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After get off work, Wan Chen bought two steamed buns and a bag of pickles in the side street as usual.

The small shop in front of the third kindergarten was closed for some reason, and Wan Chen leaned against the wall outside the kindergarten, looking at the closed shop door.

The lights are off, Shen Xu is not at home.

The small supermarket next door is also closed, there must be some activity!

Wan Chen remembered that when he came here a few years ago, it seemed that a little girl from a relative of Sibao celebrated her birthday, and they all went there.

The song Waiting gradually sounded in the silent night.

Do you remember me, classmate.

We used to be tablemates, best friends.

I helped you write a diary, and you made notes for me.

I ride a bicycle to take you through the sea of ​​lavender, and the fragrance stays in the memory.

Where are you……

I will wait, ten years later, you come back.

You smooth the fine lines around my eyes, and I take off the hoarfrost in your hair.

I will wait, 20 years, for your return.

You look through old photos and recognize me, I look for moles on my fingers and think of you.

I'll wait, keep, keep waiting, you'll come back.

To this day, I still love you, my love.

The corners of the mouth curved slightly, revealing a sad smile.

Ten years, 20 years, their journey has really taken such a long time.

At the age of seventeen or eighteen, in the best years of youth, the most beautiful but also the most painful memories were left behind.

After so many years, why, he can't forget it.

Because of regret?guilty?

If you can't get it, you can't make up for it.

Or, love?

Who has he been in love with?

17-year-old Shen Xu, the youthful boy in his memory.

Now, 20 years later, it's time to let it all go.

Shen Xu has changed a long time ago, his appearance, personality, and feelings for him.

So, what is he still obsessed with?

Ruining his life to save Shen Xu is the greatest compensation for him.

Next, should it be my turn to let go of everything?

Ke Qiwei said that when a person lives, he must live a decent life and live worthy of his name.

live, live...

After ten o'clock in the evening, the temperature dropped several degrees, and the biting cold wind pierced through the cotton coat, which was not strong enough to keep warm, and stuck on the man's body, causing him to shrink his neck and wrap his clothes tightly.

A small car drove to the other side of the square, and under the dim street lights, several people could be seen getting out of the car. In the quiet night, the voices of their voices reached Wan Chen's ears clearly.

Sibao yelled that he didn't enjoy the game and wanted to continue drinking.

Lorraine took her son to bid farewell to everyone and went upstairs first.

Shen Xu helped He Lei to walk at the end, "Isn't he able to drink normally, what's wrong today, he gets drunk so easily, even the car has to be driven back by Lorraine."

He Lei: "I'm not drunk, look, I know, you are Shen Xu, my lover, you are not drunk!"

Shen Xu: "Okay, not drunk, not drunk. Hey, go back and wash your feet before going to bed."

He Lei: "Can't I wash it?"

Shen Xu: "Master, can I wash it for you? Be good, I'll be home soon."

The sound got farther and farther away, and then it was completely inaudible.

The shop in the hut is lit up, which is extra warm in the deep night.

Wan Chen's legs were numb, and he sat by the wall rubbing for a long time before he could get up.

The way home is very long, so long that he feels like he can't walk no matter how he walks.

Shen Xu's voice sounds very gentle, because the person who is by his side is his lover.

Lover, a most beautiful word.

Love with heart and never regret.

Wan Chen, I will always love you... Wan Chen, I can do whatever you say.Please also fulfill your promise, the future, the future you said, belongs to the two of us.I remember those words clearly...that's up to you.I will be around you for the rest of my life, university, graduate school, work, until old age, until death.Don't say that I will depend on you in this life, the next life, and the next life... Wan Chen, don't you know how much I like you?I know that if I keep walking with you, my parents will be very angry when they find out, but I still want to be with you.Wanchen, I want to work hard to earn money and give you every cent. I like you who have dreams, and you who bravely pursue that dream.I want to stay by your side forever, forever, I love you, Wanchen.For you, for you let me make as many sacrifices as possible.Wanchen, do you understand...

Those words rang without warning in the quiet night.

Every word is deeply rooted in his heart, and every breath is painful.

Ke Qiwei said the most correct sentence, Shen Xu is a fool, he will not change if he believes in a person.

To him, the self back then was the whole world!

That's why love is so crazy, without reservation.

It was him who pushed that person away with his own hands, and could never get him back.

In a cold and lonely home, with a lamp, a bed, and dinner put aside, a life with no hope in sight of memories.

Will we live like this for the next 40 years?

Shen Xu... Shen Xu... Shen Xu...

He silently said that person's name over and over again, and slowly closed his eyes.

Maybe so, he really, came back.

In the next few days, Ke Qiwei called one day at a time, asking him how he was thinking.

If he is worried about his uncle and aunt, he is fully capable of getting the two elders to go abroad.

After coming down several times, Wan Chen was also shaken.

Maybe changing the sky, changing the way of life is the best choice for him and Shen Xu.

Maybe, another ten years, twenty years later, he will completely forget about that past event, forget about that person.

