come close to me hold me

An Xun has never felt such anxiety in his life.Desire to ignore, one after another, want to stop, overwhelmed and hard to stop.She just pampered her with a soft and warm kiss, which fell on her cheeks that were already blushing and hot.

Jiang Yien is so pure, even the reason for the kiss is to thank her for taking care of her.That girl is upright and aboveboard, and she is not afraid of rumors at all.What kind of tree wants to be quiet but the wind doesn't stop, the tree that is obviously flustered is only herself, the one with a guilty conscience, herself.

She was the one who crossed the line first, she was the one who allowed the danger to approach, and it was she who brought the danger home.

However, it is not Jiang Yien who is in danger, but the high wall in her heart that is crumbling.

Are you excited?She also wanted to deny it.But the body's reaction shattered her mercilessly. She couldn't hold back her tears, gasp, and desire, but the secret that had never been favored had already burst into tears.

She has nowhere to escape, she deserves death.

Jiang Yien, please, stop, don't get any closer.

Please, let me go.

But Jiang Yien couldn't hear An Xun's inner begging at all, couldn't see how hard she had endured, and still rubbed her stomach round and round.An Xun finally couldn't take it anymore, pretended to turn over unintentionally, and finally staggered the hands that seemed to force her to commit a crime.

Jiang Yien thought she was fast asleep, so he calmed down and quietly closed the door and went out.

In the past, she would probably have stayed on, or would have gotten into the bed unscrupulously, but today, she couldn't do it.It was very cold in autumn night, but she opened the window to let in some air.

An Xun's sigh in pain still seemed to be lingering in his ears, lingering; the hand holding the waistband of the bathrobe seemed to be like an arrow on a bow, ready to go.Lying on the bed, she didn't even dare to hug Tian Tian.She knew that every part of her body was extremely sensitive, and if she touched it, it would break the embankment.

Thinking of the pack of cigarettes I saw by accident, I pictured in my mind the appearance of a woman sitting in front of the floor-to-ceiling window, holding a thin lady's cigarette between her slender fingers, and sending it to her red lips. Bright, not as shining as the tears in the woman's downcast eyes.

That picture is so poignant, so cold.

Smoke, after all, is something that hurts the body.It's not that Jiang Yien didn't touch it when he was rebellious in his youth. After being found out by his grandmother and criticized with tears in his eyes, he never dared again.

She knew that An Xun had no habit of smoking, at least, she had never smelled tobacco on her body, not to mention that there was no ashtray in her home.

Would a smart and rational person like An Xun also light up a cigarette to relieve his worries in a moment of confusion?for what?dead sister?Still never want to mention the past.Or, in her heart, there is also someone she can't love?

However, no matter how ignorant she is, no matter how unconstrained she is, she dare not think that An Xun's cigarette was lit for her.

After hearing the sound of closing the door, An Xun breathed a sigh of relief, feeling half warm and half sore in his heart.

Once upon a time, she passed by the middle school gate and saw a couple hugging each other, as if there was no power to separate them, until a young girl walked out of the school gate with cheerful steps, squeezed in between them, and talked and laughed with them laugh.

Through the car window, An Xun could see the girl's glorious expression, confident and full of love.She knows that such a child who grows up surrounded by love has enough ability to love others and enough mood to enjoy being loved.

She could have been, too.

When the green light came on, she stepped on the accelerator, completely forgetting about the girl and her former self.

But tonight, she recalled that happy scene again, her heart ached and wronged until her face was wet with tears, she curled up and buried her head in tears.

If, if I am as bright as 15 years ago.Maybe, I have the courage to let Jiang Yien stay, maybe I have the confidence to face my true heart.

It's a pity, the saddest thing in this world is that it could have been.

A kind of lovesickness, sleepless in both places, a heavy rain suddenly fell outside the window, thunder and lightning flashed, as if deliberately not to let them calm down.Tossing and turning, it was dawn before I knew it.

Jiang Yien suddenly heard An Xun answering the phone, followed by hurried footsteps, and when he went out, he saw that An Xun was already ready to go, and hurried to the door.

