Brother, I'm pregnant!

Whenever I think of too many unbearable pasts, I always feel warm instantly because of a light in my mind. The nightmares I once had gradually turned into sweet dreams, and I no longer feel pain. In the dream Nor will there be the man who tightly strangled my neck and yelled at me to die.

I will no longer see the woman yelling at the man: "You killed me!", and I will no longer witness the man bury the silvery sharp blade in his pale arm, and the blood is flowing everywhere. picture.

Maybe when the nightmare is about to invade my mind, the sun will hit my face, pinch my cheek and tell me...

"Get up!"

The sunlight is like an alarm clock, it is always the first to wake me up in the morning, and at first I would pretend to sleep for 5 more minutes like a child, but this time I was picked up from the bed unexpectedly by the other party.

I pouted, with a sleepy look on my face, and tightly wrapped my arms around Tong Zheqing's shoulders. In this lazy morning, even a minute of squint is sweet.

"Tong Zheqing..." I smirked, and buried my face in his arms, like a young kitten who always loves to cling to its owner, and even rub my face against him.

Tong Zheqing smiled slightly, and squeezed my face to the left, "Brother seems to be more honest in the morning?"

And I grabbed his clothes tightly like a fool, and fell asleep again in a blink of an eye, and I was half asleep and half awake, vaguely feeling Tong Zheqing holding my waist, as if He carried me on his shoulders like a child, and put me on the washstand in the toilet after walking for a long time.

Tong Zheqing said lightly: "Close your eyes." And I also habitually closed my eyes tightly. After a while, a ball of warm towels stuck to my cheeks, and the other party was like a gentle mother, slowly He washed my face for me, and when the towel receded, a gentle kiss covered my forehead.

I immediately pursed my lips and looked at Tong Zheqing with wide eyes in embarrassment. After a while, the sleeping bug died, replaced by embarrassment that was more difficult to recede.

"I didn't do anything yesterday, why am I so tired?" Tong Zheqing asked suddenly.

And I turned my head to the other side, bowing my head without saying a word.

After the school celebration ended yesterday, Tong Zheqing and I went home, but as soon as we stepped into the house, Tong Zheqing clung to him again and kissed passionately. There was chaos, so he pushed Tong Zheqing away in a panic.

Tong Zheqing looked at me with some dissatisfaction, it seemed that my actions displeased him, so I was in a hurry, so I thought of an excuse and said, "I...I haven't taken a shower yet!"

He smiled slightly, leaned his forehead against mine, breathed out a little warm breath, and said, "Then you can accept me unconditionally after taking a shower?" This sentence made me a little scared, so I Based on the experience of the Overlord's hard bow last time, it was extremely difficult for him to hug him unconditionally in the narrow corridor.

My complexion was not very good, thinking of the pain like a long spine stuck into my body, I immediately felt my scalp numb, and Tong Zheqing smiled lightly, then flicked my forehead, and said: "Go take a bath first, wait If you don’t want to, I won’t force it.” When the words fell, he got up and left, and I stayed there for a long time before going to the bathroom to take a shower.

When I was taking a shower, my mind was full of kissing pictures with Tong Zheqing, and even the expression he showed in front of my eyes when he bowed hard last time. Thinking of these, I immediately felt like a fire was burning in my body.

I don't know whether the feeling in my heart is fear or anticipation. On the one hand, I greedily expect to be able to lean on his warmth and wrap my arms around his neck. shame.

While my mind was full of strange imaginations, while taking a shower, I suddenly noticed that my lower body was full of energy, and I was immediately ashamed of myself for such a terrible reaction.

And when I took a shower and lay on my bed in my pajamas, I planned to close my eyes for a while because I was tired. I didn't expect that after I woke up, it would be Sunday morning.

But in my sleep, I felt that there was another person lying beside me, that person's body temperature was hot, his hands surrounded me, and he held me in his arms.

After that, when I woke up, I was carried to the toilet by Tong Zheqing, resulting in the delicate situation now.

I stepped down from the sink, and muttered dissatisfiedly: "If you hadn't made me feel so worried these days, I wouldn't be so tired..." After I finished speaking, I covered my mouth and yawned, and then Don't forget to rub your stinging eyes.

He chuckled and said, "It turns out that this time I really made you anxious."

