come close to me hold me

"Didn't you say you have to work overtime?"

Jiang Yien frowned, and her heart skipped a beat. She should have thought earlier that it was a cover that An Xun made up to let her go away with peace of mind.

"Xiao En, I'm sorry, I lied to you. In fact, I haven't had a shift these two days..." An Xun's tone sounded a bit cramped: "But I sincerely hope that you will spend more time with grandma when you go back."

Of course, Jiang Yien believed that An Xun said "Congratulations", said "go home and stay with grandma for two more days", said "don't worry about me, I have to work overtime", all from the heart.But is it true that what you say is true?Did you actually believe that?

"Sister An, what you say is not necessarily the truth, right?"

An Xun was puzzled: "Otherwise what is it?"

Jiang Yien pursed her lips, blinked her eyes twice, and said cleverly: "It's a love story!"

The other end of the phone laughed dumbfoundedly.

Afterwards, Jiang Yien naturally agreed to the invitation to the New Year's Eve concert happily. This was also a wish she had hidden in her heart for a long time. It was only because she had been rejected before, and she was afraid of involving An Xun's sadness, that she never mentioned it again.Now that the great opportunity is right in front of her eyes, how could she miss it.

What's more, according to the habit of my aunt's house, the reunion dinner starts at three o'clock in the afternoon, so hurry up and take a taxi to go after dinner, and I should be able to arrive before the opening.

With hope for tomorrow, I feel happy physically and mentally. Under the gentle coaxing of An Xun's voice, I gradually fell asleep. I even yawned a few times, and was reluctant to leave the lonely person on the other end of the phone, murmuring in a daze :

"Sister An, are you afraid of being alone? May I sing to lull you to sleep?"

An Xun was startled, and looked at the time, it was already ten o'clock.I had been worrying about the little girl before, and I sat at the dining table after eating until now, and the bowls and chopsticks have not been confiscated.However, she still said "OK" softly.

As soon as the little girl made a sound, her red lips curled up into curved arcs, and Wenxiu's eyes were filled with a deep smile.

It's not because of the warmth, but because the singing voice is really out of tune, and the beat is not beat, it seems that every note disregards the constraints of the five lines, it is crazy and outrageous.If it weren't for being too familiar with the lyrics, An Xun would really not be able to recognize the familiar song "The Moon Represents My Heart".

She has seen Jiang Yien's singing skills before, and she doesn't know where the inexplicable confidence comes from, probably because she is cute and can do whatever she wants.

However, the little girl was probably afraid of being heard by people outside, so she could only hide under the quilt and put the microphone to her mouth to hum in a low voice. Secret language, the song is not easy to listen to, but the sound is pleasant.

Suddenly there was a knock on the door.

"Sister? Are you chanting scriptures?"

Well, she admits she is "beauty in the eye of the beholder".

Jiang Yien frowned, turned up the quilt and cursed in a low voice: "Tsk! You're the one who is chanting sutras!"

An Xun couldn't help laughing: "Go ahead, I like it."

Jiang Yien was delighted, hehehe twice, buried in the quilt and lowered his voice: "Then I will continue."

Then, continue to chant.

After a song repeated twice without beginning or end, the weak whisper was carried away by a wave of tide, and replaced by the sound of breathing like a sea breeze.

Jiang Yien finally coaxed himself to sleep.

An Xun breathed a sigh of relief, even though she coaxed the little girl's crying and complaining in the most relaxed tone, the scratches on the clothes on her chest still revealed her depression and heartache under her peaceful appearance.

Probably only she knew that when she said lightly that Aunt Jiang Yien was not a bad person, what flashed through her mind was a full set of shoulder throws.Now, listening to the little girl's gentle and steady breathing, I finally let go of my heart that has been tugging all night.

After Jiang Yien fell asleep, An Xun turned his microphone to silent mode, turned the volume of the receiver to the maximum, cleaned up the dishes, took off his make-up, took a bath, and finally lay down comfortably in the bed.