"Didn't you not go to work? There is an emergency in the hospital?"

Jiang Yien reacted quickly, helped An find her bag and coat, took a bottle of milk and two pieces of chocolate from the refrigerator and put them in the bag.

"There is a mudslide in the outskirts of the city. The hospital will send a medical team there. I may not be able to come back tonight. You stay at home and don't go out. There should be enough ingredients in the refrigerator. If you are bored, go to Wen Jing and the others..." An Xun continued Overcoat, speech haste.

Jiang Yien suddenly withdrew everything he was about to hand out, his mind went blank after a bang, he didn't hear any instructions, only a certain sentence repeatedly shuttled back and forth in his ears.

Maybe, come back?

An Xun put on his coat and was about to take the bag, but the girl refused to let go, and whispered in doubt: "Yi En?"

Jiang Yien regained his senses, but pulled the bag tighter: "No, I won't let you go."

In emergency rescue, one minute more delay is one more step behind death.An Xun is a doctor, and in times of crisis, even if she puts her own safety aside, she must be urgent. As an intern, she should support and understand.

She understands the truth.

However, she didn't want to let go, she didn't want An Xun to take risks, and she didn't dare to think about how the accident would come.

She will never let her have the chance to become a hero.

An Xun paused for a moment, she knew what the girl was afraid of, she knew how helpless the girl was at the moment, but she couldn't hesitate, she had no time to delay.

"Be obedient and let go."

"I do not……"

It was rare for her to be stubborn, and it was rare for her to be disobedient. Fifteen years ago, she did the same to retain her parents, but in the end, they broke into the wind and rain without looking back.In the past 15 years, she dreamed of that night countless times, begging, pleading, to keep them.Occasionally, she kept them, but when she suddenly woke up, it was a ridiculous dream.

Now, it seems that God has given her another chance to stay, a chance to change reality, no matter what, she can't lose it again.

An Xun closed his eyes and sighed deeply, and when he looked at the girl again, his eyes were already full of water.

"No one wants to take risks, but someone has to go."

She gave up fighting for her bag, since she already had her mobile phone with her, she could leave without her bag.But Jiang Yien seemed to know what she was thinking, and the moment she let go of her bag, she tightly grabbed her hand, and the place where her ten fingers were inserted into her wrist was so hard that it turned white, and in her eyes filled with tears, yes An Xun has never seen a stubbornness and persistence.

"I said I don't want it! I don't allow you to go!!"

"Xiao En!"

"Why don't you go? Aren't you feeling sick? Can you ask for leave? If you don't go, others will go too. Let's just be a deserter, okay?" Jiang Yien softened his tone, almost begging, and burst into tears all of a sudden .

An Xun's heart trembled, she knew that the girl was so scared that she said such a thing, she knew that she was so stubborn because she cared about her.But even so, she was still a little bit disappointed, it would be so selfish to disappoint her.

So much so that I forgot to rejoice——

She is her selfishness.

In the past, it's not that An Xun has never been harsh to Jiang Yien, or reprimanded mercilessly, but as soon as this girl cries, she will immediately soften her heart.But this time, she can't, if she doesn't leave, it's really too late.In the end, almost bearing the girl's pain, she made up her mind and gave a violent blow.

"Jiang Yien! You are also a doctor! Do you know what you are talking about?! Are you worthy of your dead parents?!"

The little girl was stunned, but her hands did not loosen at all.If you can keep her, if you can keep her out of the matter, I'm sorry, she also admits it.

"I let you down, I'm just a selfish coward."

"You..." Jiang Yien's persistence surpassed An Xun's imagination, followed by endless regrets, the dull pain in her heart was driving her crazy, she wished she could slap herself hard on the face.

She shouldn't, shouldn't poke her sore spots in a moment of impatience.

She is so innocent and fragile, how could she treat her like this.

"Xiaoen, I will come back. I won't lie to you. The situation this time is pretty optimistic. We know that there are not many wounded people. You can see that the rain is lessening now. Maybe we can come back today."

"I'll report you safe every hour, is that okay? When I come back, can I bring you your favorite milk tea?"

