come close to me hold me

An Xun leaned his back against the door and let out a deep breath.

Nuo big room, simple but exquisite decoration, the floor-to-ceiling windows are located in the place where the moonlight can just shine into the living room, faint lighting and soft decoration in cool colors.This kind of home, just like its owner, is as soft and cold as moonlight, but shrouded in frost and snow, revealing the biting cold all the time.

She looked at the cabinet by the French window, and she knew there was a violin that had been dusty for a long time.

The child asked her if she liked the violin, but she couldn't answer.She only knew that the violin was that person's dream, and she had personally destroyed that shining woman.

Sensing a dull pain in her heart, she immediately gave up reminiscing about something, put hot water in the bathtub, entered the room, and peeled off the clothes that bound her body layer by layer, until the last layer slipped off lightly, and what imprinted in her eyes was ice. The muscles are like snow, and the hands are fragrant.

Then go back to the bathtub filled with water, turn off the water source, move the water temperature back and forth with your soft fingertips, raise your toes and dip gently, the horizontal line slowly submerges the ankle with clear bone line, and then submerges to the calf.Finally, the whole person is immersed in the water comfortably.She closed her eyes lightly, and leaned her head back against the bathtub, her hair was a little wet, and drops of water occasionally slipped from her forehead to her shoulders and neck.The small speakers by the bath play classical or chanson, enjoying this moment of tranquility.

Over the years, she has gradually achieved success in her career, becoming a senior who is admired and admired by all medical students, a good doctor in the mouth of patients' families, and a model among colleagues.

But even so, in the end, you won't get what you want, and what you want is not what you get.

Suddenly, the sound of a text message was inserted into the music beside her ear. She flicked the water on her hand twice and picked up the phone.

"Jiang Yi'en: Doctor An, would you like to come over and have supper with us?"

That's right, it's that girl again, the girl Professor Chen mentioned to her three years ago.

All of Chen Lao Nianci's students are skilled, but they have never recommended An Xun. The old lady believes in An Xun's ability, but it's not that she doesn't know An Xun's temperament. She can naturally do her own thing well. It is enough to do her own thing well, how can she be asked to take care of others.

But that girl is different, she has a down-to-earth spirit, enthusiasm and simplicity, she is already likable, but for some reason, Chen Nianci loves her very much, and she wants to say the words that Jiang Yien dislikes to hear the most——

Her parents are heroes.

That's right, it's more specific to say a martyr than a hero.

Fifteen years ago, Jiang Yien's parents were also Ren Zhuo's doctors. At that time, Chen Nianci had not retired from the front line. He was the director of the Thoracic Surgery Department at that time, and the most capable student under him was Jiang Yien's mother.At that time, a mudslide suddenly occurred, and Yien's mother followed Yien's father, who was in the emergency room, to the disaster area to participate in the rescue. Both of them died and never came back.

"After her parents left, she became the daughter of our Quan Renzhuo medical staff."

When Chen Nianci was trying to persuade An Xun to take Jiang Yien for an internship, it was these words that moved An Xun. In addition, she was always grateful to her mentor and obeyed her in everything within principles, so she said that as long as the child really had the description So good, naturally there is no need for such a reason, she will bring it.

It was not without reason that Chen Nianci wanted to send Jiang Yien to An Xun's side.

Needless to say, she hoped that a good seedling would follow a good master, but it was because she believed that Jiang Yien would be the only breakthrough for An Xun's iceberg.

"The child's enthusiastic and pure appearance is very similar to you back then."

Up to this point, An Xun didn't dare to think about it anymore, retracted his thoughts, sighed lightly, and looked at the phone again, there were already piles of messages from the child.

But An Xun has always known that all the enthusiasm close to her can't last three minutes, and she has always dismissed this short-term temperature.

Although the iceberg can give people a sense of mystery, there are countless curious people, and there are also many people who approach her with the belief of breaking the ice, but in the end, it seems that everyone acquiesced in her coldness and kept her at a respectful distance.

No one will persist in enthusiasm for a lifetime.

Give up, An Xun, no one can save you.She whispered in her heart and turned off the phone.

On the other side, Jiang Yien has a completely different painting style, blushing and holding his breath, sitting cross-legged on the sofa, his eyes are fixed on the phone screen, holding his breath.

"Why don't you reply? I'm so anxious to death, oops..."

"No reply, no reply!"

"I'll count another five seconds, and if you don't reply, you won't have any skewers!"

“5…4…3…2…1…”

"..."

"Okay, I'll give you another three seconds!"

"3...2...1.5! 1.25!"

"oops!"

Jiang Yien finally threw away the phone and let out a long sigh.

"What's wrong? Dr. An isn't coming back?" Seeing this, Ji Xiaoyu asked Guan.

Wen Jing smiled. She had expected this result a long time ago. After all, when she first rented this house, she also tried to build a good relationship with An Xun, but the result was a cold water.

"Director An is like this. He doesn't like to be close to people. Don't waste your time. Let's eat."

Under a wall, there are two heavens of ice and fire.

The home of the three young girls is always lively. After taking off their white coats and nurse uniforms, they are still young girls. Even if they have barbecue cards and talk all night, they are still full of energy the next day.