Staring at the call screen for a long time, I was still reluctant to hang up, put it next to the pillow, closed my eyes, and left a whisper with tenderness in my heart:

"Good night, cutie."

A whole night was wasted on phone calls, in exchange for two peaceful sleeps.

The concert hall is located on a high ground not far from the river bank. Looking from the square where the main hall is located, you can see the continuous river. Every New Year, a row of red lanterns will be hung along the river bank, and the western-style buildings are integrated into the In the Chinese-style lights, there is a different kind of beauty.

In the winter in the south, there is no snow on the ground, no ice crystals on the roof, and the cold and humid temperature often makes people shiver.Fortunately, heating is popularized now, and there is no need to wrap it into rice dumplings in winter.

In a piano-white car in the parking lot of the square, a pair of white high-heeled shoes were changed after parking. An Xun was wearing a lady's suit and a long coat to keep out the wind. , but also private charm.

The dark lipstick modified the edges and corners of the lips, making the face that was originally as light as tea and gentle as a moon look sharper, and with the cold eyebrows, it finally became a glamorous beauty. .

Perhaps, it was the murderous makeup that condensed last night.

"An'an?"

An Xun paused, looked up at the two people dressed in red and rich clothes in front of him, and was stunned: "Li Min? Why don't you..."

"What? Can't we cultivate our sentiments?" Su Wen hooked Li Min's shoulder and raised his chin.

Li Min cast a disgusted look at the people around him, turned around and asked, "An'an, aren't you going in?"

"She must be waiting for the daredevil!" Su Wen snorted, and took two steps up the stairs, wrapping his arms around Li Min's neck: "Let's go in first!"

An Xun looked at the backs of the two, and sighed with a smile. It took the two people who love each other so much ten years to understand each other. Is it just a matter of time, or God's tricks.

Desire to sigh others, what about yourself?

Looking away, my heart was filled with a little girl again.Glancing at his watch, he saw that it was only 15 minutes before he left the venue, and he didn't send a message to urge him. He found a conspicuous place in the square and waited. Who knew that it was the opening, and the little girl hadn't been seen for a long time.

Jiang Yien finally dragged the suitcase into the taxi until it was dark, anxiously leaning on the back of the front seat and urging the driver to drive faster.I wanted to send a message to An Xun to tell her that I would be late, only to realize that I forgot to charge my phone last night, and I hadn't looked at my phone all day, only then did I know that it had turned off automatically.

Unlucky things always come in piles. The driver didn't have a matching charging cable, and he left the charger at grandma's house in a hurry. Now, I can only be anxious, with tears in the corners of my eyes.

She thought, she was crying because she was anxious, not because of the burning pain in her calf.

There is a reason for leaving the house so late.After the reunion dinner, she was accused by her grandmother Xingshi.

"I didn't believe what your cousin said yesterday. I only found out after asking you Professor Chen today. So, did you really run to block others?"

Jiang Yien originally thought that this matter was over, but he never thought that his grandma would call Grandma Chen to find out everything about it.She knew that Grandma Chen must have only said the good part, so when she was asked about blocking the knife, she wanted to quibble and struggle.

But grandma didn't believe it any more.

"Okay, you haven't, then let me see your back..."

This sentence was squeezed out of the choke by the old man with tears in his eyes.

Jiang Xueer is nearly eighty years old, and was also a doctor in the county hospital when he was young.After the divorce, he worked hard alone to bring up a pair of children.Daughter Jiang Han, also known as Jiang Yien's mother, is the pride of her life, but also the pain of her life.So she regards Jiang Yien as a granddaughter as a treasure.

The moment when I took off my granddaughter's clothes and confirmed the scar on the middle of the shoulder blade with my own eyes, there was only a deep pain in my heart, and tears fell like rain in an instant.

"Your mother's unfilial daughter has already sent me a white-haired man to a black-haired man. You... how can you not cherish your life so much!"

"You... If something happens to you, you let me... How can I go to see your mother with peace of mind..."

Jiang Xueer was heartbroken.

