After I died, I soared

"The ancients shed tears first when they wanted to speak, and the gods were already drunk before drinking. In my opinion, Xiao Nineteen is very sober, but Jiye God seems to have drunk too much. What is he doing in public?" Yun thought Holding the wine bowl, Rong looked at Xiling with a half-smile: "If the emperor doesn't dislike it, why not have a drink like us two poor people. There is no such relaxing time in the sky, right, Your Highness the Nineteenth."

Before Shen Jiming could speak, Xi Ling suddenly held Shen Jiming's wrist tightly, forcing Shen Jiming to look at him.Shen Jiming didn't understand why, most of the time he woke up from the drunkenness, he tried to look like Yun Xiangrong asking for help, but Xiling didn't give him a chance to let his eyes wander.

Seeing Jiye Shenjun's handsome face getting closer and closer, Shen Jiming swallowed and thought, no matter how beautiful a beauty goes crazy, it's hard to bear, shouldn't he come to drink with Yun Xiangrong, Thinking about it, he is also a three-day god at any rate, so what's the matter with drinking with the hottest celebrity in the underworld secretly.After figuring this out, Shen Jiming immediately showed his weakness and said, "I am a god..."

"Little Nineteen." Xi Ling interrupted.

"what?"

"Most of the people in power in the Shen family have poor relationships with their sons and daughters. Among the many princes and princesses, Emperor Haowu Shen Hongyuan is the only one. It is recorded in human history books that the nineteenth son of Emperor Haowu died early. Why did Yun Xiangrong call you Little Nineteen?"

Shen Jiming said with a wry smile: "This matter...it's a long story."

"It's Li Longcheng."

Shen Jiming's mind buzzed, and for some reason, he didn't want Xi Ling to know about his affair with Li Longcheng.Especially after he felt a sense of unrequited love for Lord Ji Ye, he didn't dare to open up his bloody past for Xi Ling to see.Although he, as a god picked up for nothing, has lost face for a long time, he still wants to do his best to leave a good impression on Xi Ling, instead of being an evil person who is unfaithful to his father and brother and unkind to the people .When Xi Ling mentioned Li Longcheng rashly in front of him, Shen Jiming was embarrassed for a while, and only vaguely said: "It's all in the past, who can say for sure."

Maybe it was because Shen Jiming's embarrassment was too obvious, or maybe it was Yun Xiangrong's kindness to help people out, Xi Ling finally let go of Shen Jiming's wrist, and lowered his eyes lightly.Yun Xiang smiled and said, that's right, why bother to keep mentioning those who have passed away, come, come, come, give us the Lord of Silent Night too.

Xi Ling had no intention of lingering on fine wine, and the feeling of fear in his dream was lingering. He hadn't had such a headache for many years.He thought he should sort out his relationship with Shen Jiming, whether he admits it or not, all his abnormalities point to a possibility.If you couldn't see it before, you should be aware of it now.

Lord Silent Night is a good hand at stirring up the atmosphere, whether it is a serious dust-cleaning banquet or a private drink, if he is invited to be present, he can forcefully handle lifeless funeral affairs.Yun Xiangrong expressed regret, he had been in the underworld for a long time, and it was rare for someone as lively as Shen Jiming to chat with him, who knew that Xi Ling would be so bored.Shen Jiming is also a worthless person, he was eaten to death by Xi Ling, and Xi Ling drank too much wine, and he followed suit like a mourner.

This wine can't be drunk anymore, Yun Xiangrong said: "Come on, let's go, the Lord Ji Ye cares about the world and has no intention of enjoying himself, so why force yourself. I think I don't have such a big face, please move the Lord Ji Ye, the king drunken I don't mean to drink, please go back quickly and settle down, don't come to me again if you are crazy or sick."

Now that he said that, Xi Ling was not polite, and walked away, bringing Shen Jiming with him.

Looking at the backs of the two, Yun Xiangrong suddenly said: "Little Nineteen."

Qi Qi turned around.

Yun Xiangrong smiled lightly: "It's not a big deal, it's just that you and I are friends. If I don't say something, I'll feel uncomfortable." He cleared his throat, "I heard that you won't see the magic bow anymore. Huanli, if you have time, use it to practice."

Shen Jiming turned pale, and was dragged behind by Xi Ling.

Ignoring Xi Ling's warning eyes, Yun Xiangrong said to himself: "I don't see Huanli, I don't see Huanli, this is a good name, you've been blinded by such a good thing if you continue to be so ignorant. Little Nineteen, you think you are kind It may not be true kindness, and for the same reason, what you think of as hatred may not be pure hatred. This is all I've said, and it's up to you whether you understand it or not."

Just as Yun Xiangrong expected, Shen Jiming didn't understand at all.

All the way back, Shen Jiming wondered what Yun Xiangrong meant.Good is not good, evil is not evil?What he said was endless, and it seemed that there were some things that he couldn't say clearly, so he could only tell them in a cryptic way.Could it be that the underworld really wanted to take advantage of Xi Ling's loss of cultivation?However, there is no right or wrong in the power struggle between the heaven and the earth. It is just that the gods cannot help but desire for power. He has never considered the heaven or the underworld to be good. How can he say that kindness is not kind?

What about the hate?Hate, but not pure hate, what is the reason for this.He has only seen the saying of intertwined love and hate in Fengwei's talk book, he has never experienced it himself, and he has never seen anyone around him fall into such a difficult situation, it is really hard to understand.

