Sorry, it's a different price to be a stand-in

Memories are one thing that will make you sad, and you will never get tired of it.

Especially after getting drunk and in bed.

The person beside him is fast asleep, even if his back is turned to him, Lin Zhinan can still hear it.

He is too familiar with Lu Yunqi, many years ago, he even engraved his liking into his soul.

But the deepest fear in his heart also came from Lu Yunqi.

The relationship between the two is like a poisonous medicine, which only leaves a small wound that can heal quickly after piercing the skin, but the medicine can kill people invisible.

Lin Zhinan turned over and almost kissed the sleeping Lu Yunqi.

How long has it been since you were so intimate?Lin Zhinan didn't know, he gradually became at a loss.

For a moment, he thought that the big boy he had given his heart to had returned. There was no transaction, no insult, just pure love between the two.

But Lin Zhinan sobered up quickly, and his eyes instantly regained clarity.

Going on like this is not an option, Lin Zhinan lay down again, covering his dry eyes with his hands.

After a while, he reached for his phone and found that it was four o'clock in the morning.

During these years of divorce, he has been living alone, and he has long been used to sleeping alone. Suddenly there is another person beside him, which makes Lin Zhinan unable to sleep at all.

He put on a nightgown and got up, and walked lightly to the balcony to smoke.

"Crack!" The flame pierced the silence of the night, and the flames burned a faint white smoke.

The smoke was inhaled into the nasal cavity and slowly poured into the body, allowing Lin Zhinan's brain to be emptied for an instant, and his fatigue was also reduced by half.

The night view of the star hotel is unique, thanks to Lu Yunqi, Lin Zhinan was lucky enough to watch it.

But what he saw was not the night sky, but the quiet and peaceful street downstairs that was empty.

A hearty laugh caught Lin Zhinan's attention. He looked at the alley intently. A girl walked out slowly from the shadow of the alley with the help of a dirty boy. The boy lowered his head and whispered something next to the girl, amused The girl's face was flushed, and she punched the boy indifferently, and the boy laughed even more wantonly - it seemed that there were only two of them in the whole world.

Suddenly the boy tentatively kissed the girl's face, the girl didn't dodge, and the two kissed in the quiet street.

Lin Zhinan was fascinated by the sight, and he didn't think of taking a second puff of cigarette until the two disappeared at the end of the avenue filled with morning light.

The boy and the girl looked to be wearing middle school uniforms, the girl combed her hair, cute and cute, the boy seemed to have pierced ears, and the black earrings were very obvious on the white earlobes.

A good girl plus a bad boy, this is the standard configuration of campus romance novels.

Although the boy was joking with the girl, he looked at her with admiration and seriousness. The girl looked disgusted, but she still held the boy tightly, as if she was afraid that he would be hurt again.

Probably because I have never owned it before, so I feel that I cherish it very much. Lin Zhinan hopes that the two can "escape" smoothly-take their young and ignorant love to escape the pressure of schoolwork, the supervision of teachers and parents, and the supervision of other people. Pointing and pointing, fled to the distance along the rising sun.

"People who love each other should embrace and kiss each other in the sun, instead of hiding like this."

Such a sentence suddenly appeared in Lin Zhinan's mind.

It was Lu Yunqi who said this to him.

At that time, they had not confirmed their relationship, and one day Lu Yunqi suddenly invited Lin Zhinan to watch a movie.

The movie is a real tragedy. It talks about the Middle Ages when witches were suppressed. Someone discovered the secret of two women’s love. One of the suitors of the woman did not hesitate to slander her lover as a witch in order to get her. The witch hunting team arrived at their When they lived in the residence, the two stood at the gate of the manor and kissed as if no one was there.

Same-sex love at that time was also an unforgivable heresy, and witch hunters who claimed to be righteous surrounded them.

The suitor persuades the person he likes not to admit to being gay, otherwise both of them will be killed.

But they continued to spend their time in the midst of the vicious crowd, telling each other love words.

The holy light that belonged exclusively to the angel fell and shone on the two of them, and the tongue of flame wrapped around them, instantly devouring them and illuminating the ugly face of the envious one.

In the second half of the movie, there were mournful sobs in the theater. Most of the people who watched the movie were same-sex couples, and they felt more deeply about the emotions expressed in the movie.

Even Lu Yunqi, who was usually not very serious, had a serious expression, sniffed heavily, and looked away deliberately.

When he looked back, his eyes were red.

When he saw Lin Zhinan's face clearly, he was a little surprised, "You, why didn't you react at all?"

Lin Zhinan only felt that Lu Yunqi was baffled.

Obviously it's just an artistic and tragic commercial movie, there's nothing to cry about.

Even in his opinion, the death of these two people is not worth it. They can't wake up the society, and they can't fight against public opinion.

Lu Yunqi felt that Lin Zhinan's three views were not correct, and the two broke up on their first "date".

But Lin Zhinan felt that those words were not unreasonable, so he remembered them in his heart, never thought that it would be so appropriate now.

Lin Zhinan slowly exhaled smoke into the night sky, and with the gentle night wind, it disappeared without a trace.