Jiang Yien knew that her grandma loved her, and because of her love for her, she was afraid that she would be said to be a child without a tutor outside, so she was strictly disciplined.When I was young, I was bullied by my classmates and dared not tell the truth. My grandmother mistook her for being naughty and fighting with others, so she often beat her palms and calves with bamboo sticks.

Today, grandma picked up the bamboo stick again, so she could only roll up her trouser legs, begging:

"Grandma, can you stop thugs today..."

If you slap your hand, sister an will see it.

Jiang Xue'er closed her eyes and sighed deeply, and made up her mind, whip after whip, and fell heavily, seeing the bloodstains printed on the fair and delicate skin, the whipping on her body, and the pain in her heart.

Jiang Yien gritted his teeth stubbornly, his eyes were red, but he held back not to shed a single tear.

She understands what grandma said, and she knows that she shouldn't not cherish herself like this.In the past, she didn't believe that loving someone could really love to the point where she was willing to work hard for it. She also knew that doing so was stupid, and it wasn't worth advocating, let alone praising.

But, she can't help it...

That day, she heard An Xun say: "Because I am omnipotent!" In those cold and gentle eyes, it was clearly the bitterness and helplessness that the person himself had never noticed.

That weak and weak little girl, because she is smart, gifted, and always able to do her own thing well, no one has ever worried about her, and no one has ever cared about her, so in the end, even she herself believed in the phrase omnipotent.

But Jiang Yien can clearly see her bravado, her fragility, her gentleness, how can she be willing, how can she bear the heart, let her continue to be alone, and continue to bear the brunt of it.

When the last whip fell, she also fell to her knees in pain, with her head bowed, tears in her eyes, like a stick in her throat, and a helpless and miserable wry smile at the corner of her mouth.

"Grandma, I love her..."

Grandma, you don't know, Sister An is worth it.

She thought, she has no regrets.

As for later, whether grandma was moved by her persistence or defeated by her stubbornness, it doesn't matter whether the falling bamboo stick means approval or giving up.

She only heard one sentence:

"I also reminded you on behalf of your mother, you can go the rest of the way by yourself."

After Jiang Yien left, Jiang Xueer sat alone for a long time, unable to calm down, only left a deep sigh.The stubborn appearance of the granddaughter is really too much like the daughter back then.

And the thing she regretted most in her life was forcing her daughter to give up her stubbornness.

For the sake of saving face, Jiang Xueer forcefully forced Jiang Han to marry her in person, and even forced her to pass the test tube, and gave birth to a daughter with her husband in the marriage.Jiang Han was finally abandoned by his lover, and he thought he deserved it. He was on the verge of collapse several times, until he saw his daughter's soft and cute smile, and his cold heart recovered a little bit of warmth.

Yien Yien is also a gift.

She resigned to her fate, she gave up her stubbornness, and with the man who also gave up her stubbornness, she pretended but sincerely created a healthy family for this child in the eyes of the world.

They reached a consensus, that being the case, it would be better for adults to collapse than children to collapse.

Jiang Han didn't blame her mother until the end of her life. She knew that it was not her mother's fault alone, but an era's fault.Under the nine springs, thank God, my daughter no longer needs to be bound by the world, and no longer needs to spend her whole life without being loved.

As for Jiang Xueer, she also used all her life's grief to understand her daughter's phrase "love is love". Today, she beat Jiang Yien not because she feared homosexuality, but because she feared that the only blood left by her daughter would also leave her.

In the end, she stopped because she knew that no matter what, she could no longer stop her granddaughter from loving what she loved.

If back then, she knew that her daughter's life would be fixed at 38 years old, how could she have the heart to torture her to the fullest of her youth, just in exchange for a nothingness and stability in old age.

"Hanhan, it's my mother who is wrong, it's my mother who is sorry for you..."

"Can you forgive mom?"

Holding the photo of her daughter's death, the debt that had been buried for decades finally also cried out in tears.

The concert has reached halftime.

