Sorry, it's a different price to be a stand-in

When it was supposed to be sleeping, Lin Zhinan's apartment was brightly lit.

Lu Yunqi sat on the front seat of the sofa, with a majestic posture of "a lady in the palace", and glanced hostilely at Chen Xing from time to time, while Chen Xing was like a little daughter-in-law who has done something wrong, sitting on the side with a bath towel, blinking non-stop Eyes, dare not look up.

Lin Zhinan walked past the two, holding a glass of milk in his hand, and turned to look at them. "Have you finished talking?"

Lu Yunqi was displeased with Lin Zhinan's way of taking Chen Xing in, and stretched out his hand to pull him into his arms.

"Hey... water! The water is about to be spilled!"

Lu Yunqi didn't care whether the water was sprinkled or not, and the shackles on his arms became tighter and tighter, enclosing Lin Zhinan within his controllable range.

Lin Zhinan struggled a few times, but failed to break free, so he could only let Lu Yunqi run amok.

The interaction between the two was seen by Chen Xing, Chen Xing curled his lips and turned to the side, but when he was sitting, he thought of his little wolf dog, tears streaming down his face, stunned Lin Zhinan and Lu Yunqi.

"Why are you crying... I didn't bully you!" Lu Yunqi thought that Chen Xing was showing weakness in the tea.

Lin Zhinan took the opportunity to leave Lu Yunqi's side, coughed lightly, and gave Lu Yunqi a look.

The two came to the kitchen one after the other, closed the door, and sad sobs came from the living room.

"He's broken in love, don't provoke him." Lin Zhinan sighed.

Lu Yunqi was dissatisfied, "You came here to sleep and didn't tell me? I thought you disappeared again, and you took Chen Xing in... You are so brave."

Lin Zhinan vaguely guessed that Chenxing's matter was not that simple, but as a project director, he didn't have a deep connection with the TV station, and he didn't know the specific situation of the TV station.

"It's true that Chen Xing was forced to break up, but he insisted on being with that boy, and was caught by the director's wife. The director's wife was very angry, not only banned him, but even his The family members also know about him accompanying the visitors," Lu Yunqi paused, "His hometown is in Weishan District, you should know where it is."

Weishan District is the most closed-minded place in the country, and it is also the place where the same-sex marriage law is the most repulsive.

Chen Xing couldn't go home anymore, such a thought flashed in Lin Zhinan's mind.

"How is Xiao Ning's situation?" Lin Zhinan hastily changed the subject.

Lu Yunqi naturally took the milk cup from Lin Zhinan's hand, bent down and turned on the faucet, "He is in stable condition, the doctors are too nervous."

Lin Zhinan looked at Lu Yunqi's profile, and thought that it was not just doctors who were nervous.

After Lu Yunqi washed the milk cup, he glanced at Lin Zhinan, "Send Xiaoning to the emergency room, and I'll start looking for you, why didn't you wait for me?"

Lin Zhinan lowered his eyes to look at the texture of the marble top on the countertop, and made up an excuse, "Boss Fu suddenly asked me for something, so I took a taxi and left in advance, and then I received a call from Chen Xing on the way."

"Why didn't I know that you two have such a good relationship?" Lu Yunqi's words had a sour taste.

He always thought that Lin Zhinan was the kind of person who was not easy to get close to, but he didn't expect that Chen Xing would live in Lin Zhinan's house so easily. What's even more strange was that the two of them looked very harmonious.

"I'm not interested in people who are younger than me, and I take him in just to look at him poorly." Lin Zhinan said lightly.

Lu Yunqi really wanted to ask, what about me?Did you just accept it reluctantly when you were with me?

But the question doesn't make sense.

He believed that Lin Zhinan liked him, but there were too many misunderstandings between the two.

It takes time to unravel.

After washing his hands, Lin Zhinan went to the bathroom to brush his teeth again, Lu Yunqi followed behind and closed the door.

Lin Zhinan looked at Lu Yunqi behind him in the mirror, and felt that he was very childish tonight.

Lu Yunqi simply smashed the pot and threw his arms around Lin Zhinan's waist from behind. Lin Zhinan just wanted to turn around, but he stopped him, "Go ahead, don't worry about me."

Such an adult is still like a child... Lin Zhinan complained helplessly in his heart.

But before he finished brushing his teeth, he immediately realized that this behavior was inappropriate, and quickly pushed Lu Yunqi away with a pale face.

"Small, Xiao Ning knows she will be angry."

"Apart from Lin Ning, you don't care about anything, right?" Lu Yunqi's voice became so indifferent that Lin Zhinan thought he was going to do something to him again.

Lin Zhinan subconsciously took a step back, pretending to apologize again, but Lu Yunqi pressed him into his arms, his back stiffened, not knowing how to react.

"...I said that I don't like Lin Ning, Lin Zhinan, you know it! But why don't you trust me, you have to trust your own reason? Don't you think this is unfair to you and me?"

Lu Yunqi hated Lin Zhinan's deep inferiority complex to death, he wished he could put his hand into Lin Zhinan's body and uproot his cowardly and timid thoughts.

But right now, he doesn't know how to eradicate the darkness in Lin Zhinan's body.

He understood that the darkness was caused by the environment in which he grew up, so he could only choose to hug him tightly and not let him hide.