"Xiao En, I can't let everyone wait for me alone. Can you let me go? My hands are almost unconscious because of your grasp."

"Xiao En, you hurt me."

Yes, you hurt me, you made me feel bad and heartbroken several times.

Hearing that she said it hurts, Jiang Yien finally let go of her hand slowly.She knew that she couldn't keep her parents 15 years ago, and she couldn't keep An Xun today.The tears had already burst, and all the helplessness and panic were shattered at this moment. When she spoke again, the words An Xun had never heard were cold.

"If you lie to me too, I will never forgive you for the rest of my life."

Ann couldn't find any words to comfort her. She knew how powerless it was to retain her. Now, that girl was also trying her best to retain her. How much she wanted to satisfy her and give her a sense of security.

She knew that even if the probability of an accident happening to her was very small, danger was inevitable.If you go this time, there is no way back...

She dare not say, she will not regret.

Admit it, An Xun, your heart is moved.

One and a half months can really be unforgettable.

So, he stepped forward in two steps, embraced the frightened and embarrassed girl, and gently kissed her lips.

It was a momentary touch, and my heart seemed to fall straight from the clouds into the abyss, and then was rushed back to the top of the waves.The first kiss, just like this, happened by accident in the heat of the head.

The momentary contact was too late for warmth, entanglement, or even aftertaste. Whether the girl's lips were cold or warm, soft or thin, she had already separated before she had time to feel them, leaving her mind blank.But for An Xun, it was actually a kind of satisfaction without regrets.

The girl was frightened silly, it was clearly a moment, but it seemed to have a deep imprint in her heart, she felt it very clearly, the cold but soft lips, the faint scent of mint, so close, so close... as if closer , those slender eyelashes can sweep across her face.But why?Why did you leave this kiss suddenly?Complicated emotions are intertwined in my heart, and it is difficult to distinguish between sorrow and joy.

"I owe you an explanation, wait for me to come back."

After the door slammed shut, the people inside were pleasantly surprised.What is confession?Will she stare at me tenderly and tell the reserved love in her heart?Can you look forward to it?Is it okay to have fantasies?She really, really, won't lie to me?Jiang Yien asked countless questions in his heart, as if his heart was about to explode.

After kissing the lips, can you still use the phrase "it's no big deal for a kid to be kissed by an elder"?

Can't, if not, she has no place to escape.

In an instant, there was another flood like a beast, so that he collapsed to the ground.Those who care about have become heroes, can she really be that exception?

"Okay, I'll wait for you to come back..."

If you don't come back, I will go into the wind and rain with you and you.

She looked at the closed door and muttered to herself.

But An Xun, turned around and regretted it.What is no return, what is no regret in this life, where are there so many accidents, she was dazzled by the little girl's terrified gaze, and her reason was disturbed by her bitter and vengeful stubbornness.

She knew that the most direct possibility was that after a day or two, when she returned home, she would have to face the girl she had kissed in a hurry.

An Xun, what are you going to explain to Jiang Yien?

Not to mention that girl trusts you, respects you as her senior, loves you and takes care of you as her own sister, even if that girl really intends, is a cold person really capable of loving her and giving her happiness?

I have nothing to lose anymore, at worst, I will give it a go, at worst, I will lose in a mess, at worst, I will be broken again.

But Jiang Yien is different, there is a difference between her and a young girl like Wen Jing Ji Xiaoyu, she is not so chic, not so ignorant and fearless.She is covered with injuries, she is careful, she has used so much hard work to grow into what she is today, she is so obedient, so warm, she should have the most perfect happiness and love in this world.

If he really teased her and let her down again, how would she deal with herself?Will she, can't survive.

It was too sudden, it fell apart too suddenly.

An Xun's intuition told her that this was not a surprise gift, just like a sudden mudslide, it was a disaster for her and Jiang Yien.

"I'm such a jerk..."

How can it be, how can it be messed up on impulse.An Xun, you are already 31 years old, you can't do everything well and just plant a shade tree for the younger generation, how can you bully the children.

How could you bully Jiang Yien.

Finally, she slapped herself hard.

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