After being dressed as the evil god

The huge shadow of the river god slipped away, and the water ghosts cowering in the remnants resurfaced.

This long river nourished countless creatures along the banks of the river, but the bottom of the river was desolate and weeping endlessly.

We died in the river, we were swallowed alive by snakes, our bones were not collected, and our death day was not sacrificed - people will sacrifice to kill our gods on that day, and then bring us a new life. companion.

We are the wife of the river god, we are golden boys and jade girls, and we have gone to enjoy the blessings with the master of the river god, so no one dares to sacrifice to us.

Our family members sometimes come to the river to cry, and the smell of their tears is washed away by the river.After they also died, there were no more tears, and we were still sinking at the bottom of the river, soaking in the icy cold water, looking up at the dim light above.

Every slip of the snake shadow is a reminder of the pain, and the pain has turned into irresolvable resentment and sorrow. The flesh and blood are gone, and the bones are broken. It is a nightmare that we can never get rid of.

……

Unwillingness and resentment are entangled in the depths of the soul, so it is difficult to enter reincarnation; timid, shrinking, repeating the hopelessness of revenge, so there is no escape.

Until time washes away, even the memory is blurred, and all the bitterness and injustice are wiped away.Admit it, admit your weakness; accept it, accept your shrinking.

The fool is fooled, and the weak is oppressed.Isn't this always the case?Isn't this the law of the world?

Nothing needs to be uneven.Those pains are natural and should be endured.Don't be obsessed anymore, just enter reincarnation like this.

The faces of each soul were washed away by time, like rocks being polished by river water to remove all sharp edges and corners.

"I am Mrs. River God..." The water ghost in the wedding dress murmured plaintively, "The River God protects both sides of the river, and I brought good weather and good weather for my family..."

"No, no!" A soul with a similar figure said, "No one needs the protection of the river god! When the village was built beside the Jiuqu River, there was no river god! When the fields were cultivated, there was no river god! When it diverts water and builds dams, there is no river god!"

"People appreciate me...people respect me...my family will be fine..." the water ghost murmured with a blurred face.

"People will forget you, people can't remember who we are. People only remember Mrs. River God. Those who love you will only suffer more, and those who hate you will be happy!" The soul's eyes were burning with blazing fire .

The water ghosts roared fiercely, and their pale eyes suddenly turned black: "You are lying! You are also the wife of the River God!"

"I am not Mrs. River God, there has never been Mrs. River God!" The flame in the soul's eyes became more intense.

...Last year was full of joy, all thanks to God's grace...

no no!It's all lies!No grace!

...Now there is a bride, and a golden boy and jade girl, grateful for God's virtue, willing to serve...

Wrong, wrong!It's all nonsense!No one volunteers!

From the wife of the river god to the golden boy and jade girl; from the wedding ceremony to the blessing of the river god.

It's all the lies of the incompetent, all the stupid words of the weak!

Her eyes seemed to be burning, and that power caused all the water ghosts who approached to stop in front of her, but it was not resentment, pain, or injustice.

Who are you kidding?

Can deceiving yourself make your life better?

"But, but..." The child's soul flew into her arms, "Sister, I stayed at the bottom of the river for a long time. I'm so cold, I'm in pain... If it's not what I should be, then how can I Don't let yourself go crazy, in this place where you have to watch the shadow of the river god day and night?"

"If you can endure such pain, why can't you be angry?"

It’s not that there’s no resentment, it’s not that there’s no pain, it’s not that there’s no grievance.

Don't be afraid, burn them all into anger!

"I want to be born here. In the next life! In the next life! In the next life! I will always be born here until—" "—all grievances and grievances will be flattened, and the river god will perish!"

……

One life, two lives, three lives... She was reincarnated here in every life, became the wife of the river god in every life, and died in the river or in the mouth of the snake in every life when she was less than ten years old.

She will always be born here.

One year, two years, three years... ten years, a hundred years... the water of the Jiuqu River is still flowing, and the annual river god sacrifice is still going on.The wooden platform that is both an altar and a ferry has been renovated countless times.The rotting wood fell into the river, leaving a last muffled sound, and was swallowed by the river.No one will remember them, and new wood will take their place, supporting the altar, decaying, and being swallowed by the river.

Except for the day of the River God Sacrifice, almost no one would come to this ferry.But now, a crazy woman with half-white hair was sitting on the ferry.