"Let go, let me go..."

"Xiaoxu, when can we talk on an equal footing?"

Lin Zhinan turned his head away when he heard the words, and refused to react to Lu Yunqi's words.

Lu Yunqi's helplessness in avoiding Lin Zhinan reached the extreme, "Look at me, can you look at me? I want to talk to you about the past, talk about our future, Lin Zhinan, can you give me back my Xiaoxu ..."

Lin Zhinan smiled wryly in his heart, equality?What is equality?Two people are inherently unequal. Isn't it ridiculous that you are asking me for an equal opportunity to talk to me now?

Everyone in this world is burdened with heavy shackles, dragging their bodies and walking forward step by step. Lin Zhinan felt that his body was probably full of heavy objects bound by thorns, and no one could rescue him.

Lin Zhinan will never forget those unsightly photos at the party and Lu Yunqi's wanton insults to him. He doesn't think he has done any heinous things, so he must suffer this kind of torture.

Thinking of leaving Lu Yunqi, Lin Zhinan felt indescribably relaxed physically and mentally.

"Your Xiaoxu...he died in Lin Wei's hands," Lin Zhinan curled up his lips, his eyes were clear.

"This year is the sixth year since his death. You came too late."

Lu Yunqi's hand stretched out to pull Lin Zhinan suddenly dropped.

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Lu Yunqi didn't stay overnight, Chen Xing poked his head out of the room in surprise when he heard the door closing.

"why did you leave?"

Lin Zhinan said calmly, "I told you, we have already broken up."

Chen Xing pouted, "Hmph, it's really shameless to come here to pester you even after breaking up! Listen to me, don't get back together, there are so many good men in the circle..."

"Well," Lin Zhinan nodded, "No reunion." The last sentence seemed to be addressed to Chen Xing, but also seemed to be addressed to himself.

Chen Xing yawned and entered the guest bedroom, Lin Zhinan only left a floor lamp, curled up in the corner of the sofa by himself, staring at the place where Lu Yunqi sat not long ago.

I have lived alone and tenaciously for nearly 30 years. It is a lie to say that I don't want to find a harbor that can shelter me from wind and rain.

Lin Zhinan used to be very envious of the young people in the same company who had left their orders.

Two people who are not in the same company chat secretly at work, make dinner appointments after work, and travel together during holidays; those who are in an office romance often secretly poke and stuff everyone with dog food, today's couple's shirts, tomorrow's couple's watches, I can't wait to have a whole lot Tired of being together all day.

It seems that everyone and their lover are born with a soul fit, a match made in heaven and earth.

And I was not so lucky.

Whenever Lin Zhinan wanted to express kindness to another person, he always thought of the tragedy of being betrayed in the future. He thought that if he experienced it again, he might die.

Besides, he is already old, not at the age where he can afford to spend his energy to play love games.

To die alone, at least the only dignity can be retained.

But now that Lu Yunqi even wanted to break his only protective shell, Lin Zhinan would absolutely not allow this.

He has nothing left to lose.

The next day, Lin Zhinan hung up Dr. Qin's number and showed up at Dr. Qin's office with his things in the afternoon.

Doctor Qin was writing something, when he looked up and saw him, he immediately laughed.

"I thought you would never come again." As he spoke, Doctor Qin pointed to the sofa, "Sit down."

Doctor Qin's assistant brought tea for the two of them. Lin Zhinan thanked him, took a sip, and casually praised the taste of the tea.

Doctor Qin sized up Lin Zhinan, and came to a conclusion, "Why have you lost so much weight recently, is there any discomfort?"

Lin Zhinan put down his teacup and shook his head, "I don't feel anything, maybe... I'm too tired recently, so I can't feel it."

"You, you always don't take good care of yourself. The premise of taking good care of your brother is to take good care of yourself. Don't you understand such a simple truth?" Doctor Qin said helplessly.

"I know——" Lin Zhinan's tone sounded like a child who deliberately sings a different tune, "Look at how healthy I am now, and I have been persevering for my brother."

When Dr. Qin heard this, the smile on his face restrained a little, "Persist for my brother? You should live for yourself."

Dr. Qin recalled that when he first gave Lin Zhinan psychotherapy, he was in a very bad state of mind, and even hypnosis was difficult to accept, because his psychological defense consciousness was too strong, and he didn't trust anyone at all.

Seeing Lin Zhinan getting better gradually, Doctor Qin was happy, but also extremely worried.

She could feel that the treatment of Lin Zhinan hadn't got to the bottom of it. There were many things hidden in Lin Zhinan's heart. These things were about work, about Lu Yunqi, and most of them were about his younger brother Lin Ning, except himself. .

She felt that Lin Zhinan, who consumed himself for others like this, might collapse anytime and anywhere, even though he looked normal now.

"Doctor Qin, I'm leaving here," Lin Zhinan handed the farewell gift to Dr. Qin, "Thank you for helping me for so long."

Doctor Qin was taken aback, "So suddenly... did something happen?"

Lin Zhinan shook his head, "It's just a normal job transfer, don't worry."

The two chatted a lot, and finally Dr. Qin sent Lin Zhinan away worried.

When she returned to the office, she realized that an unexpected visitor had come to the office.

"Mr. Lu."

Lu Yunqi turned around, "Doctor Qin, I need your help with something."