, maybe it's...the neighbor." But Chen Shuang patted Sishui's hand and told him to let go.He deceived himself and told himself that it might be a neighbor, and he knew better than anyone else which answer he wanted to guess.

Lu Shui and Wang Lingzhi looked at each other for a few seconds, then let go.Chen Shuang lowered her head suddenly, smiled at her family, and walked over to open the door pretending to be relaxed.

Outside the door is another world, without the hustle and bustle and lights in the house, only the darkness that can swallow everything.It was very cold, and the moment Chen Shuang opened the door, the tip of his nose felt cold. The sensor light was on for a few seconds, and before the sensor light went out, he saw the person.

He turned his back to himself and leaned against the door frame of the safe passage. He was still wearing the team uniform instead of the down jacket, as if he came out in a hurry and in a hurry, and he couldn't do it if he was late.

Chen Shuang closed the door, and the sensor light was on for a few seconds. He didn't walk over there until it went out again.How long have you been separated from Qu Nan?Do you have 48 hours?Yes, it should be quite a long time.

It's so long, half his life will be gone.

It's just that now Qu Nan was wearing a baseball cap, pressing the upper half of his face, and when he turned his head sideways, Chen Shuang couldn't see his expression clearly.

"Happy Chinese New Year." Qu Nan brushed off the cigarette ash in his hand, and stretched out a paper bag in his right hand, "I'm here to deliver a dog to Lu Shui, and by the way... have a look at you."

"Why didn't you call me?" Chen Shuang asked aggrievedly. It was only at this moment that Chen Shuang realized how much he didn't understand him.I quit smoking for the high jump, but I didn't know that Qu Nan could smoke.

Looking at his hand gestures just a second ago, Chen Shuang firmly believed that he must not have learned it in the past two days, he is an old smoker.

"Have you ever had a girlfriend before?" Chen Shuang asked again, her voice that had been happy all day was useless, her throat was more uncomfortable than the previous pharyngitis attack, and she was holding back a lot of emotions, entangled, unable to tear apart, unable to cough out .

"Almost, I can explain." Qu Nan still didn't turn around completely, it seemed that he just didn't want to show Chen Shuang the front, the pocket in his hand was not answered, he put it on the ground, inside was a big sleeping dog wrapped in thick clothes. Sleepy little white dog.

"Please explain. I didn't say I didn't listen. What's the difference?" Chen Shuang asked again, his throat was so uncomfortable that he wanted to smoke, "Can you give me one?"

Qu Nan paused for a moment, then turned his hand and extinguished the remaining quarter of the cigarette on the wall.He had a cigarette case in his pocket, and a flick of his finger would pop one out, and within a second of lighting it in his mouth, there was a bang, and the lighter illuminated the lower half of his face.

But the cigarette was not passed to Chen Shuang.

Chen Shuang watched him smoke skillfully, one after another.

"I'm sorry, I'm not gay." Qu Nan said abruptly, the fiery orange of the cigarette butt flickering on and off in the dark, "I'm bisexual."

The little white dog slept comfortably in the thick clothes, moving its ears from time to time, not knowing what was happening outside.

"In our freshman year, we met on the field. She is a women's high jumper." Qu Nan smoked a cigarette with his back turned to Chen Shuang. The school approached me, and we kept in touch for a while, and both of them thought each other was nice. Just before we officially became boyfriend and girlfriend, I thought I should tell her about it."

Chen Shuang's thinking ability was darker than the surrounding lights, and he was in a mess. His mood also went out after the induction light, pain, acid, awkward, all kinds of entanglements.It turned out that I had misunderstood it, and foolishly thought that Qu Nan was a straight man. He only said that he was not gay, but he never said that he didn't like boys.

It turned out that he had liked girls before.

"But after I finished talking to her, she couldn't accept it." Qu Nan finished his cigarette and lit another one. He smoked fast, fast and deeply, as if he wanted to push all the nicotine into the alveoli, bringing Tendency to self-destruct, "She thought I was just playing with her, that I lied to her, she said I was gay, but dared not admit it. I don't know why this happened, she said I would find another boy sooner or later, Then find a woman for the sake of carrying on the family line. I said I was not, and she didn’t listen, she thought I was vaccinating her. Others accept homosexuality, but bisexuality is not easy to be a human being.”

Listening to him, Chen Shuang could smell a strong smell of smoke.

"If I am looking for a woman, people will say that you will find a man sooner or later. If I am looking for a man, others will say that you will marry and have children sooner or later. Why?" Qu Nan looked at the stairs, sometimes thinking it was ridiculous, homosexual The road was already difficult to walk, but I just added another level of difficulty.