She has been sitting here for a long time, since 14 years ago, she has come and sat here every day.That year's River God Festival happened to be her village's turn.

She stared at the river in a daze, and muttered vaguely: "My ah Qiu is the golden boy of the river god...my ah Qiu went to enjoy the blessings of the river god...my ah Qiu... ..."

A large bird flitted across the sky, and a shadow slid across the river.

Her turbid eyes suddenly lit up, and she bent down to get close to the water: "Aqiu! Aqiu! Have you come to see A Niang?"

After a long time, the surface of the water is still so calm, and the waves are always rushing downward.She straightened up in disappointment: "My Ah Qiu is the golden boy of the River God Master... My Ah Qiu went to enjoy the blessings with the River God Master..."

The shadows on the ground slowly turned from west to east, and the light in the sky gradually changed from bright to dim.

She approached the water again and again, getting up in disappointment again and again.

Those are the shadows of flying birds, leaves falling into the water, fish and shrimps in the river...these are not her Aqiu.

"Aqiu, Aqiu, when will you come back to see my mother..." She bent down and put her face close to the water.

"Aniang, let's go see you...Ah, let's go see you..." Her face was getting lower and lower, and her upper body almost fell off the wooden platform.

"Auntie," a hand held her, it was a young girl, a pair of dark eyes, like the deepest pool, under the pool, suppressed the most blazing flame, "It's time to go home."

"I'm going to see Aqiu..." the crazy woman murmured.

"Tomorrow, come back tomorrow." The girl coaxed her and slowly led her away from the ferry.

"My Aqiu is the golden boy of the river god...my aqiu went to enjoy the blessings with the river god..."

The girl didn't speak, and walked slowly back to the village with her.

The light at twilight is a soft and warm golden orange, and misty cooking smoke rises from the houses, and the young children chase each other while singing: "Be protected by God, the weather will be good; if you hate God, the floods and droughts will repeat."

The crazy woman stood at the entrance of the village, and suddenly stopped: "Is Ah Qiu still cold? Is Ah Qiu still hungry?"

"Auntie?" the girl looked at her and asked.

"I want to go home first." The crazy woman said, she seemed to have regained some sense of clarity, but in the blink of an eye she repeated, "My Ah Qiu is the golden boy of the River God... My Ah Qiu and the River God Blessed to go..."

The girl didn't speak, she sent the crazy woman home, and she walked home slowly.

As soon as she opened the door, she was stunned.A few strangers were huddling together in a small house, she recognized them, and they presided over the annual River God Festival.

"Isn't there still five months... to the River God Festival?"

"Master River God entrusted his dream, his power has increased greatly, and he needs to celebrate with happy events, so we will change it to two sacrifices a year." The messenger of River God said word by word, he seemed to be speaking very hard, but he was very firm, When they arrived at Xiaowan Village, they couldn't gather anyone, they only offered a pair of golden boys and jade girls, and now they are... gone."

"Master River God is merciful, and promised to make up for the lack of Mrs. River God this time, so I won't blame you again."

The girl fell silent, a deep but violent flame was burning in her dark eyes.

The next day, she moved into an empty house with a lock.

The next day, the mad woman was holding some clothes with some cakes wrapped in them.

She went to the ferry again and waited there all day.

"My Aqiu is the golden boy of the river god... My aqiu has gone to enjoy the blessings of the river god..." She murmured, her cloudy eyes seemed to be awake and confused at the same time, "Ah Qiu don't cry, Ah Qiu is not afraid, A Niang came to see you, A Niang brought you clothes..."

Holding the old clothes and cakes, she jumped into the river.

……

Another year of River God Festival.

People carried the wedding procession from the entrance of the village to the river.

This year's Mrs. Heshen was very quiet, she only asked one question: "Where is Aunt He Xi?"

The person who answered was stunned for a moment, and then remembered that He Xi was the name of the crazy woman in the village.

"She jumped into the river." The person who answered was calm and numb.

The crazy woman has been crazy for so long that people have almost forgotten her name, so crazy that people have no energy to take care of her.Wouldn't it be a relief for her to die in the river?

But when the person who answered raised his head, he saw a pair of eyes that seemed to be burning. He felt pain in the eyes, but it was not because of the flames in the eyes, but the pain that he already had but was deliberately forgotten .

It seems that the flame burned through a thick and numb shell, and the pain that had been buried for a long time came out of the crack!

But the pain was so alive it almost burned with the flame!But there's still something missing... there's still something missing...