An Xun could hear their laughter from time to time, and seeing the ripples in the water, his heart was filled with desolation.

Suddenly, the doorbell rang, and An Xun knew that without the access card on the [-]th floor, he would not be able to get up to the elevator. If this point could not be the property, then it could only be the child.

Don't give up...

She sighed softly, got up and stepped out of the bathtub, wrapped herself in a bathrobe casually, and opened the door.

"Doctor An! Please eat..."

Before Jiang Yien finished speaking, he was completely stunned, almost lost the plate in his hand, and his face flushed red.

The bathrobe is loomingly wrapped in tenderness, her hair is wet and scattered on her shoulders, a drop of dew drips from time to time, a few crystal clear drops of water condense on her well-defined eyebrows, her neck and chest are frosty and snowy, and there is still water The trace left by the slip is like a lotus emerging from the water, rippling and not demonic.

Gan!Is this something I can watch? ! ! ! !She growled inwardly again.

"It's so late, what are you doing?" An Xun calmly asked softly.

"Please... treat you to barbecue..." Jiang Yien raised his plate sullenly, always feeling like he was committing a crime by lifting it up, and felt ashamed when he thought that he couldn't help poking Doctor An's chest for a few seconds just now.

"I'm not used to eating at night, but thank you anyway."

"Oh……"

Jiang Yien lowered his head the whole time, until the door was gently closed, still blushing and standing still, for a long time, moved back to the next door with stiff steps.

"Doctor An really doesn't want it?" Wen Jing looked determined, and looked at Jiang Yien and felt something was wrong: "What's wrong with you? Your face is so red?"

"No, nothing." Jiang Yien stammered.

"You, don't waste your efforts. Dr. An has been like this for a year or two. Su asked Li Min to know her for more than ten years. Who hasn't worked hard on her? Isn't she still lukewarm?"

Jiang Yien's mind went blank, he couldn't listen to anything, it took him a long time to react, he shook his head, and quickly poured out the waste.Diverting his attention, he said, "Doctor Su and Director Li are both Dr. An's classmates?"

"Yeah, Director An and Su Wen are closer. They lived in the same dormitory when they were in college. Don't think that Su Wen is not a regular person, but he actually protects Director An in his heart. Director An doesn't talk much, and I don't like to play tricks on people, and the relationship between colleagues is all managed by Su Wen silently."

"Then, Dr. An, has she always been like this?"

"I heard from Su Wen that she took half a semester off as soon as she started her freshman year. It seemed that something happened to her family. During the month after she returned to school, she could occasionally be seen crying in the bathroom. As for why, Su Wen didn't say anything, but just told us not to mention her family members in front of Director An."

The image gradually emerged in Jiang Yien's mind, the seemingly nonchalant woman quietly closed the bathroom door, finally couldn't hold herself back and squatted down against the wall hugging her knees, broke down her long-suppressed emotions, lost her composure and cried.

Thinking of this, she felt her chest was heavy as if a huge rock had been pressed on it. If she had known her at that time, if she had given her a hand when she still had the ability to cry, would she have been different.

what about now?Are the frozen laughter and tears really completely frozen?Will she also cry quietly in the dead of night, will she also suddenly collapse at a certain moment of poking memories, will she indulge herself occasionally, and cry hard.

Will they be the same?

Wen Jing suddenly remembered something, and exclaimed: "Oh, that's right! You went to her to sign the contract that day, didn't you ask her and the landlord or something?"

Jiang Yien and Ji Xiaoyu looked at each other without speaking.

So Wen Jing continued to recall:

"It was a coincidence that I rented here. I was still in contact with the agent at the time. Later, the landlord and the agent terminated the relationship, and then sent me an email saying that the next door was her daughter, and told me not to bother if there was no emergency. I lived here for half a year. It was only after a month that I found out that the doctor next door was Dr. An, it was amazing! I happened to meet him when I was going out for work."

"Su Wen said that calling her the Iceberg Demoness is not because she can speak harshly. Dr. An is a slow-paced person in life, and she speaks softly. Demoness is just a professional description of her. You guys I also saw that it is a job that is not life-threatening."

Jiang Yien can also see this, Dr. An is really provocative when he speaks softly.

"But Su Wen also said that Dr. An's coldness is not the coldness on the surface. In fact, she occasionally jokes out of the blue and smiles at people close to her. Although I have never seen it before. Dr. Su said, Her coldness comes from the bottom of her bones, and her resistance to human feelings seems to be an instinct."

On this point, Jiang Yien disagrees.How can a person with a cold heart think of warming a stethoscope and sticking it to a child's chest, how can he notice the little paper boat folded by a child, how can he be aware of his subtle emotions, and say those comforts and teachings.

Jiang Yien can't imagine what is the reason why Dr. An always rejects others. He is obviously a person who will not stay out of things. He is obviously a warm and courageous person, but he never reveals his emotions frankly, and never accepts others' concern and concern like.

In the end, it is how painful it is that will force people to hide their original self.

What Jiang Yien wants to do for her, maybe a little more warmth, a little more initiative, will Dr. An change a little bit?Maybe she wouldn't be so lonely?It's just that such thoughts, in the eyes of other old colleagues in the hospital, are all arrogant young and frivolous.

In this world, who can change whom?