My cheeks were hot, so I picked up the toothbrush on the sink, squeezed toothpaste on the toothbrush, and brushed my teeth, ignoring Tong Zheqing.

He patted me on the shoulder and said, "I've cooked breakfast, let's eat later." After saying that, he turned and left the toilet, leaving me alone in front of the mirror with a bored expression, feeling helpless tooth.

I often think, when I was young, I was the one who took care of Tong Zheqing. Why did he change his position when he grew up?Even just now, I, who was one year older than Tong Zheqing, acted like a child, asking him to wake me up like a mother, and even take care of my private life.

I always feel that I am a useless older brother, and the most useless thing is that I am in love with my younger brother.

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Before the school celebration, I always sat across from Tong Zheqing. We always read our own newspapers or TV when we ate, hardly looked up at each other, and even talked with our heads down. But after the school celebration, I was Sitting next to Tong Zheqing, even during the whole meal time, I stared at his profile.

When I chewed half of the food in my mouth, I suddenly said: "That..."

Tong Zheqing looked at me with gentle eyes, as if asking me "what's the matter?" and I suddenly felt embarrassed, unable to raise my head for a long time, but kept peeking at him, finally couldn't help it, lightly Gently resting her head on his shoulder.

He patted my shoulder lightly and asked, "What's wrong? Are you in a bad mood?"

I closed my eyes and slowly relaxed my body until I no longer felt hesitant in my heart, and even fantasized about how great it would be if I could always lean on this shoulder.

"Do you think...if a brother falls in love with his younger brother, what will their mother think?" I asked, and immediately opened my eyes, looking at the breakfast on the table, if Tong Zheqing and I really There is no way to get mother's understanding, so how many warm mornings like this exist?

Tong Zheqing didn't say a word, just touched my head tenderly, "I must not accept it." Even though the warm touch came from his hand, his words were still cold and realistic. This was indeed the answer I knew in my heart. But I still feel sad when I understand again that there are so many things in the world that don't get approved.

There is no way to cover the fire with paper forever. Many things will be uncovered one day even if they don’t say anything. Only when they are dead and time will not move forward can it be possible to hide the truth forever.

"I have thought about these things carefully when I took this step, and I also thought about what kind of reaction Mom would have if she found out, but I..."

He paused for a while, then leaned his head lightly on my head leaning on his shoulder, and said with a reassured expression: "But my life, I hope I can walk by myself, and I I also hope that whoever I like can be chosen by my own heart.”

I couldn't help tightening my heart, I... never thought about the fact that I have to walk on my own two feet in my life, it's like talking about what happened after I was young, if I really respect my own life, I won't be bad because of other people's attitudes, so what if my mother doesn't care about me?So what if his boyfriend hits me?

This is my life...my life is about walking with my heart, not blaming the people who hurt me and never holding back.

"Sorry for asking such a cowardly question..."

"It's okay, because I was worried about this problem too."

I thought about it... Time will take away the things people hate, and it will also take away the things people love. It will only go forward, and it will never look back at you who fell on the road and lost everything. It just keeps going. Go forward until it reaches the end of a person's life, and after that, it will still go, but it will not take you away.

And along the way time has passed, there is never an answer to what I have gained and what I have lost.

If I can only sit here worrying, and watch time pass by me like a fleeting moment, and when I look back again, there is no one around me, that is what a real fool would do.

So, it's better to let me sit here and worry about others, I'd better hold Tong Zheqing's hand and spend the time we can spend without wasting a second.

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"Hao Ling, can you help me with the plate?" The figure of the woman walked gracefully in the kitchen. Although the cooking movements were a bit complicated, the woman was not in a hurry.

I smiled and said yes, then leaned over to open the cabinet by my feet, took out a small yellow plate, and handed it to the woman, who smiled warmly and said thank you.

The woman stared at me for a while, with a faint smile on the corner of her mouth, and said, "You seem to be in a good mood recently. Could it be... that you are in love!?" The woman's tone had a sense of humor that she had never seen before, and her face had the same humor as before. The rare happy smile.

I suddenly felt like a deer in my heart, and looked down with guilty eyes, "No...it's not the case."

The woman revealed my obvious lies at a glance, gently pinched my cheeks, and said, "Maybe I should call you Tong Ling... It's wrong to keep you tied to Haoling's past, and now you look like I am so happy, I admit that I have thought about asking you to come back and live with us, but I think about it and forget it." The woman closed her eyes as she spoke, and remained silent for a long time as if in thought. When I opened my eyes, I saw a trace of loneliness in those gray pupils.