The people on the cusp, from eagerly anticipating to being depressed and persevering, have been blown to the point of death, dialing the same number over and over again, but what comes from the other end is always the same cold sentence:

"Hello, the call you dialed is temporarily unavailable..."

Seeing that the concert was over halftime and An Xun didn't come in, Su Wen felt something was wrong, and when he and Li Min came out, they were surprised to see An Xun still standing where they were.

"What's the situation, Jiang Yien hasn't come yet?"

An Xun looked at the river bank in the distance, watching the cars go by and people going, with a sad expression on his face.A heart, already scorching hot from the beginning, has been consumed to desolation, no matter how exquisite the makeup is, it can't hide the haggardness.

Not to blame, but to panic.

During the two and a half hours of dejected waiting, she thought of thousands of reasons, but she never dared to touch that one.So far, I have to touch it.

"Su asked, can you call the police for me?"

She didn't look back, she was still looking at the road that the girl would pass by at any time, her voice was cold and low, and her dry eyes showed stubbornness and persistence.

She didn't lose her mind, or in other words, she was trying to suppress her fear, desperately trying not to lose her mind.

Li Min frowned, and said in relief: "An'an, don't worry, Jiang Yien will be fine at such an adult, maybe it was delayed by the traffic jam..."

"I can't get in touch with her, can you call the police for me?"

An Xun repeated, and finally heard a little helplessness and pleading.She knew she might make a fuss out of a molehill, and she pleaded that it must be a fuss.

"then you……"

Su Wen looked at the frighteningly depressed expression, as if he saw An Xun standing on a thin thread that could break at any time, as if he was about to collapse in the next second.

"I'll wait here for her."

She believed that Jiang Yien would come, she would definitely come, she believed that that little girl would never leave her alone.

Li Min glanced at the time and suggested: "Well, you must pass the highway around the city to come to the concert hall. Wenwen and I will look for it along the way. You wait here and don't move. Let me know if you have any news." Xin'er, if it doesn't work, let's call the police again, shall we?"

An Xun didn't say much, just moved his lips and teeth slightly, and responded in a low voice: "Thank you."

Su and Li exchanged glances, and quickly drove on the road. Unexpectedly, as soon as they got on the highway, they heard the news broadcast in the car:

"There was a rear-end car accident on the Ring Expressway, and the number of casualties is not yet clear."

Shuang Shuang's expression sank, and he accelerated the accelerator to rush to the place where the incident happened.

"Minmin, stop!" Su Wen stretched out his hand and pointed at the place where the incident happened diagonally ahead: "Do you think that is Jiang Yien's clothes?"

Li Min immediately pulled over to the emergency driveway, looked around, and saw a girl covered in blood lying in the blood surrounded by the cordon. She was indeed covered with the down jacket she had seen before.Frowning tightly, he swallowed and nodded solemnly.

Su Wen rushed up regardless of 21, Li Min hurriedly followed and explained to the police that they were doctors, so they were able to enter the cordon.The girl lying on the ground was unconscious, her face was covered with blood and she couldn't see her face clearly. She was thin and small, and she looked like she was in her early 20s.

Indeed, very much like Jiang Yien.

Su Wen was almost certain that it was Jiang Yien at a glance, she thought to herself, besides Jiang Yien, who else would have that malnourished yellow hair, who would be so thin that he could be crushed to death with one hand.

So, holding the girl whose life and death are unknown in the blood amber, she burst into tears:

"You damn girl! What do you want An to find her for..."

Behind him, the figure who had just sent a few wounded people to the ambulance, heard the familiar name, his heart trembled like a conditioned reflex, and he followed the sound and approached slowly.

"Brother, what are you doing?"

The author has something to say: Jiang Yi'en: My elder brother's appointment is a bit wrong.

An Xun: Malicious mourning, [-] words of self-criticism.

In the article, "The number you dialed is temporarily unavailable" quotes manual call reminders from China Mobile and China Unicom.

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Thanks to the little angel of the irrigation nutrient solution: 10 bottles of Muyi Chicken Root; 1 bottle of Fusheng_Luomo;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!