…Being protected by God, the weather is good; God is disgusted, and floods and droughts are repeated…

... Mrs. Heshen is going to be the wife of Master Heshen, and the golden boy and jade girl are going to go with him, to enjoy the blessings of Mrs. Rivershen...

... Whether you believe it or not, it will make no difference.However, if you believe it, you will feel better...

Yeah?is that so?

But she chooses pain!

That pair of black burning eyes looked at the huge shadow under the river.

I remember you, River God.

I remember the pain of being separated from my family; I remember the pain of not being able to breathe, the flesh being digested, and the bones being crushed; !

I have died in your mouth nine times.

I remember you, there has never been a river god!Some are just river monsters!

……

The boat offering sacrifices to the river god drifted towards the middle of the river, and the music on the bank was both joyful and sacrificial.

The boat drifted away along the current, gradually passed a twists and turns, and was hidden by the mountains, so it could no longer be seen.

The sacrificial offering was over, and people stood on the river bank, blowing music and singing sacrificial songs in a dull manner.The sacrifice to the river god is over, but this is a farewell song.

But suddenly the river surged.

"Water, water... look at the river!" Someone asked in horror.

The river was tumbling violently, one wave higher than the other, ferocious but irregular. Sometimes two high waves collided with each other, and the water splashed and fell, like an intermittent torrential rain.

"River... Master River God is angry!"

"Then... what is that?!"

A giant snake with a head as big as a house suddenly raised its upper body from the river, and the rest of its body was hidden in the river and rolled crazily.

A pale hand broke out from the snake's belly, swiped downwards, and in the ear-piercing sound, cut open the snake's belly!

The wedding dress is like blood, and the eyes are like fire.

The pain of the ten lives, the resentment of the ten lives, and the anger of the ten lives converge into a monstrous ghostly aura!

You like sacrifices, don't you?

The majestic resentment condensed into dark clouds, covering the sky.

The wound on the snake's belly had begun to heal, and the cold snake's eyes were burning with anger. When the snake's tail swung, it was slammed down by the huge waves with great power.

You will be angry too, won't you?

The cold ghostly air permeates every inch of the place, keeping all the waves out.

There was a mocking look in the giant snake's cold eyes, and the snake's tail raised up again, and it slammed down towards the sacrificial place where the people were.People looked desperately at the snake tail that could destroy mountains and rocks.

The suffering of the weak is not worth caring about, is it?

The dark clouds of resentment descended suddenly and touched the river surface. The Jiuqu River began to freeze instantly, and the waves were frozen into weird sculptures. The ice layer quickly spread to the giant snake, and the thick snake tail that was about to fall was frozen in the air, with sharp and hard scales There are blue-black icicles on the top, reflecting cold and sharp light.

The giant snake's muscles bulged, its head and neck broke through the ice layer, its abdomen contracted, and when it raised its head, a corpse of a wedding dress that had not yet melted appeared in the snake's mouth.There was cold malice in the snake's eyes, and the snake's credit was twisted!The broken corpse fell into the river, and the condensed resentment and ghost energy dissipated in an instant.

But in those eyes, a more blazing flame ignited.

Pain not only brings fear, but also anger!

More violent resentment rose in an instant, and the wrist wrapped in the wedding dress plunged into the river, and pulled out a pale bone blade from the bottom of the river.

I have never been afraid of you in the first life, I have never been afraid of you in the second life, the third life, the fourth life, even the ten life, and all the countless lives in the future!I will never be afraid of you!

Can endure such pain, why can't you be angry? !

The resentment soaked into the bottom of the river, and countless accumulated grievances roared up!Spread like frost, burn like fire!

There was never a river god!Never need a river god!Why do you have to bend down to worship the enemy who devours your own family, and call yourself a god? !

Countless innocent souls who died in the mouth of the snake and died in the flood looked fierce and entangled this huge river monster!

The snake demon struggled desperately, sending out sharp energy from the scales.

But the fear has faded away, the screams of the innocent souls seem to be crying and laughing, and the deep-seated resentment is entangled with the river demon!We have endured greater pain, why can't we be angry!anger!anger!

We suffer, but the pain is alive.

The majestic ghostly aura condensed on the figure in the wedding gown with burning eyes, she raised the pale bone blade high, and slashed it down!

Is the resentment born of a lifetime of suffering not enough to kill you?

Then the second, third, fourth... I want to watch with my own eyes, the demise of the river god!