Thinking about it now, everything had been foreshadowed, Lu Yunqi's dazzling life was born standing on a tall building overlooking all living beings, and what he thought about was just such a simple and humble thing as living.

The two are destined to be unable to accommodate each other.

The sound of hotel slippers falling on the wooden floor suddenly sounded behind him, and it was Lu Yun who got up.

Lin Zhinan didn't look back, but still looked up at the slowly rising sun in the distance.

He had already finished smoking a cigarette, and he snuffed out the butt in the cigarette case. When Lu Yunqi wrapped his arms around his waist from behind, he could still smell the strong smell of tobacco.

"It's rare, you didn't run away." Lu Yunqi rested his chin on Lin Zhinan's shoulder. After speaking, he buried his head in Lin Zhinan's nightgown, and took a deep breath of Lin Zhinan's smell.

"You smell so good."

Lu Yunqi's voice was vague, with the laziness and softness unique to early morning.

Lin Zhinan let out an "um", not knowing what to say.

"I thought you were gone again..." Lu Yunqi rubbed Lin Zhinan's side face, wanting to stick to him, "Why didn't you wait for me..."

Lu Yunqi felt aggrieved, something Lin Zhinan didn't expect, he thought Lu Yunqi had nothing but resentment towards him.

Maybe he hasn't woken up yet, or he thinks of himself as someone else again.Lin Zhinan looked down at his fingers, hesitating whether to remind Lu Yunqi who he was.

Before he could speak, Lu Yunqi murmured: "...Xiao Xu, don't quarrel with me, okay?"

Lin Zhinan's back stiffened, and his memory invaded his mind uncontrollably.

"Xiao Xu" is the nickname Lu Yunqi gave him.

The summer vacation of the interns who belonged exclusively to Lu Yunqi was coming to an end, and the company started its autumn recruitment. Lu Yunqi pestered Lin Zhinan to look at the company's resume together.

Lu Yunqi didn't have much social experience, he just wanted to join in the fun and harass Lin Zhinan who was concentrating on his work when he saw funny names.

Due to Lu Yunqi's status as the chairman's son, Lin Zhinan took the trouble to listen to him share interesting things with him.

Seeing that Lin Zhinan was getting impatient, Lu Yunqi cheekily leaned over to his side, and said very confidently: "Brother Lin, your family must like the south very much. Look, the four directions of southeast, southeast, northwest, why did you choose the word south?" Well, Dean Lin must have his reasons."

This conclusion makes Lin Zhinan dumbfounded—it can’t be said that they are exactly the same, it can only be said that they are not related.

He put down the resume in his hand, and patiently explained: "I changed the name myself, originally it was Lin An."

Lu Yunqi let out a "puchi" laugh, "Lin An? That's really a bit dirty..."

"I also have a younger brother named Lin Ning." Lin Zhinan talked about his younger brother, his smile faded a little, "he is about the same age as you, and he can introduce you to each other when he has the opportunity."

Lu Yunqi didn't notice anything unusual, so he nodded and ran back to the sofa to play games.

After a while, he ran to the desk again, holding up the writing on the tablet for Lin Zhinan to read.

"Brother Lin, I think this word is quite suitable for you."

Lin Zhinan raised his head in a strange way, and a square word "Xu" broke into his eyes.

He is good at Chinese, and he knows what the word means without reading the explanation.

This word represents warmth, but it has nothing to do with his life.

Even though he knew that he shouldn't have expectations, Lin Zhinan still looked into Lu Yunqi's eyes and asked, "Why?"

Lu Yunqi scratched his hair, and smiled embarrassedly, "Look, brother Lin, there are sun and water in this word, and there is another sentence, the sun is nothing to compare, it means that you are as positive as the little sun, water If it... can refer to the company's water pattern logo, the word 'sentence', you are engaged in advertising work, and communication is essential for advertising, so if you think about it, it can be explained."

Lin Zhinan looked at Lu Yunqi quietly, and finally agreed to Lu Yunqi's request to call himself "Xiao Xu".

Although his explanation doesn't make sense.

When Lin Zhinan heard the name "Xiaoxu" again, his heart was empty.

He thought, he really is a creature only fit to live in the shadows, he just stole a random name, fell in love with each other, and got the cruel punishment.

He dared not, never again.

Lin Zhinan's eyelashes trembled, and his blurred vision gradually became clear in the memories.

He easily broke free from Lu Yunqi's embrace, and turned to face him.

Being pushed away by Lin Zhinan, Lu Yunqi was very surprised. He thought that Lin Zhinan would not ask for trouble in such a good atmosphere.

He thought that Lin Zhinan hated and nostalgic for the past just like him, and wanting to escape would be a heart-piercing pain.

All he saw in Lin Zhinan was calmness and rationality—it seemed that the lively and smiling Lin Zhinan no longer existed.

"Xiao Xu?" Lu Yunqi looked at Lin Zhinan blankly, still unwilling to believe that the warm atmosphere just now was just his imagination.

Lin Zhinan's words hammered his heart into the ground. He said, "Mr. Lu, please find out who I am. Please call me Lin Zhinan, thank you."