Xi Ling saw what was going on in his heart, and said bluntly, "You're thinking about what Yun Xiangrong said."

Shen Jiming honestly admitted: "Well, he is very strange, he always says I'm stupid and stupid when he has time, he knows that I'm not smart enough, but he also wants to say such obscure words, I don't think he has any idea. Better than where to go."

Xi Ling said in a deep voice, "Do you find it obscure?"

When he asked back like this, Shen Jiming was stopped by the question: "Shen Jun said that, did he understand what Xiang Rong Jun meant?"

"The tension between you and that mortal named Li Longcheng is not as tense as you think."

Shen Jiming didn't know how to answer this question: "There are too many things between me and him, and it's not easy to generalize."

"Perhaps, but his feelings for you are not so complicated."

"how do I say this."

"Li Longcheng has admiration for you."

"..."

Shen Jiming took two steps forward, stopped again, turned around to look at Xi Ling complicatedly, and finally decided to wipe his body and turn back, reaching out to touch Xi Ling's warm forehead.

"It's not burning."

Xi Ling took off his hand: "I never have a late laugh with others. If you don't believe it——"

"Li Longcheng's mortal body has long been turned into loess and a smear of ashes. Even if I want to ask him, I can't ask him. Shenjun has always been calm, why did he suddenly say such shocking remarks? Maybe in the eyes of Shenjun, mortals are no different from ants... ...Li Longcheng is the lord of a country, the founding emperor of the country, it is impossible for him to have any affection for me...it's outrageous."

"You don't know if it's true or not."

Shen Jiming was anxious when asked, and explained incoherently, "What's the truth? I lived with him for more than ten years, and he followed me when he was less than my waist. I don't know. Besides... besides..." His heart was stuffy: "I...he saw me harming his relatives with his own eyes. Almost all of his family...he hated me too late."

Certain memories that have been avoided will one day have to be faced.Just like the bad debt between him and Li Longcheng, just like what he did, Xiling will know about it one day.Paper can't wrap the fire, so Shen Jiming can't help but be reluctant.

Since this sentence opened the chatter box, Shen Jiming gave up on himself, since he couldn't hide it, he simply told Xi Ling.Xi Ling will definitely dislike his character, and then the two of them will gradually become estranged.You can't reveal your heart, and you have to get along day and night, this kind of torture is similar to Ling Chi.

"People in the world call Shen's family members Shen dogs for no reason. The Shen family is like this. They are cruel, cold-blooded, selfish, and use any means to achieve their goals. Xiangrong was captured when he was three years old. They threatened the lives of Xiangrong's family and forced him to Doing things for the Shen family. Gaozu used the hands of Xiangrong Jun to slaughter an unknown number of civilians. When Xiangrong Jun grew up, he realized that his relatives had been killed by the Shen family long ago. Gaozu said that he and the Shen family have long been in harmony. A grasshopper on a rope, his success will last forever, his failure will leave him with a bad reputation, he has long since had no other way to go."

"Dahao's founding of the country was not glorious. Fortunately, Gao Zu was sinister and vicious on the battlefield, and he was still able to govern the country well. The remaining ones were not as good as the other. It was my father's turn. He had nothing to achieve in his life, but lived on the bed. The former emperor not only I don’t know anything about governing the country and fighting, and I can’t even play the piano, chess, calligraphy and painting. There are nineteen princes and princesses, and I am ranked nineteen. After myself, the first emperor has nothing to do. Maybe this is one of the reasons why he is tired of my mother and concubine.”

"..."

After unloading the burden, Shen Jiming calmed down instead. He spoke in an unhurried manner, from the time when Jiantian Temple secretly appealed to him, until he exhausted his last strength and handed over the crooked imperial edict to Li Longcheng.After finishing speaking, Shen Jiming laughed lightly: "So, Shen Jun still thinks that Li Longcheng will have admiration for me."

His face was a little bleak.

"How could he not hate me?"

Looking back, Xi Ling stopped far behind him at some point, with a gloomy look on his face that he had never seen before.Shen Jiming's heart was empty, and he thought that it really was so, although he didn't report any hope, and a person with such a noble character as Xi Ling would definitely not...

"According to what you said, Li Longcheng's heart is attached to you."

"..."

"?"

"If he really hated you to the bone, why didn't he kill you together."

"After all, I owe him a favor, and he doesn't want to be the one to repay his favor with revenge."

"If he didn't care about you, why would he kiss you?"

"He was stunned by my anger. Maybe he wanted me to suffocate to death."

"Then why did he make you his queen?"

"...Later, I was drugged. I couldn't see, I couldn't speak. I felt like dying. I wanted to bite my tongue. Li Longcheng had a palace slave who served him for many years. He came to see me and combed my hair."

"He said, all the ministers wanted me to die because Li Longcheng insisted on saving my life and had no choice but to do so. He didn't intend to let me know about it. I thought I couldn't see it at all. When he ascended the throne, You just need to put on a wedding dress for me and go through the scene. Who knew that if I heard it, I had to do the fake show instead."

"You believe him."

"Why don't you believe me?"

"Sanctified."

“How come you see?”

"He holds the military power in his hand. This is his biggest bargaining chip. There is no weight in the words of a former court official who has served the two lords. If he wants to keep you alive, why bother?" Xi Ling said coldly: "He I just want to marry you."

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Dragon City Psychology, Lecturer: Xi Ling