"Mom..." I frowned worriedly and patted her shoulder lightly.

I saw her smiling at me when she looked back, and the sadness from the previous second immediately disappeared from her face.

"Okay, let's get everyone to eat."

I stood there for a long time, and suddenly there was a trace of despair in my heart. It wasn't because I didn't confess to Tong Zheqing in front of my mother, but because I found that when I returned home, although many things seemed to have changed, why? I always find that expression on my mother's face by accident?

I looked at the back of my mother carrying the dishes.

What else is hidden in her heart, maybe I never have a clue.

The four people at the dining table bowed their heads quietly, and no one dared to make a sound, only the miniature monkey---uh, Tang Haoyi, my half-brother kept kicking the table with his short legs , making a rattling sound, the cold atmosphere coupled with the rattling noise is really unpleasant.

Mother first said gently: "Haoyi, stop kicking, it's very noisy." This was a small warning, but Haoyi only looked at her, and continued to kick the table with both feet.

The uncle sighed, put down the chopsticks with one hand, and said with a very embarrassed expression: "Lingfang, I have something... I want to talk to you alone." This unsmiling attitude added another layer of seriousness to the atmosphere. Feeling tense all over her body, my mother also put down her chopsticks, as if she knew it, she smiled faintly.

"Tong Ling, you guys eat first, my uncle and I will come back later." Yu Luo, the two of them got up at the same time and went to the balcony, while I was sitting at the dining table trying to hear what they were talking about. But because Koichi's restless feet covered up the sound from outside, I was a little unhappy.

I put my hand on Koichi's thigh and said softly, "Hey, stop kicking, okay?"

Tong Zheqing, who was sitting next to me, also looked carefully at the two people on the balcony, and when he turned his head, he gave Tang Hao a look, which was so murderous that Tang Hao, who didn't understand other people's faces, was too scared to make a sound.

"Brother, that person is so annoying!" Tang Haoyi grabbed my sleeve tightly and buried his face in my chest, but I was a little embarrassed, took a look at Tong Zheqing, and gently stroked Tang Haoyi's head.

"That brother is actually a very gentle person, so if you behave obediently, you'll be fine...it should be." After finishing speaking, I also showed an embarrassed smile.

"Brother, don't tell me I'm not gentle enough for you, why add "should" at the end?" Tong Zheqing said dissatisfied.

I have a lot of disagreements with his words. Seeing this little monkey is right next to me, I dare not say anything more, but I feel very unwilling in my heart. I endured it for a long time, and finally couldn't bear it anymore, and jumped out quickly: " Gentle? Do you know how long it hurt my ass when your overlord forced your bow!?"

Tong Zheqing rested his chin with his hands, and suddenly tilted his head to the side, "But didn't you make a very cute cry?"

I took a deep breath, looked down and saw Tang Haoyi sitting on my lap staring at me with a puzzled look, as if he wanted to ask me...

"Why is my brother making such cute noises?"

Sure enough, the younger brother who was so cute that it gave me a headache asked such a question, and I could only stare blankly at the moment. Although he was only five years old, no matter how much he said, he probably couldn't figure it out, but everyone has grown up One day, there is no guarantee that he will forget this matter when he grows up.

I stole a glance at Tong Zheqing, and saw that he was calm and not worried about how to explain this problem, and explaining to that guy is the real scary thing.

I coughed and said, "It's nothing, it's just that my brother played games with that brother Tong and accidentally made cute voices!" Even I couldn't help laughing when I told this lie. People who are very good at making up lies are fine when they meet stupid children, but they always throw a bucket of cold water on me in an instant when they meet smart children.

Haoyi's eyes were wide open, and the curiosity on his face still couldn't be wiped away. He suddenly shouted: "Then, then I want to play games with my brother too!"

Of course I knew it was a child's talk, and I wouldn't mind it, and probably just laughed it off, but Tong Zheqing, who was beside me, suddenly put his arms around my shoulders, lowered his head and said to Tang Haoyi, who was on my lap who didn't know the situation: "No allow."

I gave him a fierce look and scolded: "He's just a child, why are you so fierce?"

Tong Zheqing didn't say much, just rested his chin depressedly and quietly played with the fork in his hand.