A week later, just the day before he was about to submit his resignation, something happened to Shen Xu.

That day, he got off work and came to the small shop as a routine. The lights in the small shop and the supermarket were all off. He thought it was the same as before, another party.

At around eight o'clock in the evening, the walkers went home one after another. When two women passed by him, they chatted about an incident that happened today.

"That's it, that's the small shop. The man's surname is Shen. He has been running the shop here for many years. Later, I heard that he was sentenced to a few years for killing someone. An accident happened not long after he came out. My brother-in-law worked in that area. The traffic policeman, I met him because I had a few drinks with him before. You don’t know what happened to the car. I heard that the driver died on the spot, and the man surnamed Shen was also taken to the hospital. It’s probably useless..."

Wan Chen's heart skipped a beat, he straightened up abruptly, and rushed forward to stop the woman.

After inquiring about the approximate location of the hospital, he rushed onto the road and stopped a taxi regardless of the danger.

Along the way, he kept his eyes fixed on the road ahead.

Shen Xu, something happened.

The person surnamed Shen was also taken to the hospital, so it probably won't work...

The woman's words resounded in his mind over and over again, his eyes widened and his teeth were clenched. He was afraid that if he let go, his pretended strength would completely collapse.

Shen Xu will be fine, no, absolutely not.

He waited for 20 years, he abandoned his own life, can he only get this kind of ending?

He didn't pray that Shen Xu would come back to him, he just begged--

As long as she lived, as long as she could see her again, that was enough.

Shen Xu's words sounded like an alarm bell in Wan Chen's heart. At this moment, he fully understood his feelings at that time.

As long as you are alive, it is more important than anything else.

He rushed to the hospital, and after getting off the car, he ran all the way to the emergency room.

With a tense heart hanging in the air, he looked for that familiar figure everywhere.

The emergency room was full of wounded people. An explosion occurred in a nearby restaurant, causing damage to the surrounding area. A large number of wounded people were sent in. The doctors and nurses were busy all the time, and no one paid any attention to him.

He rushed to each bed and opened each curtain.

No!No!No! ! !

Shen Xu!

He was going crazy.

Shen Xu, as long as you live, I am willing to quit forever.

Shen Xu, please stay alive.

To live, even if it costs me my life, please, live, live.

He fell to his knees in despair, and the heart-piercing pain crushed his last vestiges of pretense.

Already, is it too late?

Shen Xu... Shen Xu...

He didn't understand, why, God seemed to be playing tricks on him deliberately, looking at the dilapidated life played by it, in the end, it ended in this way.

He has no more extravagant wishes, as long as he can watch him live his life happily, that's enough.

Really enough, enough.

Tears of grief dripped to the ground. He leaned on the wall and walked out of the emergency room with difficulty.

There were two men sitting in the corridor outside the emergency room, one was leaning on the other with blood all over his body, his expression was a bit painful, and he kept humming.

The other man stroked his hair with a smile, and said softly, "Does it hurt that much? Hold on, you told me to pick you up, you must let me go, something has happened now! If this happens again, don't say you What about people, my life was scared away by you first."

The man with a painful expression bared his teeth and grinned, and said bitterly: "Stop cursing me, I almost died this time, come back again! When I finish the filming later, if I put a plaster cast on, what will I do in the next three months?" The adults are waiting for you."

The gentle man smiled and said, "Okay, it's fine to serve you for a lifetime."

"Bah, you curse me that I won't be able to stand up for the rest of my life!"

The gentle man looked around, then suddenly lowered his head, and blocked his companion's mouth with his lips.

Wan Chen retreated into the emergency room, leaned against the wall, and slowly slid to the ground.

For the first time, for the first time in my life, I am grateful to have He Lei.

To be by Shen Xu's side when he needs it the most.

Give him comfort, give him motivation, give him a living miracle.

They are in love, and the most ordinary happiness is Shen Xu's life longing.

A smile slowly opened at the corner of his mouth, and tears of excitement slid to his lips.

Passing patients were all surprised when they saw his expression.

He was laughing, he was crying, he understood who he really cared about at this moment, understood the meaning of living, and understood how to live.

The 37-year-old Shen Xu, who lives in the present, is the lover he has to protect even if he gives up his life.

Nothing to regret, nothing to make up, the heart is beating, just for one person.

Shen Xu is alive, living in this world, even if they are separated, they still breathe the same air.

That way, it's fine.

He couldn't ask for more.

When I walked out of the hospital, the cold wind blew, and I realized that I was already sweating.

He can't bear just an inaccurate news. Can he leave like this?

In a distant place, you can't see, you can't hear.

Isolated from everything from Shen Xu, is that kind of life what he wants?

If one day, one day, something happens to Shen Xu, but he doesn't know anything...

He couldn't think any more.

Outside the third kindergarten, the weak street lights could not illuminate a large area, and the surroundings of the small shop were pitch black.

His weak sigh echoed in the silent night.