Being bisexual, he understood from the day of his enlightenment that whether he chose a man or a woman, it seemed to have become a mistake.

"I swear to myself that when I meet the next person I like, I won't tell if I'm killed. I'm afraid that you will doubt me after you know." Qu Nan lowered his head and didn't look over, "I'm sorry, I stole the phone Listen, I don't understand you at all, I just listen to what you say. Because I'm jealous of him, why should the person I saw first like him, and still be with him, and still be so determined...I put your Write down everything and wait for you to break up. As long as you break up, I can do it. I can pretend to be the person who understands you best, create an image that you like the most, and make you like me slowly. In fact, I am not at all I don't want to wait, my only bottom line is to wait for you to break up, and finally, you broke up, and then there is everything that happened after that. I'm sorry, even if you go to a toy store to work part-time, I know, I followed you. "

The little white dog moved in the paper bag, and Chen Shuang's body shook obviously.

"What do you mean, you saw it first?" Chen Shuang asked, the shadows around him disappeared, and he seemed to be pulled back to that scorching summer, with the cicadas singing and the sun mottled, and he was sweating profusely.

"When I was in my sophomore year, you came here just after school started." Qu Nan looked at the smoke burning, as if watching a countdown, "You came several times, like watching the venue, I have seen you a long time ago, You seem to have been looking around the playground. Then one weekend, you fell asleep on the bench, and I was training, thinking that when you woke up, I would go to ask for the mobile phone number. Later... I found out that you were looking for Gu Wenning's. Why? How can he like you? He doesn't even know which chair you are sitting in, but I can see you every time. Then I thought, no matter whether you have a good relationship or not, I can pry the corner of the wall , I still have a chance."

"You met me back then? So after school started, you pretended not to know me?" Chen Shuang's body was pulled back by his own voice, back into the stairwell.He smiled wryly, how could he be so unlucky, he must be so unlucky, a hundred times more unlucky than being drenched in heavy rain.

The person I fell in love with at the first sight happened to like me too, but because I made a mistake and admitted my mistake, not to mention wasting time, the two of them even got into a fight.It's just that he now understands that what Tao Wenchang said is terrible, it is indeed terrible, Qu Nan is such a thoughtful and well-planned person.

I still think he is innocent.

"Actually, the person I was looking for that year wasn't Gu Wenning, it was you." Chen Shuang had thought countless times about such a big surprise, when would he tell Qu Nan, or treat it as a birthday present? Thinking, it would be the current situation, "I only saw someone jumping high, biting a necklace pendant in his mouth during the high jump, and when I went to look for it later, I thought it was him. I didn't know I had made a mistake until you participated in the competition last year. "

The cigarette in Qu Nan's hand trembled violently.

But right away, he habitually suppressed his emotions, or in other words, he didn't know how to show them at all.

"It turned out to be like this." He also smiled wryly, unable to express what was in his heart. He wanted to laugh so much that he was being joked by the heavens every time, but this time the joke was a little too big, and in the end he had no choice but to pretend Relaxed, "I'm sorry, I lied to you so much."

"So what do you really look like?" Chen Shuang couldn't see through this person, he was in the fog and there was no gust of wind to blow him away.

Qu Nan took another puff of cigarette and let it out long. "I don't know. Go back quickly, your mother and Lu Shui should be in a hurry. I..."

"In two days, we will move." Chen Shuang still looked at Qu Nan carefully, trying to pull him out of the darkness, smoke, and hiding, even if he could only see his outline clearly.But in the end, he bent down and reached for the bag.

"Is there still a chance?" Qu Nan saw him move, "We."

Chen Shuang didn't move, bent over, in a position that was neither awkward nor embarrassing.

"I don't know." Chen Shuang stood up slowly, "I don't even know what kind of person you are, and I'm most afraid that others will lie to me."

"I'm sorry... I see." Qu Nan threw the cigarette on the ground, twisted off the toe of his shoes, and with an unknowable amount of effort, the muscles of his shoulders were stretched, and he finally took a step towards the stairs.

But immediately, he turned around unwillingly, like a wild beast, and quickly walked towards Chen Shuang, towards the only thing he could still hold on to now.He still didn't want to give up, he didn't want to see him again during the happiest months, this time, he pressed Chen Shuang against the wall regardless, cupped his face desperately, and kissed him desperately.

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Brother Chang at this time: Mom and Dad went to see the giraffe again during the Spring Festival...the empty athlete, lonely and cold.