And I suddenly thought that I couldn't even hear a word of the conversation between my mother and uncle just now, and a burst of impatience rushed into my heart.

When the two of them came back, their faces were obviously sad. Originally, I wanted to ask my mother what happened, but when I saw the frowning look on my mother's face, I didn't have the courage to ask. recall any bad memories of her.

Sometimes, I still agree with the saying "sinking is golden".

But there are also many things that only feel that way at the moment. Later, when I think of this clip, I regret it.

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There was a man and a woman standing on the balcony. The man showed a panicked look, covered his face with his palms, and said with a headache, "Do you know that the child's father is back?"

The woman leaned gently on the balcony, slowly turned her head back, and looked at the bird's-eye view of the street from the seventh floor. If... jumping down from the seventh floor, what would be the result?Will the head explode?That kind of death is definitely beyond my imagination.

"I don't want to give that child back to him. Now he looks so happy. Although I did something wrong before, I just want to make up for it. I want this child to stay in the current environment." The woman said coldly As he said that, he wanted to get rid of the filthy past that he couldn't bear to look back on. He used his own hands to hurt an innocent child who didn't know what was wrong with him and didn't make any mistakes at all.

The man smiled lightly and said, "I have one more thing to tell you."

The woman looked at the man suspiciously for a while, only to see the man's lips trembling, he spoke slowly, and finally said: "...Let's get a divorce, Ling Fang."

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My mother's appearance has always been wrong. Even though I understand this very well, I feel very guilty for being powerless and even cowardly for not asking.

I lay on Tong Zheqing's bed, listening to the rustling of the wind outside the window, the rustling of the leaves against the wall, and the subtle sound of the small water droplets left on the leaves falling on the floor after it rained not long ago.

Tong Zheqing was sleeping next to me, less than a few centimeters away from me, but my heart was still shrouded in anxiety, and I didn't even have the courage to close my eyes.

I turned over and pressed against Tong Zheqing's back. He seemed to be still asleep, so he turned his head gently and glanced at me.

"Can't sleep?" he asked in a low voice.

I blinked, and said yes.

"Thinking about your mother?"

This time, I grabbed his clothes tightly and closed my eyes tightly. Maybe he could see everything from the very beginning, but he just watched silently——I couldn’t ask more questions, maybe because I was afraid that I would be sad After all, once a person's atrium collapses suddenly, sadness can't help rushing to his heart.

"I'm always thinking stupid questions, but I often hear people say that no matter how much you think about it, it won't help, so why bother? I do agree with such words, but I can't do it. It will make me very hesitant, as if I am not qualified to live like that." Unknowingly, I poured out the words in my heart at once.

He turned around, faced me, put his arms around my body, and held me in his arms, "It's the first time you've told me so many things in your heart, and I often wonder what you put on your mind." How long has it been stuffed in your heart." He sighed, and then continued: "That's right, thinking too much is indeed a burden on yourself, but if you feel depressed about your mother, it means that you really still I care about her very much, it’s not bad to add a little burden to myself for such a thing.”

Yes, I do worry about her.Maybe I, who was selfish and arrogant before, never knew what it meant to treat others with love, but sometimes when I gradually figured it out, I felt that many things in the world were just my own complaints, and everyone changed, so why should I continue Blame your past?

"Brother, I don't know if you believe it or not, but being your younger brother really makes me feel very happy. I'm very glad that you were the one who became my older brother. It's hard for me to imagine that I call someone other than you brother." look."

As I listened, a smile appeared on my face unconsciously, "I thought I was a bad brother."

Since I was a child, I have always made me feel guilty for talking loudly to Tong Zheqing. Even though he often said that he didn't mind, I still never knew what he liked about me.

In an instant, he got up a little bit, propped his body on top of me, and looked at me with mysterious eyes, and in this kind of dead of night, those eyes full of affection would draw people in even more.

"Tong Zheqing..." I whispered his name, closed my eyes, and accepted a tender kiss.

If it was before, I still remember that my name was Tong Ling, and I would definitely feel ashamed of myself for accepting my brother's love on my own initiative, but now I still remember seeing Tong Ling and being ashamed, but because of enthusiasm It's even more turbulent, and everything else is left behind.

That pair of familiar hands climbed onto my back, and that warm mouth was also on my lips. Someone once told me that love is a thing that goes out. At that time, I took it as a joke. Listen, but now I can understand some truths, I also became greedy because of Huo Chuan, forgetting my obligations, and only remembering that I like this person in front of me.