This kind of life may be boring, maybe boring, maybe lonely, maybe----

I can only, let's go and see!

Perhaps, under the same sky, there will be another wonderful life.

The next day, Ke Qiwei flew to T City, and Wan Chen asked him to meet him at a teahouse.

Ke Qiwei eagerly asked him about the result of his consideration, and Wan Chen shook his head.

"Don't go?"

"Yes, I'm not leaving."

Seeing that Ke Qiwei was about to get angry again, Wan Chen raised the corner of his mouth and showed a relieved smile.

"Old Ke, it's not that I don't want to leave, I can't."

"What do you mean?"

There is a light in Wanchen's eyes, which Ke Qiwei only saw 20 years ago.Now, it reappeared, but Ke Qiwei no longer understood what it meant.

"I can't leave because Shen Xu is here. I have only liked one person in my life. It's been so long that I even forgot when it started. I have been tied to him since I was born, my In my eyes, it has always been only him."

Ke Qiwei clenched his hands under the table tightly, and the anger in his eyes burned more and more with Wan Chen's words.

"I think, I can't start again without Shen Xu. I don't know how tiring I am because I have lived through that kind of life."

Ke Qiwei sneered, "It's ridiculous, when has Shen Xu been by your side in the past 20 years, what can I say now?"

Wan Chen: "Twenty years ago, I had no choice but to go forward and try my best, because in my heart, I thought, maybe, maybe there was such a one in ten thousand, one in ten million chance, and I still had a chance. I can see him again and find him. Maybe it’s because of this thought that I kept walking down. But today, in the future—Old Ke, I don’t want to leave this city. With Shen Xu here, I can spend one more day with him. all good."

Every morning, Shen Xu in pajamas walked out of the small shop and took out the ordered milk from the small cabinet on the wall.

Around eight o'clock, Shen Xu would rush out of the house, get in the car parked at the door, chat and laugh with the people in the car and leave.

When he came back at night, Shen Xu would buy some cooked food for dinner from time to time.

On weekends, Shen Xu would go to the vegetable market early to buy some good meat to satisfy his cravings.

Occasionally, Shen Xu would accompany his lover to the supermarket near the third primary school, and Wan Chen would lower the brim of his hat and look at them from afar.

If I can spend one more day with him and see him one more time, that's fine.

Ke Qiwei worked hard to restrain himself so that he didn't let himself grab the teacup on the table and smash it against the window, "Are you still Wanchen? What about your ambitions and bold words? Are you fucking farting?! You're just a coward, because of your cowardice and incompetence What excuses are you looking for! Why, when I get older, I don’t dare to fight anymore, I’m afraid of being ridiculed as a worthless old man, and I’m afraid of being stepped on by young people, Wan Chen, I really misjudged you.”

Wan Chen smiled instead of anger, "Well, there must be these reasons too! Now let me go out every day to solicit customers, drink with them, or make coffee for people, and print documents, haha... It's really ┳Haze Huanchu Hsu Paochun Xing┦LongmeijiaoostiaoyakeN is also in the face of the husk shell toad D eggplant curtain said to stop childish suspected value mystery cooking 嗌傺O captive radon Cang cherry so look at the arrogant rebuttal tomb chlorine グ sang

Ke Qiwei stood up from the chair with a "chuckle", with a fierce look in his eyes, "Just one Shen Xu, one Shen Xu?! Hmph, to me, killing Shen Xu is as easy as trampling an ant to death. Wanchen, what ability do you have to protect him now?!"

Wan Chen raised his eyes and looked at him helplessly, "You are almost forty, so don't play childish temper. Anyway, I still have to thank you. You tell me, to live, to live A decent life, worthy of my name." He stood up, smiled, and stretched out his hand, "In the future, I will do what you said, live a decent life, live a good life with the name Wan Chen, and live a more wonderful life than anyone else. "

Ke Qiwei's anger could not be dispelled, and he stared at Wan Chen's outstretched hand angrily.

The tea on the table was completely cold, and the waiter stepped forward to ask if he wanted a refill, but Ke Qiwei stared at the stubborn figure outside the window as if he didn't hear it.

Wan Chen left without looking back.

This time, he took the initiative to embark on an ordinary life with the determination not to regret it.

Thoroughly, out of his life.

It wasn't until the figure disappeared that he slowly closed his eyes.

In the current situation, Wan Chen should be the most pitiful person, but he can still straighten his back and get out of the predicament firmly.

He said to live a more wonderful life than anyone else.

Ke Qiwei cursed severely in English.

If you want to be crazy, let him go crazy!There is no room for meddling myself.

I really want to see, ten years later, after ten years of misery alone, Wan Chen will still proudly say the word "wonderful" to him.

Damn Wanchen!

damn it----

If there is a God, let him be happy even if he looks pitiful!

Paid so many fools, worth it.

The author has something to say: In fact, I know that everyone’s so-called exchange of offense and acceptance is just a joke with me. Those who can stick to this place want to see them who have gone through hardships and finally come together. This is also the second part. It makes sense.