[HP] Harry doesn't think it's his fault

31. Crazy

Harry's first term in the alternate plane went by quickly, almost like his first sixth year.Here I still often hear terrible news about Voldemort, but Harry knows that Voldemort has never attacked the castle before 1998, and he has no relatives and friends outside, so he is naturally not as disturbed as others.Only sometimes, such as passing by the staff lounge and hearing a junior student whose father was killed crying in it, Harry still felt vaguely guilty. He is not alone.

This wasn't his plane, and Harry knew very well that the things he heard had happened before he was born.Harry didn't check the details of the war when his parents were in school. Apart from those about the Order of the Phoenix, all he knew was the whereabouts of Voldemort's Horcruxes. The queen cannot be resurrected, and there is nothing he can do about Voldemort himself who is making waves.But even thinking so, Harry still felt as if he should do something.Taking responsibility is presumably habit-forming, and he's happy to get some time with his parents and not have to be a savior, but Harry's a little uncomfortable with the fact that no one expects him to fight Voldemort.

Besides that, he has other worries, like Christmas is coming.

"Remus and Peter went back to their house, and Sirius came to my house for the holidays. If he doesn't go, my parents will have to disown me." James said, "And you, Harry? Are you looking for your girlfriend? How long have you been here?" Didn't we meet?"

"I've never seen you go to the owl shack, and you haven't even received a newspaper." Sirius must have said in a skeptical tone, "I haven't exchanged a letter with a beautiful red-haired female star for months. , are you bragging?"

"Uh," said Harry, "Ginny's busy with... training."

"I don't believe anyone can be busy enough for that, and whether she is busy or not has nothing to do with whether you write to her or not?" Sirius continued to ask, "You have attended all the lessons, and Dumbledore's work seems to be very important." Nothing to delay you, you still have time to date Evans."

"We (they) didn't have a date!" Harry and James yelled at the same time.

Harry rubbed his temples, "...I just happened to walk with her for a while."

Harry couldn't hold back his curiosity last month, wanting to see what Hogsmeade looked like 20 years ago.He planned to avoid people he knew and go shopping by himself, but he was really worried when Lily was left alone.Unexpectedly, this situation was deliberately caused by Sirius to distract Lily's female partner. When they walked into the three broomsticks, they were forced into a pair of couple's cups (thankfully it's not the period of mistletoe, otherwise it would definitely be that), Harry regretted it from the moment he looked back at James.

"Harry." James was rarely serious, and Harry couldn't help but become serious, "I must tell you clearly: I know what is really important, and nothing that happens here will affect our cooperation and confrontation under Dumbledore in the future." Voldemort, so you don't have to make up lies with me. Want to chase Evans? Yes, we have a fair fight, and don't think you have a chance of winning."

After finishing speaking, there is also a very tough and aboveboard smile.

……

"Fork, you blinded him." Sirius poked Harry, who collapsed into a pile with his head in his arms.

"What's the matter again?" James said angrily. "What's wrong with you, old man?"

It wasn't there, but it's coming soon.

32. Confidence

"Is there anywhere you'd like to go for Christmas, Harry?" Dumbledore asked, and Harry immediately felt a nervous breakdown lingering on the edge of consciousness. "Oh, James invited you?"

"No, uh..." Harry raked his hair, "Can you tell me how things are going with sending me back?"

"I think I've found something relatively feasible," said the Headmaster, and Harry paused. "Given that my purview of access to the Ministry of Magic does not include the Department of Mysteries, we may need to do some trespassing."

"Department of Mysteries?" he hesitated. "The curtain?"

"According to your description of the future, I did some research." Dumbledore said in a calm tone, and there was a pleasant clash of silverware by the wall, dispelling the whispers from the back of Harry's neck, "The curtain you are talking about is' The boundary of all things', including life and death, matter and consciousness, and different time and space. You came here after being hit by the death curse, as long as you take the right method, I believe it can send you back to the place where you should exist."

"Okay." Harry nodded slowly, recalling the scene of Sirius falling back and falling in, the curtain seemed to be blown by a gust of wind, and then calm again.

"But I have to remind you that it's not completely risk-free." The old man looked apologetic, "There are no known cases for reference, and I'm afraid that you can only know the final result after you have done it, and I may not even know. After dying according to the arrangement of my future self, I guess you don't want to hear that I can only let you take risks again."

Harry thought for a moment, "Sir, if you were dropped into another time and space, and there were still things you had to do in the original place - would you try this method?"