The kiss moved from the lips to the neck, and the body couldn't help but feel hot with the kiss. The kiss left on the neck seemed to make the skin burn, spreading from the top to the outside.

The feeling of melting at any moment made me squint my eyes, and the tears also slid around the eye sockets, and it became hazy unconsciously.

"Tong... ah..."

I looked at Tong Zheqing's focused face, playing with this flat chest wantonly, and couldn't help but let out a cry that even I thought was strange.

I knew what was going to happen next, and while there was still fear in my heart, I didn't want him to stop, to be more greedy -- more and more unsatisfied desires.

Seeing that the pajama pants had been pulled below the ankle ring, I immediately sat up in a panic. The sight of Tong Zheqing staring at me made me feel even more embarrassed. My mind was in a mess, so I grabbed Tong Zheqing and said, "You, you too?!"

He stared at me for a while, then laughed, and without saying a word, he automatically took off his pajamas to reveal his open chest, which was better looking than mine, at least he still had the pectoral muscles that some men should have. , quite masculine, it is fascinating.

I looked at my chest again, it seemed that a woman's breasts were not well developed and flat, and I couldn't help but feel jealous.

Seeing that he had also taken off his clothes, I also shyly lay down on my side quietly.

"I won't be as rude as before." Tong Zheqing whispered while biting my ear, I closed my eyes tightly and hummed lightly.

After that, I felt that he lifted one of my legs and put that leg on his shoulder. I was stunned for a long time before I realized what a shameful posture I was making. I twisted my waist and looked like weeping Looking at Tong Zheqing.

He chuckled and said, "You are so cute in this pose."

This guy is eloquent and ruthless!The action is not what he is doing, of course he can say it without thinking.

But I didn't even give me too much time to be ashamed. The slender fingers penetrated into my vagina and rubbed inside, and my body couldn't exert too much strength. I was exhausted, only the back of my acupoint was still sucking his fingers tightly, and I didn't know what to say about my obscene behavior.

"Ah...hah..."

His throat was so dry that it was about to split open, and he couldn't help but let out a strange moan, but the moan didn't seem uncomfortable, but full of desire.

"Tong... Zheqing." Although there is still pain, it is not as obvious as the first time. To be honest, I still have happy thoughts in my mind.

When I was about to bear it no longer, his fingers suddenly withdrew from the tunnel, and what I got in exchange was a void inside, and at the moment he withdrew, I could still feel my acupoints being tightly clamped. .

Panting heavily, I covered my face with both hands, not wanting Tong Zheqing to see me in such a bad state, but he suddenly grabbed my hands to the sides of my shoulders.

"Don't hide it, I just like your expression."

I blushed, "You...you like it, but I don't!"

Why am I blushing like this, but this guy can still be serious?

The more I watched, the more unhappy I became, and I felt that the person in front of me was disillusioned because he saw that I had no beauty at all?

I sat up slowly, looked at Tong Zheqing with an awkward look, then stretched out my hands, and tightly wrapped my hands around Tong Zheqing's neck with an arrogant and unreasonable attitude.

Tong Zheqing patted my shoulder and asked, "You're not afraid, are you?"

"...less, less wordy, I'm not afraid."

He chuckled, "Really? I'm afraid you'll cry again later, and I'll feel bad for you too."

This guy always speaks so nicely, but his actions are quite different.

I put my face on his shoulder, without saying a word for a long time, and in an instant, I was picked up by him and sat on his lap, just when I was thinking that he was going to numb, suddenly something hard drove straight in, hitting Huanglong directly.

"Ah... wait, it hurts..."

It was too much for me to go deep into it at the beginning, and the waist seemed to be stuck on Tong Zheqing's body, I couldn't pull it out, I could only keep sinking, but when I was so close to Tong Zheqing, I could hear it. A low moan came from Tong Zheqing's throat.

It was not because of the pain that I hugged him, but because what I felt was not only pain, but maybe there was also a hint of warmth lingering somewhere deep in my heart.

"Brother..." Tong Zheqing called me in a low voice, and I slightly opened my eyes and glanced at him.

"like you……"

I always feel so relieved when I see the face of this person in front of me.

It still hurts to do this kind of thing, but I think it's worth it.