The blue eyes stared at him piercingly, and Harry really missed that.

"If you could, so would I," he told Dumbledore. "It was you who gave me the conviction and the path to it, as it has for many. I... know something about you, sir." , I doubted you, but I have passed that stage."

After a moment of silence, Dumbledore said, "It's enviable."

This person lives in self-doubt all his life, and has not been relieved until the end.Harry remembered Dumbledore's cry, which might have lingered in the old man's chest for a century, until after the person died, it was not manifested in the mind of a 17-year-old boy.

"I know Ariana, and Gellert Grindelwald, you told me why you didn't become the Minister of Magic." Harry said boldly, Dumbledore shivered slightly, maybe he was in the headmaster The most human reaction I've ever seen, "I must say this before I leave - you will always be better than Voldemort, sir, much better."

33. World-weary (?

Harry wasn't very good at dealing with Dumbledore's emotional gaze, though, so he grabbed his tea and sipped it.After a while, the headmaster resumed his relaxed tone.

"I have to say, even at my age, it's still a little embarrassing to think about who everyone knows I kissed in the barn when I was 18."

puff!

Harry tilted his head just in time, and sprayed it on Dumbledore's carpet instead of his face, coughing frantically, "You mean...you mean..."

"Oh." The headmaster slightly raised his eyebrows, "It seems that I'm not asking myself."

"I only know that you hit each other very well in the past, and you wanted to rule Muggles with him at the time." Harry hammered his chest hard, "I didn't expect...the book written by Skeeter didn't mention you..."

"My dear Rita is not as imaginative as she thinks she is," said Dumbledore cheerfully and without remorse.

Harry hated his life.

34. Call Dad (because it is Dad!

After he announced that his assignment was done and he would not be returning next term, James had asked about his grades at least five times.

"You knew it when you graduated," Harry said helplessly, stuffing yet another robe into the box, God knows how many things a person needs just to live a normal life for a few months, "nothing can really stop you from realizing your dreams." Ambition, James."

"But I still want to know your opinion!" James said stubbornly.

"Why?" Harry asked, "We've only known each other for a few months, and you barely know me."

"I think you are a reliable person!" James said with a serious face, "What do you think of us? What do you think of us? I want to know, it doesn't matter if you speak badly, just tell me honestly."

Why are his socks always singular? "And will you change it?"

James froze for a moment, "If what you said makes sense, I mean, if you point it out, I will definitely think about it. I want to do better."

"Okay then." Harry put down his half-packed luggage and turned to face his young father. "You're the best people I've ever known, all of you. I'm so lucky to have you."

"what?"

"Keep the idea of ​​wanting to do better and keep going," said Harry. "Go forward bravely. Everything you want is waiting for you in front of you."

"Thank you?" James scratched his hair, "You know, you really seem like an old man sometimes."

"dad."

James frowned, "Don't do that again!!!"

Harry was laughing, folding the sheets wildly so James couldn't see his expression.

35. Leave without saying goodbye

Harry had written out his goodbyes to the others, thinking he'd have to resist, but... he couldn't.Returning to his own time and space is not as difficult as entering the Forbidden Forest, but there are people he misses day and night here, and the deepest misfortune in his life has not yet happened.

"Will we meet again?" Sirius asked unexpectedly before he started reciting.

"Yes," said Harry, feeling as though a mass of truth was about to emerge, "and then you'll know why I'm so secretive."

Sirius moved closer for unknown reasons and poked his chest, "Are you sure."

"Because I know exactly what path you're going to take." Harry took a deep breath, "Sirius—"

"Do you know that you are becoming transparent?"

Ok?

Harry looked down at his hands, through which he could vaguely see the outline of Sirius' feet.

"Can I trouble you?" he said. "Send my packed boxes to the principal's office and say I'm back."

"Where are you going?" Sirius glared at him. "Should I call Dumbledore? Are you all right?"

"Persuade James when he's about to do something irrational, not add fuel to the fire—but I like your motorcycle," said Harry quickly, "and trust Remus, trust Phoenix Friends of the society, don’t carry it by yourself.”

"Flying bikes? Order of the Phoenix?" Sirius reached out to grab him, and Harry backed away. "What are you talking about? What the hell is this—"

Like reaching for a Portkey in motion, Harry felt his navel hooked and his feet lifted off the ground.

It's a pity he didn't get the chance to break into the Ministry of Magic under Dumbledore's leadership.